"Cause I'm not here to fight

About who's wrong or right

I just want your kiss

I wanna feel just like this

One last time, one last time" …. ( Kellie Pickler - One Last time )

Everyone has that one person that comes into their life and turns it upside down… sometimes for the better… sometimes for the worse. Every little girl grows up looking for that man who's going to be her prince charming, who will slay the dragons and save her from the evil monsters only to realize this is the real world. Our dragons and monsters are left up to us to slay while the so called 'prince' turns out to be just another toad. Well I'm tired of letting this one man control my life… I'm tired of always sitting around waiting on him, he clearly has no feelings for me so why do I stay in this little one horse town and let him do the things he does to me?…. I love him. Simple as that.

Looking up from my journal I smile at Emily who has that look on her face, the look I hate to see like she feels sorry for me or something. I just ignore her as I get up off the couch careful not to wake a sleeping Quil and Embry as I make my way out of the room. This house is not much for privacy but over the years I had gotten use to it… I welcomed it, well that is until he started showing up with her but that's alright, he can have her I don't care anymore. Walking into the kitchen I looked at Emily who was busy making muffins, bacon, eggs, pancakes man she makes enough food to feed the marines. I smiled leaning against the counter holding my journal in front of me as I looked at her.

"Need any help?" I asked watching as she flipped a pancake, Ems looked up at me shaking her head no.

"No sweetie, I'm fine. Why don't you go out to Port Angeles today get out of the house or something?" I shrugged looking off to the side picking up an apple as I took a bite.

"I don't know… I'm still learning my way around this place I don't want to get lost." I said making us both laugh, pushing myself off the counter I gave my sister a kiss on the cheek before heading upstairs. I love my sister, but I hated how she got treated at times. Ems is a strong woman the last thing she needed was some pack of over grown teens bossing her around… and don't even get me started on Leah! Once in my room I started looking through my clothes figuring I'd take Ems advice and do some shopping. I had just got my first pay check from the hospital, I work as a full time nurses assistant its not the most glamorous job but it pays alright. Slipping into some dark washed skinny jeans and a light pink thin sweater I smiled running my hands over the fabric, I loved this shirt. After applying my make up and fixing my hair I headed back down stairs picking up my purse and phone on the way.

"Hey Ems, Sam I'm going…" I said walking into the kitchen only to stop when I saw him standing there with her… little Miss I-can't-do-anything-by-myself. I smirked looking at the couple. Bella made me sick, always hanging onto Jacob like that, like she was a scared little girl or something. I never understood how a man as strong as Jacob would want a frail little thing like her. Turning toward Sam and Emily I picked up a muffin regaining my composure. I hated seeing them together I felt an unfamiliar mix of pain, jealousy and anger almost like it consumes me.

"I'm heading up to Port Angeles, I'm gonna do some shopping. Not sure when I'll be back." Emily nodded as Sam looked at me, I was still getting use to him. He was kind and loving to Emily I still didn't know how to take him at times. As I turned to leave Leah came into the room glaring daggers at Emily I watched her for a minute as Emily moved closer to Sam, Leah could defiantly be intimidating but I hated seeing Ems acting like another Bella. I shook my head as I started for the door, outside I took in a deep breath somehow the air always seemed different in La Push cool and refreshing. I walked down the steps toward my black jetta opening the door only to have it pushed shut from behind me. Turning around I arched a brow up at Jacob, trying to act like I didn't care that he was so close to me when in reality I felt my whole world stop. He had an effect on my like no man before him has… and no man after him will. I looked up at him tilting my head to the side. "Something I can help you with Jacob?" I asked moving back against my car when he took a step closer to me, man I hated him being this close to me my body ached for his touch.

"Why are you going to Port Angeles?" He asked looking down at me, his eyes seemed to stare down into my soul and I hated it. His eyes were hard and cold every time he looked at me, I guess all his soft gentle looks were on reserve for his little Bella.

"Because I want too and I can. Now if you don't mind I have things to do, I'm sure Bella is missing you." I said looking back to the house where Bella stood just outside the door. I waved before opening the door and getting in, Jacob grabbed the door as I went to shut to it, holding it open he leaned down looking in at me man my car just shrunk.

"I don't want you to go." I looked at Jacob a little shocked before I smirked snapping my seat belt and starting my car.

"I don't give a damn what you want. You make it clear as crystal that what I do or don't do is non of your concern remember?" I asked grabbing the door slamming it closed. I put the car in reverse before pulling away. I sat there remembering that fight we got in… it was horrible. I had told Jacob I liked him, he had laughed in my face. He was all about his Bella. I don't know why he put himself though so much pain for her when all she was doing is using him… I sighed heading down the road out of La Push, sometimes I just wished I could keep driving on this road and never look back but I can't something just won't let me. I looked in my rearview and sighed I wasn't sure what I expected to see but my heart dropped a little when I noticed Jacob hadn't tried to stop me but then again why would he? He has Bella back.

Once in Port Angeles I started shopping like a mad woman, I went to some of the second-hand shops first. Anita always had some of the prettiest clothes, she would even put some she thought I would like in the back for me… it pays to have connections. Walking into Anita's her eyes instantly light up as she came out from behind the counter.

"Girl do I have some clothes for you!" She said grabbing my hand leading me into the back I smiled at the pile of clothes. There was a little bit of everything, shorts, pants, tshirts, sweaters and some tank tops. As I looked at the clothes I couldn't help but wonder what Jacob would or wouldn't like. After I decided on what I wanted we went up front so I could pay. I stayed and talked with her a little before deciding it was time to move on.

"I'll see you next with Nita." I said giving the older woman a hug before walking out of the shop my bags in hand I looked around debating on if I wanted to go to the other stores, wasting money seemed like a good idea earlier but now not so much. Instead I put my clothes back in my car before walking down to the florist, Ems had a bad week last week and I wanted to get her a little something. She was such a good sister it only seemed right. I ordered an arrangement of gerber daises, our favorite flower, sitting in the corner I decided to wait. Looking down at my phone I saw where I had two missed called from Jacob, which was odd he never called me anymore. I sat there fighting with myself on calling him back or not. He could be such an ass at times… but before Bella came back he had been so kind and caring to me, he made me fall in love with him only to throw me to the curb when Bella wanted him back. I sighed turning it off as his number appeared on my phone again. I was only so strong, it was all I could do not to fall in his arms at times. I always pride myself on being a strong, independent woman but at the same time, sometimes I need someone to lean on too. The florist came back the flowers in tow I smiled standing up taking the vase thanking the older woman.

Putting the flowers carefully in my car before pulling out of the parking spot I debated on if I wanted to eat here or wait and make something at the house… home cooked meal won out. When I entered La Push I couldn't help but smile, I felt so at home here like nothing could hurt me. As I came to my street I sighed seeing Jacob's Rabbit still sitting there… its going to be a long night. Grabbing my bags and the flowers I carefully balanced everything as I walked into the house. I could hear everyone in the living room talking and watching tv. I sat my bags by the stairs before sitting the flowers on the table. Walking over to the fridge I started getting stuff out to make one of my killer sandwiches, feeling someone was watching me I turned to see Jacob standing there. I turned around going back to the stove ignoring him, I had nothing to say to him… well nothing except I love you and I hate you. I felt him move farther into the room but I just ignored him I didnt want to speak to him.

"Amelia... you cant ignore me forever." Jacob said grabbing my arm turning me to face him.

"You just watch me Black." I said staring up into my imprint's eyes... my 'soul mate' the love of my life...ha yea right what a load of shit that is!

Hi, my name is Amelia Young the younger sister of Emily and Bryan young and Jacob Black's imprint.