I wanted to write something with Luka after I found chapter 39 online (38 has a nice view Xwx) so I am o.o I might change the rating later for lemony purposes but we'll see? X_x

Never before had that pain in Luka's chest been as great as it was now. For now, while everyone was gathered around Yuki''s door, he did what he could to hide the hurt in his eyes, fighting the urge to grip his torso in hopes of dulling that unbearable ache. He never expected any more than to be beside Yuki, and now he didn't even have that. Yuki had locked them all, no, locked him out, refusing to give way even for the meals Katsumi would bring him.

For weeks Yuki had been begining to slowly remember bits and pieces from his past life. For a while everyone believed he would be fine since he never seemed too phased by any small details, though clearly this reaction memory was a different case and a surprise. Of course the memories he had gained the day prior was completely different as well so it only made sense. Luka knew that from the moment he found out.

"Yuki?" lightly Luka knocked on the door once again. Yuki hadn't shown up for breakfast which was a rarity. Worried he had rushed up to Yuki's room, wondering if he was just being too protective as he often did. Though when he had to continue knocking repeatedly he was begining to doubt his worry wasn't justified.

"Yuki? Are you alright?" he called a bit louder, letting his voice slip with concern. He grabbed the doorknob and as he began to turn it he heard a thud against the other side of the door.

"Yuki...?"

"I'm fine! Don't come in!"

Luka jumped back slightly as Yuki shouted as loud as he could.

"Yuki..." he said softly, clearly wanting some explaination.

"Really its nothing...just a weird mem-...a strange dream is all"

Luka froze on the spot. Yuki had begun to say memory and there were only a few that would have him so shaken up. And even more there was only one that would make Yuki hide away from even him.

"So please. Just go..." Yuki sounded desperate though it was clear he was trying to hide it and pass it off as nothing as always.

Usually Luka would deny Yuki that one request, but this time, as the world crashed down on him, all he could do was back up from the door, head hung low and his mind blank.

Luka grit his teeth, silver eyes focused on the door before him. He ignored Tooko's sorrowful looks, or the pity that would briefly show on even that hothead Hotsuma's face. It was hard enough for him to focus as it was and he knew seeing such faces wouldn't help nor change anything.

"Master..." the duras felt a tug on the hem of his shirt, not having to glance down to know who was speaking to him, distrupting the silence that had loomed for an eternity. "Master...?" Sodom repeated, tugging a bit harder but to no avail. With his ear pinned back against his head, he let go, tretreating a few small steps back into the comforting hand of Tooko who stroked his black hair, telling him it was all alright.

He couldn't be there anymore. Even a duras said to be as cold and merciless as himself had his limits. As casually as he could manage, Luka pushed from the wall he had spent a good ten hours leaning up against, turning on his heels. With hands shoved down into his pockets long strides took him down the hall that all of a sudden became too loud for him.

"Luka...?" he heard a saddened Tooko call as he left. He picked up on Hotsuma muttering a few words under his breath about how he always did things alone. Sodom was whimpering quietly only to again have to be comforted by Tooko. And as he figured at least one person had decided to follow him though he didn't look back to see who it was, likely Ria by the sound of heels that echoed above all the noise.

Sunlight and fresh air were welcomed on his skin as he stepped outside, eyes fixed on the running water of the fountain in the courtyard. He knew if he looked up he would see the balcony of Yuki's room where they spent many night simply talking and he wondered if once again he'd only be left with memories. How he wished to just let his legs give way as they yearned to, losing their strength. This was the exact reason he never wanted Yuki to know anything, sure from the start that it would only hurt the both of them more and now Yuki wanted nothing to do with him which was crueler than an eternity of simply being forgotten.

"Luka"

He wasn't surprised to hear the sweet voice of Ria, knowing fsome one had been only paces behind him the entire time. It was the only reason he hadn't let himself collapse.

"Luka...you're being to cruel to yourself" She said a bit louder and Luka heard her walk closer. He could feel an ache growing in his temples. Really how long would they all keep this up, without learning there were walls he just wouldn't take down?

"Its not your problem.." he plainly stated, though he was sure it would do about as much good as it had ever done before with the zweilt.

"It may not directly be my problem but...!"

Dead on.

"...But..." Ria's voice had become quieter, a hint of sadness in that single word. "I know you couldn't have been happy before...and now Yuki is..." She didn't dare say it, unable to imagine what Luka must have felt when her own chest was throbbing.

Ria remained silent and Luka wondered if she had given up. Less than a second later he was proven wrong. The bruneete marched forward, using every ounce of courage she had to grip Luka's shoulder and somewhat turn him to look straight at her. Her face looked almost angry but her amber eyes were brimming with tears.

"I may sound like a broken reconrd but I won't stop saying it. You don't have to make yourself unhappy. You can give up and nobody would blame you for it. You can give your heart to somebody else...love somebody else. You could..."

"Ria"

Her name on the duras's lips stopped the idol instantly and she knew the answer she was going to get. Already she hung her head, a blush of embarassment staining her cheeks red.

"When I fall in love it's only one time"

Luka had told her the same thing before. He'd say it again the next time she brought up her 'solution' as well. He loved Yuki and even if Yuki hated him now he wouldn't have the thought of trying to love another. It would never compare.

"If that's all..." Luka turned his back to her once again, hoping that as he walked away he could finally be alone.

Out of the corner of his eyes, he glanced toward Yuki's bedroom. In the window he spotted his reason for living looking straight back at him. They held gazes for just a second, but for Luka it felt like days. When Yuki backed away out of his view it was the same all over again. It seemed like a rain cloud formed over his head, pouring down rain on him in a shower of his sorrows. Biting the inside of his cheek he kept walking, hands clenched together in fists within the confines of his pockets.

'Yuki...'

First chapter done O_o Its...alright? Like I said chapter 39 so i figured I'd be lazy and just write with Ria and use her same idea/points or whatever o.O

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