Claim: Anti-ship table Envy/Winry Prompt: 13, Communication Characters: Winry/Envy Word Count: 672 Rating: PG Summary/Warning: FMA is not mine. Envy and Winry have a conversation.
A/N: I case anyone hasn't noticed, I have gone through many changes. I currently don't have Microsoft Word, (for a shitload of reasons, please don't ask, I'll cry as I think about it) so my formatting is crap, and I apologize. I also proabaly have more errors in my work. Sorry. No spell check sucks. I have also recently taken a liking to the show "Once Upon a Time", particularly to the pairing Rumpelstiltskin/Belle. So I'll be writing a lot for that series. As well as for Percy Jackson. I plan to write more for that too. So I'm growing as an fanfic writer, so after I finish my two Envy/Winry series I probably will only write for them every once and a while. But if it's of any consolance to those who really like it and this is basically the only crumb of the pairing they get, I still have 18 themes left to go with EnvyxWinry 30 Kisses and The Beginning of the End put together.
Well, this isn't my best but I promised myself I'd write something this weekend. And I wanted to try something new.
"What's the matter?"
"Do you think of him?"
"Him? Whose him?"
"The pipsqueak. What is he to you?"
"Ed? I don't really know. Lately it's just been odd. We grew up together but lately it's like that doesn't matter to him?"
"Are you asking me why?"
"No, I'm just... I'm confused as to what I am to him. I don't want to just be his mechanic."
"You're not."
"Why do you say it that way? What do you know?"
"What do you think of him?"
"You're being weird. Why are you asking me this?"
"Just answer my question."
"Uhh. Well. I guess he's like a brother to me. He's always been there, I've been with him all my life, before I can even remember, you know. I remember when Alphonse was born, but there was no meeting Edward, he's just always been there. There was no 'before he was in my life' with him."
"So, then what do you feel for him?"
"I just told you."
"No you didn't. How do you feel about him?"
"Does strongly float your boat?"
"Do you love him?"
"Duh. It's hard not to love someone who you've had to go through everything with."
"What kind of love?"
"What do you mean what kind?"
"Do you love him romantically?"
"You've been pestering me because you're jealous?"
"Don't laugh! I'm not jealous. It's just... I think he might think of you romantically."
"Envy, if there's one thing I'm sure of, it's that he only thinks of me as an automail junkie. He's told me plenty of times."
"Are sure about that?"
"I'm pretty sure. He addressed me as so on my birthday card one year."
"Is this your pillow talk? Trying to figure out after a three month relationship if I love another person, as I have poured my heart out to you multiple times. Thanks for doubting me."
"No, don't leave. I-"
"I'm not leaving. I'm just too tired for this. I'm going to sleep."
"I justloveyou."
"What?"
"And I don't know how... Do you love me? Because I j-"
"Envy. I..."
"I think I love you too. But you can't be jealous. I can have relationships with other people. It's not like I don't already stop my entire world every time you come to visit."
"Are you sure about it?"
"Do you want to see the list of people's automail I've put on hold to spend time with you right now?"
"No, I meant are you sure you love me? You said 'think'."
"I... Love and hate are strong words. I almost feels forbidden to use them. I just... I do love you."
"...You don't trust me."
"You're not doing any better."
"I love you. I know I must. There's no other emotion I've ever felt like that's been like this."
"I'm sorry."
"Mhm hmm."
"I don't want to though."
"You don't want to love me?"
"It'll only lead to horrible things."
"Stop being ridiculous."
"That's why we've had to keep our relationship a secret from everyone."
"Envy-"
"I'm just doing to break your heart. I wasn't made to love. I'm not a human."
"Yet you are, you can."
"You're not a monster."
"Ha!"
"I don't think you are."
"You don't know me. Really know me."
"I know what counts."
"Please don't leave."
"I'm too stupid to do that. I want to be with you."
"You are being 're talking circles around yourself. Go to sleep."
"Okay."
"Envy?"
"Winry."
"I love you too. I want you to know that."
"I-"
"Shh. I know. There's a lot you don't tell me anyways. Just go to sleep."
-X-
When Winry woke up that morning, Envy wasn't there. He had left, and wouldn't return until his resolve broke and he couldn't be away from her. He had planned on telling her he loved her and leaving forever. That didn't work out. Being with her made him feel weak and vulnerable. Human. And as fucking terrifying as it was, his being gravitated towards hers without restraint.