Starfire, what are you . . . ?

I groaned as I lifted my ten pound eye lids open. I immediately furrowed my eye violet eyebrows, the dream still lingering on the edges of my mind. I was laying in a grassy field, the sky was blue and the sun was warm but not harsh. I was laying down and the red head was stroking my now long violet hair, my head being cradled by her lap. She would whisper,"I'm sorry" with every few passes of her hand. Why would Starfire be sorry? What could the girl ever have to be sorry about?

I decided to ignore it for now. My body felt incredibly heavy and everything hurt but there was also a lightness in my heart. They do say keeping secrets can make one's heart heavy and the mind clouded. Soon. My team will have to learn the full truth soon. Removing the purple sheets from my body a blush made it's way to my cheeks. Being clad in only my bra and panties says that someone removes my clothes. I can only hope it was Star, for the boys' sake it better have been. Well, really for Beast Boy's. Robin is to "honorable" to make it a big deal and Cyborg is able to be serious when it's needed. The thought of Starfire seeing my almost naked body made a guilty smile cross my lips.

I redressed myself in my usual attire and began the tedious task of cutting my hair back to normal length. Before I could start however, a soft knock on my door reached my ear. I quietly walked over and cracked open the door. The sight of Starfire floating greeted my eyes and her countenance expressed worry. I silently stepped aside and fully opened the door to allow her in. She was the only one ever allowed in my room. She glided in just as quietly.

I returned to my vanity and took up the scissors, intent on commencing my task of righting my hair. Starfire spoke up at this but softly, "I do not wish for you to do that." I turned and cocked a questioning brow at her. She smiled shyly, "I believe you look better with long hair." The alien broke eye contact, casting he head to the ground and I almost didn't hear the last part, "More beautiful." I fought off the blush and simply nodded, laying the scissors back down.

I frowned for a split second at my reflection. The reason I kept my hair short was because it might get in the way of battle. But Starfire also had back length hair and she fights fine, I suppose it doesn't make much difference either way. Also I wasn't going to pass up or change anything Starfire says about me is beautiful. I made my way to my bed and righted the sheets and sat with my back against the headboard. I motioned for the redhead to join me and was taken by surprise when she crawled onto the mattress and settled her head in my lap. I blushes again at the slightly intimate position. I do that more than I would like to admit when around the other girl.

The red haired alien sighed and wrapped her arms around my midsection, burying her face into my stomach as she did so. I frowned and began stroking her hair, speaking quietly still. "What's wrong Star?"

"Why did you not tell us, about any of this?" She turned her head and looked me directly in the eyes, her face scrunched as if in pain. "Why did you not tell me about any of this?"

I furrowed my brows again, stopping my stroking and my frown deepening. "Like I was supposed to just some by to your room one day, 'Oh by the way I'm supposed to end the world.'" I deadpanned.

The one reaction I did not expect was for her expression to crumple and tears to come to her emerald eyes. She hid her face again, "I thought you trusted me Friend Raven. I do not expect you to tell me everything but surely this has been on your mind. I hope you at least trust me enough to tell me how you feel."

She emphasized her words by hugging me tighter. Her words both shocked and hurt me. When a sob escaped her lips I resumed my stroking with one hand and turned her head to face me with the other. My violet locked onto her emerald and I began to understand that this ran deeper than just not telling her. She took it as me not trusting her. I resisted the urge to bring my lips to hers in an attempt to comfort her. I knew that sort of thing would only comfort lovers and would probably make things worse.

I tried to inconspicuously swallow before speaking, "I just didn't want you to worry Star, I thought I could handle this on my own. I do trust you, more than anyone else. I promise." I smiled a small and rare smile to emphasize that I meant what I said. She smile at me and my heart sped up, god I hope she doesn't hear it.

"Okay, Friend Raven. I understand." She resumed her previous position and buried her face back into my stomach, still clutching at me around my waist.

A thought occurred to me, "Hey Star?"

"Hm?"

"Who was the one to remove my clothes after you brought me back?"

She giggled and I felt a slight heat through the fabric where her face was. "I did Friend Raven, do not worry."

I blushed and continued to running my hands through her silky hair. I had that same guilty smile the rest of the night.