A/N :( PEEKS THROUGH FINGERS)….PLEASE DON'T HATE ME! IM SOOO SORRY! THERE IS ABSOLUTELY NO EXCUSE FOR THIS, NONE AT ALL! BUT IM HERE TODAY TO TELL YOU I NOW HAVE MY SHIT TOGETHER AND CHAPTERS WILL BE COMING ON SUNDAYS. )))) BUT TODAY, SINCE IVE BEEN SUCH A BAD AUTHOR, YOU GET TWO CHAPTERS THIS WEEKEND! OK OK I WON'T KEEP YOU ANY LONGER, ENJOY PLEASE.
KPOV:
Thankfully the realtor had a very important issue to discuss with his broker, I think that's what he said, leaving Jake and I alone on the couch in the apartment. As I looked down at my hands fiddling in my lap and started up that old habit of biting my lip, I found myself unsure if I was happy I had alone time with him or wishing the realtor came back so I wouldn't have to tell him.
All of a sudden I felt myself being pulled in to his lap so I was straddling him. I must have been shaking or something cause his big strong arms wrapped around me and started rubbing up and down my back in a soothing manner. 'This is exactly what I needed' I thought because in his arms is where I felt the most safe, like nothing could ever harm me. I sighed in content as I put my face into the crook of his neck, inhaling the woodsy scent of Jake, my favorite. The urge became irresistible as I started to place small butterfly kisses to his neck. I felt him shift under me a little bit, but I couldn't help but smile when I heard him groan when my tongue would dart out every now and then to taste him .Next thing I know his hands are on my hips urging me to sit up, so I did.
"Kags" he sighed. "Talk to me"
That's all it took I immediately became that small shy girl and suddenly my hands were really interesting. With a non-humorous snort I shrugged," Isn't it obvious?"
"Well why the fuck are you with him?" Jake almost yelled. He muttered a curse under his breath when he saw me flinch from his voice. He must have come to a realization cause he became extremely rigid. Despite his posture, in the gentlest way, he tilted my chin up so we were now eye level. "Don't ever do that again, you know damn well I would never lay a hand on you. Ever." I nodded vehemently as tears rolled down my cheeks at the raw honesty in his voice. The floodgates opened. Not just because he'd asked me and not because this is the first time I've talked about it since my mom who told me to 'put my big girl panties on and suck it up'. It happened because it was Jacob and he is the only person who has seen me so vulnerable, the only one what has seen past the tough exterior that I put out for everyone to see.
"I know Jake, really I do. It's just I don't know what I did to him to make him hurt me this way. I thought I loved him and next thing I know he took off his mask and revealed who he really was. Every time I try to get away from him it gets worse. Either he gets mad or my parents tell me how much of an ungrateful brat I am. It's a constant vicious cycle." I paused wiping at my face sensing Jake was about to do it. "My shitty life right?" I add with a humorless snort.
JPOV:
If I thought losing her or finding out she was married was heartbreaking then this is putting my heart through a food processor. I knew she was getting it all out but by the time she was finished, for the life of me I couldn't fight the urge to want to pick her up and just go. Go somewhere where she would feel safe 100% of the time and have no worries and just be. Believe me when I say there is nothing I wouldn't do or give for that. Nothing.
As for her over pompous, selfish money greedy parents, fuck them. I never liked them, ever. Especially when her piece of shit father 'did me a favor' by offering me a job as a fucking janitor at his office. The reason I didn't take the job isn't because of my pride, it was because of the way the son of a bitch disrespected me like I was too poor for his daughter and didn't have a pot to piss in. Now granted I wasn't rich but I never went hungry. Humph, I'd like to see the fuckers face now if we ever compared bank accounts. What he didn't know is that this 'poor boy' went to law school and is the owner of one of the top firms in Seattle all WITHOUT the help of his cheap as job.
Bringing my thoughts back to the broken girl in front of me I pulled her close, without hurting her, and let her know she did nothing to that bastard of a husband and that it was all going to be okay, a promise I made and would keep even if it killed me.
About a half hour later when she calmed down she sat up and wrinkled her nose, in the cutest way, at my shirt. "I ruined your shirt Jake, I'm sorry", she said quietly.
"Don't even worry about it, it's just a shirt." Knowing her so well I cut her off, "And no more apologizing." I added smiling at her small pout. As I sat up a bit straighter, without thinking, I blurted out the first thing that came to mind. "Remember our rule on pouting?"
"Hmmm", she hummed, pretending to think about it, but she couldn't fool me I'd seen the realization flash across her eyes already. She even taped her chin for dramatic effect! "You mean the one where the pouter has to give the other a kiss?", she asked while leaning in.
"You know it.", I said smiling as I followed suit. All I heard was a giggle before she pressed her lips to mine, to which I immediately responded, relishing in the buzzing current I felt whenever I touched the angel in my lap.
I was trying so hard not to touch her but when she deepened then kiss simply couldn't resist any longer. Throwing caution to the wind, I griped her hips and molded her body to mine, even though we both know what could happen, especially in a compromising position like this. Just as I felt Kagome start to grind a little bit I knew we had to stop or slow down or something because when I get to that point there is no stopping. Period. Before I could pull away I heard a throat clearing behind me. Next thing I know Kagome squeaked and scrambled off my lap and that infamous blush of hers started to appear from the top of her cheekbones all the way down to….. I shook my head to clear my thoughts as I turned and smiled at the realtor.
"You're back. Did you handle everything?", I asked.
Glancing back and forth between Kagome and me with a knowing smirk on his face he retorted," Of course. I also finalized your documents and everything. Here are your keys Mr. Black.". After he tossed two sets of keys to me he bid his goodbye and left.
I turned toward Kagome, who had a surprised look on her face and chuckled. "What?", I asked.
"Just like that? I mean with the couch and TV and everything?"
"Sweetheart when you're paying this much for an apartment, it tends to come with a few perks.", I reply winking at her.
Smirking, she stood up and stood right in front of me and said, "Well what did you need me her for?"
"Maybe I wanted to see you.", I whispered as I pulled her to me and lean into her awaiting lips once more.
But you see there is this thing called my luck and sometimes it fucking hates me…..Like right now. I sighed as I stepped back from her so she could answer her phone. I started to busy myself with fiddling with this fuck awesome remote to my fuck awesome TV, until I heard who she was talking to.
"Yes, honey I'm on my way home now." After a few seconds she sighed. "No, you don't have to remind me where my bruises are." Believe me when I tell you, it took everything in me not to take that phone and tell that son of a bitch where he could put his fucking threats and that I would be there instead of Kagome to show him what real bruises are.
KPOV:
As I hung up the phone with James I grabbed my purse and turned to apologize to Jacob, but when I turned toward him I saw a sight that scared me. Jacob eyes were dark, darker than his already dark eyes were, and his nostrils were flared while his fists kept clenching and unclenching by his side.
I immediately went up to him and grabbed his face. "Hey, Jacob what's wrong?" I asked him, forcing him to look me in my eyes.
"Don't go back to him.", He spoke so gravely quiet, I almost didn't hear him.
I felt tears prick in my eyes because he had no idea how bad I wanted to run away from my shitty life and just run off with him without a trace. But I knew I couldn't cause either my parents or James would find me….. They always did. I shook my head swallowing the lump in my throat as his found their way onto my hips to pull me closer.
"I can't. They'd find me.", I choked out.
His next statement cause the tears to roll down my cheeks. "Please." He whispered into my hair.
I knew if I stayed here any longer, not only would James get angry, but I would cave. With everything in me I unwrapped his hands from around me and gave him one last kiss and hurried out the door, away from the man who had, and always would have, my heart and to the man whose life goal was to rip it out of me.
A/N: I KNOW IT ISNT PERFECT BUUUT COULD ANYONE BE A BETA FOR ME? ANYWAY, NEXT CHAPTER IS RIGHT BEHIND IT. STAY TUNNED! IT GETS BETTER I PROMISE!