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THIS IS A ROLEPLAY BETWEEN ME AND JENN.

Like honestly she's like such an amazing writer.

For so much time now this thought was haunting Ciel's mind. Ever since he himself became a demon, and bounded himself and his butler forever, he noticed Sebastian wasn't like before. Of course not.

He was lazily looking through some meant to be important papers, not even paying attention to her. He suddenly leaned his back onto his chair and put his papers aside.

His eyes soon fixed onto the tall and slim figure next to his oak desk. There it goes again. This wish was still there, for so long, it wasn't bearable anymore. Before he could think of a way of stopping himself his mouth began, "How would you like to gain your freedom back?"

"I beg your pardon?"

Sebastian was sure he had heard correctly, but the question came so sudden without any signs that the boy was even contemplating such a thing. But then again, had the demon truly paid attention during the last months?

A sceptical brow rose as the butler looked at the other, wondering if it was merely some kind of test the young male was playing with him but locking eyes the ravenette saw that there was nothing else than seriousness written on his face.

"Would it be correct to assume that the young master wishes for me to leave?"

If so, it was unforeseen but understandable. Nothing was the same anymore ever since that day and they both weren't content with the situation, hadn't been content for a long time already.

Ciel's fists clenched as he sighed deeply. One brief moment that seemed like an eternity though, "No. That assumption would be wrong. Your master wishes everything to be like before, but since that's probably impossible, that is for the best."

He sat up and walked towards the door. He took in a deep breath and opened the door then turned around to face his butler once again, "Here I open you the door to your freedom. It's your choice."

Such contradictions.

It was all too obvious that the boy wasn't quite happy with his own uttered request but nontheless, it seemed as though he would insist on it still. It would be for the best. That sentence surely would have made the demon chuckle in any other situation. He had never been under the impression that his master truly cared what would be for the best as long as everything would go like planned.

And he had ordered the ravenette to stay with him forever.

Snapped out of his thoughts, Sebastian watched as the young male headed towards the door, even opening it which was very much the butler's task but it seemed that in this very moment, everything had changed already.

For a second the man hesitated.

Not because he didn't want to leave - he really did - but because it was all so sudden that he felt somewhat taken by surprise. However, with a light frown deepened on his forehead the demon followed, coming to a stop right in front of the other for but a moment.

"I suppose this is good bye."

And with that, he was gone.

The boy did not dare to answer anyhow. However he was not able to speak at all. He waited peacefully for Sebastian to walk out through the door then he closed it. He closed it so gently and carefully, he then leaned his whole weight onto the door and sat down on the floor holding his knees to his chest.

"I am.. such a fool."

He could hear Sebastian's steps while he was walking towards his freedom, it was as if he was stepping onto his heart. It hurt much more than Ciel thought it would. He sat there for a couple of days. When he finally decided what to do he sat up and walked downstairs. The ever-so-known trio was worried, you could read that on their face. They kept asking questions such as "Where have you been?" or "Are you alright?" or.."Where is Sebastian?", but he didn't listen to any of them. He opened the big, entrance door and walked through it. During the process his eye patch was slowly removed, revealing the slight amethyst colored eye, marked with the sign of the devil. And started walking towards a completely unknown destination.

It had taken a rather long moment for the demon to truly realize what had happened. Aimlessly he had been walking around for a few hours, more or less never truly leaving the manor and always finding himself standing in front of its gates but when the sun had set, Sebastian had disappeared.

There was no further use staying there, as there was no use staying in the country.

Nonetheless, though, the ravenette was never really away. Days had passed since his former master – though, the contract still existed – had let him go and although the man had now every chance to go where he wanted there was no such thing as peace anywhere. The boy's thoughts were still tugging on his mind, their bound very much alive despite the distance and it was then that it had become clear to the demon that no matter how far he would walk away, he couldn't truly leave.

The young male wasn't all right.

He had felt it ever since the moment he had walked out of the door and the feeling had merely become worse the longer the boy was alone – or with the other servants at that.

It's been a while ever since he left. He'd usually wonder if their ways would ever cross again? And if they did what would happen? He was pretty worried about his mansion, since he had to leave it with his servants only.

He was once again alone. He felt so lonely, it was so affecting, all the colors around were turning to only black and white. So where the colors that once colored his heart. He came to a point where he didn't even understand why he left, but what was done was done, besides he didn't remember the path that leads home.

"No matter where we go, in the end we'll reach a place that's equal for both humans and demons. That's what I told him back then, Yes, my Lord. He replied." He sat on the edge of a high cliff and watched the sunset of a new day. Everything was beckoning the darkness. In fact the darkness had always enveloped the young boy. But Sebastian, Sebastian was that little light left inside of him. And now he was gone. Ciel was left alone into the darkness.

It shouldn't have been so difficult.

Honestly, Sebastian had thought about possibilities for him to leave ever since he knew he wouldn't get the boy's soul – of course he had accepted the order to stay by his side for all eternity but still, it had given him the needed push to go on like this day by day to imagine that one day, he could leave.

But now it wasn't like he thought it would be, not in the slightest.

The man hadn't been content living in the manor still but now that he could go wherever he wanted he noticed that every place seemed to be boring anyway. There was nothing left for him to do. Sealing another contract wouldn't do, the one with the young male hadn't truly come to an end and mindlessly taking a soul to entertain himself was out of question, the male was above of that for he now only wished for the most delicious souls – and humans were, more often than not, rather useless creatures.

Standing leaned against a wall in the middle of London Sebastian wanted to laugh at himself. How pathetic he was, coming back after only a few days. Or had it been weeks? He wasn't even sure because it didn't matter. The boy was still here, alive, but the demon did wonder why he wasn't in the manor.

Who would understand the young male anyway, though.

The moon was shining up by now as his eyes lay upon the beautiful view of London, his once home. Thousands of lights shining through the blissful, peaceful, unruffled sad darkness. One light was brighter though, the only one that Ciel payed special attention to. A point near the Big Bang, a small, short street. they both went to buy a new cane on that street. Such insignifiant memory for others was so precious to the boy.

"Where are you?" Ciel screamed in his head, hopelessly trying to reach Sebastian somehow. He couldn't keep on living like this. Not without him. Ciel would've liked to know any way to take his life. But he didn't have anything to hand, sadly, "Look at how weak you make me." he chuckled to himself.

The boy was calling.

He wasn't summoning him directly, but Sebastian felt that he was thinking of him and it made a small smile form on his lips. It seemed as if he wasn't the only one being not all too happy about the situation. The demon could only imagine how the young male's face would look like if he were to return now in this very moment. He would be surprised for sure, and perhaps, just perhaps there would be a hint of happiness showing on his face the ravenette could tease him with once they were back at the manor.

But he would do no such thing.

His master had meant that it would be for the best for him to leave and although it seemed as though he had changed his mind Sebastian wouldn't come back on his own. Did he want to return, anyways? There was the chance that things would be different then, but there also was the possibility that once he was there, the same dull routine would wait for him and he didn't want that.

But could he just ignore this subtle request entirely?

Deciding that walking across the streets of London wouldn't give him any answers the man stopped and turned, heading into the direction he knew the boy would be. He wouldn't near him enough for him to notice –

He merely wished to see him.

He wouldn't come. The boy couldn't even think of any reason why Sebastian would return, "You're not coming back, are you?" A soft, sad smile played across his features allowing one single teardrop fall from the marked eye.

He leaned back on the ground and looked at the sky, the stars, the moon. He observed them, all of them. The wind started to rustle through the ever-so-black leaves of the trees. for one second there the time seemed to stop. everything froze. He could see his parents. The crimson night. Those bastards who destroyed his childhood. Then Sebastian. Flashback over flashback. Memory over memory. Such a small and fragile heart couldn't take it all, "But it's all gone. And I'm once again alone."

Sebastian had approached much more than he had planned to. It had been easy to find the boy who was sitting on a cliff, alone, but once he had spotted him he just couldn't help himself. So far the other hadn't noticed his presence and it would be for the better, but the sadness and pain written so clearly on the young male's face was a rare sight the demon felt himself drawn to.

How often he had wished to see such an expression on the boy's features. He had lost track, but he did remember that it was often indeed. It wasn't even his master's fault that everything had gotten out of hand, leaving both of them miserable even though the younger hadn't looked like it before.

Now it was obvious.

His fingers twitched for him to take the last few meters, reaching out to offer a hand to the other to stand up and go back but something was holding him back still. Perhaps he was cruel or perhaps he was just reluctant, but to see the male like this was so unusual that he chose to observe just a moment longer.

If only to remind him of this moment whenever he would snap at him.

The boy began to laugh to himself then sat up. "I know you can hear me. I know you're out there somewhere. Please do forgive me." He hand never felt so lonely in his entire life. No. It happened once. While being locked in a cage just like a lost bird.

His fingers passed across his right eye, then he stared at his hand. He'd been played by the hand of the devil for so long. The bitter-sweet taste was still there on his lips, and it was only there to cause much more pain.

Ciel wouldn't imagine to experience such great pain over a mere servant. Wait.. Sebastian was never a simple servant.

Sebastian was his greatest pawn.

Sebastian was also a good listener.

Sebastian was also a good friend when needed. And a great cook. And his tea. He missed it. Sebastian was much more than a mere servant. But without even noticing he said all those words loud, everyone could hear them.

The words falling from the younger's lips made his eyes widen for the briefest second. Never had his master asked for forgiveness, not of anyone and surely not of his butler. It seemed that the last weeks had affected the other more than both of them had thought.

It was enough.

There was no need letting him wait any longer now, but just as Sebastian was about to finally let the boy know that he was there he already he began to speak. Each words made the smile on his lips widen, and behind the usual smug expression of the demon there was a genuine, small tugging on the corners of his lips.

Perhaps he knew now why he hadn't managed truly leaving.

He couldn't just leave the young male alone now, could he?

With this in mind, the ravenette stepped forward to halt behind the small frame of the former Earl, a soft snicker that didn't exactly sound mocking sounding through the quiet air and his head tilted to the side as he addressed the other.
"Now, young master, you are flattering me."

The words made the boy's heart skip a few bits. Sebastian's voice sounded like blessings at the very moment and he sat up.

He slowly faced his butler, then the ground. Flashbacks were still present. Back then, Sebastian was the only one who tried, and managed to save him. Sebastian was the one who has been there for him ever since the beginning and just a little ago faced the world without him. He'd much rather go in hell than live into such world. Tears started rolling down his ever-young features slowly. He managed to smile. Yes, that was a true smile. And those were happy tears. It was among, if not the very first time he smiled so happily ever since his parents died, "Don't get used to it, idiot."