Okay… Just let me say …. I'm so SORRY Q.Q

I haven't been able to think of anything to write next…

I've also been so busy I barely had time to breathe. But my hard finals are finally over.

I have a little bit more room to breathe again, and write again.

If anyone is still reading this I hope to update more frequently…. I really do.

Again I'm sorry q.q…

Enough with the excuses. On with the story.

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'Gilbert. I need you to wake up for me hun.'

I heard a soft and loving voice calling out to me. I felt warm hands encircling me gently.

'mmm… Just five more minutes...' the person laughed quietly.

'Your brother needs you Gilly… You can't stay here forever… Not yet.'

I decided to listen, and open my eyes only to see the face of my mother.

'M-Mutti?' I said in disbelief. 'What…? Where are we?'

'No where you need to be just yet. You've had your rest, and it's time for you to head back now.'

'But mutti…' I whined. 'Don't 'But Mutti' me,' she laughed, 'You aren't five anymore Gilbert.' I smiled softly.

'I miss you mutter…'

'I miss you too sweetie. I'll be with you and your brother always.'

I nodded in understanding.

'Oh and Gilbert… It wasn't your fault, okay? Stop blaming yourself…' I froze, tears starting to come to my eyes.

'Mutti… You don-'

'No listen to me Gil. Your brother doesn't blame you and neither do I. For your father… He's letting anger and sorrow get the best of him. Stay away from him hunny, and do not listen to him.'

How can she think that it wasn't my fault?

'But you told me to watch Luddy! I got distracted and let you down! How is it not my fault!?'

'Don't think on it Gil. You were so young, and your brother is okay. Think of what good has come out of this.'

'And what would that be…?'

'You and your brother have gotten so close…I'm glad you have. You're both so strong. You have both grown up to be wonderful young men. I'm a proud mother.' She smiled.

'I…I… love you mutti…'

She walked over and wiped my tears away, 'I love you too sweetie.'

'Now go back to your brother. I'll be watching over you guys. Never forget that.'

'Okay…' I nodded, 'Goodbye muttie…'

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I suddenly felt all the pain come back to my body. My mind felt all fuzzy and my body felt heavy.

'Just a dream?' I thought.

I slowly turned my head to examine where I was. 'Great…' I thought bitterly.

I noticed Luddy sitting to my left, asleep on my arm, and holding my hand in a death grip. Like if he let go, I would leave him…

'That'll never happen Luddy… I'm too awesome…'

He looks extremely tired and like a complete mess. 'I hate seeing him like this… He shouldn't have to be here, doing all this for me…'

I tried shaking my arm to wake him. "Luddy, I'm awake…. So wake up."

He slowly lifted his head, and I tried my best to not laugh at the confused look on his face.

"Tired huh?" I asked.

"B-Bruder!" he half yelled, and shot up embracing me in a death hug. "I'm so glad you're alright…"

"Don't worry about me alright?"

"Don't be stupid Gilbert. I'm going to worry anyways…"

I sighed. "Alright alright I suppose… I'll worry about you too…"

The room became deathly silent, while Luddy was just staring straight at me… "What are you looking at?" I asked.

"Just thinking…" he replied, and I looked away, suddenly interested in the window.

"Can… Can I ask you something bruder?"

"Sure, you can ask anything you want."

"D-Do you believe or… Do you think that… Mutti doesn't blame me for her death?" I asked timidly.

Silence.

I slowly looked up at Luddy when he didn't answer right away. He looked surprised by my question. "N-nevermi-"

"Yes I do." He interrupted.

"R-Really? I just… I think it was a dream, and I spoke with mutti… She told me that I had to come back to be with you... She also told me she doesn't blame me, a-and… Neither do you."

"She's right bruder."

"B-But I really don't –"

"No Gil. Listen to mutti. Mothers always know best after all…"

"Yea… I guess they do…"

"Listen Gilbert. I don't know if I've told you this before but if I haven't, it's about time I have. Other than the fact that I'm your bruder, the reason I care so much about you is because I look up to you brother."

I looked up at him surprised by what he was saying.

"You're strong. Even after all you've been through. Not only are you strong physically but strong mentally. You've stayed as strong as you can to protect me… You always put others first. Everyone comes before you, and even though sometimes you take it to the extreme, you have a kind heart."

He got up and started to hug me. "I hate that you've had to go through what you have. You're the best bruder in the world. I wouldn't ask for another, and I'm not going to lose you. I'm going to protect you as you do me…"

He stood back up straight and tall and he smiled softly whispering,

"You're my hero, Gil."

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And that's the end of this chapter o3o

I hope it's alright.. I don't know…

But I'm glad to have something up! Again I am so SO SORRY….

It's okay to hate me.

I do quite believe that this story is coming to an end.

I'd say 1 or 2 more chapters? Most likely.
Next time I write a story, I'm going to write it from beginning to end before i post it,
so it's prepared haha.

Sorry for mistakes, but you should know me by now. o3o

Enjoy~