A/N: Hello? Anyone still here? It's been almost a year but I'm here. Pretty sure this fandom is almost dead but you never forget your first fandom you write fanfiction for.
Disclaimer: Do I still have to write these? We all know at this point I don't own DGM.
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A Hand To Hold Ch. 17
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When Allen got up the following morning he tried so hard to forget about the raunchy dream he'd had the previous night involving himself and Mr. Kanda. However, this was probably easier said than done.
Allen really thought he'd be able to forget the dream but that idea went straight to hell as soon as Kanda walked into the kitchen/dining area. The moment he turned away from making himself breakfast he instantly regretted looking up to greet the older male.
Kanda was dressed in form fitting workout pants and a dark blue low cut gym tank top that showed off his muscles whenever he turned a certain way. If the outfit wasn't enough, said outfit brought back images from the dream Allen was trying so hard to forget. Allen felt himself start to blush and quietly started to panic. Kanda could not see him like this.
"M-morning!" Allen said as he quickly turned around and grabbed some dishes hoping that Kanda hadn't noticed the sudden blush that'd taken over his face.
"Morning." Kanda said as he walked towards the fridge to serve himself a cup of orange juice.
"Are you working out today?" Allen asked as he tried to will himself to calm down. Maybe if he made small talk with Kanda his mind would understand that this was NOT anything like his dream and his heart would finally slow down to a normal rate.
"More like an early morning jog" Kanda said as he finished serving himself juice.
On the inside Allen was silently beating himself up of course Kanda was going out for a jog it was Saturday. In his need to distract himself from his dream Allen had completely forgotten it was Saturday and that he didn't need to be up for at least another hour or two.
"What about you? Why are you up so early?"
"I figured I'd get an early start today." Allen replied back hoping that his answer would satisfy Kanda.
'You can do this, see this is nothing like your dream.' Allen thought to himself finally calming down.
"What else are-" He'd looked up from his plate of fruit to ask what else the man had planned for the day when he saw Kanda gulp down the rest of his juice and lick any remaining juice off his lips.
He didn't know why but watching the older male lick his lips brought back the memory of those same lips teasing him before eventually crashing against his own. This time the blush came back with a vengeance and there was no way to hide it from the older male this time.
"You don't look so good." Kanda said as he noticed the flushed color Allen's face had taken on.
"I'm fine."
"Yeah right I remember similar words." Kanda said as he moved closer towards Allen.
"No really I'm fine" Allen said as he took a step back.
Kanda raised an eyebrow at his reply. "Why am I tempted to NOT believe you? Now stay still." Kanda said before he pressed his hand down on the younger male's forehead.
'You're overreacting stop!' Allen thought to himself as he heard his heart beat loudly in his ears. 'It's just Mr. Kanda the same man you've been living with for the past 2 months. '
"Hmm you feel warm." Kanda muttered as he pulled his hand back. "You should probably take it easy today."
"I'm fi-" Before he could even finish saying anything Kanda gave him a warning look. "Okay fine I'll take it easy." Allen said as he turned back to his breakfast.
"Good. I'll be back in an hour and if I come back and see that you're overworking yourself I'll personally put you on bedrest even if it means tying you to the bed." Kanda said as he walked out of the kitchen unknowingly leaving behind a flustered Allen.
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'You're honest to God overthinking this.' Allen thought to himself as he washed his breakfast plate.
It was ONE dream and he let it get to him to the point he didn't know how to act around Kanda. I mean it didn't mean anything...right?
Allen sighed, he wasn't a firm believer in hidden meanings in dreams but he couldn't seem to let this go so he was going to resort to drastic measures...asking the internet what the dream meant.
After Allen finished the dishes he headed back up to his room and pulled out his laptop and sat on his bed and got comfortable. He had a feeling this would take a while.
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Allen had been browsing for at least an hour and felt no better than when he first started. He'd googled something along the lines of "had a dream my boss kissed me" and was instantly overwhelmed by the varying responses he saw on each thread. Apparently there were many different interpretations on this.
One interpretation was that the dream mean nothing. That dreams were just random images developed by your brain during REM sleep and that they didn't mean anything unless you wanted them to. This interpretation had initially calmed Allen down. If the dream was just random images then it really didn't mean anything. And maybe he should've stopped browsing after that but he was curious to see what other interpretations there were.
A second interpretation was that since he was kissing his boss the kiss symbolized the power Mr. Kanda over him. And the fact that Allen had let himself get lost in the kiss meant that he enjoyed working alongside the older male. Allen had felt a little confused but could see how the metaphor fit into the dream.
And the last interpretation that Allen had seen before he'd slammed his laptop shut was that he secretly had amorous feelings towards his boss that even he didn't know about and that this is why he had dreamt of them in an intimate scenario.
'Its definitely the first interpretation right?' Allen thought to himself as he laid back in bed. ' Hell I'll even accept the second interpretation. Just...anything but the third.'
'Ugh why did I have to have this dream? Maybe if I limit the amount of time I'm around Mr. Kanda I'll slowly stop overreacting every time he comes close. Yeah, maybe that's what I should do.'
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A week had passed since he'd last talked to Kanda and Allen didn't know what he was going to do. You would think you would only ever have one raunchy dream about your boss in your lifetime but it seems like that just wasn't going to be the case for Allen. Every day for the past week he'd had steamy dreams involving Mr. Kanda, and what made it worse was that the dreams took part in not only different areas of the house but also the office. This meant that any time Allen so much as walked into a room he'd remember what had happened in his dream the previous night and flush red. What made it worse was that dream Kanda was starting to get more daring and the things he did in them were going from being PG to being Rated R, something which mortified Allen.
'I just want to sleep and not dream about Mr. Kanda for one night!' Allen thought to himself as he took a sip of his morning coffee. What made things worse is that he didn't even know why he kept dreaming about the older male. EVERY. SINGLE. NIGHT.
'Maybe it's because we spend so much time around each other..." Before Allen could go anywhere else with those thoughts he was interrupted by the sound of someone knocking on the door.
"ALLEN! KANDA! C'mon I know you're in there hurry up and open up!" Lavi yelled as he continued to pound on the door.
Allen opened the door and gave Lavi a deadpan look. "You do know Kanda has a doorbell right?"
"He does but I just think doorbells are so impersonal, when I visit I want him to KNOW that I'm here." Lavi said as he walked in.
Allen laughed and turned to close the door. " I think he can hear you coming without you even having to knock. Anyways what brings you over to the house?"
"Actually I was here to see Yuu-chan but it looks like he's not here considering I'm still standing here in one piece."
"Ah yeah! I'd almost forgotten it's Saturday so he's out running." Allen said as he motioned outside. "It'll probably be a little while before he's back. Do you want to hang out and chat a little while you wait for him to come back?"
"Sure, I've been meaning to catch up with you too." Lavi said as he took a seat on one of the living room sofas. "What's new?"
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At first the conversation with Lavi was going well they were talking about everything and anything that came to mind and things would've been great if they'd continued talking like this but then Lavi had to ask about his love life.
'I'm a widow, and have been for the past 3 years"
Lavi was quiet for a minute before responding "Oh. I'm sorry i-"
"No it's fine!" Allen said trying to reassure Lavi. "You didn't know and it's already been three years."
"Yeah but still..." Lavi started
"Yeah."
"So no love life?"
"Yeah basically. I mean I know that at this point maybe I should have one and it's probably what she would've wanted me to do but it's just...I just feel wrong moving on you know?"
"No, yeah I get what you mean but you shouldn't feel bad. Life goes on and you can't keep living in the past. Go out there and fall in love again, hell you don't even have to fall in love if you don't want but at least get yourself back out there."
Allen laughed at Lavi's support and enthusiasm. "Thanks Lavi but even if I wanted to I wouldn't even know where to start."
"Well then let your good friend Lavi do all the work for you. So what are young into? What's your type? Tall? Short? Older? Younger? Blondes? Brunettes? Red Heads?" At this one Lavi wriggled his eyebrows suggestively. "Girls? Guys?"
Allen blushed as Lavi listed the last two. "I uhm... I'm not sure."
"Oh come on Allen there has to be something that does it for you"
At that moment they both heard the front door open and turned to look at Kanda who'd just walked in.
Somewhere along his morning run Kanda must have taken his shirt off because he was standing right in front of them shirtless with his entire upper body on display. Seeing Kanda shirtless brought some recent dreams to the front of Allen's mind most notably the first steamy dream that he had about the older male.
If he thought dream shirtless dream Kanda was hot, real life Kanda was on FIRE. Not only was there sweat running down his chest giving the upper part of his body a sort of wet/glistening effect but the running pants that he'd worn out to jog were hanging dangerously low giving the world a tantalizing view of Kanda's v-line. Allen couldn't see himself but he knew for a fact that his face was burning up due to the view, he knew he had to get out of here before Kanda or Lavi started asking about his flushed face.
"I'll be back I'm going to get us all something to drink." Before Kanda or Lavi could say anything, Allen had already fled the living room and ran into the kitchen.
'WHAT'S. WRONG. WITH. YOU?' Allen said as he softly slammed his head into the kitchen counter. 'It's. Just. Mr. Kanda.'
"Hey Allen?"
At the sound of the red head's voice Allen quickly stopped banging his head. "Oh hey Lavi." Allen tried his best to straighten himself out and hoped Lavi hadn't seen him banging his head on the counter.
"Everything alright there buddy?" Lavi asked with a hint of amusement in his voice.
"Yeah! I just got really thirsty that's all." Allen quickly replied back. He quickly grabbed three glasses and started pouring lemonade into them hoping the red head wouldn't ask him anymore questions.
"Mhmmm. Thirsty. Well judging by your reaction in the living room I guess I know what your type is now." Lavi said as he wiggled his eyebrows suggestively.
"Huh?"
"Oh c'mon, you don't have to play dumb with me. You like Kanda right?"
"I-I- No it's just- it got really hot in there okay?" Allen said as he tried to calm down. How could he even answer Lavi's question when he himself didn't even know the answer?
"Mhmm. You sure it wasn't just Yuu?"
"Haha very funny Lavi."
"All I'm saying is if I'm surprised you haven't hopped on that di-
"Finish that sentence and I swear to God you'll never leave this kitchen."
Lavi laughed and put his hands up in surrender. "Okay I'll leave it at that...but I will tell you this...raunchy pick up lines are the way to Yuu's heart if you decide to go down that path."
"Why am I not inclined to believe you?" Allen said as he grabbed all three cups and placed them on a tray to take out to the living room.
"Trust me I've known Yuu for years! Besides you're talking to the smoothest guy in this house. If anything I could help you out by sharing with you some of my most successful ones."
"Really?" Allen asked incredulously.
"Mhmm! Hell I'll even demonstrate one of my favorite ones." Lavi said as he walked towards Allen and placed both hands on Allen's hips.
"Lav-"
"Shh! Just let me demonstrate just one"
Lavi then proceeded to lean close into Allen, until Allen could feel the other's breath tickle his ear.
"Hey Allen are you hungry?...Because omelet you suck this dick."
A few minutes later Kanda walked into the kitchen and found Lavi covered in lemonade and Allen nowhere in sight. Kanda raised his eyebrow at the sight but figured in one way or another it was probably Lavi's fault.
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A/N: Please tell me you guys appreciated that last minute dick joke. I know I was screaming when I found it. Anyways thanks for reading and leave a review if you really really liked it ;)
Also wow i didn't realize it's been years since I started this. (And haven't even finished it lol) Is there anyone out there who was here since the beginning? (If so I'm so fucking sorry)