She Will Be Loved

Chapter Four: She Will Be Loved

The cloudy sky seemed to reflect the cloudy eyes that once gleamed with such love and happiness. Such words didn't seem to matter anymore.

What was love anymore? With hearing this word rolled off the tip of the tongue, it felt lifeless, souless, nothing but shattered dreams that once felt as warm as open arms. It only hurt him, all the love he poured in to his blue heart, it made him feel worthless.

What was passion anymore? Was it only a heartache notion that seemed to have an end? No matter how much breath of air she took, the passion, the sweet passion she once knew disappeared and slipped through her fingers. That was when she packed up and gone.

Sitting alone in the dark of his own living room, Hayate had already knew Himeno left the night before with no word spoken or a glance to share. The sweetness of her smell still embraced the air he inhaled and it was intoxicating to breathe in. But she was nowhere to be found anymore, not within his reach. The regretful words he had said to her scraped in the back of his mind, making him feel more awful than he did before.

All the words he said, it was all true, he couldn't let himself be hurt anymore. But then again, did he destroy his only chance to be happy again?

'She destroyed my life and the only feeling I had for hope in this world.'

He got up and went to the room Himeno had stayed in for the shortest time. 'If she had stayed, it would only hurt me even more.'

He felt the ruffled sheets of the cotton based fabric of the bed sheets that where thrown all over the floor. The nerve in the back of his neck began to throb from confusion and anger. 'It's good that she had gone, I have to keep telling myself that.. this is for the best..'

Images of her face flowed through his mind. Her face of agony, sadness, desperate, and love all pictured together. It was all different looks, but it was from the same girl; the same girl he truly loves. The girl who he worries about constantly, waiting for phone calls, text messages, and emails. This girl put him through more pain than than he had ever felt before, but he never felt so happy loving someone. Hayate felt the emotion of wanting her more, wanting her again; just pulling her in to his arms and never letting her go.

'No she had to go! What good is it to let her back in to my life?'

There on the nightstand next to the bed, there was a familiar old toy that caught his eye. The little rubber ball attached to a little wooden looking hammer by a string was something that he had given Himeno all those years ago. He remembered the good times when she played with it. Himeno failed and failed, cursing out as the ball would hit her face in another failure. Hayate felt like he wanted to laugh a little, at least remembering the good time he had with her. But he looked at the handle of the kindama and saw some scribbling written in permanent marker and felt sick to his stomach. The letter read "H & H" with a little heart drawn beside it. The pain came back to him and he began to throw the object across the room, until he noticed a note that was next to the little toy. He picked it up and hesitated to read it at all, but somehow he did anyways.

"Hayate,

I'm not sure if you'll ever forgive me, but I at least hope you will one day. There is not a day that goes by when I regret running away with someone who I never really loved and that only abuses me. I left you behind and the others behind and it crosses my heart with bleeding wounds when I think of how far away you must be right now. The truth is, I went with him because I thought I'd never have a chance with you, but it still breaks my heart that I still might've had a chance at all. But now, it seems that my chances have gotten slimmer, for now you despise my presence to be even next to you.

This kindama was the only thing that gave me hope. It was the first thing you ever gave to me. I look at it and it helps me put at least a tiny smile on my face for when I'm down. I was hoping to find you and love you more and have my feelings returned. But it seems that I ruined all of that now..

I'm sorry...

-Himeno"

Hayate sat down on the bed, letting his lips linger open from slight shock from what he had read. He let the paper fall out of his hand and on to the floor. The feelings of regret washed over him once again. "Dammit."

He rushed to the front door and slammed it behind him as he rushed across the streets with his wallet in his hands, hoping to catch the train.

Himeno sighed as she looked up at the door to her partner's home. The last place she ever wanted to be again, the fake love, the beatings, this was a a decision she always regretted. Himeno felt the past pain of being hit, kicked, all the time, and not even bothering to defend herself like she normally would. She was afraid to take another step, but where else could she go? She didn't have anymore money, she didn't have a place to stay, this is all there is.

With a hesitating knock, the evil mischievous face appeared as she saw her partner opening the door to what seemed like hell. "Hello, Dano.." She spoke with her head facing to the concrete floor. 'I should've never came back here.. but my life is over anyways. Hayate doesn't love me.."

"Well well, the b*tch came back!" He grabbed her hair with his enormous hands and threw her into the house, locking the front door quickly.

"Don't hit me please!" Himeno cowered as she covered her head. "Hit you? Please, you diserved to be kicked!"

Dano lunged his foot forward and Himeno sprawled across the floor, screaming in pain. "You thought you could run away from me and find your old boyfriend?"

He lunged his foot forward again and Himeno felt hitting the wall and the edge corners of the wall bruise her knee. "You chose me because I looked like him! I thought you loved me, but look where this lead to! When I found out that you still have feelings for that guy, I had no choice but to show you the pain that you have caused me. Serves you right! You probably screwed him over too and he rejected you flat out!"

Himeno picked herself up on her hands, trying to stand up, but Dano pushed her back down. "You deserve to be punished you little wench." Dano stepped on her hand and she hissed from the sound and pain of breaking bones 'Hayate.. I'm so sorry..' And with that, she had begun to cry.

"That's right you little b*tch, cry!" Dano kicked her again and she had no energy to get back up.

Himeno hugged herself with all the pain. Why did she have to do this? Why did she do this at all? Why did she run away with someone, when her real love was back at home? That is, if there was a chance at all. Now there was no hope, she wanted to cry out Hayate's name and love him with all her heart and tell him how sorry she was for punching a knife in to his heart. It didn't seem that there would be a chance like that anymore. She hurt him, she hurt both of them. What she regretted the most was never taking the confidence to tell Hayate face to face, but that idea has now washed away with all the blood and tear stained left in her clothes. Now all that she could remember was Hayate's last words, before she left. Those hurtful last words stab her deeply, more than any knife ever could. No matter how many scars that would heal on her body, this would be an open would on her heart that she can never ever heal.

With Dano, the only reason she couldn't defend herself was the regret of hurting him and Hayate both. She couldn't stand up and hit the guy, because whenever she looked at him, all she could think of was Hayate because his face seemed so similiar. Before she would be able to say anything, another swing would go to her face.

Dano was about to take another swing at her with his foot, but with no expectation, the front door breaks open and he is tackled to the floor being punched in the face.

Himeno opens her eyes to her surprise as her evil partner laid across the floor completely unconscious with a tall man in a coat standing next to him breathing heavily. "Himeno!" A flash of blue ran up to her and she was held in this person's arms tightly and lovingly.

"Himeno, are you okay?! Please answer me!"

Himeno looked up to see her rescuer's face and slightly gasped when she meet two eyes that reminded her of the sky. The tender eyes that she always loved that only looked at her with such emotions as they did. She missed those eyes so much, she couldn't remember the last time those eyes showed the sweetness of the morning sky. "Hayate..." she gasped out with some of her breath left. "What did this *ss do to you? He broke your hand! I'll kill him.."

The same pain seeped back through the cracks as the silence drew out.

"How could you ever leave me alone for him..?"

Himeno bit her bottom lip to the caution that signed before her. "I didn't have the courage to tell you face to face, so a met him and things didn't play out as I wanted.."

She paused in pain, but didn't want to show it. "I want to be with you... I don't want to leave you again.. Please love me.."

Holding her tighter, Hayate's tears poured down relieved that she was okay. "I'm so sorry..." Hayate breathed out.

"What are you talking about.. I'm the one that hurt you Hayate.. I deserved all of this."

"No you didn't! No you didn't.." Hayate continued to cry as he pulled her body closer. "It was my fault... I let you go again when I never wanted you to leave.. I was so scared... so scared of being hurt again. It tore me apart with the thought of you in my mind.. I couldn't stand it at all.. But you are the only love I've ever known... I don't want to lose you again.."

"But those things you said yesterday.."

"I never meant any of it! I love you Himeno!"

Himeno's eyes softened to the words that he spoke and she gasped when he suddenly locked her lips with his. This kiss was passionate and loving, she felt all of his feelings pour in to her lips as the wet tears of his face stained hers as well. The lost love and passion was never lost at all. It was all there, just never connected.

"I love you... never leave my side again.." he whispered against her moist lips.

"I love you too Hayate," she spoke with a smile as too her tears began to fall. "I never thought I would ever hear those words from you."

Hayate kinda chuckled when she made a little goofy face as she was trying to grin while crying. Finally he felt that he gotten want he needed all along. The foolish thoughts in his mind cleared up when he figured out his life would not be complete without her. The simplest touch of her skin healed the wounds that he never thought that would ever heal. All the pain and despair were dropped from his shoulders, he felt the meaning of love again. He pecked her forehead and and leaned her against his him. He tore the fabric from his shirt and wrapped it around her hand.

"We should get you to the hospital now, you're badly hurt."

Picking her up, he carried her out of the broken door from a broken decision that was mended as he gave her that loving kiss.

With all that was went now was gone, the bittersweet past became a bright future with the sun glowing down through the clouds on the two that finally reconciled their love.

What was once lost had finally been found. Himeno now knew that no matter how far or how rough her life may have seemed... she will always have one thing that she will keep close to her heart.

With Hayate, she will be loved.

FIN