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Deceived

What Hurts the Most

Rose's POV

Flashback

Rose, said Lissa through the bond.Go away now. Leave him alone.

"The hell I will," I said, both answering her aloud and addressing him.

"I just furthered your case."

"We were doing fine without you," said Dimitri stiffly.

"Oh yeah?" I couldn't believe what I was hearing. "You seemed pretty grateful a couple minutes ago when I thought up the idea of you helping us against Strigoi."

Dimitri turned to Lissa. His voice was low, but it carried to me. "I don't want to see her."

"You have to!" I exclaimed. A few of the departing people paused to see what the racket was about. "You can't ignore me."

"Make her go away," Dimitri growled.

"I'm not-"

ROSE!

Lissa shouted in my head, shutting me up. Those piercing jade eyes stared me down. Do you want to help him or not? Standing here and yelling at him is going to make him even more upset! Is that what you want? Do you want people to see that? See him get mad and yell back at you just so you don't feel invisible? They need to see him calm. They need to see him . . . normal. It's true-you did just help. But if you don't walk away right now, you could ruin everything.

End of Flashback

Walk away? It would easier if they just stabbed me with a knife or maybe even throw a brick in my face but now this? As I barked out a dry laugh, I really truly want to help Dimitri regain his reputation but if he keeps acting like I'm an HIV virus then as I hate to say this I wished I did kill him there on the bridge. But even as Dimitri continuous on acting like a total douche I still am completely and stupidly in love. I fell head over heels the moment I laid eyes on that god.

I just do not see why Lissa picks him over me, I mean I get that she staked him turning him to a dhampir again but I'm her best friend. They are always together, always whispering to each other, always next to each other never separating. Best part is that I could feel Lissa loves him but since she is constantly blocking me out I do not know if it's a motherly love or an I love you love. If she does love Dimitri that way she has Christian what about him, by the way where is he I have not seen him around lately. Lissa knows that Dimitri is my soul mate I pretty sure that she would never try to purposely try to hurt me right?

But back to the story, they both want to leave them alone then wish granted. But who to call, who to seek protection under their care? As I searched my contacts on my phone I passed by a name that shocked me. I did not even know I have her number. As I listed the pro's and con's if I call her. Pro's: she is nice and I know her nephew (I hope Christian has not talked crap about me.) Con's: she tried to steal Dimitri away from me. I guess it does not hurt to try to call her.

"Hello?" Tasha said her voice sounding more aged through the phone. I couldn't back out now it was too late for that.

"Hi Tasha it's me Rose" I spoke through the phone nervously. What has happened to me? What have they turned me into? The old Rose Hathaway would never be nervous nevertheless scared to ask someone for a favor but things have changed I will never be able to have the confidence I used to have back in St. Vladimir.

"Rose! Wow how are you?" she said surprised that I called her, I mean at the ski lodge I was just a plain bitch to her, when she gave me that really cute dress I was rude and well a total ass hole.

"Um good thanks. Can I ask you a question?" I asked her as I nervously tucked a piece of my hair behind my ear.

"Sure what is it?" she said. Genuinely curious to know what I have to ask her I guess even she knows that Rose Hathaway can ask the most insane questions in the most random time.

"I know you do not need it considering that you take martial arts and all but is it possible that maybe you might need a guardian preferably a female guardian. So you know you can get another partner in crime when you go shopping?" I asked her. If she said no I might ask the Belikov's if I could stay with them but staying with them would mean that I have to face Viktoria's hateful glares which for now I can not stand even thinking about it.

"A guardian? Rose are you saying you want to be my guardian? You want to protect me instead of your long time best friend?" she asked suspiciously. I guess I would too be suspicious if the girl that I had tried to steal away her ex-boyfriend from comes asking to be my guardian well I would certainly be suspicious.

"Yes I m...mean if you want to. I can not force you to something you do not want." I stammered. I really need her in my life of crisis right now. I just really hope she doesn't ask me why I suddenly come to her. Cause if she does I might just break down and I really hate to show weakness in front of my possible charge.

"Okay Rose what's up? I know you wouldn't come to me for help so spill." She said softly but demanding as the same time. Shit!

"It just hurts seeing them everyday. It hurts kn...knowing that I will never be able to comfort him the way that she does. They are always together you do not get Tasha you do not get how much seeing the cold blankness in his eyes every time he looks at me." I said really close to breaking down.

"Oh Rose sweet heart its okay. Calm down. How about this, I will come visit Christian in two days they when I leave you can come with me." She said

"Yes! Please oh god thank you so much Tasha, You do not know how much pressure was released from my shoulders. Thank you so much tha-"I was cut off by Tasha saying no need to say thank. Tasha it was pleasure to help her nephew's friends. Ha. Me and Christian friends? I can not even imagine that. Well yes I can come to think of it ever since Spokane me and him really got close not like Lissa and Dimitri close but like brother and sister close. After I finished my call with Tasha I felt more relaxed more ready to take on the world. I remember having that same energy in the beginning of St. Vladimir but that soon changed after Dimitri's transformation.

As I thought more I realized that I had to pee really badly, as I passed the mirror bathroom I noticed that my shoulders were hunched like an old persons back, I have big hangover bags in my eyes even though I haven't drank any since well in a long time, I had bloodshot eyes wow I really need to take an Advil or something cause I feel a headache coming just looking at myself. I look more different than I imagined.

I sighed heavily and then took an Advil and took a piss. Someone was at the door and kept persistently knocking. God people these days do not know where their patience is. I walked to the door well more like stomped since I was getting irritated with the knocking and this headache. I opened the door glaring at the person. It was Lissa.

"What?" I barked at her. I didn't even know she was the one at the door, I didn't realize I was blocking the bond after I saw her. How dare she come here right now after she told me to leave her and her precious Dimitri alone? Ugh.

"Look I know you're mad at me right now. But you were the one who was making the scene and if you make a scene and get Dimitri mad you will ruin his reputation. Why cant try to be in his shoes and see how sad and depressed he is. You don't know cause all you think about is YOURSELF!" she yelled at me getting louder every second. I was seriously astonished that she was blaming me for this. She was my best friend and she is defending HIM? She has the nerve to even be here right now.

"That's enough! Lissa your being irrational right now. Can't you see that Rose is having a hard time too; your precious Dimitri isn't the only one sad and depressed. You're defending that coward than defending your best friend since forever. And you're getting all close with HER soul mate. How about you and me Lissa? You have been ignoring him fro me what kind of girlfriend is that? I think you should just leave your not mending any problems right you are just making it worse so just get out!" Christian shouted pointing at the door with a mad look in his eye. He defended me? With his speech tears just suddenly felt like coming out. I realized until now that Christian was right all I thought was the get away part but even him was getting really sad and depressed about this. How selfish can I be?

"You're defending her? C'mon Christian she is a bitch for treating Dimitri that way" she exclaimed looking disgustedly at me. A BITCH?

"GET OUT!" I shouted now that I was able to make words form in my throat.

"Fine I don't even want to be here. It stinks of bitches and liars anyways." She called over her shoulder stalking away haughtily.

Once she was out of my view I fell on the ground sobbing. She called me a bitch she could have just slapped me away and told me that she never wants to seem me anymore that would have been easier. But no this was the breaking point; I stood up with the help of Christian and grabbed the chokti she gave me and forcefully shoved them in Christian's hand.

"Take it away from me. I never want it back; give it to that spoiled brat!" I sobbed/ shout.

He never left my side even though I told him to go away countless times for that I was grateful I didn't want him gone I wanted to lean on someone's shoulder and let them listen to all me friend and boy troubles. As I continued my crying I pounded my fist on Christian's chest which is sure to leave a mark, I yelled profanities at his face calling him rude names but still he knew I would never say that to him well as playful as I can be. After my crying scene Christian said:

"Rose I got a call from Tasha is it true? You're going to be her guardian?" Christian asked me softly. I gasped but nodded.

Sorry it is short but next chapter I promise it will be longer. I was kind of rushed, sorry. Please rate and review. Thanks.

*Kyra