Jason's threat and my manager busting my chops over this 'publicity stunt', had me a little over the edge. Whenever Bruce was stressed, he informed me that he would just vent it onto paper, infact that was how most of Justice Society's big hits were made. Another thing that made me relax was doing acrobatic stunts, so after working out half the day, doing nothing but flips and spins in the air, I sat in the splits on my bed and just wrote.
"RICHARD GRAYSON I HAVE COME TO CONFRONT YOU ON THE MATTER OF YOU IGNORING ME!"
"Uh...nice to see you too Babs." She took me by complete surprise, I forgot I had to make peace with her. With Jason running around bent on revenge, I don't want her meeting up with him.
"Oh, sorry I didn't mean to, um, yeah, I'll come back later..."
"No-wait! Barbara, don't go!" I shot up and grabbed her, pulling her over to sit on my window sill. I started to pace, not knowing what to say, or how to say what I need to say.
"Okay, look..." This is my pathetic attempt of apology, "I'm sorry if it seems like I've been ignoring you." Well, I have been, but she doesn't need to know that, "It's nothing you did! In fact it's something I did and, um, well, I just want to make sure we are still friends." I don't care if she doesn't understand what I am talking about, I just needed to apologize.
"Of course we are! I was never mad at you, I can never be mad at you!" Oh how wrong I could prove her right now, but I wouldn't.
"Wow, really? Okay, that's good to hear." I sat next to her, I found myself a lot calmer. Leaning my back against the window, I closed my eyes and enjoyed the comfortable silence we were able to share.
"Hey, you can keep a secret right?" I laughed at her question,
"You have no idea."
"I sort of, maybe, possibly, kissed the Hunk Wonder." Opening my eyes, I looked at Barbara. She seemed nervous, like I was going to judge her until she was six feet underground.
"You mean Robin? From Young Justice?" (You mean me?)
"...yes...what should I do?" Don't worry Babs, I always wonder that myself.
"Forget about it." That's what I was trying to do anyways.
"I can't!"
"You're going to have to try, you are never going to see him again. Even if you do, he can't date a fan." Half of that was a lie, but hey, what did you expect me to say? The part about me dating a fan was true though, management rules.
"You know what, you're probably right." I know I am, "I have nothing to worry about! So...what were you doing when I came in?" I felt my cheeks burn pink and knowing my idiot self, I was probably making a stupid face. I sat up straight, in order to get my head clear.
"Oh, um, you mean with my guitar? Just, you know, guy...things."
"Do you do these 'guy things' very often?" She made it sound like I was just caught watching porn.
"Only when I'm having a bad day...I just like writing my thoughts down on and usually it just turns into a...guy thing." I smiled at my weak attempt for subtle humor, she smiled at me back like she understood.
"Will you play it for me?" I could feel my smile dissipate into a frown, looking at my guitar I tried to think of excuses as to why I couldn't show her.
"Well...I'm not the best singer ever. Actually I kind of suck."
"I highly doubt that, you are perfect at just about everything. Please?" She looked at me pleadingly, it was completely cute. I guess she must have mastered it from having a hard ass like Gordon as a dad.
"Alright, but don't judge me!" Because I will be singing less than adequately, I can't have her figuring out that I'm Robin now, can I.
"Actually I wrote it for a piano so we would have to go into the other room."
"I don't mind."
My fingers traced the keys on the keyboard. Stalling, I cracked my knuckles and practiced the first few notes. Stopping, I said,
"You know, this isn't a good idea."
"Come on Grayson, you are already here and you have everything set up. Just forget I'm here and play." Oh yeah, just tell me to forget about the elephant in the room.
"Oh..." no excuses came to mind, "fine."
I started to play and for the first time, those damn memories didn't come to bother me.
"Falling a thousand feet per second, you still take me by surprise.
I just know we can't be over, I can see it in your eyes.
Making every kind of silence, takes a lot to realize
It's worse to finish then to start all over and never let it lie.
And as long as I can feel you holding on. I won't fall, even if you said I was wrong."
She looked a little dazed, was I singing to well? Did I remind her of...well me? Our eyes met and she started to blush. I felt myself smile,
"I'm not perfect but I keep trying cause that's what I said I would do from the start.
I'm not alive if I'm lonely, so please don't leave. Was it something I said or just my personality?
I'm not perfect but I keep trying cause that's what I said I would do from the start.
I'm not alive if I'm lonely, so please don't leave. Was it something I said or just my, just myself?
Just myself? Myself? Just myself?"
If Robin could get a kiss...could I get one too? I stopped playing, but kept singing. Standing up, I walked over to her. Gently putting a hand on her cheek, I made sure to never break eye-contact. It was now or never,
"I'm not perfect, but I keep trying."
And then I kissed Barbara Gordon.
And confessed,
"I love you Babs..."
Song, Perfect by Hedley
It really is a lot easier to write for Dick than it is for Babs. Probably because she is in the dark about so many things. Wow, I'm tired. Please grammar nazi me if there is anything wrong. I will fix it.