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Chapter 11: I Wanna Believe

Kendall yawned as he rolled over. He looked to his side and saw Logan staring at him. He smiled and propped himself up on his arm like Logan.

"Hi," he said smiling.

"Hi," Logan said grinning mischievously.

"What time is it?" Kendall asked yawning.

"After midnight," Logan said. It had been a week since Logan's attack. Things were pretty much getting back to normal. Logan had released a statement shortly afterwards and told people he did not want to talk about it anymore. He had made his statement and that was it. He wanted to forget that it had ever happened. He wanted to move on with his life. Kendall understood and never forced Logan to talk about it. Logan was glad he had someone like Kendall, who didn't force him to relive that.

"What are you doing still awake?" Kendall asked bring Logan back to earth.

"Couldn't sleep," Logan said shrugging.

"Why not?" Kendall asked, "are you in pain?" he asked worriedly.

"No, not much, I just can't sleep," Logan said honestly.

"Come on," Kendall said standing up. He held his hand out to Logan. Logan took his hand and stood up.

"Where are we going?" Logan asked as Kendall led him out of their room.

"The living room," Kendall said. He led Logan over to the couch and grabbed a DVD. He put it in and turned the TV and DVD player on. He handed Logan the remote and walked into the kitchen. "You thirsty?" he asked.

"Yeah," Logan said as the movie started. Kendall grabbed two soda's and walked back over to the couch. He handed Logan a soda before sitting down. He moved so he was leaning against the arm of the couch and motioned for Logan to join him. Logan moved so he was sitting between Kendall's legs.

"Is this comfortable for you?" Kendall asked as he put his arms around Logan's stomach.

"I am not gonna break Kendall," Logan said while rolling his eyes. That was the one thing he could live without, and that was Kendall babying him. He wasn't made of glass and he wished that Kendall and everyone else would stop treating him like he was.

"I'm sorry, Logan you were attacked, I don't want to make your injuries worse," Kendall said as he pressed a kiss to Logan's temple. Logan smiled and turned his head and captured Kendall's lips in a kiss.

"I'm not a glass doll though," Logan stated.

"I know that," Kendall said. He rested his head on Logan's shoulder. "Watch the movie."

"Fine," Logan sighed. Kendall laughed and hugged Logan lightly. They settled and watched the movie.

-The Ballad of Mona Lisa-

Logan shifted in his seat trying to get comfortable. He hadn't really left the apartment in a few days. Sure, he left to go to the studio, but that was about it. He was letting his fear control him. He was scared of being attacked again. He was lying to Kendall saying he was in too much pain to do much. He knew he had to get out sooner or later, but he was letting that one guy get to him.

"Logan," Mrs. Knight said as she walked over to him.

"Hey Mama Knight," Logan said turning in his seat. He winced as a slight pain shot through his chest. "I'm fine," he said quickly.

"Logan you haven't really left this apartment in a few days," Mrs. Knight said.

"I can't really move around much," Logan said. He was lying through his teeth. He hoped Mrs. Knight would buy it though. She didn't seem to be buying it. Mrs. Knight sat down next Logan.

"Look Logan I know you're scared," Mrs. Knight said in her soft motherly voice.

"I am not scared," Logan said shaking his head. He didn't want to say it out loud. That would make it all the more real.

"Logan I am the only one here you don't have to pretend."

"It happened once it can happen again," Logan said looking down at the floor. He felt tears well in his eyes. He hated to admit it. It made him feel weak. "I know it's not likely, but I can't keep myself from thinking it will happen again," he said as a few tears managed to slip down his cheeks.

"Logan, you are letting a fear control you. You have to get out there. You can't live you life hiding because of what one person did," Mrs. Knight said. Logan looked at Mrs. Knight and smiled. She was right.

"I'll start tomorrow I'll go out with Kendall," Logan said smiling slightly as he wiped the few tears away. Mrs. Knight was right. Logan was letting a fear control his life. He had to get over it and move on. He would have to leave the apartment sooner or later.

-The Ballad of Mona Lisa-

Logan was sitting in 2J staring at the door. Kendall, James, and Carlos had all gone down to the pool and Mrs. Knight was at work. Katie was off somewhere causing trouble for bitter. Logan was alone in the apartment. He took a deep breath and sighed. He had promised Mrs. Knight he would go out today, but he was still scared. He had told the guys he was tired and might be down later. That had been tow hours ago. He was still sitting on the orange couch debating what to do.

Finally he stood up and walked over to the door. He stood there a moment before opening the door. He stepped slowly out into the hallway. He knew nothing bad would happen, but in the back of his mind he was scared. He made his way to the staircase. He didn't want to get stuck in the elevator with anyone. That would only make things worse.

Logan finally made it to the lobby. He saw people moving about their daily lives. The Jennifers were reading over scripts for movies they wanted to audition for. Tyler was running from his mother. Katie was running a scam with Buddha Bob's help and out by the pool Kendall, James, and Carlos were sitting together and laughing. Logan took a deep breath and made his way out to the pool More people were out there. Guitar dude was playing around on his guitar and Lightening was sitting by the poolside. Logan looked over at the guys and saw they hadn't noticed him.

Logan walked over to them. Kendall glanced over and did a double take when he saw him. A smile grew on his lips. James and Carlos looked over as well and smiled when they saw him.

"About time, Kendall was getting worried," James said grinning.

"I was not," Kendall said blushing.

"I just took a nap, I slept longer than I intended," Logan said as he sat down on the edge of Kendall's chair.

"You all rested then?" Kendall asked moving to make room for Logan on his chair. Logan nodded his head and moved to sit beside the blonde. He felt comfortable with Kendall around. He was no longer scared now that Kendall was at his side. Sure he hadn't really left the Palm Woods, but it was a baby step. He knew in a few days he would be ready for more, just as long as he had Kendall beside him. He could do anything with Kendall. Kendall was his rock.

-The Ballad of Mona Lisa-

"Logie," Kendall said as he walked into their shared room. Logan looked up from his book. "I just got done talking to Guitar dude and he's throwing that bonfire party tonight," he said.

"Are we going?" Logan asked curiously.

"If you want to," Kendall said as he sat down next to Logan, "James, Carlos, and Camille are going," he said.

"I'm in," Logan said as moving closer to Kendall. He set his book aside and Kendall grinned and leaned down and kissed Logan on the lips.

"Great it starts at sundown," Kendall said.

"That is in less than two hours," Logan said.

"I know now get changed," Kendall said smirking. Logan laughed and shook his head. He pecked Kendall on the lips and walked over to his dresser. Kendall got comfortable and watched Logan. Logan pulled out a pair of jean and managed to get them on with out too much of a hassle from his broken arm. He had trouble with the fly though.

"Kendall could you help me please," Logan said turning to the blonde. Kendall nodded and stood up. He walked over to Logan. He helped him zip and button his jeans and he grabbed a shirt and helped him get it on. Kendall then decided to change himself. Once he was done they both headed out to the living room to relax for a little while. James and Carlos were sitting on the couch watching TV.

"He's coming then?" James asked. Kendall nodded as they sat down together.

"I told Dude I would go when he first invited us," Logan said, "I am not gonna let a broken arm stop me from doing things," he said.

"Yes, it's the bruised ribs that stop you," Kendall said.

"I will admit they are a little painful, but I can still go about my daily life," Logan said. The three just chilled and hung out for awhile. Once the sun started to go down the guys decided to go. They told Mrs. Knight they were gonna be out late at Guitar Dude's bonfire. She told them to be home by midnight.

The four left the apartment. They made their way down to their car. James and Carlos got in back and Logan sat in the passengers seat. They drove to the beach and got out of the car. Most people were already there playing beach games. James and Carlos took off to join in the fun. Kendall and Logan decided to go for a walk along the beach.

"This is nice," Logan said. He grabbed Kendall's hand as they walked. "I just want you to know I am not afraid to show public displays of affection," he said.

"That's good," Kendall said smiling.

"I mean after what that guy did," Logan said.

"Well that's good to know Logie," Kendall said, "I am glad you are not letting him get to you," he said.

"I've thought about it and he's not worth it," Logan said, "he was some moron who can't see that love it a gift no matter what form it comes in. I mean if god created us all, he must've had a plan," he said.

"That is one way to look at it," Kendall said, "just promise me you won't go all religious on me," he said.

"Never," Logan said laughing. He turned them around and they started back toward the others. Kendall could see a fire going. They talked as they made they're way over to the big bonfire. Guitar Dude was sitting by the fire talking to a few people.

"Hey Dude," Kendall said as he sat down in the sand. Logan carefully sat down next to him.

"You guys made it," Guitar Dude said excitedly.

"I'm not gonna let a few injuries keep me from having a good time with my friends," Logan said holding up his broken arm.

"That's the way to be," Guitar Dude said. Logan nodded and rested his head on Kendall's shoulder.

"Logan," Camille said as she ran over to him. She sat down beside him. "I didn't think you'd come," she said.

"Yeah, well life's too short to be scared. I am not gonna live my life in fear because of some idiot," Logan said.

"I am glad to see your out and about," Camille said nodding her head.

"You can't stop me that easily," Logan said grinning. Camille smiled and gave Logan a hug. Logan hugged her back. Logan let go of her and turned to Kendall, who was looking at him. "What?" he asked.

"You are amazing," Kendall said, "most people would be scared and terrified of being attacked again," he said.

"Well I am not most people," Logan said grinning.

"I know," Kendall said. He leaned over and pecked Logan on the lips. Logan grinned and using his good arm pulled Kendall close for another kiss.

"Seriously you two?" James asked as he sat down next to Kendall.

"Can't keep your hands to yourself can you?" Carlos asked as he sat down next to James.

"You guys just have the worst timing," Logan said.

"Hey Camille," James said.

"Hey guys," Camille said.

Logan sat back and watched his friends talk and laugh. He had never felt more at ease than he did right now. Things were relaxed. He watched as Carlos and James goofed off and hit on girls. He listened to Camille and Kendall talk to Guitar Dude. The Jennifer's arrived and took all of Carlos' attention until they turned him down a few times. Things were finally starting to look up.

"Dudes you gotta sing a song for us," Guitar Dude said.

"Yeah it wouldn't be a bonfire with Big Time Rush if you guys didn't sing," Camille said. The others around the fire all nodded their heads in agreement.

"Ok Dude, we're gonna need some music," Kendall said.

"What song?" Guitar Dude asked.

"I say we do Stuck," James said.

"Yeah," Carlos said nodded his head.

Guitar Dude nodded and picked up his guitar. He started play the music and the guys sang. Kendall placed his arm around Logan's shoulders as he sang. Logan smiled and leaned into Kendall He truly believed things could not get better than there were at this moment. He could not think of a time he had been happier.

The End.

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