~~PROLOGUE~~

When she came out in her green dress with tears in her eyes my guilt doubled. "What the hell was that, Stefan!" Tiny fists pounded on my chest and I let her hit me. I deserved it.

"It's my engagement party, are you really going to do this with me now? How could you? Is this you trying to make me feel guilty? I don't need that right now! Damon has done nothing to deserve this! I have done nothing to deserve this!"

My head was thumping and I couldn't feel. Partially it was the alcohol, and partially it was seeing her face. There was just so much disappointment and it was something I never wanted to see from her.

She kept yelling, and fuck. I don't know but I was fed up because I was pissed too. I've been angry since this whole mess even started. I was mad at her for being mad at me and for being disappointed and making me feel guilty for wanting her back. Because I do. I'm not here to make my brothers life hell, I'm here because I want to spend my life with her. I just...I know she's making a mistake, they both are making a mistake. Damon still has unresolved feelings for two different girls and Elena still loves me. I know she does because finally I've had the privilege of seeing her look at me the way she did years ago.

So I tugged her wrists and pushed her against the wall nearest to us. It was so sudden that she gasped and tensed against me. We were at such close proximity, I could feel her, taste her and sense every emotion she felt. We weren't kissing, but the way that she was breathing...we were trading air. It was intimate, close and comfortable. My hands locked around hers at either side of her and her chest moved up and down brushing mine with every breath

"I love you, Elena." It wasn't what I planned on saying, but I said it anyway. I could smell the alcohol from her lips and resisted the urge to kiss her.

"I love you so fucking much it hurts. And you know I could find another girl, someone pretty and smart and average and someone who doesn't frustrate the hell out of me, or steal my shirts or eat all the food off of my plate or kick me in my sleep or chew gum so damn loud and..." I stroked the side of her face, releasing her hand. "She wouldn't be you."

I let go of her and stepped away, stumbling as I walked. "I came back for you Elena. I came back to start over because I can't imagine a life with you not being with me. I can't pretend that I don't love you anymore. And I sure as hell can't watch you walk down the aisle looking stunning and marry my brother knowing it should have been me." Her eyes were downcast, but lifted to meet mine filled with unshed tears.

"I'm selfish because I want you to be with me."

"Stefan I can't anymore. I told you that I can't.."

"No Elena you can...I just." I pinched the bridge of my nose and faced her again.

"I need you to go back ten years ago. I don't deserve it, I know that. But I need you to choose me again. Let it be me again. Let it be Stefan and Elena. And if you can't then...I'll leave. You can get married and I won't bother you again if that's what you want."

"Stefan..."

"Just please. Let me know if loving you is in vain. Because then I can try to move on, Elena. I can at least try." I stepped closer and closer to her until we were looking each other square in the eyes.

"Tell me now. Look at me and tell me you don't love me, and that you want Damon."

She stammered and I left my eyes on her, unmoving. She finally stopped and shut her mouth before licking her lips.

"Just as I thought," I murmured, and then I kissed her; the sweetest taste of sin.

I have chapter 1 finished. So just review and let me know what you think.

Peace, love, Namaste.