Someone recently asked me how I would handle Jake's birthday and the spawn coming, Its finished, I wrote it yesterday and it would be a one shot but it is 67 pages.

Here is Fatal Attraction

Chapter One

As Jason stood there moodily looking out over the water, watching as the leaf he had dropped floated away, he couldn't help his regrets. Today was his son's fifth birthday, a son he had walked away from to protect and he had had still died. His life had moved on, but his heart, his heart had pretty much hardened and accepted that that the life he lived was the one that would never change.

"I thought I would find you here." Jason's heart stopped beating for a moment, then turned to look at the beautiful woman standing there, her hair blowing in the breeze.

"Today is Jake's birthday, our little boy would be five." he said hoarsely.

Elizabeth looked at him, reminded of of the debate and long discussion she had had with her newly freed brother the night before and stiffened her spine, reminding herself that for once she could be selfish and if she was more like some of the other women in this town, take advantage of events. But she wasn't selfish and in way this man in front of her was someone she would always feel sorry for but her heart well it had hardened, closed itself off to him three years ago when he made his choice.

"Yes, my little pumpkin would be five." she said deliberately changing the pronoun. "Jason, I hate to be like this, but why are you here?"

"What do you mean?" he asked never seeing her wheels turning in her head then the tear she wiped away discreetly.

"Jason, yes you were there when Jake was born, and yes I asked you to walk away that first time. However you had a chance to be a father to your son, you chose to takeover Sonny's business so that Carly would have happiness, not us. Then less than six months later, walked away for good."

"Elizabeth?" he heard a bitterness in her voice he had never heard before as she finally said what she wanted to.

"Jason, you wouldn't change your life for your son, you said you couldn't. You made your choice and it wasn't Jake. That was further enforced the moment you let Sam hang around your penthouse, when every other child in Port Charles was hanging out there, but you didn't even say hello to me or our son."

Starting to speak, he said "Elizabeth they all knew that those children were connected to my family in other ways."

"Jason, that is bullshit, how was Emma connected in other ways that I wasn't as well?" When she saw his eyes turn away for a second, she said "You also chose to be godfather to Jossalyn, didn't you, yet another slap in the face to our child and the lies you told me."

Whirling he angrily "I have never lied to you."

"Then you lied to yourself, Jason." she said gently. "You had to have lied to one of us because you are back with Sam. You chose her over us. You chose Spinelli over us. I am not angry, not any more. I have stopped letting the hurt you created push me into making even bigger mistakes, look I didn't come here to argue with you, you made your choice, but I would prefer if every single time I came here to mourn our son, I didn't have to be slapped in the face by your betrayal and lies."

Reeling he looked at her and said "Why does it almost sound like you hate me?"

"Jason, because part of me does and always will. Every time I see Sam, even after everything that is going on, I hate that you chose her over us. I hate you every time I see Joss, knowing that our son was lying in a hospital bed brain dead and you couldn't even hold me for a few moment before asking me to cut him up. Every time I see that harpy Carly, who you put over us. And I desperately hate you every single time I see Michael, the boy who meant more to you then our son."

His knees were almost giving out when she said "But I am getting over it, moving on because otherwise I will be as bitter as your mother. Jason, you have a child on the way, one from what I hear you finally chose to accept. That means you walk away from our son. You have to, because I can't stand the thought of seeing you raising yet another child that isn't yours when you couldn't chose our son."

Jason wanted to tell her that the only reason he had accept Sam's son was because of Elizabeth and what she had said to him.

"I shouldn't hate that baby, because honestly with Sam as a mother, that little boy is going to need you way more than Jake ever did. Jason, you made your choices, and repeatedly repeated those choices. Now your WIFE needs you, I don't, and when Jake really needed you there, it was Lucky who at least made a half assed attempt at parenting."

That did it, Jason's rage, his anger, his pain at all that had gone on for the last several years just snapped. "You have no idea none of what is going on in my head about OUR SON."

"My son, Jason, I was the one who gave birth to him, who was there day in and day out for him. Not you, not Lucky. Yet you were for Michael. Go away, please? I came here to be alone and frankly after my little talks with Sam and Monica today, if you stay I will end up hurting you even worse and that is the last thing I want to do at this time."

Jason started to protest, but saw something in her eyes that said she was telling the truth. Holding in his anger, seeing she didn't need it, he started to walk past, then found himself feeling dizzy but he felt Elizabeth reach out as if to steady him.

His hands were on her waist as hers were on his arms. Instead of moving past her, he pressed a kiss against her forehead, the warmth and the soft skin forcing memories he had buried deep down to flash in front of his eyes reminding him of so many mistakes as he saw the scenes of events she had brought up like they were on a television screen in his head.

"Jason, what the hell is wrong with you, why can't you get you need to stop doing stuff like this." she said trying to pull back from his embrace. "You made your choice, now you have to live with it."

"Do you remember when I told you about life happening so fast and how you have to live through it, some part of me just wants to know what happened, when did this become my life?" he asked as he tightened his arms around her.

"Jason only you can answer that." she said getting angry as she finally ripped herself free from his grip and began to walk away, her thoughts that she could come back later as she only knew that she desperately needed to get away from this man.

Refusing to back down, with a desperate determination to find out the truth, did she really hate him, did she wish that they had never been... he was almost hurting her as he backed her up to the edge of the bridge and planting her hands on the flat surface and pinning her there, thinking now try and run, for once he wasn't letting her go without getting the truth.

The rage and the almost bitter love he still felt for her inside of him was building until he felt a need to make her see that he was not over her as much as he tried to convince himself and the world.

"Jason, what the hell is wrong with you?" she asked trying to get free reminded of another fight like this and the dreadful mistake she had made in having sex with him, it had to be sex because after seeing him with Sam there was nothing left of her love for him.

"Your not going anywhere, not until you listen to me." he said mere inches away from her lips as her hair blew in the wind, covering both of their faces almost cocooning them away from the real world. "You have no idea, none what was going on in my head. What I have been feeling."

"I know all about it, remember, you have been running to me, pouring your heart about the one woman on this earth that I hate more than any other. Oh I listened because that is what I do, I help, I council when what I really want to ask or rather scream is I don't care about Sam, about that child, not after what you and she did to me, to our son, Jason."

He turned his head away, his mind now flashing those events as clearly as if they were happening today. His heart began beating at a fast pace, his mind now forcing him to accept what it had looked like from her perspective and wishing he could change it, but he had made a promise to her, one he had to keep for once in his horrible misbegotten life.

Bending his head, intending to only press a goodbye kiss on the corner of her lips, knowing she was right and that he had to stay away, Jason brought his mouth down to her lush lips and with the truth facing him about the bleak future, begged her to return the kiss.

Elizabeth felt him kiss her as if they had never kissed before, with a urgency that reminded her of the night their son was conceived and another she would prefer to forget. It was as if the hardness of his lips hid the inner sweetness that she could taste as their tongues danced with each other. He was like a dangerous drug she could never get enough of no matter how bad it was for her.

Passion claimed them, anger and hurt pushing them to take and take from one another but at the same the love that had been buried so deep kept making them give to each other as hands, lips and their whole bodies became reacquainted with its perfect match.

Lifting her, carrying her over to the soft grounds, Jason looked at Elizabeth and all he felt was like this was home, like this was where he should have always been. When he saw that she was coming out of her desire induced fog, he dragged her back under with another kiss.

Then scrubs were lost, jeans were gone and his t-shirt would never be the same as it floated down the river like the leaf he had tossed in memory of their son. Their few remaining bits and pieces were gone as Jason's hand tangled in the long curls of her hair while his lips claimed her swollen ones yet again.

The weight of his body covered hers as hers arms went around his neck. Like two people starved for what they had long been without, they feasted on each other as tasting, touching and teasing became no longer enough. In the grass, near where Jason had come to mourn their son, he found himself reclaiming his love as he thrust into her, each hard stroke driving them deeper and deeper into the abyss.

He claimed her each and every single way he could possible dream of, the denial of the last few years over as they reached that plateau they only found with one another.

They would no sooner come down from one high then they would pushing each other into another and another until Jason felt a wetness on his cheeks as this time she was on top of him. They were both sobbing, both unable to help from falling off the edge from the sheer emotional overload .

When he realized it wasn't only his own tears, that she was sobbing and speaking at the same time, Jason felt something inside of him clench as he realized she was saying she couldn't be here, that this couldn't be happening again. That she would break if she stayed, he felt her gain control then wrest away from him mid thrust and stand, stumbling away and reaching for her now beyond wrinkled clothes.

"Wait, Elizabeth." Scrambling around, his erection painful as he pulled on his boxer briefs, but he wasn't fast enough, Elizabeth was now in her scrubs and running away. Stopping her just before the parking lot, he said "Please, we need to..."

"God, Jason, just stop, stop being so cruel to me. What the hell did I ever do to deserve this?" she asked her arms moving between them. "Nothing has changed and nothing every will. Just for the love of god, stay away from me. Stay away from what few ways I have to remember our son. Can't you do this one simple thing for me?"

He stood there stunned, shocked into inaction as he watched her stumbling away, her sobs floating back to him as she got into her minivan and he could hear her lock the doors and she cried for a good twenty minutes, then wiped her face on something in her car then drove away, leaving Jason to face the consequences of his actions alone.

Sitting down on the bench, the last few years running through his mind and Jason wept for all he had lost for all he had cost Elizabeth and his son. For the damage that he had caused all around town by his fear and even found himself sick to realize that he was glad it was Sam dealing with the aftermath caused by his newly exposed brother and not Elizabeth.

Not his Elizabeth. Reaching into the side bag on his bike he pulled out the extra t-shirt he kept in there and put it on, his mind working on how to fix things in his life.

Driving back to Port Charles, he saw the lights on at the Quartermaine mansion and found himself inside of it. Sitting down with Monica and Edward, he finally for the first time in his life as Jason Morgan told them everything. From Carly and Michael, to what had been done to AJ. From Emily's deepest secrets to Elizabeth. He told them everything and when Monica walked off, he was sure that she blamed him for Jake until he found her outside as dawn came over the sky.

"Jason, now that you are finished, I have something to tell you." With that, stone cold sober and full of regret, Monica told Jason of her treatment of Elizabeth since learning the truth about Jake. She didn't expect absolution but was granted it as her son in a blank tone that terrified her said how could he not forgive her, after all he had done much worse in the name of fear and love for the mother of his child.

"Jason, what about Sam and this baby?" she asked.

"I honestly don't know about the baby, Elizabeth is right, Sam isn't cut out to be a mother." he said with a heavy sigh. "And Franco did this to her because of me."

"You feel guilty about it, but is it because you are glad it wasn't Elizabeth in your life when this happened?" she asked getting what was going on in his head.

He couldn't meet her eyes at first but Monica gently caressed his arm and said "That is understandable."

Meanwhile Edward was inside, calling an old friend. Early the next morning, Tracy woke up to the news that her husband was dead and that she had to tell her father the complete truth about Alan's will. Doing so, she saw the old man with a conniving look on his face. "Father what is going on?"

"Do you think Luke told Lucky about this?" he asked

"Why would that matter?" she asked then felt shock that Jason of all people had finally told Edward about his late grandson. Getting told there was more but that Jason had asked them to be silent on the matter, he made one more call and Tracy was reminded of where her ability to slip between black and white and operate in the grays came from.

Meanwhile at Elizabeth's house, she entered and Steven saw how destroyed she was. "Let me shower, then we can go."

Upstairs, in the bathroom, she quickly showered, before packing up her remaining items and joining her brother downstairs. "Has grams called yet?"

"Yes, the boys are fine. Are you going to be okay?" he asked his eyes boring into her. "You look like you are barely holding it together, if you don't want to do this, I understand."

"No, you are right, I have to protect my family." she said looking around the house and then asking him about his friends that were going to watch over it for her never seeing the regret and the pain in her brother's eyes as he saw her touching the picture with Jake in it. She was leaving them all behind, Steven having copied every single photo she had wanted to take with her so that no one would ever suspect.

"Your house will be fine." he said as they left her minivan, Elizabeth knowing that it had to be a clean break for at least six months as she got into the passenger seat of his car and went to the airport. To anyone watching they would see her leaving on vacation to join her sons and grandmother in Orlando, but in truth, she was leaving to protect her children from the dangers that Steven said were coming.

When her plane landed in Buffalo, instead of making her connecting flight to Atlanta, Elizabeth got into a waiting car and was driven south. Six hours later, arriving in Pittsburgh she was taken to a hospital. "Elizabeth?"

Shocked to see Lainey Winters and Leo Julian, she said "What on earth?"

"Come with us." said the two who took her to the long term patient ward. "The surprise your brother wants to be here for you to see, he hated doing this but there are reasons."

Shocked to see the blond hair of her supposedly son, Elizabeth fainted only to come to in the chair next to his bed with Leo Julian holding out a letter. "Elizabeth, before you decide to hate your brother, read this."

Dear Peanut,

I am so sorry. I have since the moment we began this regretted the pain and anguish you were experiencing but I excused it with the knowledge that if I was wrong, if I had been seeing what I wanted to see you would be less hurt than by my giving you false hope.

Jake's hand moved when I went in to prepare him for the transplant. I ran a few more tests, while I paid someone to find a matching kidney for the Jacks girl. The results frightened me. Elizabeth, there was a drug in Jake's system, one that mimics a coma but in truth the patient is still healthy.

Elizabeth gasped, her mind full of anger but she kept reading.

I went looking into the how and why anyone would harm your son like that. I came up with the same list of names that the police had. Frankly they all had access to Jake while he was laying in that hospital bed and there were several who might have seen his accident as an opportunity to hurt you even further, including the man claiming to be his father, Lucky.

Elizabeth wanted to deny that, but she had been working with Ewan to face that her ex-husband was an abusive relationship even if it wasn't a physically abusive one and knew that to Lucky Jake was something that he hated even if he tried to love him.

Getting no answers, I knew that thanks to that drug, Jake would need long term care. I found the name Leo Julian in the records at GH and then with the help of Robin went ahead with my plan. She hated it but agreed that if Jake didn't wake up, this was better for you now that the truth about Jake's parentage came out.

We both knew that the sycophants surrounding Jason would have created a tidal wave of pain and anger all around you. We made a deal, she would try and get close to Jason again, in case things changed and I would distance myself from you because it was a challenge every single day to keep quiet about what I had done.

Please, if nothing else, believe that we only did this to protect your son, Elizabeth. Someone close to either Jason or you wanted your little boy dead and wasn't above killing anyone who got in his way.

We eliminated a few people, oddly enough Carly and Sonny. For Sonny since you weren't in Jason's life, and neither was Jake, it didn't matter. Carly wouldn't have asked for the kidney since the drugs wouldn't have allowed for it to be transplanted.

Just as we eliminated Luke, we gained another suspect, Damien Spinelli thanks to something Maxie Jones had said. The suspect list ebbed and flowed; then Robin died and I discovered what the Zachara family was doing with black market organs.

But that too ended up being a dead end as we later learned what had been going on with Johnny. You should know, he is in this exact same hospital, drugged the exact same way as Jake after I confronted him about Jake's supposed missing organs. He denied knowing anything and went looking for answers like the hot head he is and paid a very dear price for trying to find the truth.

That gave me some hope that I would find the answers, but it hasn't and now I am back to square one. But I have seen you at the hospital with Jason, have seen your anguish that you have hidden so well from him over his choices.

Then two days ago, that bitch Sam McCall confronted you and I knew that I couldn't keep this secret any longer than it took to get you moved to Pittsburgh. Someday, I hope you can forgive me for what I have done. You should know, I sent you help in getting Jake well.

Besides Dr. Julian and Dr. Winters who says she has several reasons to owe you help, I used emotional blackmail on our father who when he heard the whole story wanted to come to Port Charles and rip Monica Quartermaine's head off. I have to admit it was almost tempting except that it might have put my mother on your trail.

Elizabeth gave a quiet chuckle then heard a man entering the room saying. "So Jake, how about we read about Vienna today?"

The book hit the floor as Jeff Webber looked at his little girl and trembled. They had so much to talk about and so many things that he owed her an apology for. But all she did was look at him, whatever she saw had her dropping the letter, saying dad and rushing into his arms and sobbing.

"Elizabeth, I am so sorry, when Steven said it was more important for me to come to Pittsburgh to be here for Jake then help you in Port Charles. I hated it but I understood that you had no reason to want me there." he said his hand rubbing his crying child's back and holding her close.

"Tell me, how is he?" she asked her eyes looking into his.

"His vitals are growing stronger, we expect him to wake up any time." he said gently. "What we don't know is what damage has been done to his brain. Your brother said there is a specialist in Port Charles, Noah's son but that until Jake awakens they don't want to draw him out of town."

"Patrick, he is a friend of mine." she said her voice breaking. "I am so angry and so grateful at what Steven and Robin did. How do I move past that?"

"You should because Elizabeth, to be honest that protocol that your friend Robin created, she gave her life for your son, not for his father like everyone thought. She sent me a sample each time before she tested it, so that I could analyze it. This last one, she said she had a live patient, a living lab rat and she was going to use him to find out if it would save Jake. She sent me that email mere moments before her death."

Breaking down, Elizabeth said "Oh god, we are why Emma is without a mother."

"No, her drug regimen it was failing Elizabeth. She wanted to do some good before her death." he said gently as he lowered her into the chair. "She was desperate to save Jake and his father, believing that saving the father would save your little boy, she felt that if anything ever happened to her, you would be the person most qualified to help her little girl as she grew up."

"But I moved away." she protested.

"And when Jake wakes up, we are hoping to talk Patrick into doing the same." said Leo Julian looking flustered for listening to such personal information as he entered. "Elizabeth, Jake's heart was weakened but it has grown back to full strength, his other organs are up to full strength as well."

"So it is a waiting game." said Jeff still holding his daughter's hand. "You should know, your brother called today. He gave me some news regarding Sam McCall."

"Did she harm my son with these drugs?" she asked.

"Not that he can be sure of, but she is on the suspect list. This isn't about that." Jeff said.

"Then I don't want to know." said Elizabeth firmly. "Dad, where are the boys and grams?"

"At the house next to mine. Cam was excited by the playground equipment we installed." Jeff said his mind on his first meeting with his other grandchild and what Audrey had secretly told him that Steven suspected about his daughter's heart and who she still loved.

In Port Charles, Monica had called Alexis into her office early that morning. "We need to talk about what is going on with Sam, now and in the past."

"Monica, what are you talking about?" she asked then was told to sit down. Hearing about her plans to abort her child with Sonny, how Jason got her to stay with money, Alexis just said she has changed.

Monica then showed her the files, "I understand you received one of these yourself."

"Yes, that Amelia Joffey had an ax to grind but like I said, Sam changed." Alexis said only to be reminded about Ric and the night they slept together. Monica then deliberately brought up how pissed off Sam had been about Elizabeth and Jason.

"She had a right, she was in love with Jason." she said feeling regret at what her request to Jason had cost her little girl back then.

"Why? They were over and she was rolling around your floor with Ric?" she asked then said "I want you to listen to something. Jason taped this earlier today without Spinelli knowing and I promise, Alexis it is true."

Listening horrified, unable to excuse what she heard as Spinelli and Jason discussed Jake Webber's first kidnapping, then what had happened to his mother and his brother and himself in the park. "W-why?"

"Sam claimed a moment of weakness. Jason lost Elizabeth when Jake was kidnapped again, right now, after some tough questions from Edward, Jason is asking questions, and frankly it doesn't look good for your daughter." she said.

Then she said "Jason will always regret what happened, getting back with your daughter, Alexis."

"Well he had better just damn get over it. He made promises and frankly after hearing this I am certain if he walks away again, Sam will kill herself and it would be all his fault." she said standing and getting ready to storm out of the room then stopping. "Is this why he is acting like such a bastard to Sam right now?"

"No, there is more." said Monica regretfully. "Right now Jason is feeling guilty because Franco was somehow his brother, we are looking into it but the only person with answers is a lying cheating con artist/murderer who could possibly teach Sam a lesson or two and I didn't think that was possible."

"It was his brother that was tormenting his wife, that kidnapped Sam?" she asked shocked.

"And unfortunately there is a possibility he raped her." said Monica baldly. "You should know that if it wasn't for that fact, Jason would be long gone."

"Oh god why? Why did this have to happen to my poor little girl?" asked Alexis as she sank down into the chair across from Monica and said "Your son, this is all his fault, all of this. He has been nothing but a disaster for my daughter."

"Your daughter has been no angel in this." she retorted. "Jason right now, is talking to Sam. They are going to have to work on getting past this for the sake of the child, but right now, you should know, there are questions that the police are asking regarding the hit and run of Jake Webber. Sam was on the road that night and it turns out that it wasn't Luke who hit that little boy."

"There is no way that my daughter would EVER harm..." Shutting up as she faced that Sam had done just that she said "Their love over came so much, Jason needs to dig deeper because I won't let him hurt my daughter again, if he tries he will end up in a jail cell."

Monica waited until she left then called Edward. "Whatever you are planning make it soon because Alexis reacted just like you thought she would."

Jason looked at his wife, saw her face turn white as she said "Why the hell are you bringing this up now?"

"Because Sam, I am tired of the way you keep acting like my requesting time to deal with what happened is wrong, with how you have repeatedly lied to me and are acting like it is something new. It isn't and frankly I am done with regrets. Yes, I will be a father to this child."

When he saw her wide smile, he said "However we will be divorced by the time that happens."

"What? Why, Jason our love, it has conquered so much, your affair with Elizabeth, your having a child that wasn't mine."

"And Sam, what about your moments of weakness, I notice that those were conveniently left out, but you know why that was, because if you include those, you don't get to look like the victim. Yes, what happened with Franco is my fault, but Sam you knew going in about the danger in my life. You had walked away, you made the choice to come back. I never chased after you."

With that, he said "I wish that I felt more, but honestly for the last twenty four hours, I have taken a real good look at my life and don't like what I see. I don't like the man I have become. And honestly if it wasn't that the child you are carrying is an innocent bystander who deserves a good shot in life, I would walk away."

"What?" she asked her tone dangerously close to shouting. "What choices? And I don't like the man you have become, you are turning your back on me when I have been hurt repeatedly by those wanting to hurt you."

"You know what, Sam, you aren't the first person I have hurt by my choices and you have not been the person hurt the worst by them. Stop thinking that that makes you special because it doesn't. I think that label of the person hurt worst by me or rather persons is Elizabeth and my son. My fear cost them a hell of a lot more than it will ever cost you, and don't you forget that."

"I am so sick of hearing that name, Elizabeth this, Elizabeth that, if she hadn't gotten pregnant, we would have been happily married years ago and frankly even this Franco stuff is her fault." she raged, then calmed down as she thought about what she was saying.

"I don't even want to know how you justify blaming Elizabeth for Franco." he said disgusted. "Sam, sign the papers, the baby can carry the Morgan name, but I would prefer it if you weren't doing so when the child is born."

Sam screamed at him to get out but he held out the pen. "Like hell I will sign that."

"Sam do it, or you go to jail the moment your child is born and don't think that you can send me there because you have nothing to use except eyewitness testimony and frankly you won't be a credible witness, not after I give Mac the files I have and give him the name of the men from the park." he

stated.

The pregnant woman saw the expression of coldness in his eyes, then thought about what Lucky had overheard and said "I want to live in the manner I have become accustomed to."

"Sam the penthouse is in your name, you have a bank account set up, I already took care of that." he told her and the woman smiled, her mind on the stock that she was well aware was meant for Jason's son and signed.

"You will regret this." she said.

When he had left, Sam looked around the cheap hotel room and picked up the lamp on the night stand and smashed it, plunging the room into darkness. Feeling a sharp pain in her stomach, she grabbed it and fell to the ground.

Struggling to stand, she made it to the door then fell again, with it ajar just enough that hopefully she would be rescued.

Elizabeth left her boys and returned to check on their brother. She had debated taking Cameron with her but had decided that if it took too long to wake up her middle child, Cam might not understand.

Seeing the night nurse she asked "How is he?"

"Restless." she said with a smile then hesitating asked "The other patient that your father is treating, he woke up today. He recognized your voice passing by in the hallway and is asking to speak to you if you have a moment."

Elizabeth nodded then went into her son's room. "Hi Jake, since grandpa is reading you about Vienna, how about I continue, but I brought another book with me, about Italy. Someday I am going to take your brothers and you there."

"Hopefully you get to do that." said the man in the wheelchair. Seeing her shock, Johnny stopped her from hitting the call button. "Please, I know that I have done so really rotten stuff and that being drugged isn't an excuse, but I just... I need to see people I know at least by sight, otherwise, my mind, it keeps going blank."

"I heard what had happened to you and that it was Trevor and Anthony but Johnny, I don't know you well enough to separate what was really you and what was the drugs. I am not sure I want you around my son." she said.

"I get that, god do I get that." he said heartfelt regret clear in his voice. "I will go."

Watching him wheel his way out of there, Elizabeth felt bad for the mobster son but then looked at her own boy and decided that right now, Jake was more important than any lingering kindness.

Jason looked at the dead body of the woman the world thought was still his wife and tried to find an ounce of grief but he couldn't. Looking at his mother, the only person in the room with him and said "No one can know, not until I find out the truth of what Grandfather suspects."

"Jason, can you fake that kind of grief, the offers of sympathy you will be getting. Alexis knows the truth, she is going to be trouble." she warned. "Plus you have Molly, Spinelli and hell even Maxie are out there now that Mac got her freed. Plus there is this baby, what are you going to do about him?"

"Alexis is delusional, she will believe what I want her to believe." said Jason his mind on what Sonny had come to tell him just moments before Sam had been rushed to GH. The story about John McBain and his history with the man's sister had almost bitten them in the ass thanks to a bug that had been planted.

"As for the baby, I have an idea. I am hiring a nanny, like I did with Michael, if you don't mind my moving into the mansion." he said. "That will help forestall some of the visits."

"Fine." she said hugging her son. "I am only sorry you didn't get to confront her. What about Elizabeth, you have to tell her the truth when she gets back from vacation."

"She will never believe that it. Not now that Sam is dead. She will never know that she wasn't second best." he said bleakly. "All I have left is to find the truth, expose it and hope that someday she can forgive me. Its over, not that I ever let it really get started."

"You know, Alan and I we hurt each other deeply over the years, sometimes it is hard work but you can get past this." she said imploring him to not give up hope.

"No, its too late." he said. "The day my son lay in a hospital bed and I asked Elizabeth what I did, it was too late. I destroyed so many lives and in a way, even Sam's."

"She had a part in this, a very big part." Monica reminded him not wanting him to present Sam for sainthood just because she had died after all that had happened.

"But I didn't want to be alone, I created this, Mom. It is my fault she lays here dead." he responded, the guilt eating away at him. Sam was guilty of so much, but the one thing he had found out over the last few days was that stupidly she had truly believed that he had gotten over the past, when he hadn't, he had instead just buried it deep down and had tried to recreate what he lost with what he had in his life.

There had been moments that it had felt real, when he had believed he had done so, but then something would happen to ruin it, bring Elizabeth to mind, that it was the danger he had chosen that kept his family away. Now, Jason got that he had been a fool, unfortunately this time his blindness had cost him everything he had really ever wanted.

Outside, one person wasn't unhappy at Sam's passing but she kept that hidden, as she made the evidence disappear. Sam had made it so easy to finally kill her, to make her pay for all she had done to destroy her plans and dreams.

TBC later tonight.