Kagome stood glancing around their bedroom, looking to see if she had left anything. Satisfied she hadn't, she turned around and walked out the door toward her red 95 Chevy Cavalier and drove off. Her destination two hours away from her friends and family but she would be back one day.

The only thing she left behind was a note to her ex-boyfriend, Inuyasha.

Does It Matter?

Does it matter when you look at me and you see nothing but misery behind the veiled happiness?

Does it matter that the only guy I love treats me like shit, even after I defend his actions countless number of times and I still love him?

Does it matter that I want to better myself and try to make something out of everything I have gone through?

Does it matter that I want to find my other half-sister, Kikyo, because maybe one day I can be a part of her life and a possible match to her or her children?

Does it matter that no matter how much pain you put me through I am still standing by your side?

Does it matter that I want you to be happy and to have a chance at a normal relationship before you settle for someone like me with so much emotional damage it's crazy?

Does it matter that every time I talk about becoming independent you become distant and bitter?

Does it matter every time you tell me you think I won't make it that I always want to point out that you moved away and failed and have nothing to show for it other than student loans up the ass, whereas, I stayed in Kyoto and am now a graduate of 2 degrees with minimum student loans?

Does it matter that every time you say I can't survive that you don't know everything about me?

Does it matter that we BOTH still have to grow up and we can't exactly do that when we are living together?

Does it matter that I have told you countless times that I want to marry YOU, and that I WILL come back?

Does it matter that after all these years we have been together, all the plans that we have made, they have all been made for the future? As in, AFTER I finish school, I have not finished, I am only taking a break.

Does it matter that you don't truly have any demons you have to face, yet I have to face them every day and all you say is get over it?

Does it matter that I want a fresh start to maybe be happy and all you do is shoot my possible happiness down?

Does any of this matter to you like it does to me? The pain I have to bottle up from the constant sibling betrayal, boyfriend attitudes and being suppressed when it comes to reacting certain ways.

Does it matter that after all these years I am finally being selfish for once?

Inuyasha looked at the single page that Kagome had left for him. They had been arguing for months about what she was going to do when she graduated. She had wanted to move and be independent; he just wanted her all to himself.

A lone tear rolled down his stone face as his jaw clenched. She had left him to pursue her dream while he was left living with his parents working at a grocery store as a meat market clerk. When he moved to Tokyo he had left to go to school to be a game designer, but he lacked the drive to go to school.

All he did was play games and that ended him dropping out of college and right back in Kyoto with his family. His life was going to work, play games, and sleep. On the rare occasion he would spend actual time with Kagome, mostly because she was busy working a full time job and being a full time student at the community college.

She was going places and he thought she would always be there to take care of him. But look where that had gotten him, she was already there, starting her life. A fresh start was what she wanted, she met a girl named Sango on this roommate website and they had hit it off.

Of course he was skeptical but she was always saying how amazing this girl was.

Looking back on their relationship he could see how badly he mistreated her. He of course never hit or abused her. He mostly ignored her in favor for his games and his friends and now he was loveless. Three years down the drain.

Kagome said she would come back when she was done searching; she wanted to marry him then. He reread the letter she had left him. He clenched his fist and made a resolve, he would be a better man. When she came back, he would be the man she had hoped he would grow to be.

A day later there was a frame mounted on his wall, he sweated while doing push-ups, looking at that one frame.

Kagome's letter would be his determination and his salvation to a better man.

AN: So what do you guys think? Sorry this is so short but I just had to get this out here! The letter Kagome left for Inuyasha is an actual letter I wrote for my ex whom this story is dedicated to. Please leave me your comments and reviews.

Side note: Ninjamidori and I are working on chapter 2 of Mute Girl so stay tuned!