Forbidden Love

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I don't own anything about Twilight. It's all Stephanie Meyer's

Chapter 1

BPOV

I looked up from the book I had just finished reading and glanced around the room. How many books have I read now? I most definitely have lost count. I blew out a long sigh. Thanks to our strengthened hearing Edward heard and called from his study, "You alright, Bells?"

"Yeah, I'm fine. Just finished another book that's all." I replied, which was true why I was sighing but not the whole truth. There was no way I could tell him; thank God he couldn't read my mind.

"Ok, sweetie." He said. Not once did he move from his study to come see me. Typical of an immortal life, too busy learning. I pondered on what book I should buy now to read. So many books with an eternity to read them all. Edward at the moment seems intent on trying to learn as many languages as possible, I gave up after attempting simple French. Sighing again, quieter this time, I got up, put the book back onto the shelf and walked into his study.

"I'm gonna go and visit Alice for a bit. I feel like I haven't seen her in ages." I said to him. Slowly he looked up from his desk and turned to me.

"Sure hun. Although you only saw her the other day." I looked back on that memory of our time. Oh how I loved spending time with her.

"Yuh-huh, I just love our talks that's all. How's the Greek going?" I asked.

"Good actually. Πού είναι Nessie?"

"What?" I exclaimed. He chuckled at my reply.

"Where's Nessie, darling?" He asked, this time understandable.

"Oh, she's gone out with Jake, again." I smiled knowing it irritated him.

"Okays. I hope he doesn't try anything funny." He looked at me trying to hold a serious face. He liked Jake more than he let on.

"Whatever you say dear. See you later." I leant in to kiss his lips. Our lips touched, yet still there was that feeling he was holding back for a reason. When we parted, he walked turned back to his desk and gave a distracted, "Bye."

I walked out the house, well cottage really and set off walking down the path. It's beautiful where I live, surrounded by woodland and wildlife. It was just, secluded. I missed everyone else and the company. Sure don't get me wrong, Edward is the best husband. We just don't seem to spend time together unless it's when we make love.

I decided to walk to the Cullen's house today, taking in all the beauty of where I live. Besides, it's only a five minute walk. Anyway I still have the tendency to trip now and again even though I'm a vampire, so I still have to be careful where I step. I involuntarily breathed in the fresh air letting it clear my head. My thoughts recently haven't exactly been... happy, like they should be. Though I was excited for seeing Alice's beautiful face again. She always seem to cheer me up. I smiled to myself.

After a few minutes I came upon the Cullen's family home. Edward, Nessie's and my cottage was positioned on a branched road just off the main house driveway, allowing us to get 'alone time' together. If I had a beating heart I'm sure the pace would've quickened at the thought of seeing Alice again. She's my best friend. I might not show it all the time but I most definitely would die without her. I walked up to the door, knocked lightly and stepped in. I was instantly met by Esme's warm welcome, "Hello sweetheart. How nice to see you again. Edward still doing his Greek?" She smiled.

"Yeah, unfortunately." I sighed, but smiled to show that it doesn't affect me much. Much to my fake expression, Esme giggled softly, believing me. "I've come to spend some time with Alice, actually. Need some girl time again."

"Oh sure hun. She most likely will know you're here. She's in her room, I think. The boys have gone off gallivanting again, taking Rose, and I think she's feeling a little alone. Carlisle didn't go so I'm spending time with him before he has to go back to work again. Go on up Bells. You still act like you're a visitor to this house, but you shouldn't forget this is your home too." She hugged me tightly before disappearing into a different room.

Excitedly, I ran up to Alice's room at frightening speed only to find that she wasn't there when I entered. I was suddenly disappointed and my heart sank until out of nowhere I heard a pixie-like squeal, "Bella!" before she herself flitted into my arms. I quickly put my arms around her and we embraced in a cosy hug. I couldn't help but take in her scent and it instantly made me feel happier. After a longer than normal hug, it broke and we looked into each other's eyes, still with our arms around each other.

"Oh my gosh! I've missed you. I love our girly times." She beamed at me, beaming at me with those beautiful topaz eyes. I felt mesmerised.

"Yeah, well I was bored, so I thought I'd come to see you again." I replied, meaning every word. Her face changed expression at hearing my words, to that of sadness.

"Oh, is he off learning again?" She asked, genuinely upset for me. God I loved her.

"Yeah, I heard Jasper's left you too! We can spend some girl time together." I smiled at her.

"Yay! Fun time with Bella!" She placed her hand in mine and pulled me over to her bed where we both lay on it facing each other. "So, let's talk about him." I dramatically threw my head back as if I didn't want to talk about him, but couldn't help smiling as I did so.

"We just seem to spend less time together. We're always together, but not together together. The only time we are doing something together is when we have sex but even then, something doesn't feel right. I love him, I know I do. It's just things are no longer the same." I sighed, feeling utterly depressed. I looked up to Alice's eyes and I saw that she felt genuine concern for me. I instantly felt butterflies in my stomach. She looked away from me, onto her duvet cover.

"I know how you feel. I love Jasper too, but lately, it just hasn't felt the same. Even the sex isn't what it used to be. I hide my emotions from him because I know he will notice something's up. It's just that he's always off with Emmet or whoever doing boy stuff and I'm left alone. Rose sometimes goes along, but mostly stays here, but me and her just don't have much in common to spend time together and Carlisle and Esme are always canoodling together in their love and I don't want to interrupt." I felt my heart lurch and the sound of Alice feeling down. She's always so happy and lively and I don't want anyone to make my Alice sad. Wait, what? MY Alice? Well, she is my best friend after all.

"But now I'm here, we can comfort each other." I beamed at her, she looked up at me and beamed back at me with those indulging topaz eyes. My heart instantly warmed to her and I almost jumped for joy when she pulled me into a tight hug while we were both led on the bed. She giggled, when I huffed at the suddenness of the hug and continued to hug, tighter this time. After longer than expected the hug ended and I ended up looking into those dreamy eyes again. She placed her hands in mine and we continued to look into each other's eyes. We stayed like this for a long time, just enjoying each other's company and closeness until I heard a familiar voice coming from downstairs.

"Hey mum. Yeah. I've just come to collect my wife from Alice, she seems to have stolen her." I pulled myself away from Alice's beautiful face to look at the time. Oh my God! I'd been gone 4 hours! I looked back to Alice but she was avoiding my gaze as though saddened.

"Sorry, Alice. Seems my master has called. I'll drop by soon." She finally looked back at me and smiled, though I could see in her eyes she didn't want me to leave. I scrunched up my eyes, knowing instantly I would regret it as soon as I said it, "Maybe we could go shopping?" She instantly picked up and squealed happily.

"Oh yay! Bella I love you!" She pulled me into yet another hug and again her touch brought warming tingles throughout my body. I embraced her back and smiled to myself, happy that she was in my life and that I'd made her happy. Finally, I pulled out of the hug and got up, tripping over my awkward feet. This caused Alice to laugh out loud which if I was human, I'm sure I would've blushed. I casually got up as though nothing happened and waved goodbye to her, missing her touch already and walked downstairs to my waiting husband.

He smiled when he saw me and said, "Come on Mrs Cullen, I shall take you home." I smiled at his gesture, placed my hand in his, said my goodbye to everyone and left to walk back home, to where I would soon be bored, yet again. Sigh.