We spent the entire night carrying on in a very robotic conversation that was normal for us. She told me a few jokes that she was sent on Twitter this morning and I told her a story of how I fell down some stairs in high school because I was running down the hall and slid on some water. "You would think Mr. Dance could have handled a small puddle of water." Jen laughed almost causing her to go into a snorting fit. "I guess I wasn't that graceful back then. All my awesomeness must have came later on." I told her putting my napkin on my plate as I finished the meal that the chef had prepared for us. It was clear that our friends had gone out of their way to make this evening perfect for us. "Are you done with your main course?" The chef asked as he walked out of the kitchen holding two small plates. "Yes, thank you very much. The sushi was amazing." "Well I will leave the dessert with you and take the other plates. I have instructions to put the plates back into the kitchen and then to head on out. Have a great night." The chef walked out then and we looked to see the dessert plates that had small pieces of homemade cookie cheesecake. "It's our favorite" "Yeah, I know, I guess Chord is smarter than he lets on. Although it isn't surprising considering we order this every time we all go out and I end up finishing yours." I told her as I took a bite but Jen just looked down at hers.
"What is going on between us Harry? You are my best friend and I love that but it is clear that there is something more going on right now. What are we going…" "Shh" One of my all times favorite songs came over the ipod speakers then and decided I didn't want to talk to her anymore, I wanted to dance with her. "Would you dance with me Jen?" I held my hand out for her and of course she took it without a thought as I pulled her out to an open area for us. The hands that were already being held, I moved so they were lying in between our chests while we wrapped our other arms around each other's waists. We moved in small circles around the area and eventually moved so our foreheads were leaning against each other. "What are we doing Harry?" "Were dancing" "You know what I mean. I'm supposed to be getting married tomorrow to someone that I do love but here I am dancing with you and feeling things that I shouldn't be." She was completely right. In less than 24 hours she would be another man's wife and the feeling felt like a rock in my stomach. Did I have feelings for her beyond friendship? Did I love her as a girlfriend or even a wife? I needed to answer the question once and for all now. "I feel for you Jen and it is more than friendship." "So what do we do now?"
I took all my feelings that I felt for Shelby earlier into consideration now. After just one kiss, Jen had completely drained my mind of all romantic feelings for Shelby and I was sure that I could never get them back. "Do you still want to get married to Michael?" "I don't want to get married with any regrets. There are feelings running through me now though that is screaming at me not to because of you. I know you better than anyone I have ever met in my life time. You know more about me than anyone else including Michael. You know the reason that I can't drive through downtown LA, the reason I hate mushrooms, or why I got the tattoo on my lower back. There isn't a fact about my day to day life that you don't know about where as there are days I go not talking to Michael and I forget to tell him things that you already know. You are the one there who always picks me back up after the glee scripts write me out for another episode or when Michael breaks a date with me. I guess what I'm honestly trying to say is that I think I love you Harry and it's the way you are supposed to love the person you should be marrying the next day. I love you so much that I almost wish it was you that I'm marrying tomorrow and not Michael."
We stopped dancing as soon as she finished admitting her feelings mostly because I was so shocked that I couldn't move my legs anymore. She loves me? Like really loves me? "Please say something" "I uh think that I should uh go" I panicked and stuttered out the first thing that came to my mind before letting go of her and turning in place to run out of the apartment without looking back to see her face. It would have completely killed me to see her face broken after she admitted all of her feelings to me and I just left her. I broke down in the elevator letting all the tears flow from knowing that she was crying the same way back in the apartment. This is torture to live through but I didn't know how I felt about her yet and it would have been the worst mistake to tell he I don't love her if I did or tell her I did if I really didn't. I had to do some real thinking before I gave her an answer or do anything. The smart thing to do was go back to the hotel and wait for Shelby and talk to her first.
I walked into the hotel expecting to see Shelby there but she wasn't there. She must still be out with Diana and all the others celebrating at what should be Jen's bachelorette party. How did this night get so turned around? First I was at the club with all the guys having a good time, then Chord pushed me into a unknown car after telling me that all of my drinks had been nonalcoholic, and then I'm being told by my best friend in the world that she is in love with me more than she loves her upcoming husband. "Hey baby, how was your night? We had a great time with all the girls although I think Jenna left early. She probably wanted to stay a little sober for tomorrow but I got completely wasted. To the point that I'm surprised I made it to the room. Are you ready for bed?" Shelby said as she stumbled into the room and passed out on the couch head first. After letting out a long sigh, I got up and carried her into the bedroom and took her shoes, jacket, and all of the jewelry before I climbed in next to her lying there looking up at the ceiling. What am I going to do?
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It was a half an hour before the wedding was supposed to start; I was sitting on the bench that was against my large window in my room at my parent's house. Looking out it watching all the wedding guests arrive. They all looked so happy and excited to be here to help us celebrate this special day but all I could do was fake my smile because I poured my heart out to Harry and he ran as fast as he could. I felt my eyes starting to water but tried to dry them and stop crying because my makeup had already been done. "Jen, he called Chord and said that he isn't coming. He doesn't think it would be a good idea to show up and be a part of the wedding. I'm so sorry Jen." Naya told me coming up next to me and taking a seat on the bench with me. "We honestly wouldn't have planned last night if we thought he was going to act this way." "It's not your fault. I knew admitting all of this to him was going to change our relationship no matter how it would have turned out. It just kind of sucks knowing I've lost my best friend." "Well at least you know for sure and won't be walking down the aisle with any regrets." "That is true, that is what I really wanted." I told her as I took a tissue to clear the tears from my eyes. "Ok, it's time to get the dress on and get ready!" My mom said coming in the room followed by all of my bride's maids already in their outfits with their hair and makeup already done also.
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"Where are you Shum? Everybody is looking for you!" Chord asked me when I called him right before the wedding was supposed to start. "I'm not going to make it or rather I can't make it. I can't stand there next to him and watch her devout herself to him. That is a form of torture that I just can't take and it won't be fair to anyone, including Jen." "Ok, I'll just tell Kevin to put your suit on and take your place then." "Thanks man. Tell Jen I'm sorry for everything." "Will do" I hung the phone up and threw down to the seat next to me. I was sitting in my car in the far corner of the yard in front of the house. All of the guests were passing me not giving my car a second thought with their happy faces and excitement in going to this wedding. There were a couple of photographers out in the middle of the street hoping to get some pictures of the wedding but the security that Jen had hired was doing a pretty good job at keeping them away. I debated all morning whether to come to the wedding or not. On one hand I am still her best friend and should be there to help her celebrate her best day but it was still going to be like watching my own death standing there being able to see her face the whole time she is saying her vows to be with Michael forever. The fear and heartache won over in the end when I pulled up to the house and I saw Michael, Mark, and some family member I guessed standing on the front porch.
It was twenty minutes before the wedding was supposed to start; I decided to just walk along the tree line hoping to just see her for a second. Jen is always beautiful even when she arrives to set at 4am without a bit of makeup but I knew she would be astonishing today and I just wanted to see her. No matter how today played out I knew our friendship was never going to be the same and that killed me so I wanted to pretend just a little bit longer. I walked past the few rows of cars that had formed small rows in the yard in front of mine and could hear the music playing with each step closer I took. Jen's two small cousins were chasing each other around the house in their wedding gear. The little girls were trying to hit the boys with some of the flower petals before the moms came over and started yelling at them. It tugged at my heart to see kids running around being silly and goofy just because they can. They don't know the stress and drama that comes with being older and it causes me to almost feel bad for them. Also it made me realize that I'm 30 without a wife or kids. It would be tough to continue with my career the way I have been with them but it is something I've been wanting more and more lately.
I reached the side of the house then and saw the lanterns in the backyard lit up with all of the guests making their way to their tables while the music continued. It looked perfect and just the way she had wanted it in her mind. This is going to be the perfect night for her. Something caught my eye then and I looked up and saw her sitting next to the large window that is her room in the house. Her hair was straight as it could be with her makeup accenting her face to its extreme beauty. It took my breath away at the vision of beauty I saw before me except for the sight of the small tears rolling down her face. Naya walked in next to her then I thought she would stop crying now but instead more tears started to fall and she started to grasp for air. In an instant I knew exactly why she was crying harder now. Naya must have just told her that I wasn't coming. Oh my, she is crying because of me. I can't deal with this anymore. I went ahead and moved to the back yard and stood next to the back corner for a minute before moving to the far table where Ryan, Ian, and Brad were sitting with their plus one.
"What are you doing out here Shum? Shouldn't you be inside getting ready with the rest of the wedding party?" Brad asked me when I sat down and started drink some of the champagne on the table. "It's a very long story. The bullet point that you need to know are that Jen and I had a bit of a falling out and I didn't think it would be right to still be in the wedding." "So what you are saying is that you and Jenna figured out you have stronger feelings for each other than friendship and it became awkward." Ryan said with a bit of a laugh while Ian and Brad gave me a look that told me they were thinking the same thing. "How did I mean you told you about I mean yeah something like that." "Well Shum we have 10 minutes till the wedding starts so spill." Brad said and everyone at the table leaned in closer.
I was in the middle of telling them what happened this morning when the music changed and I saw Jen's parents start to come out of the house. "It's clear you are in love with her Harry. You only have a matter of minutes before you are just another person in her life and will never be able to be more than that. Are you willing to live like that for the rest of your life?" Ryan asked me as the girls started walking out then with Heather being the first one out. They had short dressed that were deep purple with small gold accents all over while Kevin who I assumed was wearing my tux, had a matching gold tie. "I don't even know if I love her enough to stop her or the wedding. Maybe this is how it was supposed to be and I'm just meant to stay here without saying a word." "Do you really feel that way? Do you really think you don't love her enough? Tell me, where is Shelby right now?" He asked me but then the wedding march started to play and we all stood up and look at Jen as she started to walk out. I literally had to hold onto the table because she knocked the breath out of me. The wedding dress that I had seen on her before didn't seem like it was the same on she was wearing now. It was long with a sheer fabric on top of the spaghetti straps and went up around her neck. The fabric flowed down her body hugging it in all of the right places but wasn't too tight that she couldn't breathe. Her arms were completely bare except for the veil that covered her arms when she took a step.
I knew right then and there that I was without a doubt in love with Jen and wanted nothing more than her. The vision of my future came into sight for me then and I saw Jen's face running around my head as my future wife and the mother to my kids. She knew all of my faults and strengths and I knew hers. There was no reason for me trying to fight it as long as I had been because here she was reaching the guy she was getting ready to marry and I was too late.
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"It's almost our turn. Are you ready for this sweetheart?" My dad asked as we watched Lea walk out the door and the flower girls and ring bearers were taking their turns now. "Yeah I think so." "It's a real shame that Harry couldn't make it after all. Seeing as he is your best friend." I was trying my hardest to hold back my tears now because it was too late to touch up the makeup. It is a wedding though so I could say they are tears of joy. "I guess something big must have come up." "I will love you forever sweetheart and you are the happiest thing to ever happen to me, but I think you are making the wrong choice. Michael is a great young man but Harry is your soul mate. It is clear as day and you need to realize that before it is too late. Harry is the one you should be walking down the aisle to." I couldn't help but use the small cloth tissue I had wrapped around my bouquet to dry up my eyes now. "He didn't want me Daddy. I told him I loved him more than Michael and he ran away." My dad looked completely shocked but pulled my arm through his and started walking forward when the music changed and it was now my turn.
We made it out through the door and down the steps. The second I hit solid ground, I looked up to see Michael smiling at me as if I was an angel. It broke my heart to think of how much he truly loved me but that I didn't return the feelings. I loved him as much as I love Mark or Cory but not the way I should so I had convinced myself that I would learn to love him. It is better that I live through a little pain and have someone rather than be alone. Even though my eyes were watching Michael, I was still scanning the crowd through the sides of my eyes hoping that he is here in the sidelines but I never saw him.
"Who gives this woman away?" The minister from the church I went to when I was growing up asked. "Her mother and I do." "Let's all be seated then." Michael took my hand from my father's and led me up the two stairs to the small stage that we spent all last week building. "We are gathered her to celebrate the union on Michael and Jenna in Holy Matrimony. Love is a beautiful and special gift and these two are blessed to have found each other and are devoting their lives together as one today. If anyone has a reason for these two not to be wed, speak now or forever hold your peace." "I object" I heard the objection from behind me but recognized the voice without even turning around but I turned to look anyways. There he was. Harry was standing next to the far corner table next to Ryan who was clapping with happiness now.
"I object to this wedding because I am completely in love with the bride and I think this wedding would be a mistake." He started to walk closer now weaving through all the tables. My eyes never left him except to look down at one of the tables near the stage to see Naya holding her hands over her heart with a big wet smile. "It's true that I have been hiding these feelings for a long time and most of that was because I was scared. Nothing is scarier though than the idea of you getting married right now without knowing how I really feel about you. I love you Jen more than you could possibly imagine and I'm asking you to choose me." He had made it to the bottom of the steps and had his eyes glued on me. "What the hell Shum?" Michael asked as he moved to stand on the middle step between Harry and me in an almost protective manner. "I'm sorry Michael but she needs to hear this. She has to know how much I love her before she marries you. If she denies me then I will walk out of here and out of both of your lives forever but she needs to know everything and I need to know her answer." They both looked at me know while everyone else in the audience did as well.
"Where is Shelby and what does she have to say about this little confession?" "I broke up with her this morning. She obviously was really upset but there wasn't anything I could do because I'm head over heels for you and nothing she would have said or done would have made a difference." Harry told me without breaking away from my eyes. "Jen this is ridiculous. Please just tell him to leave so we can get on with the ceremony." Michael said turning so he was completely facing me hoping to gain the upper hand I thought. My sight was on Harry though, he was standing here asking me to choose him and be with him. It was what I had been hoping would happen all week and especially the last day when we kissed and I poured my heart out to him. Why did he run away though if he had these feelings for me too though? My dad was right though and we are soul mates in more ways than just a friendship. Harry was also my soul mate in love and that made warmth run through my body almost immediately and it felt like I was never going to cry ever again.
"I know you are wondering why I ran off last night but I just didn't know how to answer you or just how much I really do love you then. Everything became clear today and it will feel like death for you not to choose me." There was never really a choice between the two and I turned all the way around so I was facing the guests and handed Lea my bouquet before I turned back around to face Michael. "I'm so sorry Michael but I can't marry you. My heart belongs with Harry and I would be lying if I said it didn't. Please don't hate me but I just can't marry you." I took my ring off and put it back in Michael's hand. He looked pissed but sad at the same time. "I guess it's better to go through this now rather than after we are already married. I'm upset that I couldn't love you enough but I understand." He closed his hand around the ring and walked off the small stage while all of his immediate friends and family followed behind him.
After everyone that was leaving was out of sight, I turned back to Harry. "So you really love me and not just think you love me?" "I love you more than you could ever imagine." Shum pulled me in for a kiss then and I knew that I chose right. This was my home now and forever. "It's a shame we wasted all of these amazing decorations though." Lea said standing next to me still holding our bouquets while the guests were still watching us. "Yeah, it is beautiful out here but at least it will make for a great party." I announced but Harry had a weird look across his face before he took my hands in his. "Jenna Noelle Ushkowitz, we have been best friends for three years now. You are the one I go to when I'm having problems in my life. You are the person who brings a smile to my face no matter what is going on. You are the one that I see myself going old with." He dropped down on one knee then while still holding my hands in his. "Jen, will you do me the honor of marrying me right now?"
I stared at him in shock at this. "I uh what? You want to marry me right now?" "Yeah I do, we already know each other better than most married couples and I promise you that I have enough love for you to make this last. I want to marry you Jen." I was completely in tears now. How did my life change so completely in the last hour? "I would love to marry you Harry." He broke out in the biggest smile and then swung me around while getting tangled up in my dress. "Let's reset", the pastor announced and everyone moved around back to their starting places. The girls started moving back to the house while Cory, Mark, and Chord stood next to Harry up on the stage. My mom stood up and ran back in the house before anyone else started to move. Where on Earth was she going? Before I could ask anyone out loud, she came back down the stairs and walked over to me and my dad. "These were my parent's first set of wedding rings. She was diagnosed with cancer shortly before they were to renew their wedding vows and decided to just stick with small traditional rings. She gave these to me and I want you and Harry to use them." She showed them to me before handing them to the younger kids. The band that Harry would wear was gold with small diamond shapes etched into the gold all the way around it. Mine was a gold band with a large square diamond in the middle with red and blue jewels wrapping all the way around it. "They are beautiful mom. Thank you so much." She gave me a kiss before she went and took her seat. "Now let's do this for real this time." My dad said talking my hand again.
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We waved to everyone and blew kisses to the crowd as we got into Harry's car. "I love you wife" "I love you more husband" He gave me a kiss before his phone started to ring. "Hello?" "Harry Shum, would you like to explain to me why you broke up a wedding and then got married yourself without telling your father and me?" "I'm so sorry mom. It was kind of a last minute…wait how did you know about all of this?" "Check the new Harry." "Uh, I'm going to have to call you back mom." "Don't you dare hang up on me Junior! At least tell Jen hi for us and welcome her to the family." I heard his mom shout out quickly before he hung the phone up. He started scanning the web to try to find any news out on us before he tapped on a article form e online.
Co-stars Harry Shum Jr. and Jenna Ushkowitz were married tonight after her engagement and planned wedding with Michael Trevino was abruptly canceled. It happened very last minute since all of Michael's family and friends were seen walking out of the house and getting into their cars. One of the guests leaving informed us that Harry and Jenna were indeed exchanging vows as he was talking. Tune in here for any new details regarding this wonderful news.
There were a couple of pictures attached to the article. A few were of the guests leaving, two of Michael walking to his car, and one of Harry standing by the side of my house looking up in the direction of where my room should be. "I just wanted to see your face." He told me as I stayed focused on that picture. "You were here the whole time?" "Yeah" "You are amazing" I kissed him this time but was interrupted by Mark knocking on the window. "You might want to go ahead and leave now before Jen changes her mind again and decides to go on her honey moon with me." Harry bopped him in the nose before we drove off heading straight for Hawaii for the next three weeks. It was completely perfect.
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