The darkness was thick and unforgiving, punishing me with nightmares when I tried to fight the black. It was like I was drowning, and I had no way of swimming to the surface. I had to let the ocean run its course and pray that it swept me to where I needed to be without killing me first. Mental demons would suddenly appear, taunting me, downgrading me and scorning me for my desires and needs. Telling me I wasn't strong enough or good enough or worthy enough. And there was always Colin there. Staring at me. Doing nothing. His face had a faintly remorseful look but other than that, he was emotionless. As though he no longer cared…

This happened every time I was 'dead'. I had no doubt that Loki could see and feel what I was enduring. It made me feel weak and vulnerable. My demons were happy with this. I think they enjoyed it. Hell, of course they did. That's their job, isn't it? Gain enjoyment from inner battles and emotional breakdowns? That kind of thing? And then, suddenly, the dream shifted into something terrifying but beautiful at the same time.

I was lying on a bed. Green drapes on a four poster bed, with golden linen on the edges. I was not chained or bound or gagged physically in any way, but I could not move my limbs for the life of me. I had heard of these kinds of dreams from horny teenage girls when I was still in high school, and they dreamed that they were ravished by celebrities or fictional characters, or even boys at school, and then they wake up and feel like they've wet the bed four times over.

A small chuckle sounded from the dark depths of the room I was in. All I could see was the bed. A face appeared in the black surroundings, as though the room was simply a black fog and that was it. It was Loki. He had a dark smirk on his face. Something in my mind told me that, maybe, this dream would be like those ones the teenagers spoke of. This is the monstrous Loki, isn't? This is the broken Loki.

"Alfirin… You've awoken…" He whispered, the tones making me shudder.
"L-Loki…"
"Hush." He silenced me immediately. "You will endure the silence." And, all of a sudden, I could not speak. I tried, I most certainly did, but not a sound exited my mouth. "Now, you cannot scream from what I am about to do to you…" Oh dear Gods…

He crawled up the bed slowly and menacingly, his battle suit making near to no sound. My breathing was ragged, and it seemed like that was the only sound I could make. "Are you afraid, Alfirin? Are you frightened for what I'm about to do to you? You're trembling…" And he was right. I was shaking all over. "Is it from fear? Or… Perhaps it's something else…" Oh my Gods… "Your God. I am your God. Just as you are mine." That sounded vaguely familiar, as though he had something approximate to it before. And then, suddenly, he bit my neck hard. It fucking hurt, I'll tell you now. He licked it and then bit it again in the same place. Ouch. I wanted to scream his name more than anything, but I couldn't. My freedom of speech had been stolen from me, just as my heart had. All I could do was breathe heavily.

His fingers sneaked down to my hips, massaging them slowly as he held himself up with an elbow propped by my head. His lips kept dipping into the curve of my neck, scraping his teeth against my throat none too gently. And then, his fingers gradually coasted down my thigh, slowly rising up to the hem of my dress. I shivered as the satin glided up my thighs and it ended up around my hips. Loki looked down and smirked at my underwear. What was I wearing again? I looked down quickly to find I was wearing simple white cotton underwear.

"I love it when a girl wears cotton underwear. It seems so… innocent." He growled. Oh my Gods… He pushed his thumb under the waistband. The heat in my stomach intensified to a fire that was impossible to put out. Loki hooked his thumb at the side of my underwear, looping the edges up. It strained the material and he grinned. I flushed.
"Oh, you are most beautiful when you blush." He murmured against the flesh of my throat. His middle finger slowly stroked the pant line on my right leg. There was no way that I couldn't shudder.

The magical finger glided along the fabric before stroking precisely where my… ahem… was… I would have moaned breathily, had I been able to make noise, so I just had to inhale sharply. Close enough. I could feel my underwear getting damper by the second, and I suspect he was enjoying it, the selfish bastard. Terror gripped, just as much lust did, when I saw Loki's eyes staring into mine. They were a swirl of black, blue and green. When he is feeling especially lustful, his eyes darken to a deeper blue-green. But these eyes… They had black in them… He grinned evilly and moved the underwear aside.

Waking up was sudden, just like it always was. I sat bolt upright, gasping for breath. When I'm 'dead', I do not have a pulse, therefore, I do not breathe. Fuck all those vampire fictions. No pulse, no breath. Simple. "Alfirin!" I heard Loki shout from another part of my house (I've no idea where), but I was still trying to remember that I was alive. It never failed to shock me that I had lived, yet again, after each death. I'm just waiting for the time when I actually do die, and I don't wake up. This is the first time I'll be hoping it never comes.

"Alfirin…" I felt a hand on my shoulder and almost immediately I felt like I could breathe steadily. Loki shushed me and stroked my hair. "My lady… You've awoken." I gulped in some more air before answering.
"I have… indeed… Where exactly were you?" I was pondering why it suddenly felt easier to breathe when Loki was beside me, and I had a theory.
"I had literally just returned from the library. I informed Casey that you were ill with the flu, and would not be in. I told her you would be absent for today and we would see how well you recuperated." Loki explained.
"You shouted my name almost as soon as I awoke…" Loki chuckled softly, holding me close.
"I could feel your conscious levels suddenly increase."

"And you returned as soon as you sensed that?" I questioned.
"Of course…" Loki looked at me intensely, "You were finding it difficult to breathe, weren't you?" I shrugged a little.
"I don't breathe when I'm under, but when I woke, it didn't steady until you were in the next room or so, and then it went completely back to normal when you touched me, as though I wasn't just drowning." My Other's head tilted.
"I see… The more time we spend in each other's company, the smaller the distance we can stray from one another…" He stroked my hair some more. It felt very nice.

"You know… I was pondering on something while you were… unconscious." Loki murmured after a three minute silence of us just holding each other.
"Hm?" I hummed.
"I think that your abilities only truly appeared when I came into your life." It sounded plausible, I suppose. "And did you know you speak while you are sleeping?" Oh God, what have I said? I stared at him with wide eyes.

"You whisper things in my mind, but I know you do not want me to hear them." Shit, what HAVE I SAID? Loki stared into my eyes deeply. Does he even know what he does to me?

"You were telling Colin to come back. And you were calling for me. Calling my name." His eyes were dark, "You were screaming my name, but not in fear. No, it was not in fear… I wonder… What were you dreaming about?" I gulped. What exactly could I say? Oh yeah, you were about to ravish me and you took away my movement and my voice. Ya know, casual dreams, as ya do. Shit, I actually thought that. His eyes were darker than the blackness from which he materialised in my dream, yet still managed to keep the blue-green tint. It wasn't like the dream Loki. I'm thankful that they weren't. It felt so alien to have such an incredible God want me. To need me. And I can't believe I am still doubting myself. I think if he was lying about everything that had occurred between us, I would not rest until I found a way to kill myself completely and utterly.

"What will it take for you to believe me? I want you. I do not want to trick you or use you. I want to own you, love you, caress you, hold you…" Loki whispered, still staring at me. It was so difficult to breathe now. So, in order to just make it even worse, I grabbed his face and snogged the hell out of him. He returned it earnestly, shoving his tongue into my mouth and gripping my shoulders. I think this was the second hottest kiss we've ever shared. The first? The one in the library, definitely. Have yet to get completely over it, actually.

I could not stop the moan building up inside of me from leaving my mouth. It's just impossible. I mean, seriously, who would be able to achieve it? Not me, that's for sure. You do know that you are no longer ON, don't you? Holy shit… I'm done! Ahahahaha! No more bleeding for another month! And that means… Yes! Sex! With Loki! Yes!

I actually laughed. I pulled away and laughed hysterically. It was the stupidest thing I had ever done in Loki's company, and I was blushing with embarrassment, but I couldn't stop. I had killed the moment. But, all was not lost, as Loki was chortling with me, a broad grin across his face. "That completely ruined the moment…" I mumbled with an apologetic smile.
"All is not lost, my lady." Loki susurrated in my ear. "We can simply continue later." He had a marvellous point there.

"We've had a very exciting two weeks, haven't we?" I said as I fixed us some dinner. Loki smirked from where he was leaning on the counter.
"Indeed we have, my lady. You've met four Gods, possessed an Immortal item, fought one said Gods, and you've died once. That's rather impressive." He chuckled as I giggled softly.
"Why thank you, I do try." I grinned, "And now that I'm off, we can have sex at some point too." I paused, "That such a blunt statement, it's actually embarrassing." Loki merely laughed at me with a wink.

"The public disturbance however…" Loki spoke up, "That will cause some… disruptions… within the government systems. Particularly the organisations built to protect the public from this." A very valid point.
"But who on Earth would come here? Soggy Britain where nothing interesting happens? The only exciting things here is the BBC dramas, and they're simply excellent, no question about it. I've always wanted to meet the Doctor, you know. And Sherlock. Cheekbones and all." I rambled. Loki stiffened as I spoke of these men. I smirked. "And, of course, I've got my Sex God in my kitchen getting all jealous over fictional characters. What would I do without him, I wonder? Probably die of deprivation." I threw a wink his way and he grinned.

"Excellent." He commented lowly, observing me as I cooked. I could feel his penetrating stare upon me the entire time, but I was not going to blush, not this time, no.
"I just wonder… Who actually would come to Britain to cover this up? And question us?"

The front door burst open and we both stared at each other in shock. We rushed to the kitchen entrance and we saw a man flanked by several soldiers with guns. The man was coloured, tall, had a leather trenchcoat on, and wore an eyepatch. He kept a hand on his pistol in its holster. "My name is Director Nick Fury. I came all the way down here to soggy Britain to cover this whole mess up and talk to you. I've got some questions for you."

Dun, dun, dunnnn! Short chapter, a bit more citrus at the beginning, no matter how brief. I don't mind this chapter. Could be better, could be worse. By the way, I've changed my Tumblr name to 'lunahiddles', so, uh, yeah. Also, I mentioned in my previous note about the Tom idea. Would you like in novel format (IT WILL BE REALLY REALLY LONG IF IT'S A ONESHOT) or in script version, which is how it is currently written out? PICK PLEASE! I love you all, so very much. I'd like to thank Midnight Valentina for following me on Tumblr, and for being a faithful reader and reviewer. Breathless Wind: You make me laugh so much xD
Kyleeishere1: Thank you very much for the long review :D I will be sure to keep the advice in mine when writing the whole thing. I think it will be a chapter thing, and I will be making it separate. The alternative chapter will probably be added… Either at the end of story (when I've finished), or when I've finished writing the alternative chapter up, and will be posted as the 'second chapter'. I'm sorry if this inconvenient for you all, but if you have an queries, just review/PM me! Cheers folks. Adios. God kveld.

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