Dear Frank,

This is possibly the hardest letter I will ever have to write. I'm not quite sure how to tell you seeing as just weeks ago we were planning on going public with our situation. Well, that was before everything changed. It feels as though my whole life was flipped, twisted and turned inside out in the space of a day. I can't believe I have to say this to you and believe me it's breaking my heart with every word I write. We were going to see the world, go to the places we wouldn't normally see on tour, we were going to go on romantic holidays to Paris and not care who saw us hold hands or kiss in the moonlight by the Eiffel Tower. We were going to go to London and go on the London Eye, staring out at the world, treasuring every second we spent together. We were going to go to Hawaii and we would both complain because we'd get tanned despite our pale skin tone. We were going to move in together and we would argue over the amount of dogs we'd own, but we'd soon forgive each other and fall asleep on the couch together. We were going to cook for each other and have to get take out when it was your turn because you always burnt the food. We were going to spend the rest of our lives happily together and no one was going to stop us.

But that's all changed Frank.

I got Lyn-Z pregnant.

And the thing is, I can't let my baby be brought up without a father and I can't let Lyn-Z bring her up alone. So Lyn-Z and I are getting married.

I am so, so sorry. It was an extremely difficult decision for me to make and I am so devastated because now, our plans have been destroyed.

You know I love Lyn-Z. I always have to a degree, but my love for you has always been stronger, our relationship wasn't just passion, it was real, it was true love. I've always felt like, as cheesy as this sounds, you were the one.

Due to this unexpected change of circumstances, I feel like we should take a break from the band. I don't know what else to suggest but I believe that some time apart may help the healing process between us. But, no amount of time will heal my broken heart.

I want you to know that whenever I look at you, I see my band mate, my best friend, my one true love. And despite this situation, that won't change. I hope that you and Jamia will get back together and perhaps start a family of your own some day. And I hope you will find it in your heart to forgive me, because my life without you Frank, whether you're my lover or not, is not worth living.

I will always love you.

Gerard