Chapter 1: Kurt's POV

Today is just the greatest day in my life, I thought to myself sarcastically as I walked through the hallways of McKinley hallways towards his glee rehearsal.

Today however, I didn't feel quite well. It had started at the beginning of the day when I had been rudely woken up by my step-brother, Finn. Since he had woken up way to late on a school morning he had to skip half his moisturizing routine, and this is not what I would do unless I wasn't feeling well.

I groaned as another locker slammed, giving another pulse to my already aching head. I didn't know why but my palms had felt sweaty all day too. Maybe I was just nervous for more bullying from my bully Karofsky, but that was confusing too because I never got sweaty palms, and I'm always nervous.

I coughed once, Even that one harsh cough made me groan. Crap I better not be getting sick, I thought as I turned the corner into the choir room where my friends where having their own conversations, and in Tina, and Mike's case, sucking each others faces off. Usually this would not have made me irritated but to day it did, it really, really did.

"Can you guys turn it down?" I rasped as loudly as my throat let me. Instantaneously the babble died down, but it was probably because at that moment the teacher Will Shuster had walked in.

"Tina and Mike I think thats enough." he spoke sternly at the two Asians who were yanked apart by Santana. "So... todays business, I have picked out a song possibility for our set list at Sectionals...And no its not Journey," he added, as some groaned. "No. I think this is a perfect opportunity to showcase other talent in this room."

I had been slowly drifting away when I heard this faintly and rolled his eyes as Santana smirked and said "Yup."

"I was wondering if maybe Kurt would want to do this solo," continued as he handed out the sheet music. It was Here Comes The Sun, by The Beatles. Kurt got it last and while he took it Mr. Shue frowned. "Are you feeling okay Kurt?"

"Yeah of course." I croaked out a lie. Truth is he felt awful.

"Are... you sure?... you look a little green." his frown deepened.

"I think I'll be fine if I just did the choreography today, . My throat dosn't feel really good today." This, of course as obvious because I could barely speak. "Maybe Finn should sing it today."

"If- if your sure... Finn?"

"Got it." Finn jumped out of his seat and got ready to start.

Even through the beginning of the choreography, which was not difficult at all considering the others they had done, I felt even worse. I groaned as he side stepped once more and a strong dizzy spell came over me.

I could faintly see the people around me looking at Finn as he sang before everything went black.

"Kurt? Kurt? Kurt Hummel!" Someone was putting a hand on his forehead and tutting. "He's heating up fast."

Thats , I told himself. I slowly opened my eyes to see people staring at me. Wait why am I on the floor?

Just as I finished that thought Rachel came through the door with a boy with a hospital green v-neck. Damn he's hot...wait I don't even know...is he even gay, he is a nurse? Wait no your stereotyping! Stop it! These thoughts were running round, and round my mind making my head pound.

"The nurse was busy so she told me to come. I'm the assistant." The beautiful boy told the Glee Club. "I'm Blaine Anderson, by the way." There was a murmur of hello's through the room. Blaine walked over to me, and once right in front of me he crouched down. "Hi,"

"Hi." I could barely make any noise, either because I was just breathless, or because my throat was so painful.

"Wait... Your the new quarterback!" Finn suddenly exclaimed loudly. (He had quit after the whole Quinn thing).

"Yeah, I am." Blaine smiled. My heart swooned. God, I fall too fast! "So any way... back to work. How are you feeling?"

"Well... my heads really hurting, and my throat feels like shit. But other then I feel okay." I quickly replied. "And my palms have been feeling clammy all day,, but I just thought that was because I was nervous for any... never mind." I added to the end because having the his friends worry about him would lead to his parents knowing, and he was not ready for that to happen.

Blaine frowned. "Rachel said you fainted."

Huh. Blaine watched me intently.

"Are you gay? Because you are a nurses assistant?" Finn asked loudly. I turned to glare at his step-brother.

"That is such a stereotype, Finn." I wheezed. Before I went into a fit of coughs.

I was actually sort of glad he had asked that because then i could know wether or not it was right to pine over him.

Blaine quickly cleared his throat looking behind his shoulder quickly at the rest of the club. "No I'm actually not. I'm just being a nurses assistant for the money." My heart sank to his toes. "I actually have a girlfriend. Quinn Fabray." he continued.

Of course you do, your a really hot new quarterback.

Blaine blushed to the roots of his hair, and Mercedes spluttered over giggles behind her hand. "What?" I croaked confused, raising an eyebrow.

"Um...you sorta said that I was hot." Blaine said blushing even harder. I felt my face heat up to like a hundred degrees.

"Oh crap! Now you probably think I'm just creepy, and don't want to be around a f-faggy fairy boy like me... So you can just leave and let Finn drive me home." Tears started filled up in my eyes as I said all that about myself. It reminds me of Karofsky's "joke's".

The ND looked shocked, and Puck was glaring at Blaine. "If you talk down on my boy Hummel I will beat your ass. He's had enough crap from the jocks." Santana, and Mercedes nodded in agreement.

Blaine looked more shocked, and I can't tell why but his eyes were a bit sad. "Actually I wasn't going to say anything. And I'm fine with you being gay." He looked deeply into my eyes as he said this. I noticed that they were a very beautiful hazel. This was not helping, so I looked away.

"So do you think you can walk yourself or are you still dizzy?' Blaine asked.

"I'll try to get up by myself." I tried standing up and swayed dangerously, and almost fell before I felt two pairs of strong arms wrapped around my waist. Looking up i saw Blaine looking back at me. "Um... I think you should let go. Straight guys don't usually do this."

Blaine blushed and let go but kept a strong hold on my hand to steady me on my feet. "Right... Uh yeah we should get you to the nurses room so your parents can pick you-"

"No, I'll bring him home. He's my original ride anyway." Finn interjected quickly.

"Okay then... My works done then. See you around Kurt." He let go of my hand walked out of the room without a second glance.

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On the way home Finn was silent, which was odd for him because he's usually so talkative. I was thinking about Blaine, not because he was good looking, but because he had acted strange after Finn had asked about his sexuality.

I coughed harshly, and my step-brother looked sideways at him.

"That must of hurt."

"Yup." i coughed again.

"I can't believe Quinn's actually dating that new kid." Finn finally said starting up a long awaited conversation.

"Weeeelll... First I wasn't lying about him being- you know...hot." I colored a bit. "And second he's the new quarterback so I think Quinn's just trying to do win back her reputation. She sorta lost it when she was pregnant."

"Quinn's a bitch for using the kid like that. I wish I could warn him that she does that."

"As much as I would love them to break up, I don't think its any of our business." I paused going into a fit of coughs. "It would have been if she was still in glee but she's not."

"Argg... Whatever."

"Why do you care? I thought you were in love with Rachel?"

"Quinn hurt me badly, and she's very capable of doing it again." I sighed in agreement. "I don't feel like Blaine should be in a place that is vulnerable for that kind of heartbreak."

"Wow, your being actually surprisingly smart. I don't know though the way Blaine said he had a girlfriend he didn't seem very exited by it, so maybe he's just using her too."

"Yeah. Maybe."

We where quiet the rest of the way home. When we got to the Hudmel house I slowly walked up the stairs and just flopped into bed with my clothes on. Yawning i rolled over and fell into deep sleep.

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Blaine POV

I plopped onto my bed thinking about the boy I had met that day. And damn he was beautiful, even though he was sick.

The problem was I wasn't really out at McKinley (obviously), because the last time people knew I was bullied pretty badly. I had panicked when Finn had asked me if I was gay, and when Kurt had said all that stuff about himself my heart broke because he looked so hurt.

I feel bad for using Quinn as my beard especially when she looks soft for a Cheerio, and if I wasn't gay I would totally say that she was hot.

When Kurt had spoke out loud I had felt so attracted to Kurt at that moment. I think I would have dove right into his arms if I knew that doing that would tell the world that I'm gay. I almost fell in love with Puck (not really) when he had stood up to Kurt. It told me that the group was not homophobic. Maybe I would join and start by coming out to them. I would have to tell Quinn so it wouldn't sound so harsh.

I sighed. "Why is life so hard sometimes?" I don't think the football team would take the idea of me joining the Glee club softly. Maybe I'll talk to Kurt first. Yep that seems like the logical thing to do.

And that would just be an excuse to get to know him.

How would that reck of a football team take my sexuality? That question had one answer that was so obvious: beat me up, probably rip up my letterman jacket. Stupid jacket, I was only on the team for my father. Sometimes I really hate my dad. The only connection with me is that we both have is that we look related. We both have curly hear, and the same shaped nose.

One aspect that I heavily hate about him is that if something doesn't go just as he had he completely flips out. Thats why coming out to him scares me. When I was bullied at my old school I told him that it was because I was so short for my age. And I like wearing bow-ties. He seemed to take this gladly, but my mom was not so easy to convince. In the end I told her. She had been raised in a catholic family so she had never taken the fact of homosexuality nicely. So she told me to hide the fact so I wouldn't be known as a disgrace to the family. That was the most painful think I had to hear.

I sighed, and signed on to Facebook. Writing Kurt Hummel in the search bar I found his page right away. After looking at his pictures for a bit (he was beautiful) I sent him a friend request hoping that he would remember me.

"Dinner!" I heard my mother yelling from downstairs. I sighed again. She was really bitter towards me now.

"Just a sec mom!" I shouted back. I closed my laptop and looked in the mirror smoothing my shirt. Because of my father I always felt that I had to look my best at all times in front of him. I ran down the steps, and into the dining room. "Sorry I'm late. Homework."

I sat down next to my little brother Everett. "Its fine honey." My smile at my mom didn't reach my eyes. I was still lost in thought about what to do.

"So Blaine," my father started in a tone that always scared me. "I have heard that you are now a nurses assistant. Why did you do this, and why didn't you tell me."

"Well... I'm old enough to make my own decisions, and I thought that I should make some of my own money. So yeah." I finished lamely.

"But there are other jobs in Ohio, aren't there?" I nodded. "So why a nurse? Don't you think thats a bit gay?" He spat out the last word, and I winced at his harsh tone.

"What does gay mean Daddy?" Everett asked. I turned to face him eyes still wide. If he heard the explanation from our father he would probably end up homophobic too, and I could not have my five year old brother be against my sexuality too.

She looked at my brother. "Sorry sweetie but, your a bit young to-"

"No, the sooner the better." my heart race quickened, "Being gay is wrong, and people who are gay will make you believe things that aren't right to believe. They are dirty pieces of trash. They are f-" The table jerked dangerously as I jumped up in anger. I was shaking so hard either from anger, or fear I don't know. "What's up with you?" my father snapped looking at my bright red face. A short temper was one thing I was not grateful to have gotten from my dad.

"Do you even know anyone who just happens to be gay?" I glared, anger boiling up inside me.

"I don't have to know anyone to that they are fa-" I held up my hand to shut him up. Dad looked livid.

"Your actually wrong about both of those things." My heart started beating hard against my chest. I didn't know where I was going but I wasn't planing on it. "First don't you dare say that shit about people who happen to love people of the same gender!" Everett looked confused. "And second you do know someone who's gay." Crap, crap, crap. My brain was telling me to shut up, but my heart told me that this was enough hiding. My mother gasped softly tears running down her cheeks.

"What are you talking about? Who do I know?"

"Hmmm... I don't know..." I said sarcastically. "Maybe me." Shit I did not just do that. All anger vanished from me and I started backing away.

My dad was quiet for awhile until he slowly studied my scared form, slowly pointed up to my room. I nodded and ran up.

Closing and locking my door I slumped onto my bed, and started sobbing. I was so scared. I didn't know where any of this came from but it had slipped. At least he didn't beat me up. Yet.

After a while, I opened my laptop and checked if Kurt a accepted yet. I didn't hope much because I knew he was sick and probably sleeping. And what I was guessing, I hoped it was just because he was sleeping. Just as I was about to log off I got a notification telling me he had gotten back to me.

I wiped the tears off my cheeks and decided to chat with him.

To Kurt: Hi, I hope you remember me. So anyway...are you feeling any better?

I waited a couple minutes before I got a reply.

To Blaine: Hi, yes I do remember you. How could I remember someone who caught me like that. (I blushed a bit remembering that) and no I don't feel any better, I mean I slept a bit and had something for my headache, but my I still feel like crap.

To Kurt: Aww :( I'm sorry.

To Blaine: Anyway... why are you talking to me anyway? Don't you have a girlfriend?

To Kurt: Can I tell you something?... I know I just met you and all that, but please? You can say no if it seems creepy...

I waited a couple minutes. Kurt was probobaly thinking I was crazy. But I can't help but I have a feeling in my heart that I could trust him. It must have been something in his eyes. Beautiful eyes. Stop it Blaine you don't know if he's going to answer you yet.

Just then I got a reply.

To Blaine: Of course, some people would think this is weird but people tell me I'm a good listener. So what's up?

I sighed preparing myself for this. Wow, I really did have a lot of courage tonight. If you could call it that.

To Kurt: I'm...gay.

I could almost hear Kurt gasp in surprise.

To Blaine: You sure?

To Kurt: Positive.

To Blaine: Well then. Why are you telling me?

To Kurt: I actually don't really know. I just feel like I can trust you. It sounds weird but its true.

To Blaine: …..Thanks for trusting me I guess. Do you know what your going to do about everything?

To Blaine: You don't have to tell me anything, remember that.

To Kurt: No its okay... Well so tonight at dinner my younger brother had asked my dad what gay means, but my dads reeeaallyy homophobic so I got scared that he would take my dads explanation. So anyway he started saying all this bullshit about gay people and I completely lost it I started by asking if he knew anyone like us and he said no. So I just told him that he knew me. I don't know what came over me but now I don't know what he'll do to me. He sent me to my room for now.

To Blaine: Your really brave to stand up to him like that. And to just come out to him.

To Kurt: Yeah I guess. But when you said all those horrible thing about your self I just wanted to burst into tears because you looked so hurt. Has anyone actually said those things to you?

To Blaine: Yep. All the time.

To Kurt: Tell me who. I'm with Puck. I will beat 'em up!

To Blaine: Your changing the subject. We were talking about your problems not mine.

To Kurt: Fine. Well I was thinking about joining Glee club first. I think its the first step to being brave enough to be myself. Then I'll tell them I'm gay. What Puck said made me realize that they wouldn't judge me.

To Blaine: That sounds like a good plan. And about them not judging you they wont. What about Quinn? She might seem all tough on the outside, but ever since she had her baby she's been really soft on the inside.

I sighed. I had forgotten about Quinn.

To Kurt: I don't know. I sorta forgot about that.

To Blaine: She used to be Glee maybe she wont be that hard on you and she will understand.

To Kurt: Why did she quit?

To Blaine: I guess to bring back her reputation as head cheerleader.

To Kurt: I hope thats why she's dating me.

To Blaine: It probably is.

To Kurt: It would make dumping her a lot easier.

To Blaine: Yeah well. Well if I want to live anytime soon I should probably go to sleep, so see you. I guess.

To Kurt: Yeah. Feel better soon. :) Good night. And thanks for listening to me, your friends were right you really have good ears.

To Blaine: Haha. Your welcome. Good night Blaine.

Kurt is offline.

I sighed flopping onto my back. Today was exhausting. And tomorow's going to be a long day.

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Kurt's POV

I closed my laptop and tried to fall asleep, but I just had too much on my mind. "O my god Blaine Anderson is gay." I softly told myself again. I had a chance with the cutest guy I have ever met! I still couldn't believe it. Blaine had said he trusted him because of something he had seen in my eye's. And he's the quarterback. I can't believe someone like that would even look at me like I'm more then a piece of shit under their nose.

My throat was still feeling awful, but my head felt better, and my fever had dropped fast during my nap. I really hoped I could go back to school soon, because then I could see Blaine. And he would join Glee club so I could see him almost everyday.

I was still worried about what would happen with his dad, but for now I just was happy that I wasn't alone.

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