Okay, the idea for this came from the fact that a) I love the Hunger Games, b) Kendall reminds me of Peeta (blonde, in love with Katniss(I mean Logan), and willing to do anything to protect him), and c) Logan always seems to say "kindle" when he says "Kendall."

So, yeah, this was story was born. Not much to say about it, other than:

Enjoy!

Kendall sometimes finds it hard to believe that there are days when he can be bored in L.A. Between an apartment full of the latest gadgets (and a swirly slide), the beautiful Palm Woods pool, living with his three best friends, and being the member of an increasingly popular boy band, it is easy to think that Kendall could always find something to do. But then there are days like this one. Days were Gustavo has given them some time off, where Katie and his mom are out at auditions (Katie has to do one commercial a semester if she wants to stay at the Palms Woods school), where James is rehearsing lines with Camille, where Carlos is off trying to win over the Jennifers, and where Logan is…well Kendall's not actually sure where Logan is at the moment. He's not in apartment 2J at any rate.

The blonde sighs and lifts himself off the couch, turning the TV off as yet another show fails to capture his attention. He heads towards the room he shares with Logan, thinking that even lounging around the pool by himself is better than being cooped up in the apartment all day. At least down there the sun is shining and he has the chance of running into someone who might be willing to keep him preoccupied. He stops just before opening the door, however, because he can just make out a voice on the other side and wonders how he could have not realized that Logan was actually in the apartment this whole time.

"Yes mom, it came yesterday."

There's silence as Mrs. Mitchell responds and Kendall's interest is piqued. He vaguely remembers Logan getting a package the day before, but the genius had failed to mention what it was and Kendall had been so engrossed in the video game he'd been playing that he had completely forgotten to ask.

"It'll definitely be helpful." There's some more silence until: "I know. And I really appreciate how much you support me."

Kendall is about to use the next bout of silence to barge into the room (learning what Logan's mysterious package is and getting to listen to Logan scream like a little girl seems like a win-win to the blonde), but Logan's next words stop him in his tracks.

"Of course I'm sure mom. I am completely in love with my Kindle."

Kendall's hand freezes, hovering just inches over the doorknob. His eyes widen, his eyebrows shooting up into his hairline. He can't possibly have just heard what he thinks he just heard. He backs away from the door, hitting the wall behind him with such force that it actually knocks the breath out of him. He stares in shock for a few seconds before the sound of shuffling feet drawing nearer snaps him back into action. It takes his brain about thirty seconds to realize that the footsteps belong to Logan and he's obviously coming to inspect the large thud that had resulted from the blonde's body hitting the wall.

He's gone and out of the apartment before Logan even gets the bedroom door open.

Kendall throws himself into one of the poolside cabanas, not even fazed by the disgruntled couple that glares at him for interrupting their alone time. He's in too much shock to even realize how close he came to being potentially scarred for life. Instead, he lets himself fall into one of the chairs, burying his face in his hands. He stays there until James and Carlos find him nearly an hour later.

He thinks his life is probably about to change drastically. And he's kind of freaking out a little it.

-/-

"Um, dude, are you okay?" James and Carlos have been watching their blonde friend just sit and stare into space for the past ten minutes and it's starting to get very awkward.

Kendall looks up at the helmet-clad boy as if just realizing his friends are there. "I-I don't know."

"Do you…want to talk about it?" James ventures carefully, not sure if his words will send his friend back into his own mind. Kendall usually talks to Logan about all his problems and James isn't quite sure why he isn't doing that now.

"Uh, I-I mean," he clears his throat, probably so that he'll sound less like a fourteen year old boy going through puberty the next time he talks, "that might be helpful."

"So…what happened?"

Kendall takes a deep breath, not even sure how to start. "Okay, you guys have to swear that this conversation will never leave this cabana." He fixes them with an intense glare. "You can't even tell Logan. No, you especially can't tell Logan."

James and Carlos both let their mouth's drop in surprise at that. Not once, in their entire ten years of friendship with the small genius, has Kendall ever requested they keep a secret from him. Kendall and Logan knew everything about each other, are so close that more than once all four members of the band have had to deny any other type of relationship between the blonde and the brunette than just friendship. Logan was the first person to see Kendall cry (something that, to this day, neither James or Carlos has seen) and Kendall was the first person able to convince a ten year old Logan that he wasn't going to leave him after the younger boy's father had left suddenly, leaving him behind. They didn't have secrets. Well they had plenty of secrets between the two of them, but they never kept secrets from each other. Until now, apparently.

After both his friends nod, a promise to remain silent, Kendall closes his eyes, breathing in deep. "I heard something today…When Logan was talking with his mom on the phone."

"Which would be…"

"That he loves me."

James and Carlos take the news much better than Kendall had. They don't even seem surprised by it actually. Carlos does take a moment to try and calm the obviously freaking out boy in front of him though. "Are you sure that's what you heard?" He asks, because even though he wouldn't be surprised if that was the truth, this is kind of a big deal, so it's probably best to make absolutely sure.

Kendall nods. "He was talking to his mom and I heard him say he was in love with "Kindle." That's how he says my name! It's always been how he says my name. And on top of that, he apparently got some package from her that's probably supposed to help him win me over!"

James raises an eyebrow at this. "Are you sure about that?" Logan is a genius, but he's not really very good at using said genius for diabolical plans, which that kind of sounds like it would be.

"I don't know! But what am I supposed to do! This could ruin our friendship!"

"Okay," James puts a hand on Kendall's shoulder, "let's be clear. You're freaked out about finding out that Logan loves you because it might ruin your friendship."

"Yes!"

"Not because you're suddenly finding out that he's in to guys."

"No! I don't care about that! …And I've always, sort of suspected…"

"And you're not freaking out because of the fact he's in love with you, just that it might ruin your friendship."

"No! Yes! Argh! I don't know!"

James shakes his head. "Listen Kendall, this is not really a surprise to us. Logan's pretty good at hiding his emotions, but he's slipped up from time to time. So, clearly your priority right now is to figure out how you feel about Logan."

"What? There's nothing to figure out. He's my best friend."

"Dude," Carlos gives him an exasperated look from underneath his helmet, "no offense, but you're an idiot."

"Excuse me?" Kendall stands up. He's is insulted by this and he's not sure why. They call each other idiots all the time, it's kind of like a group pet name. But the way Carlos says it sounds serious, like Kendall's IQ is actually lower than Jett's or something.

"Logan is obviously not just your best friend. I'm not saying you love him the same way he loves you," James coughs suddenly and it sounds suspiciously like "you do," but Carlos ignores him in favor of continuing his speech, "James and I are your best friends. Logan is…more than that. You're the only one that can figure out how much more though."

Kendall looks at his friend's, his mouth open in shock. "How…what?" He flops back down onto the chair. "I don't even know where to start."

Carlos shrugs. "Why don't you start with how Logan makes you feel just by being around you?" James nods in agreement.

"Okay…" Kendall lets his voice drift off, clearly losing himself in thought about his best friend. "He makes me happy, I guess. Like stuff is always more fun when Logan's doing it with us. He can even make studying interesting." At his friends' incredulous looks, he grins a little sheepishly. "Okay, he makes it bearable." He amends.

"And…?" Carlos prompts.

"And, well, I always want to make sure that he safe. I mean, I know he's a tough as you guys, now, but when we meet he was so small and scared of everyone and I hated that. I wanted to do whatever I could to make sure he didn't feel that way anymore and it never really went away."

"And…?" It's James that speaks this time.

"And," His brows furrow as he concentrates on really thinking about all the things his little genius of a best friend does to him. "And I always want to try my best at everything when he's around because he does that little half smile thing when he's proud of me and it makes me feel like I've just accomplished this impossible feat, even when it's something stupid and insignificant."

James and Carlos share a smile before turning back to the blonde boy who is starting to look like his whole world has shifted from it's axis. "And everything with him is just so easy and natural. I don't have to think twice about what I say or do, because even if it's stupid, even if he doesn't agree with it, he's still going to be my best friend and vice versa. He's my best friend and I'm honestly not sure how I would live without him. I'm not even sure how I managed before I met him." He finishes, without prompting from either of this friends.

"So…" Carlos actually looks a little nervous as he asks the next question. "How do you feel about kissing him?"

Kendall's face flushes and if James didn't feel so bad for his best friend he might actually laugh. Seeing Kendall blush is rare and if this weren't so serious, he'd be milking it for all it was worth. "I-I've never really thought about it before." He admits.

"So think about it." James tells him.

Kendall closes his eyes and the other two boys wait with baited breath to see what will happen. There's nothing for a few minutes and then a small smile spreads across their friend's face. It's not the biggest smile they've ever seen him wear, but it's the most genuine. They smile back, even though he can't see them, and know he must have his answer. When he opens his eyes again he smiles even more widely. "I am an idiot."

"Duh." Carlos agrees, but he's laughing, genuinely happy for his friend.

James shakes his head, also laughing lightly. "But that's one of the many reasons Logan loves you."

Kendall beams at these words. Just a little while ago they had shocked and confused him, but now, now they fill him with the kind of warmth that he doesn't think he'll ever get tired of. It's a feeling he's always associated with Logan, but he had never been able to put words to it until someone else had come along and done it. "You guys can head back to the apartment," he says, still grinning, "I'm going to sit here for a little while and figure out exactly what to say. I want this to be perfect!"

James and Carlos share another smile before nodding, both clapping their friend on the back and standing to leave. "Okay, buddy. See you in a little while. And good luck." Then they're gone and Kendall is once again alone in the cabana.

And now Kendall knows his life is about to change drastically. Only this time he's ecstatic about it.

-/-

Kendall literally whistles the whole way back up to 2J. Which is really all kinds of cheesy, but he can't help himself. He throws open the door and walks in to find Carlos and James on the couch watching TV and Logan, also on the couch, ignoring the TV in favor of a small device in his hands. "Hey guys!" He greets, sauntering up to the couch and grinning like a fool. "Hey Logie!"

He is distracted briefly by James and Carlos both shaking their heads frantically, eyes wide and clearly trying to convey some secret message to the blonde. He has no idea what that message might be, however. He quirks an eyebrow at them, hoping to more successfully convey his message (which is basically uh, what?) through body language than his friends have. He turns back to face Logan, his smile growing even larger. "So Logan, I need to tell you something."

Logan looks up and flashes him a smile that makes his heart do back flips (how has he never noticed the effect his friend has on him before?). "Okay. Oh, but wait! First, check this out!"

He holds out the device he'd been studying earlier. It's about the size of a hardback novel, only much thinner, and Kendall can tell that there are words on the screen, but he can't make out what they say. "It's a Kindle!"

Kendall stops short at the word. "A what?" He squeaks.

If Logan hears the odd tone of his voice, he ignores it. "A Kindle!" He repeats, his smile widening. "It's that new e-reader that just came out! My mom sent it to me and I got it yesterday. She knows how hard I work at being in Big Time Rush and doing everything so that I can get into med school so she bought me this. Textbooks are cheaper on them and it's easier to carry around than all my other schoolbooks. She says this is her way of supporting my dream of being in the band and being a doctor."

Oh. Oh. "Oh, wow. That's, um, that's really awesome!"

"Isn't it!" Logan nods enthusiastically, completely missing the way Kendall's face falls. He sets the kindle down before turning back to face him friend. "So anyways, what's up?"

"Oh, uh," Kendall suddenly finds it very hard to breath and knows he's got to think of something quickly, because he definitely cannot tell his best friend what he had been planning on telling him now. "Just-just that I'm not feeling all that great and I'm going to go lie down. You know, just in case you needed anything in the room. So you would know to be quiet. Because I'll be resting. Because I feel ill. That's all."

"O-kay?" Logan looks a little (a lot) like he doesn't believe him, but thankfully he doesn't press the issue any farther. "Well…feel better?"

"I will." Kendall laughs nervously as he makes his way towards their room. "It's probably just a cold or bird flu or something." And then he disappears out of sight.

He collapses on his bed and groans. He thinks back to James and Carlos' departure from the cabana. They'd wished him good luck, but he'd been sure he wasn't going to need it. Logan's smile flashes in his mind and he groans again.

Now he's pretty sure he's going to need all the luck he can get.

This is not over! There's one chapter left. I would not leave you hanging like this, I promise. Besides, this story has a happy ending and this is clearly not a happy ending.

Well drop me a review. Let me know what you think.