A/N: I hope this Chapter is ok, to me, it doesn't feel quite up to par.

Wish Series

Part Two: Want

Chapter Three: Want

Dean had finally completely wrapped his head around making out with a dude. But he was still having trouble – a lot of trouble – with the whole sex thing. Although it sounds like a contradiction, Dean really did want to be with Cas, but at the same time, the thought of him getting it on with a dude seemed a bit weird, scary, and gross. Getting it on with any other dude other then Cas, now that weirded, disgusted, and freaked him out entirely. (Don't get him wrong, Dean doesn't hate gay people, he just didn't like thinking of himself as gay. Even saying he was gay for Cas didn't sit right with him. More like, bisexual for Cas. Yeah. That didn't sound too bad.)

It frustrated and infuriated him that he was still having so much trouble with the thought of being with Cas, even though he cared very deeply for him.

Fear aside, Dean really didn't know how to be with a guy. He could guess, but he didn't want to because even though it wasn't going to be Cas's first time in bed, it would be their first time together. And their first time with another man. So Dean did what Dean does best, - well, second best - he watched porn. With dudes. Just dudes. He was horrified. But now he felt like he knew what to do.

It took Dean two more weeks before he decided he was ready and he figured it was time that he and his angel finally, uh, got their own room. Dean made Sam get his own room while he got one with a king-sized bed for him and Cas. Cas realized that this meant that something was going to happen. Probably something sexual. He hoped it would be something sexual.

"Cas, I … I want to."

"What do you mean, Dean? Do you wish to have sex with me?" Cas knew the phrase 'make love' would make Dean want to gag, so he refrained from using it.

"Yeah, Cas. I do." Dean stated as he walked over to Cas and kissed him. Dean grabbed Cas's tie and dragged him over to the bed. "Hold on one sec." Dean grabbed the lube out of his bag and dropped it on the bed.

Dean removed Cas's overcoat and his suit jacket easily, but, when it came to Cas's tie, he had trouble. Dean worked frantically at the tie for about two minutes.

"Dean."

"Cas? What the fuck did you to this thing?"

"Dean. I've changed my mind."

Dean was confused. "Changed your mind? About what?" Then a terrifying thought occurred to him, "About us?"

"No Dean, not about us. Though I am glad you finally referred to 'us' in a romantic way."

"Oh." Dean smiled nervously. "Then, what have you changed your mind about?"

"This. Doing this, now. I, I don't want to do this now." Cas sighed and looked down at his hands. "I, I'm not ready. I thought I was, but I'm not. I've wanted this for a while now. Now that I have it," Cas looked deeply into Dean's eyes, "now that I have you," he looked away again, "I, I just –"

Dean lifted Cas's chin, forcing him to look into his eyes. "It's ok Cas, I get it. I do." Dean kissed him understandingly. "Just let me know when you're ready, ok?"

"Ok. Thank you Dean."

"Hey. Don't you remember? I, I'd do anything for you, Cas. Anything."

Dean kissed Cas tenderly again and that was as far as they went that night.

A/N: The last part in this series is called Need. Feel free to go check it out! (It's rated M btw *wink*)