HEY HEY HEY! It's me I'm back omg it's the end of the world I updated. It's been months. From now on I'm going to start updating every month. Maybe. I'll try though promise! Anyway hope you guys like this chapter I know by the end I won't :D
Russia's POV
I closed my eyes and sighed softly, looking over at the now sleeping Kiku. What the hell was I supposed to do now? The last thing I wanted was to have Gilbert… of all people; on my mind. Why can't he get it through his thick head that I broke up with him for a reason? I was tired of him being so self centered. I was tired of him constantly whining about me "never being ready when he was". But most of all I was tried of feeling like he didn't care about me… like he was only using me for his own sick little game because he can't get anyone but well… guys like…. Like me. Insecure boys who if you say the right things will do what you want. Because they just want to believe that they aren't worthless… I want to believe I'm not worthless.
For awhile I was so happy. He made me believe that I wasn't some freak. He made me believe that people cared about me. But then things just sort of… changed. He started becoming more distant… demanding more sex… sleeping in separate rooms… having me treat him like he was some god. And for awhile I put up with it; because I thought I loved him. I really, truly, thought I did.
Soon enough I couldn't take it. I was so tired of being his slave. We got into this huge fight… He hit me… and then I kicked him out. He moved in with his brother not long after and I lived in my dorm alone for…. God… it seemed like ages. And that's when Kiku moved in. My Kiku. My sweet… beautiful… amazing…. Perfect Kiku. I couldn't have asked for anything more. He was all I'd ever asked for. I just wanted someone kind and loving who wasn't afraid of me…. who wouldn't hurt me. And that's exactly what I got.
I brushed the hair out of his face, lying down next to him. With Natalia* and Alfred now gone everything was finally at peace. Maybe I'd actually be awake for chemistry in the morning, who knew? I closed my eyes and eventually fell asleep, clinging to Kiku as if what I'd done to Alfred wasn't enough to keep him away from Kiku.
*Time skip (~o.o)~ ~(o.o~)*
Japan's POV
I smiled over at Russia from my seat in the front hoping this time he'd actually notice that I was trying to flirt with him. For once I just wanted him to realize that I wanted to be more than his little brother. So much more… I know he doesn't seem like someone I'd want. You think I'd want someone calm like Heracles right? Wrong! I want a bad guy… a bad guy who… who treats me like I'm the only one that matters. A bad guy who's really just some sweet guy that wants someone to love him.
I want to love him… I know he's got to feel the same way… even a little. The way he looks at me… the way he talks… he has to. Just once I want him to say that he likes me. He doesn't have to love me. I winked before Estonia shouted at me, telling me to focus so he could group us up for our projects. I nodded and crossed my fingers, silently begging to be with Russia, since we were in groups of 3 I really didn't care who the other person was; I just wanted to be with Russia.
Estonia stopped talking and I figured it was because I was doing something wrong again until I looked up and noticed Prussia standing timidly in the doorway. "G-Guten tag, everyvone…" He whispers, moving to stand in front of the class. To my displeasure he set him down at the empty desk next to mine. I could feel his eyes on me, those blood red eyes that always had some kind of spark that made you feel incompetent. I glared at him through the corner of my eye, sinking into my chair. Now I was just hoping Prussia wasn't in my group.
But of course once Estonia paired us up…. I was in his group. With Russia as well, WHAT ARE THE ODDS. Since this was chemistry our group was assigned the study of love. Ha ha ha. Get it. Love. How Estonia even got his major I will never know. At least this project would get me closer to Russia.
I smiled and grabbed Russia's hand, dragging him to our lab station. Prussia reluctantly followed, pulling a small laptop no more than 10 inches from his bag. Of course there would be inhumane amounts of research on the subject, and we were expected to cover all of it' but at least we weren't stuck with something like estrogen or testosterones or something freaky like that. I mentally slapped myself, sitting on top of the counter. God did I fail at trying to be attractive. Despite this I twirled my hair between my fingers and leaned over towards Russia. "Do you think we really have to cover everything~? Why can't we just cover the interesting stuff~?"
Russia's POV I could feel myself blushing, trying not to think about what Kiku meant by "interesting". I shuddered and bit my lip, trying not to look at him. "W-Well, d-da if by interesting you mean important…." I smiled and jumped up with him, looking at anything but Kiku as I sat my hand on his leg. "H-Hey Prussia how's the… u-um… w-work coming…?" It had only been 15 minutes but he'd had quite a few pages of notes already. I guess whatever it took to distract him was working. All I received in reply was a disgruntled "eh" and seemingly angry smashing of the keys.
In order to distract myself from Kiku sprawling himself all over the table I glanced at Prussia. He did seem kind of angry. Not that I cared. I was just trying not to get a boner in the middle of class.
I closed my eyes, sitting uncomfortably as I waited for the class to be over. Thank god 6th hour had finally come and I could finally eat. I'd skipped breakfast… again. Ever since Alfred added "fat ass" to "commie bastard" and made it "fat ass commie bastard" I haven't really been eating. Which didn't really make sense to me? I mean, my country isn't communistic anymore, it hasn't been for 20 years, and I'm underweight yet when he tells me I'm a fat ass I still believe him…. Guess that's just what happens when you're insecure. You believe anything anyone will tell you.
I picked up my tray which was basically just a juice and half a sandwich, searching for Kiku; he'd either be with his basketball team or Poland and the other cheerleaders. I smiled; glad he was sitting with his team… his horde of uke cheerleaders could really get on my nerves. I sat next to him, putting an arm around his waist. "Hey.." I mumbled, taking a swig of my juice.
Prussia's POV(sorry for that randomness) I glared over at the table where Japan and Russia were. Japan sitting smug with Russia's arm around his unawesome waist. He didn't deserve to be with him. He wasn't awesome enough to be with him. So maybe I wasn't the best boyfriend. If that stupid Japan wasn't in my way I could've easily gotten him back if I wanted to. Stupid unawesome jerk.
I sat alone at a table nearby, staring intently at Russia. Some way I was going to get Russia back… Some way.
*(~o,o)~ Another time skip Sorry ~(o,o~)*
Russia's POV I sighed, sitting on my bed with Kiku in my lap. God was he acting weird today. I sat there and let him nuzzle me, one arm tightly around him while the other was typing away on the computer. After I'd typed up enough to be satisfied with part one of our project I stood up and asked Kiku if he was hungry. He nodded and I pretended to stumble upon a bento box I'd made when I skipped 3rd hour, claiming I'd never seen it before. I didn't want him to know I was skipping classes to cook for him... that would be embarrassing. I let Kiku eat on the island in the middle of the kitchen while I lied down on the bed. "So… Prussia's back…" I murmured.
I smiled a little when I heard Kiku make some kind of angry sound. Of course he knew about me and Prussia, but it made me happy to know he actually cared. I turned and watched him pout, scooping rice into his mouth. "So..." He mumbled, stuffing his face so he wouldn't have to confront him about it.
I yawned, patting the space beside me and letting Kiku crawl in with me. I hugged him, rubbing my eyes slightly. When there was an obnoxious knock on the door I tried to ignore it, already annoyed enough today. I felt Kiku slowly get up to answer, growling a bit when he opened the door. "We finished today Prussia, we tord you, we don't need herp." He hissed when Prussia shoved him aside. "Actually I came here to see Russia, if you don't mind."
I shuddered. "I don't know about kohai* but I certainly mind." I snapped, sitting up on the bed. I didn't want to look vulnerable. Prussia smirked, wrapping his arms around me despite my efforts to shove him off. "Oh honey don't be like that I know you miss ze awesome me und my 5 meters, ja~?" He purred.
I shook my head and sighed, trying to get him off of me. "Nyet I'm not interested, now could you please get your cum infested hands off of me." I shouldn't have said that. Prussia didn't seem to like that. He pinned my hands behind my bed and I tried my best not to cry. It was the day we broke up all over again. "G-Gilbert please… I-I don't want to fight…" I bit my lip. I'd done enough fighting this week.
I almost forgot about Kiku standing by the doorway before he was looming over the bed with a face I know I'd made on numerous occasions.
Japan's POV "…..Prussia…. Gilly~ honey. I am going to give you three seconds to let go of Russia, before I wring your fucking neck, okay?" I flashed him a sinister smile, my hands twitching, clenching and unclenching. It was all I could do not to kill him right there. I sighed. I'd never felt…. Or more importantly thought this way before. I'd never felt or thought like I'd needed to hurt someone. I was always told not to resort to violence; that people could always be negotiated with. But for some reason I could tell that there was no reasoning with Prussia.
He laughed, though he looked a bit nervous. "AHA, HA, KIKU HONDA?! IS WITTWE BABY KIKU GONNA BEAT UP BIG BAD PWUSSIA? THAT'S SO FUCKING FUNNY. You little bitch. You really think you can hurt me?! WOW!" I was going to kill him now, definitely. "…3…."
"Aww is he counting down now~? He thinks that scares me? Adorable." He began tugging on Russia's scarf, intent on getting it undone.
"2. 1."
"Now Kiku th-that's not fair you have to count slo-"
Before he could finish I screamed and threw myself onto the bed, wringing my hands around his neck and squeezing as hard as I could. I didn't care that Prussia started changing colors, or that he was wheezing for breath beneath me. I wanted to hurt him. I wanted to kill him. No one messes with Russia. Not like that; and especially not in front of me.
I let go of Prussia, hearing the sound of Ivan shouting. "Kiku that's enough let go!" I did as he told me, letting go. The look Prussia gave me made me realize what I had done, I felt horrible. I covered my face, crying slightly. "I'm sorry…."
Prussia coughed a bit and smirked. "Is that the best wittwe Kiku can do~?"
My eyes widened and I put my hands down. "Russia….. Go downstairs, and buy something from the class store… You can come up in a few minutes…" I threw my wallet at him and pointed him towards the door. He nodded and ran out. I smirked.
"Prussia, you don fucked up honey~" I sighed and smiled once more, reaching blindly for my katana. "What wirr it take for you to understand he doesn't want you?" I laughed, lashing out at him. I didn't care if I actually hurt him; I just wanted to scare him.
"How many times do I have to show you that he doesn't need you?! Are you that stupid? Are you that desperate?" I stood over him, pointing my katana at his throat. "Or maybe you're just upset because your left hand needed a break~" I chuckled, watching him grow angrier and angrier.
"I'm to awesome for zat! Und besides, vhy use my left hand, vhen I can just use Russia's!"
Prussia's POV I winced, feeling Japan's fist against my face. He could hit hard. I tried my best to be cocky. I tried my best to fight back but Japan was just so…. So angry…. And his eyes… oh mein gott not even mein vatti could protect me from that horrible look in his eyes. It was even worse then Russia's.
I had tried so hard to get mein liebe back but at this rate I could tell I was going no where. Japan was going to have him, no doubt. I had to accept it. That or let Japan continue to senselessly beat me and have to explain that I got beat up by some basketball playing cheerleader.
The next time Japan raised a fist I let him pick me up by my shirt, sighing before I spit my blood out on his face. I shoved him over gently, walking out of the dorm and passing Russia on my way. I tried to ignore his snide remarks, his demented laugh, his taunts…. Even though I deserved every bit of it. I guess I wasn't going to have Russia after all…
Unless….
*(~e,e)~ Third time skip ~(e,e~)*
I sighed, holding the phone to my ear. "Yeah hey... Alfred…? I've got something you might want to hear…"
Whaaaaat? That's it. Omg Japan you suck whut. Crappy cliffhanger. I feel so terribly terrible for not updating but here you go, I was writing all day. What's next? Dynamic duo of awesomely heroicness eh? No. Fuck no. ew. Gross. Probably though. You guys know me.