Title: Moment In Time

Summary: Kendall and James are meant for each other, but something must always get in the way. Something must always destroy their love. And this is one moment in time with Kendall that James wished never happened.

I think I'm getting the most random ideas for stories now. Wow. Anyways, you know how in stories the song is based on the story? Well this time it's the other way around. It's a song fic and the story is based on the song. Makes sense? Yeah :D

Song Used: Moments by One Direction (I love this song so much. You should listen to it if you don't know it)

It was James, it was always James.

No matter what people said or what people said it was always James.

And they knew it was always James.

James was the one Kendall always talked about and James was the one Kendall was always with. Even if Logan was Kendall's first best friend. Even if they were literally born in rooms next to each other at the hospital.

It was always James.

James was his first love and his first boyfriend.

That's why Kendall is confused when his father comes into his room one day, looking remorseful, saying that he has something to tell Kendall. Something important, something that he says he regretted doing.

There are tears in his eyes and Kendall is immediately concerned. He asks his father what is wrong, but the man can't even meet his eyes.

He tells Kendall that when Kendall and Logan were born, they were engaged, it was arranged marriage because the families thought they were perfect for each other.

Kendall doesn't react as soon as he said it; he just sits there, staring confusedly at his father, then it hits him.

He and Logan were engaged.

He and Logan were fucking engaged.

Before he could even fucking speak.

Before he fucking knew his dick from his hand.

Then Kendall reacts as expected. He shouts at his father for being such an idiot, for trying to rule his life before it even started. He asks him desperately if there is anything, anyone who could cancel the engagement. But his father says no, that Logan's family are Indian descendants and once their children got engaged, that was it.

So he storms out of the room, and rushes over to James', who lives across from him, crying like an idiot. He pounds on the door, and when Mrs. Diamond answers, he just pushes past her, and runs upstairs.

Because he is angry, hurt, confused, sad, worried, and not in love with Logan.

As much as he wants James to comfort him, he realizes that he didn't want to destroy his relationship with James just yet. So he wipes his tears and enters the room.

James looks up as Kendall enters the room, he's just been day-dreaming about the blond, about the things they could do if they get some alone time.

Shut the door

Turn the light off

I wanna be with you

I wanna feel your love

And sure, Kendall wants James to comfort him, but he keeps his tears away and forces a smile onto his face, making an instant decision that he'll tell the brunet afterwards. But he wants James to hold him so bad, to comfort him so bad, and to pull him close.

I wanna lay beside you

I cannot hide this

Even though I try

James brings him closer, and he tries to hold back the tears that are threatening to fall, as he folds into James' body, but it is impossible as he sobs into James' shirt front.

Heart beats harder

Time escapes me

Trembling hands

Touch skin

It makes this harder

And the tears stream down my face

If only, Kendall thinks, if only he could go back in time and change this entire situation, if only he could've had one more day with James, just one more day without knowing that his entire future with James is doomed.

If we could only have this life

For one more day

If we could only turn back time

James still doesn't know what's wrong, but he pulls Kendall closer, tells him that he means everything, the world to him, and without him, James didn't know if he'd still be alive.

You know I'll be

Your life

Your voice

Your reason to be

And Kendall tells him. He wanted to keep it for a while, but he just cracked. Everything pours out and James is speechless. He wants to touch Kendall, but he's afraid that it might be the last time.

And then he realizes that he's never told Kendall he loves him. Sure, Kendall's said it a lot of times, but James was always waiting for the perfect moment. And now it was gone. Even if he did say it, Kendall wasn't his anymore. He never was his. Still, James wants to say it so bad, it's on the tip of his tongue, but he swallows it.

My love

My heart

Is breathing for this

Moment

In time

I'll find the words to say

Before you leave me today

Kendall looks up at him with tear-filled eyes, saying that maybe they should run away; maybe they should close this door in their life, never to be seen again. But James knows that it is wrong, where would they get the money, how would they live?

Close the door

Throw the key

Don't wanna be reminded

Don't wanna be seen

Even with all these doubts, James is tempted to grab Kendall and steal away into the night. He looks so beautiful, even with tears in his pretty eyes.

Don't wanna be without you

My judgments clouded

Like tonight's sky

Kendall reaches out to James, but the taller one moves out of reach, knowing that if he touches Kendall, he'll never let him go. Kendall's pleading with him, through his eyes, but James looks away, instead resisting the urge to stomp across the road and yell at Mr. Knight.

Then, realizing he's really losing Kendall, tears fall, because their 'something' was now nothing.

Hands are silent

Voice is numb

Try to scream out my lungs

It makes this harder

And the tears stream down my face

Now James remembers everything he and Kendall have been through, even since they were young. All the times together, all those special moments.

Flashing lights in my mind

Going back to the time

Playing games in the street

Kicking balls with my feet

And then there were the other times, the times when he and Kendall were together, and the times when he was falling for the blond. There were the times he and Kendall were alone, and times when he and Kendall made jokes about their love for each other. Their perfect love for each other.

There's a numb in my toes

Standing close to the edge

There's a pile of my clothes

At the end of your bed

As I feel myself fall

Make a joke of it all

James takes a deep breath and smiles sadly at Kendall. There's nothing that can be done. And, knowing that it wasn't going to help their current situation, he tells Kendall that he loves him, he quotes that stupid phrase 'if you love something, let it go, and if it's meant to be it'll come back.'

Then James realizes it's not so stupid after all. Now his entire life is depending on that quote.

He can't take Kendall's terrible sobbing and pleading. It's torturous as Kendall splutters out how much he loves him.

You know I'll be

Your life

Your voice

Your reason to be

My love

My heart

Is breathing for this

Moment

In time

I'll find the words to say

James tells him that he's happy for him and Logan, that he should give Logan a fighting chance. James is trying to be strong, for him and for Kendall. He has the utmost respect for Logan, he's almost a brother.

So with a kiss to his forehead, he whispers to Kendall that he loves him once more, then gently pushes Kendall out of the room, and locks the door behind him, slumping against it.

Before you leave me today.

Wow. Sad, huh? Supposed to be kind of like Can I Have This Dance? but not like it...

So please review :D It will make me sooo filled with joy! I'll even do a leprechaun dance XD

Love, ChelziXD