Chapter 7

Ennis was sitting by a tree, just staring ahead he didn't even realize Jack walked over to him.

"Ennis come back to the camp it is cold out"

"Am I selfish Jack expecting you to be mine, than I leave you for months, expecting you to be faithful"

"Your not wrong but I'm not strong like you. I hurt so bad knowing you are with Alma, and I'm sitting in some hotel room thinking about us. I pray my boy Bobby doesn't turn out like me, he is such a sweet little guy. Lureen won't let me see him, she says I'm a bad role model, I am God I hate myself"

Ennis touched his shoulder, "She has no right to keep you from your boy"

"Really you hate me I go to Mexico , and have sex with male prostitutes because when I leave, I never see those men again. I will say I feel sick after, but I put everything out of my mind except for the fact someone is loving me, and that is sick I have to pay for it"

"God Jack stop I feel bad enough"

"I will stop, I will never be with anyone ever again, I will wait for you Ennis. I can't lose what we have, I'm so sorry" Ennis touched his face, "You don't need prostitutes Jack, and your a good man Lureen is wrong, fight to see little Bobby" Jack stood up, "No he is better off without me, you are a great Father, but I'm not"

Ennis stood up walking over to Jack, "You are a good man, I hate thinking you turn to other men, but I understand"

"You do I don't"

"I'm selfish, I stay with Alma living a lie, but I'm a great Dad. I would die for my girls, I don't want people calling their Daddy sick names. They love me, I hate that I can't be who I want to be because of people, and their twisted minds"

Jack moved close, "We could do this together. I'm sure your girls would understand, and Alma could be with someone that would treat her right. You are not a good husband, you know it Ennis"

"I know but I can't come out, you know what the town people will say, and maybe do"

"OK we will not think about that right now, lets go back to camp." Jack took his hand as Ennis, and him walked back. Jack smiled, "Ennis you are scary when you are angry"

"I know but I think I already knew you were seeing other men. I hate it, but maybe if you continue please don't tell me. I pray you are careful, because you could get sick"

"I use protection but it is over, I will never do it again"

Ennis smiled as he moved close bringing his lips over Jack's. Jack wrapped his arms around his waist, as they kissed so tenderly, but passionately. Jack lifted Ennis's shirt than started to unbutton it. Ennis smiled, "What are you doing"?

"Well I thought we would make up properly"

"Jack"

"Ennis please don't push me away it will kill me". Ennis pulled Jack close as they kissed, than Jack whispered, "Lets go in the tent".

Ennis and Jack went in, they sat on the sleeping blanket, and stared into each others eyes. Ennis was so in love with Jack, his eyes were drawing him in, he never needed or wanted anyone like he wanted Jack at this moment. He laid Jack back as he moved over him kissing him as Jack wrapped his arms around Ennis. They touched, and caressed each other than they totally gave themselves to each other. They pulled the sleeping blanket over them , they laid naked in each others arms. They knew the world around them didn't understand what they felt, but at the moment, all that mattered was they were together, and they loved each other so much.