Disclaimer: I don't own Kuroshitsuji, or the characters in this story.

Pairings: Ciel/Sebastian. Things get a bit heated near the end.

Chapter Four

Ciel stood in shock for a moment, just staring at Sebastian. He wanted to say something, to ask all the questions that had been building up inside of him over the past year or just scream and shout but mostly he wanted to cry. Ciel's mind was blank. Nothing came to him and instead he just stood there, in blood soaked clothes feeling like the small child Sebastian had saved all those years ago. He opened his mouth as if to speak to Sebastian but nothing came out and after a few moments Sebastian nodded towards to bathroom again and said gently "Go, get cleaned up. I promise I will be here when you return." Ciel closed his mouth and nodded quickly turning and almost running into the bathroom, gently shutting and locking the door behind him.

He turned slowly, and with his back against the door he slid down to the floor, his legs not able to hold his weight any longer. He was shaking from what he assumed to be shock. After a couple of minutes of sitting on the bathroom floor he decided to move. He felt stiff where had been on the hard flooring and cold from the blood drenched clothes he was wearing but he forced himself to stand up and remove the clothing, dumping the ruined fabrics in the sink to ensure he wouldn't get any blood on anything in the room.

Turning the shower onto full and letting it run the water for a moment to heat up he looked at himself in the mirror. Tilting his head sideways to see where the cut from Claude's knife on his neck should have been, he saw nothing at all, not even a trace of the wound that had been there only minutes before. But no dwelling on this he just added it to the list of questions he needed to ask Sebastian. He then leaned in close to see his marked eye, noticing that the mark wasn't entirely gone but that it had left almost a scar within his eye, not as visible as his mark had been but still quite clearly there if you looked close enough. As he stared closely at his reflection taking in his blood stained face and changed eye as the mirror started to fog up with the steam coming off of the shower and he took this as a sign he should probably get in.

Stepping slowly into the hot stream of water he slowly submerged himself into it letting the water wash over him. He looked down at the water as it washed all the blood off of him, turning the water slowly from dark red to clear. He couldn't bring himself to do much more than just stand there in the water, and as he stood there he began to silently cry letting his tears mix with the water washing his face. He didn't know why he was crying, relief maybe or possibly fear, he wasn't sure but he knew one thing, and that was he was glad Sebastian had returned. He let himself cry through the overwhelming emotions he was feelings until he couldn't cry anymore and then instead he began washing his body and hair and then climbed out of the shower turning it off.

Suddenly he realised he had no clean clothing in the bathroom to put on and that he would have to exit the room in just a towel. His face turned red as he thought this. Yes Sebastian had seen him in little to no clothing when he was still human, he would help Ciel wash and get dressed but since he had turned into a demon Ciel had taken to doing all of these things for himself especially since he had grown into the body of a young man and was no longer the child he used to be. Sebastian hadn't seen him with as much as even his shirt off in an extremely long time.

This wouldn't normally bother him, but as only a few short minutes ago Sebastian had kissed and then proceeded to lick him he wasn't entirely sure how the man now felt about him. But Ciel didn't really have a choice, so resolutely he wrapped a towel around his body after using it to dry of his hair and walked slowly out of the bathroom and back into the bed room.

It was late, maybe 2 or 3 in the morning. Sebastian had closed the curtains and re lit the fire as well as turning on the rooms like but leaving them dimmed down low. Sebastian himself was standing by the fire place staring down at a book in his hand and reading intently. Ciel slowly walked into the room and silently walked over to the dresser containing his clothes hoping Sebastian would just ignore him for a moment and allow him to get dressed but no such luck. As he opened one of the draws Sebastian spoke.

"You haven't written much in the year that I have been gone Ciel," he mused aloud, "I was hoping to get a small insight to what you have been doing without me."

Ciel looked at him and Sebastian turned to look directly at him noticing for the first time what Ciel was wearing. Sebastian quickly snapped the journal shut and placed in on the mantel piece above the fire while raising his eyebrow at Ciel. "I didn't have any clean clothing in the bathroom" Ciel mumbled, quickly turning back to the dresser and fishing out some clothes he could put on. But before he knew it Sebastian was at his side. "Let me pick something," Sebastian said, it wasn't a question and so Ciel stood back for a moment waiting.

Sebastian handed him a baggy white t-shirt with a very low neck line, a pair of dark blue skinny jeans and some pants and socks. He then pointed to the coat hook by the door and said "That jacket and those boots" showing Ciel the black jacket which he had bought for him and a pair of black ankle high boots which Sebastian had also bought him. "That is if we go out anywhere," Sebastian smirked.

Ciel nodded and took the clothes from Sebastian who didn't move away to let him get dressed. "I'm not going to get changed in front of you Sebastian," Ciel said not quite meeting the man's eyes.

"Oh of course not my boc'chan," he said the last word with a purr and a hint of mocking in his voice and he walked away and sat on the bed with his back to Ciel. He hurriedly got dressed and took his towel back to the bathroom. Walking back into the main he looked at Sebastian who was still sat on the edge of the bed.

Ciel didn't know what to do so he just stood there, staring at Sebastian as if he were going to disappear at any moment.

"Come, sit." Sebastian patted the bed next to him but Ciel shook his head. Sebastian just looked at Ciel in silence for a moment. Ciel walked over to him slowly halving the gap between the two of them but stopped again. "Why?" Ciel whispered. Sebastian just stared blankly at Ciel. He continued "Why? Sebastian? Why did you want to leave so badly? And where have you been all this time?" it wasn't much more than a whisper but Sebastian heard every word.

"Ciel," he said gently as if savouring the word, "Do we have to speak of this tonight? I did have some other things in mind," Sebastian smirked at Ciel "Perhaps we can leave it until tomorrow? Come and sit next to me" he said patting the bed again.

But Ciel shock his head, "No Sebastian. I don't know what you have in mind but I want you to answer my questions", he sounded braver than he felt, he knew he could no longer command this man, so hesitantly he added "Please…"

Sebastian sighed "Fine, but please just come over here," he reached his hand out for Ciel who walked over slowly and took it hesitantly as Sebastian stood up and took Ciel's other hand. They looked at each other quietly for a moment before Sebastian lent down slowly and obviously to kiss Ciel giving him plenty of time to pull away or say something. Ciel didn't pull away but he didn't kiss back either, his thoughts were racing and he didn't understand what was going on. Sebastian pulled away an inch and lifted his hand up gently pushing his hand around to the back on Ciel's neck and into his hair before pulling him a little more forcefully into another kiss. This was much more intense than the other 2 he had received from this man; his body was pulled tightly against Sebastian's chest as Sebastian's other hand found its way to Ciel's lower back and began trying to pull him even closer. Ciel's head had arched upwards to meet Sebastian's kiss and his hands moved up to rest on his hips, his mind had gone blank and he started to soften into the kiss letting Sebastian take control as his tongue flicked against Ciel's.

Ciel's head was spinning and when Sebastian pulled away his breathing was heavy and he felt light headed. Sebastian moved and began kissing up the side of his face to his ear where he pulled Ciel's earlobe between his teeth and bit down gently earning himself a gasp of pleasure from the boy. He smirked before whispering very closely into Ciel's ear "Are you sure you want to talk tonight? Or can it not wait until tomorrow?" The whispering from Sebastian right into his ear sent shivers all through his body making him almost moan from the simple questions, he tried to respond but all that came out was a breathy whisper of "I don't know," Sebastian continued to play with Ciel's ear for a moment, nibbling and kissing before speaking again in a much deeper whisper "Well how about we at least move to the bed and then you can decide what we do?" He punctuated each word with a small kiss down the boy's neck and finished by biting into his flesh and sucking gently. This time Ciel let out a truly pleasurable moan and closed his eyes to the feeling. This pleased Sebastian greatly, and while Ciel was distracted he decided to quickly pick Ciel up and drop him down gently onto the bed quickly following him. He moved to knell over Ciel's body, his knees either side of Ciel's legs and his hands either side of his head. Ciel was panting, his hands where lying on the pillows above his head and his legs were pressed tightly together, but this didn't conceal the fact from Sebastian that Ciel was certainly enjoying himself.

"Sebastian, I…" Ciel breathed out but before he could continue Sebastian began to kiss him again, while moving his hands up to take hold of Ciel's wrists. He moved his hands up higher so they were together above Ciel's head and held onto the boy's wrists with one hand so the other was free to finally explore Ciel's body.

Oh how he had longed to this. For years he had wanted to take the boy for his own, mind, body and soul, he had wanted to consume him in more ways than one. His longing for this boy had scared him, and he had thought of killing him on many occasions just to be free the boy's effect on him. But now he could have him, and he would consume him, he would make it so Ciel couldn't live without him for even one single second.

His hand moved down to the bottom of Ciel's shirt and he began running his fingers along the top of his jeans, feeling the velvety smooth skin. He slowly stopped kissing Ciel and pulled his head away so he could watch the boy's face as he touched him. His hand moved gently up his stomach and along his sides and back down as he watched his face. Ciel was panting and biting his lip with his eyes shut. Sebastian smirked at his expression and began to undo the top button of Ciel's jeans when his eyes flew wide open and he looked slightly panicked. Sebastian stopped and raised his eyebrow in question.

"Sebastian…I'm…I've…never…done this before…" he stammered not looking him in the eyes as he spoke.

"I know Ciel," Sebastian spoke gently but Ciel looked at him in shock, "I've been with you for a very long time my boc'chan," this time when he used Ciel's nickname he said it with care and love in his voice, as to not scare him "I will be gentle with you," Sebastian continued and then smirked and spoke with a much darker tone "As gentle as I can be. After all I have wanted to do this for a Very. Long. Time." Ciel's eyes widen and before he could reply Sebastian planted and very forceful kiss on him and began hurriedly ripping Ciel's jeans open.