This is based on TMP so if you haven't seen it, it has spoilers.  It is what I think Qui-gon's thoughts were as he watched though the force his own funeral.  NON Slash, ok.  Also built upon the fact that many sources (since I haven't read all the Jedi apprentice Books) that Qui and Obi had a father-son love for each other.  Please R/R

Tonight

Tonight I am looking at them instead of being there

Tonight I watch my earthly body disappear into the flames

Tonight I watch as the boy I raised tries so hard to be a man and not cry

Tonight I watch my friends mourn me

Tonight I watch the one who is the chosen one being comforted by the one that needs it most

Tonight I watch as the boy who became like a son to me, battle the demons inside

Tonight I wish I were there to tell him sorry

Tonight I wish I could tell him what else I had to say in those final moments when he held me, dying in his embrace.

Tonight I wish I could tell him that I love him, that it wasn't just the boy I thought of then, but also of him

Tonight I wish I were there so he wouldn't have to be a man when he had barely been a child

Tonight lament for the innocence in him that was lost as I drifted away

Tonight I want him to know that I will always help him bear the burden that I placed on him when he wasn't ready to be alone.

Tonight I want him to know that he is never alone.