It's like a storm
That cuts a path
It breaks your will
It feels like that

Ever since he's woken up, no one will give him a straight answer about anything. Patrick has been the most professional he has ever seen the doctor and that told him that something was definitely off. What's even more interesting is that Carly hasn't been in to see him. If that didn't tell him something was up, Sam's expression ever time she looks at him did. Between Sam and Monica, Patrick included, he knew that something was going on and it was something big.

He's laying alone for the first time all day and he felt like breaking out of that hospital already. It was just as he was about to rip every monitor off him that the door opened and a nurse walked in. That's what he thought until she ripped the face mask off her face. Sure, she was a nurse way back in the day, but not now.

"Carly?" Jason eyes her intently. "What's with the disguise?"

"Sam has banded me from seeing you." Carly says quickly, glancing out the small window, seeing Sam at the nurses' station. "I don't have much time and I have a lot to tell you."

"What's going on?" Jason sits up slightly. "Why did Sam ban you?"

"She didn't want me to tell you." Carly sighed, running her fingers through her hair. "God, Jason, I hate that I have to be the one to tell you."

"Tell me what?" Jason can feel the fear creep into him. "Spit it out!"

"Its Robin." Carly walks over to him, placing her hand in his. "Jason...she's dead."

"Wh-what?" Jason stares into her eyes, searching it for the truth. "N-No. It can't be true...no!"

You think you're lost
But you're not lost on your own
you're not alone

"There was an accident in the lab." Carly says carefully. "There was an explosion...Robin was inside and she didn't make it. She's gone, Jase."

"No!" Jason states through gritted teeth, tears filling his eyes and falling hard. "No! She can't be dead...she can't be!"

"Shh." Carly pulls him into her arms. "She's gone Jason."

"I-I..." Jason clings to Carly. "This can't be happening...she can't be gone."

"I'm so sorry." Carly strokes his hair soothingly. "I hate telling you, but I thought you should know."

Jason pushes her away carefully, staring at her with anger in his eyes. "When?" Jason manages to get out. "When did she die?"

"The twenty-first." Carly concedes. "Sam didn't want you to know."

A cold, intense, anger settled into him. The twenty-first. That's before the surgery. That meant that Sam lied to him. She lied straight to his face, making him believe that Robin was at home with Emma. Oh god! Emma...she'll never see her mother again. Jason ripped the wires from his body, not caring about anything in that moment. Carly didn't bother trying to stop him, she knew that this would hit him hard and she was ready for this.

I will stand by you
I will help you through
When you've done all you can do
If you can't cope
I will dry your eyes
I will fight your fight
I will hold you tight
And I won't let go

Jason's mind went to everything that has happened since the twenty-first. Patrick's attitude, his words, everything was starting to make sense. Everything was starting to fall into place and he couldn't believe that Patrick saved his life after losing his wife. It didn't take a rocket scientist to put together that he was the reason Robin was in the lab. It was too obvious. Why else would Robin risk her life?

"She's gone." Patrick's eyes confusing Jason, there was so much pain in them.

"Gone?" Jason eyed him confused. "Wh-What do you mean?"

"She was working twenty-four seven to find a..."

"Robin went home to get some rest." Sam cut him off, confusing Jason even further.

"She should have been home spending time with Emma." Patrick states in a stern tone. "But she felt a responsibility towards you."

"She's been a good friend to me." Jason couldn't understand what was going on.

"I hope you appreciate everything she's given up for you."

Jason didn't understand what that truly meant until that moment. Carly stood there, staring at him as Jason's anger reached a new level. How could Sam do that to Patrick? How could she put him through that kind of pain? Jason couldn't understand how Sam could just straight up lie to him about something so important. Something so life changing. Robin's a huge part of his life. She was a huge part of his life and now she's just gone. His last words on the message he left for her started to play in his mind.

"I guess I'll see you on the other side." Jason whispers, his heart breaking. "Now it holds a different meaning."

"Carly?" Sam exclaimed as she walked into the room, turning to look at Jason. "Oh god, she told you didn't she?"

"Why didn't you?" Jason counters, staring at her sternly. "You lied to me. You looked me in my face and you lied!"

"Jason, please, you have to lay down." Sam tries to touch him, but he moves away from her. "Carly, what the hell is your problem?"

"He deserved to know." Carly states, not apologizing for telling her best friend about his loss. "You had no right keeping it from him."

"I-I had no right?" Sam glared at her. "You had no right! He's sick Carly! Don't you see that?"

"He deserved to know." Carly repeats herself. "Unlike you, I tell him what he needs to know. I may be a liar, but I've never lied to Jason when it truly matters. Unlike you."

"Look at him!" Sam turns to gesture to Jason, but finds that he's gone. "Jason?"

"Well, my job here's done." Carly takes off the scrubs. "Goodbye."

It hurts my heart
To see you cry
I know it's dark
This part of life
Oh it finds us all
And we're too small
To stop the rain
Oh but when it rains

Jason catches a cab to the penthouse, changing into his clothes before taking his SUV and driving out to the bridge. It wasn't the same as it was before, but it still held meaning. Standing in the center of the bridge, Jason tried to breathe through the pain. Memories of Robin starting to flood his mind as his tears fell hard. This couldn't be happening. This couldn't be real. How could someone as perfect and beautiful as Robin just be gone? It wasn't fair. First Emily and then the innocent Georgie, his son, now Robin. All taken before their time and he just couldn't wrap his head around it.

She finally had everything she ever wanted. She was a wife and a mother. Both things she never thought she could have and then it was just there. All the memories from the past start flooding his mind and before he can stop himself, Jason screams. He screams and keeps screaming, he can't stop the screams from falling out of him. All the pain and the anger flooding through him, the screams getting louder and louder as the tears fell harder and harder.

"Jason?" a soft voice calls to him, causing him to turn and look at who joined him. "Oh, Jason."

He doesn't speak, its too hard to do that. He just stands there as she walks over to him and wraps her arms around him. She squeezes him tight, letting it sink in that she was really there. Jason instinctively wraps his arms around her too. He holds her close as his heart aches over the loss of Robin. This couldn't be his reality. This couldn't be his life. She holds him close as he cries, the screams no longer escaping his lips, but his body vibrates due to his cries.

"I'm here." she whispers. "Its just me. You can let it out. I'm not going anywhere."

"Elizabeth." he whispers, burying his face in her hair.

"I'm here." she assures, pulling away to stare into his eyes. "I know it hurts."

"She's gone." Jason states, staring into her eyes. "She's just gone."

"I know." Elizabeth smiles sadly. "You shouldn't be here, Jason."

"No hospitals." Jason shakes his head. "I won't go back there."

"Let me help you." Elizabeth takes his hand. "Do you trust me?"

"Yes." Jason says without hesitation.

"Come on." Elizabeth guides him to the passenger side of his SUV, helping him in before getting into the driver's seat and starting up the car.

I will stand by you
I will help you through
When you've done all you can do
And you can't cope
I will dry your eyes
I will fight your fight
I will hold you tight

Elizabeth didn't know what made her go to the bridge. She had been thinking about Robin and she knew that her friend went there a lot. In a way, Elizabeth felt like maybe she could feel her presence there. She didn't know how to deal with Anna's request. Could she really help plan her friend's memorial? Emily's and her son's memorials had been torturous to her. Can she really help plan Robin's and then sit through it? Whatever made her go to the bridge, Elizabeth was just thankful she did. Like the boxcar all those years ago, she's found him and she won't leave him there.

She drives them to her house, letting him in and thankful that Cameron's in school and Aiden's at daycare. Jason walks in without a word spoken, making his way to sit on her couch. More memories coming to mind, but not memories of Robin. No. These memories are worse. These memories are of him and Elizabeth. Of his son. Of the family that he wasn't allowed to have. That he could never have even if he wanted it. Then she comes into view and the memories dull. Remembering that they were still friends. That no matter what happens, they always had that.

"You look tired." Elizabeth comments, taking his jacket from him. "Maybe you should rest."

"No." Jason shakes his head. "I can't."

"Okay." Elizabeth sits down beside him. "Will you at least try if I stay with you?"

Jason looks at her intently before shrugging his shoulders. Laying down lengthwise on the couch, Jason rests his head on her lap, allowing her to drape the afghan over him before gently running her fingers through his hair. He hated this. He hated that Robin is dead and he's left to live on without her. Why did she have to sacrifice for him? He never would have let her work so hard to save him if he knew the price that would be paid. If he had to choose, he'd rather she lived and he died. Lord knows he deserved it.

And I won't let you fall
Don't be afraid to fall
I'm right here to catch you
I won't let you down
It won't get you down
you're gonna make it
Yeah I know you can make it

"Just rest." Elizabeth whispers, watching as his eyes slowly close. "I'm not going anywhere. I'm here."

"You shouldn't be." Jason counters, nestling against her lap, hooking his arm under her leg. "But you are."

"I won't say that her death wasn't your fault, even though it wasn't, because I know you won't believe me." Elizabeth sighs, slowly running her fingers through his hair, trying to soothe him. "But I'm going to help you through this. I promise you that...you'll make it past this."

"I don't want to." Jason mutters, sleep slowly taking him over. "I shouldn't be able to."

"Shh, its okay." Elizabeth takes a deep breath. "Just rest. We'll talk more later."

Cause I will stand by you
I will help you through
When you've done all you can do
And you can't cope
And I will dry your eyes
I will fight your fight
I will hold you tight
And I won't let go
Oh I'm gonna hold you
And I won't let go
Won't let you go
No I won't

"I'm going to help you through this." Elizabeth whispers, watching him as he sleeps. "For Emily, for Robin and for our son...I'm going to help you through this. I promise you that."

A/N: Please Review. Let me know what you think about it. Don't be afraid to be blunt.

I'm going to do one more new story and then I'll be adding chapters to all four soon enough. Thanks! I hope you enjoy!

(p.s. No JaSam baby. Just can't picture her having his kid.)

-ROCkER