THE DAY JUST WENT FROM BAD TO WORSE

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CHAPTER 22

After the power transfer Kimberly just wanted to be alone so she went home. She used the "I'm not really feeling well" excuse and everyone knew it. If anything she should have felt great to have all the power again but she didn't. To her it just kind of felt like one more day in the life of someone else. It wasn't that she didn't want to be a ranger again it was just that everyone seemed to be moving on to something or to somewhere and she felt stuck. She wanted Tommy and it was that simple. She was tired of pretending so that he would keep coming over and spending time with her. It wasn't that she didn't miss the baby or even that she loved the baby any less. It's just that she has begun to learn how to live with the grief and not let it destroy her. As much as it hurt her to know she would never hold her child she knew she carried the baby with her in her heart. Of course she still thought of Emma when she thought of the baby but she never went back and saw her. Tommy was right in the regards that she didn't know if the little girl she saw was her little girl or a little girl that would give her the chance to mother a child. It is just felt like she kept losing. She had lost both Tommy and the baby and she didn't want to pretend that everything was okay. She enjoyed hanging out with everyone but she felt like she was slowly being smothered with everything.

Tommy had sensed that something was bothering Kimberly so shortly after she left the command center he did too. He had wanted to make sure that she was okay. Upon arriving to her house he hesitated only a moment before knocking on her door to see if she was home.

"Hello Tommy" Kimberly said as she opened the door. "What are you doing here?"

"Kim I came to see if you were okay. You just seemed so sad at the command center when I was sure that this would have been a happy day for you. It is not every day that a person becomes a ranger again."

Kim sighed and opened the door a bit more. "Come in if you want Tommy. If you don't than just shut the door and leave" she said as she walked away from the opened door and went and sat on the couch in the living room.

Tommy stood there shocked for a few minutes before he came in and shut the door closed behind him. Before he walked into the living room he wanted to compose himself a bit. So he leaned up against the door and wondered what happened to the two of them. They were once so close. They could even finish each others sentences or tell each other what the other was thinking just by looking into each others eyes. Now it almost seemed like Kimberly was not even in the shadow of what she once was. She seemed so bitter and seemed so resentful and he didn't know why. If it was about the baby than he could understand that but her sadness didn't seem to be directed to just any one thing it was directed to everything.

Taking a deep breath he walked into the living room to where Kim sat on the couch watching tv. "Kim what's going on with you" he asked as he sat down next to her.

"Leave it alone Tommy" snapped Kimberly

"Kim we can't fix it if you don't talk about it" Tommy said calmly

"Fix it?" asked Kim "You want to fix it?"

"More than anything Kim. I just want you to be happy again."

Those words seemed to shift something inside of Kim. She wanted to just lean against him and have him rub her back until all was well with them again. She knew that she couldn't keep passing up the chances to tell Tommy what her heart longed to say. "I just feel like I keep losing here."

"How do you mean Kim?"

"I just feel like I am watching everyone move on to the next something while I keep waiting for my turn" she said as if to make him understand. It was difficult for her as she couldn't find words to express the feelings that were in her mind and heart.

Tommy could feel the desperation and frustration start to creep back up on him. He didn't know what to do or what to say to her at times. Until he could find out what was keeping her in this way he didn't want to make whatever it is worse. All he knew is that as long as there is a breath left in his body he was going to keep working at making things better between them. He still hoped that someday not only the would become close again but he hoped to make her his wife. That has been his only dream since meeting her all that time ago. "What can I do to make this better?" Tommy asked

Kimberly pondered Tommy's question and wondered the best way to answer him. How is it possible to form the words her heart so desperately needed her to speak? How can she just look at him and say that she wanted him to take her in his arms and never let her go again? In her mind she didn't even know if she still had the right to ask such things from him. Through this whole ordeal he had been great and he was by her side as often as she let him. He held her when the world seemed to be just to much to bear and he wiped away her tears as she grieved for the baby she had lost. He seems to give her much more than what she has been giving him. The realization of what she needed to do gave a small piece of her heart peace and yet also broke it completely. "Tommy I just want you to be happy. You should find someone who can make you as happy as I know you can make them. I want that for you and I'm okay, I think now I can stand on my own two feet." Feeling her heart break she made herself continue talking as she added "I think its time you left Tommy. I will see you and the gang tomorrow."

Tommy heard her words and it was all he could do to nod his head and walk out the door. After hearing her words he felt like all the fight was taken out of him and for a second he thought that this may be the one thing that he would not be able to recover from. He was doing the very best he could and nothing seemed to be good enough to help this situation any. All he knew is that he would not be able to live without her for a second time, not even for a single minute. His very soul demanded that he have her in every way a man can have a woman. His life would never be complete without her and every part even the tiniest part of him would always crave and scream out for her. So with a very heave heart he made his way out the door and walked to his car. He knew it was a bad move for him to leave things like this but he couldn't make Kim stay with him if it was not her wish to do so. Once he got into his car he started it up and drove home.

Kim sat on the couch and wondered what to do next. She knew that letting Tommy go was the smartest choice for him. She felt tainted by circumstances beyond her control. Knowing she needed someone to talk to she picked up her phone and called he big brother Jason.

"Hello" Jason said as he answered the phone

"Hey Jase it's me Kim" she replied

"Hey sis how's it going?" he asked

"Well about that" she began "I was wondering if you wanted to come over. We could sit and watch movies like we used to."

"Sure Kim. I'll be there in a little while." When Jason hung up the phone he wasn't entirely sure what he was going to find once he got to Kim's. He knew she needed someone otherwise she wouldn't have called but what she needed to talk about was the question of the day. He hoped that whatever it was he could help her work it out and finally help her get whatever closure she seemed to need.

About a half hour later Jason made it over to Kim's. She let him in and for two movies they just sat in comfortable silence and watched the movies. Once the second one was over and the third one began Jason looked over at Kim and asked "So Kim not that I'm complaining at all but how come you called me over tonight? You know that I enjoy hanging out with you but I'm curious of perhaps you have something on your mind."

Kim was about to answer Jason but before she could Jason started to speak again. "Something looks different about you. You seem more relaxed and stress free than what I have seen you as lately. What has changed?"

Kim knew he was right. Even though she was still very aware of her broken heart with every beat it took she knew that she had come to some sort of peace. "I think I finally came to realize something today."

"Oh yea" Jason said his curiosity peaked "what might that be?"

"I realized that through all of this that I have been holding Tommy back." Upon hearing this Jason started feeling dread start to creep up through his stomach. As she continued speaking he could feel it move through his whole body. "I let him go today Jase. He doesn't need to worry about me anymore. I'll be fine and that means he can find someone who can give him everything to make his dreams come true. It's like as long as he continues to sit here and hold my hand I can see his dreams go on hold and even watch some of them disappear completely. I don't want to be the one who holds him back when he has the potential to be even greater than what he already is."

Jason sat there and wondered how she could sit there so calmly and explain this when he knew that Tommy must be devastated some where. He asked her "What brought this on? Don't you care at all for him at all anymore?"

"Of course I do Jase" Kim said sort of offended "My heart breaks every time I think about what happened earlier. I think this is for the best though."

"How can that be? That guy lives, breaths, and thinks of nothing but you. You make him complete and without you he will never be in the shadow of what is was."

"What do you mean" asked Kim. She honestly thought she did what was best and right.

"You are the reason that he can make it out of bed everyday. He felt the loss of the baby every bit as much as you did. He was able to deal with the loss and start to move past it because he still had you and the hope of something more with you. He loves you Kim and you can't just throw that kind of love away."

"You really think he still loves me?" Kim asked. Doubts were starting to enter her mind as she thought maybe she hadn't made the right decision after all.

"Of course he does. No offense but if he didn't don't you think that he would have left your side a long time ago?"

Kim knew he was right and she also knew that she needed to get to Tommy as soon as she could get to him. "Jase I thank you for coming over and your welcome to stay for as long as you want but I need to go and find Tommy now."

Jason nodded and said "Go Kim. No matter what happens I will be here when you get back."

Kim nodded, said her thanks, grabbed her keys and ran out the door. Kim was going to go to Tommy's but something told her to go to the spot where he first asked her out. Deciding to follow that feeling she made her way there. After getting out of her car she slowly approached the spot. She could see the outline of Tommy just sitting there. The closer she walked toward him the more defeated he looked to her. It killed a small part of her to know that she did that to him. "Tommy" she said as she sat down next to him

"Yea Kim" he said without looking at her

"Tommy I made a mistake earlier when we last talked" she said hoping she wasn't to late

"How so" Tommy asked. He wasn't sure if he should be hopeful or not.

"I don't want you to find someone else" she said

"Why?" he asked

"Tommy what is it you want?" Kim asked avoiding his question

"You. I want you" he said finally looking at her

"And I want you" Kim said with tears in her eyes

Tommy closed his eyes so that he could enjoy the moment of pure joy that was coursing through his whole body. When he opened his eyes he saw that a tear had escaped from her right eye so he brushed it away and started to kiss her. He kissed her with everything he had in him. He wanted her to feel every bit of how much he cared for her in that kiss so that she would never question it or him again.

"Are you sure" he asked as he slowly pulled away from her "because I don't want to do this with you if you aren't sure. I can't keep losing you whenever there are doubts."

"I will never doubt you again" Kim promised "I can't promise anything more than I will love you forever."

"Good because I have always known that I would love you far longer than that" he said as he smiled.

The couple then continued to kiss and hold on to each other. They knew that no matter what life brought their way now they would be ready for it. They had each other for now and always and nothing could ever separate them again.

THE END

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