Its been months. Things aren't getting any better. I still feel lost without him. School is bad it s weird not having him here with me. I feel lost. I told myself that I'm doing this for him, He doesn't need me to bring him down. I would just be a burden to him. He s in New york I want him to be able to experience new things. He cant do that with me here, and him there. That's why I had to end it. Its Tuesday ,The worst day of the week. Tuesday is the day I ended it with him. Every time Tuesday comes around all I see is his tear filled eyes asking me why. I couldn't look him in the eyes and tell him that its whats for the best.

I walk into glee practice and sit down in my normal sit ; back row all the way to the right. I talk just enough so that no one will notice that I'm dying inside. Tina seems to notice that something hasn't been quite right with me, but she doesn't say anything. I silently thank her for that. I don t sing much anymore either. Its not the same without him,Nothing say that I'm depressed is the least. Its not like I m hurting myself or anything, I wouldn't do that to him. Its just that I feel like I'm nothing. its like I'm living, but I'm just here nothing more nothing less.

Mr. Shue enters the classroom at least Ten minutes late like always. He s starts talking, I don't listen. Its Tuesday. I stare at the tile floors for what seems like forever, in till I feel the eyes of everyone on me. I look up and say in my best fake cherry voice, I can get on a Tuesday and say,

"Oh sorry Mr. Shue where you saying something to me"

"Yes Blaine, I was just wondering if there is any song suggestions that you have for sectionals." He says in a Cherry tone that mocks my fake one.

"No not really."I say

Mr. Shue turns to someone else, and starts talking again, but I once again block him out, after all it is Tuesday. I spend the rest of the day blocking most of my classes out, and talking only when called upon. Today has been just like the other Tuesdays for the last Three months ; like a Tuesday.