After the long drive home Penny finally pulls up in front of her building. She closes her eyes and calms her breathing. This day is taking a toll on her already and she hasn't even faced the hardest part.

She hesitantly steps out of her car and enters her building. No turning back now. Time to put on the big girl panties and walk up those stairs. Or Penny thinks as an idea pops into her head, she can just camp out in a friend's house for like a week? That should be enough time right?

Penny shakes her head as if to shake those ideas out of her head. She reaches out to touch the railing to steady herself. One foot in front of the other she climbs the stairs-sluggishly slow but still climbing the stairs- to her floor.

Right as she climbs the last stair to her floor the door to their apartment opens revealing the entire gang plus Phoebe. Penny looks up at the sky, thank you universe, was the sarcastic thought in her head. She could just feel everyone in the entire freaking universe laughing at her and conspiring against her.

"Holy crap." She hears whispered not so quietly above her. Penny turns to look at Phoebe standing there with her hand pressed to her mouth and eyes wide in shock.

Penny offers a small smile, "Uh Hi Phoebe."

Before anyone else could respond Phoebe rushes over towards Penny, "Don't you hi Phoebe me" she says while giving Penny a bone crushing hug, "We all thought you were dead. We have been looking for you. Oh sweetie."

"Uh does anyone care to explain?" Leonard asks.

"No, not now. I need a drink." Penny says.

Phoebe nods her head, "I need some serious liquor. Let's go to your place so we can talk in private." Phoebe says while glancing at everyone standing behind them.

Penny nods and leads Phoebe across the hall toward her apartment. Penny pours each of them a glass of wine before joining Phoebe on the couch.

Penny looks down and studies the drink in her glass, "I don't know where to start." She admits honestly.

Phoebe grabs her hand and waits till Penny looks her in the eyes, none of the hate she thought would be there is present. "Sweetie, it's ok just start at the beginning."

"After everything that happened, I-I-I was so scared that you all would hate me." Penny confesses, "I couldn't deal if all I saw was hate from all of you. You all were more of a family to me than my own had ever been. I was so ashamed of everything I did so I just packed up and left. I didn't wait around for you all to kick me out, I just left. I needed to get away. So I moved here and stopped doing magic. I created a new identity for myself and everything."

"Oh Billie, none of us hated you. You killed your own sister for us. None of us could hate you. In fact we all were worried sick even Piper."

Penny wipes away the stray tears that have fallen. "I'm so sorry Phoebe. I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to turn my back on all of you." Penny is sobbing now, uncontrollably, "I'm so so sorry. I don't know what to do. I'm so sorry." Phoebe gathers Penny in her arms as she cries. She rubs gentle circles on her back until she calms down enough.

"Today is the four year anniversary of her death. You'd think I'd be over it by now." Penny says honestly.

"It's perfectly ok to still be sad on the anniversary of her death. I still cry on the anniversary of Prue's death sometimes. It's ok to still be sad."

Penny offers Phoebe a small smile, "Thank you for listening and you know not killing me."

"When Piper and Paige find out that you are here, they are going to be ecstatic."

"Um could we, I don't know keep this quiet for right now. I don't want to rush back into everything. I mean I have a life here and I don't need everyone here finding out who I really am. They all think I'm Penny the aspiring actress."

"If that's what you really want I won't say a word. But that doesn't mean I will stop visiting. I am going to come visit you now that I know where you are."

"I would like that." Penny says.

The two talked for a few more hours just catching up as if nothing bad had ever happened to the two of them. But that can only last for so long.