Disclaimer- I don't own Victorious.

You hate me I know. School has been taking over my life, and the only time I have to write is on the weekends and I'm always just so tired guys.

#highschoolproblems

Anyways here it is, and yeah i know it's short, but it's kinda just a filler chapter &&& this is no longer a threee shot. I have no idea how long its going to be, but it's going to be interesting. ;)

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::Beck POV::

I've always known that I was nothing in this world.

I'm a waste of space, and a waste of just everything.

Why are people like me even given chances?

There are people dying of cancer, leprosy, birth defects and I'm still here.

For what?

I would give my life any second of any day for chance of some dying to live.

I don't care who.

I spend alot of time wondering why I'm so insecure, and I try to think of the good things about me, but there's nothing.

Maybe that's why no one likes me.

I just want someone to actually look forward to seeing me everyday.

I want someone to actually miss me if I didn't wake up one morning.

And I'm honestly crazy for wanting that someone to be Beck.

Beck.

He literally has every single girl in this school crushing on him so why would he want ugly, fat, untalented, and unwanted Trina?

That's why I cut myself, and make myself throw-up.

The cutting is for the pain, and the purging is for me to be beautiful.

if I'm beautiful inside and outside then I'll be loved right?

Then I'm never going to stop hurting myself.

I just can't listen to this anymore.
I don't think I've ever felt like more of an asshole in my life.

All this time, this is how Trina felt, and we all treated her like dirt, and excluded her from everything.

All this time she's felt this way about me, and I then I went and did that to her.

I can't even imagine what that feels like.

I need to find her.

::Trina POV::

I realized I forgot my phone about ten minutes ago, but I didn't even attempt to run back and get it.

I realized too late.

I've been sitting on this toilet seat ever since, thinking about what the rest of my life is going to be like now that I know Beck definitely watched my video.

He knows everything now.

And I just know he'll tell everyone.

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