A/N: Hey there my fellow creatures of Earth know as human beings. So basically last week I was looking for some anime to watch and I typed into Goggle 'good anime like Naruto' and it came up with Bleach. So I started watching Bleach and loved it. I'm only on episode 106 at the moment yes I know I'm a few years late on watching Bleach but still. The episode when Hitsugaya came and said he would kill Ichimaru if he spilled Hinamori's blood made me instantly like him and of course the couple Hitsugaya and Hinamori. So that is why I'm here now :D So this is my first fanfic for Hitsugaya and Hinamori and for Bleach all together. So I would appreciate it if you guys left you're thoughts on how you think my story is. But please be nice, I'm fragile XD.
P.S I promise the A/N above will be the longest A/N in this story, I'm just explaining how I came to write this story. NOW ENJOY :D
What my heart is saying is…
Chapter 1: ALMOST Lifeless
Info you need to know: "Talking" "Thinking" "Unconscious land." "Voice seeping into unconscious land"
Full Summary: Toshiro Hitsugaya's best friend Momo Hinamori is unconscious and Toshiro's finally realised something. He loves her. But has Momo gotten over her Captain's betrayal? Does she love Toshiro like he loves her? That's what Toshiro is trying to find out and with the help of his friend Matsumoto he tries to pluck up the courage to ask her. But with the escape of the 3 traitors things happens making Toshiro pause in finding out the answer. But if he waits to long who knows what the answer will turn out to be…
He stared down at her almost lifeless body and was glad that he could put almost in front of lifeless. She had been in that condition for about two weeks and everyday he visited her. Without fail. Captain of the 10th squad Captain (Toshiro) Hitsugaya is the man I'm talking about. You wondering about who the almostlifeless body is? She's Vice-Captain of the 5th squad, Vice-Captain (Momo) Hinamori.
Anyway back to Captain Hitsugaya visiting Hinamori. As said above he visited her every day, without fail. After he was done with his paperwork (plus the ones he asked his Vice-Captain to do but she ended up getting drunk instead of doing her work) which was usually around 9.00pm-ish he would come and visit for an hour. Maybe more. Depending on how long he could stand to see his best friend like this.
Hitsugaya and Hinamori were childhood friends; they'd grown up a lot together, so therefore knew pretty much everything about one another. From their favourite thing – both loved watermelons – to one of their hated things. Hinamori's was when he called her bet-wetter and Hitsugaya's was when she called him Whitey-chan (because of his white hair) or Shiro-chan. Both ticked him off. But he knew that if anyone else called him that other than Hinamori he would have punched them. Hard. But for Hinamori he just scolded and told her not to call him that. Of course she ignored him.-.-
Hitsugaya clenched his fists and stopped the threating tears from spilling. He hated the fact that Hinamori was in this condition. Hated her for stupidly trusting a man who was supposed to be dead. But he didn't actually hate her, he knew he never could. It was just a cover up for those he truly hated. One of them was himself. He hated himself for not getting their in time to save her. Hated himself for not even being able to beat Aizen of Ichimaru for doing what they did to her. He was just thankful to Unohana (Captain of 4th squad) for healing Hinamori to the point where he could put almostin front of lifeless when he looked at her unconscious body on the bed. If it wasn't for Unohana then they would both be dead. Granted if Hinamori had died then Hitsugaya would have as well. She was a part of him. She was his heart.
Hitsugaya sighed as he continued to sit by the unconscious girl that was his best friend. Also the girl he loved. Yes, 10th squad Captain Hitsugaya was in love with 5th squad Vice-Captain Hinamori. Hitsugaya had always been in love with his best friend it was only now that he had realised and admitted it. Well, he admitted it to himself and his friend and Vice-Captain Matsumoto. He certainly wasn't going to admit it to Hinamori even when she woke up. Hitsugaya blushed at the thought of actually saying those three important words to Hinamori. He knew that she didn't feel the same way, she saw him as her little brother. That's why she had the nerve to call him Whitey-chan when they were younger and now Shiro-chan.
"Every day you sit by her side yet you do not utter a word to her. Why is that Captain Hitsugaya?" startled Hitsugaya snapped his head to the right where the voice was coming from. He relaxed as he saw who it was. Captain Unohana.
"What am I supposed to say?" he muttered, not wanting to be rude to the kind lady but not being to help it either.
"Call to her, say what your heart is saying" she said, in her voice which clearly held a lot of wisdom. Hitsugaya stared at her surprise. Surely she didn't know that he was in love with Hinamori? How could she?
"Oh? And what is my heart saying? Hitsugaya muttered not looking at her so she hopefully wouldn't see his faint blush.
"I am not your heart Captain Hitsugaya" Unohana said with a smile. "But I think I could take a guess at what your heart is saying." Hitsugaya looked up at her, intrigued as to what the wise healer thought his heart was saying.
"Please carry on" he murmured eagerly waiting to hear what she had to say but managing to keep his eagerness out of his voice.
"You love her and you need her. That, in my opinion, is what your heart is saying" she said matter-of-factly and began to turn around but stopped halfway so her back was partly facing him. She looked over her shoulder at him. "Correction what your heart is screaming" and with that she left him alone to ponder. That's what he did. He sighed and looked back down at Hinamori.
He knew he loved her and with love comes need but could he really tell her that? After all she was unconscious would she even be able to hear him? He had a hard time admitting to himself that he was in love with the petite girl. The only reason Matsumoto knew was because she guessed and got on his nerves so much he accidentally shouted at her that he loved Hinamori. If he found it hard to admit it to himself and to his Vice Captain (his semi other best friend) then how the hell was he supposed to admit it to the actual girl which had the special place in his heart? He sighed and ran his hand through his spiky white hair.
"I'll be back tomorrow Hinamori-chan. Wake up soon, please" the young white haired Captain whispered to the unconscious girl. As the last bit of what he just said left his lips he couldn't stop the pleading note in his tone. He got up and with one last look at her he left. He couldn't believe what he was about to do. He knew that he had sunk low. After all he was going to get advice from Ichigo Kurosaki. Big low in his mind.
She couldn't understand where she was. She was floating in darkness. That's all she knew. She was all alone. She couldn't hear anything, couldn't see anything but blackness. Couldn't smell anything, couldn't taste anything and couldn't touch anything. Her five senses were completely useless and she hated it.
But the one thing that was still working irritated her. Her mind ergo her thoughts. She was completely aware of what happened earlier. Well what she guessed was earlier she had no sense of time either. Big shock. Anyway she knew that Captain Aizen was alive and that he was the one that put her here. Wherever here was. She knew that Ichimaru was with him as well.
So her thoughts were irritating as she kept on remembering the fact that she had tried to kill Hitsugaya. Her best friend. All because of that stupid letter from Aizen. At the time she didn't want to believe what she read. Some part of her didn't. But she couldn't turn away from solid evidence either. So she went after him, feeling more betrayed than ever. Now that Aizen had put her here she felt immensely guilty for not believing her best friend. Plus betrayed. You know, again. But this time she really had been betrayed. By her Captain and that hurt her. Really hurt her.
She sighed as she kept on getting stabs of guilt. Ones for not trusting her best friend. For trusting a Captain (who then betrayed her) over her best friend. She silently made a vow that she would neverever doubt Hitsugaya again. If she ever got out of this place.
"I'll be back tomorrow Hinamori-chan. Wake up soon, please" Her heart fluttered as she heard that familiar voice. "Whitey-chan" she thought to herself. Every day she would hear his goodbye and only his goodbye. They were usually just simple saying 'see you tomorrow' but today was different. Today he had emotion in his voice. Today he was pleading her. Being best friends with him she knew that it was rare for him to plead someone. The fact that he was pleading with her to wake up showed just how upset he was. Another massive stab of guilt hit her.
She sighed and sat up from her lying down floating position. "You know I would come back to you if I knew how. Please don't leave me, I promise. I'm going to try and get back to you Whitey-chan. Starting now." The floating girl thought to herself and stood up. Somehow she managed to run whilst floating she was frantically searching for something. Like a door. Or a light. Something which would lead her back. Back to Hitsugaya.
She ran and ran and ran none stop for what felt like years to her. But was probably no more than a few hours. Her breathe was ragged, her lungs felt like they were on fire, her heart felt like it was going to explode from all the pumping it was doing and every muscle ached. But she kept trying.
As she felt she was about faint from overexertion she saw something. A light, in the shape of a person. Neither male or female it was just a light. But still she chased after it and once again felt like she was running for years. But she soon found out it was worth it…
The Vice-Captain of the 5th squad woke up startled, breathing heavily. As if she had ran a marathon. Still breathing raggedly and sweating she looked around the room. A hospital room. No-one was here. She laid back down probably so she wasn't half sat up but fully lying down. She sighed, she was disappointed no-one was here when she woke up. She sighed and looked to her right. There was a seat pulled up right next her bed, she touched it. "Still warm. Shiro-chan? Did I really hear your voice earlier?" The now conscious girl thought to herself. She couldn't help the grin that came on her face. After all someone had been here. He just missed the waking up part. But she knew he was going to be back. He had said.
Toshiro Hitsugaya sighed as he looked up at the small house. It was surrounded by a white picket fence which went around the whole of the house. It was kind of ironic that someone like Ichigo Kurosaki and Rukia Kuchiki would live in a house so… family like. Instead of what people would picture them living in. An average house or a flat.
Their little gate in front of their house which was part of the fence had a plague on it. "Ichigo and Rukia." Then below it there was another plague "Baka, you mean Rukia and Ichigo." Then below that was another plague. "No". Below another plague. "Yes" there were plagues on it till the bottom of the fence all going "No" then "Yes" so on and so forth. But Toshiro couldn't help but smile at the final plague. "Forget it, it doesn't matter I love you anyway. Baka." Toshiro knew that last part was clearly Rukia's doing seeing as she was the one always calling him the Baka.
After Ichigo and the others had rescued Rukia and she said that she was going to stay there in Soul Society Ichigo confessed his feelings for her and stayed there with her. No-one minded really as long as Ichigo didn't bother them. They were allowed to go to the real world whenever they wanted so Ichigo could still see his family and friends. Plus they had made him into a fully-fledged Shinigami. (A/N: I'm aware that didn't happen but I made it up so it would fit with my story, anything that didn't happen is made up by me to fit my story :D. read on :3)
Toshiro opened the gate and walked up the pebbled patio to their little porch doorway. On the left there was a single chair facing where Toshiro just came from and on the right was a little swing. All in all it was a cute little house. Toshiro sighed embarrassed that he had to come here of all places for advice. On love. He rang the doorbell. A simple 'ding dong'.
A few seconds later and Toshiro was ready to run away, but he didn't. Well, couldn't. Just before he was about to turn around the man himself that Toshiro was looking for opened the door. The orange haired Ichigo Kurosaki opened the door and looked at Toshiro quizzically but nonetheless smiled at him.
"Hey, shorty. What's up?" The orange haired Shinigami asked, casually. Toshiro gritted his teeth, with every passing second he was regretting coming here.
"It's Captain Hitsugaya to you. I need to speak to you though, carrot head" Ichigo too looked annoyed at his nickname but let it slide and opened the door wider for Toshiro. Inviting him in. Toshiro nodded and walked in. Walking the walk of a Captain. (Even though he just got called shorty buy a new Shinigami -.-). Ichigo shut the door and followed the young – and short – Captain into the living room.
"What's up?" 'Carrot Top' asked once again as he sat down opposite 'Shorty'. Toshiro sighed, not sure how he was going to say this.
"When you confessed to Rukia what were you thinking?" he decided on the straight forward blunt way of asking. Ichigo stared at him a little taken aback at the sudden question from the short Captain. But nonetheless gained his composure and shrugged nonchalantly.
"I guess I was thinking…" he began in a murmur but got louder as he went on "Well, Rukia was about to leave so I guess my main thought was 'I can't let her go, when I've just got her back'. Something like that. When I saw her twice – you know both of our rescues the tower then the hill - both times weak but unharmed my heart stuttered, I was more than relieved. When I saw her after we had rescued her properly and she was telling me she wanted to stay, then I knew. Knew that I loved her and that I couldn't let her go. So I told her my feelings. She accepted and now here we are" The last bit he shrugged and put up his hands gesturing the 'here' as in the house.
"What did she say when you confessed?" Toshiro murmured, genuinely curious. Ichigo smirked and opened his mouth but the voice that answered wasn't his.
"I said 'Baka" Rukia said and entered the room and sat by Ichigo. Ichigo smiled at her and wrapped one arm around her waist. She smiled back and for a moment it was just them two, staring at each other. Eyes filled with love.
"You called him an idiot?" Toshiro said in disbelief, snapping the two love birds back to reality. Rukia smiled softly.
"Hello to you too, Captain Hitsugaya. Yes I remember I specifically said 'Baka, I love you too.' Then after we kissed I called him a Baka again. It's my favourite word for him" she said and smiled at her boyfriend. He faked looking hurt.
"Ouch and here I was going to make my favourite word for you 'beautiful' I think I'm going to change it to 'fool'" she lightly slapped him on the chest but he smiled and whispered in her ear. Toshiro rolled his eyes glad he couldn't hear what Ichigo had said to her. Whatever it was it was personal, it made her blush. Which only Ichigo could make her blush.
Toshiro's mind wandered off as the two love birds continued bickering affectionately . So all he had to do was say those three words. Simple, right? He sighed, not convinced it was but at least he knew what he should do. Even though he was planning to do that in the beginning. -.-
He stood up and thanked the couple then said goodbye and made his way out. He contemplated on going back to Hinamori but decided against it. There was always tomorrow. Besides he needed time to think exactly what he was going to say.
"EEEEEEEEEEEEEP" the big busted ginger squealed delightedly. Toshiro had just got back from Ichigo's and was currently in his office. More paperwork was on his desk, Matsumoto's. He had scolded her lack of work when he had got in but that just made her curious as to why he was being extra mean. So he sighed and for once told his Vice-Captain what he had been up to today.
Hence her squealing.
"Aww Toshiro, Toshiro, Toshiro you little mushy thing!" Rangiku Matsumoto exclaimed and hugged her Captain. Toshiro would have blushed when his face got squished into the woman's big bust but by now he was used to it. But he wasn't a pervert so he pushed her away, immediately. He wasn't much of a hugger anyway.
"Shut up!" he exclaimed, embarrassed. Not sure how he wasn't blushing. "I didn't actually tell her" he muttered, seriously wishing he hadn't told his other semi-best friend. She would have been his other best friend if she did some work. Plus stopped annoying him countless times. So she was only his semi best friend.
"But you're planning too! My little Toshiro is so adorable but he's growing up" she said, squealing. A low growl erupted from the young Captain's throat, but Matsumoto being Matsumoto didn't get fazed by it. She ignored it. Toshiro sighed and sat down at his desk and rested his head on one hand. Bored and waiting for Matsumoto to calm down. Which would be a while yet. After a few more minutes of squealing and talking quickly about how adorable Toshiro was the ginger finally calmed down.
"Done, Matsumoto?" The Captain asked, in a bored tone. Her eyes were sparkling but she just nodded enthusiastically.
"Yes, Toshiro. Done. But when are you going to tell her that you love her?" she asked, clearly just being able to maintain her squeals. Toshiro sighed.
"I don't know." He murmured, truthfully. "What's the point anyway? She's in a coma she won't be able to hear me" Matsumoto looked at her Captain her heart going out to the sad look in his eyes. Matsumoto loved Toshiro, not as in a lover way but as in a sister and brother way. She wasn't sure if he felt that way too but it didn't matter to her. As long as he kept her as his Vice-Captain even though she did hardly any work she knew. If he didn't care about her he would have fired her. So surely there must be some love for her? She shook those thoughts away, she could think about that some other time. Now she was going to help out her Captain. For once.
"She'll hear you" Toshiro was surprised how softly and serious his friend had spoken. Usually her tone always had some mock in it. She was usually mocking him. To hear that his friend was being so serious was a surprise. A big one. "You said that Unohana said you need to tell Momo what's in your heart. That means Unohana knows Momo will hear it. So just say it." Toshiro stared up at her amazed how serious and kind she was being. But it made him blush so he glared at her and changed the topic.
"It's Hinamori to you" he muttered at her. She smiled.
"Momo's my best friend just like you are. I call you Toshiro so why can't I call Momo, Momo?" she asked, grinning. Toshiro sighed, she was Hinamori's best friend (other than him of course) but he wanted to avoid talking about his love life so he argued.
"You should be calling me Hitsugaya!" he exclaimed. She pouted.
"Why Toshiro? Best friends aren't best friends if they don't call each other by their first names!" she too exclaimed. He raised an eyebrow at that; his fellow comrade really did see him as a best friend. He would have been flattered if he wasn't Hitsugaya.
"We're not best friends! We're Captain and Vice-Captain" he said, his voice loud. Matsumoto didn't flinch she knew he didn't mean that and he knew he didn't either. She knew he was just changing the topic so she was going along with it. She gave him sad puppy dog eyes which she knew made him feel guilty whenever he said something mean to her.
"You're so mean!" she said, hurt – although she wasn't actually hurt. He sighed and ran a hand through his hair. "What will Momo think if she saw you being mean to one of your best friends?" Toshiro turned to her, glaring. Now he was properly annoyed with her. She knew it so she giggled.
"Shut up, if you're not going to do the paperwork then leave" once again the girl pouted but then sighed as she looked at the time. It was late.
"Do it tomorrow, Toshiro. It's late get some rest so you're fresh for tomorrow" the girl said softly and seriously. Toshiro looked up at her, still surprised how quickly she could go from being serious to teasing to serious again. She smiled and he knew she was about to say something that would tick him off. "Fresh to tell your Momo how much your heart is longing for her" she said with kissy faces. The boy glared at her and shouted for her to go. She did laughing all the way out. Singing 'Toshiro is in love, Toshiro is in love' on the way.
Toshiro sighed sometimes he didn't get his friend. One minute she could be all serious and advice giving the next she was teasing him again. He would have been frowning at the memory from a minute ago but he wasn't. Instead he was smiling. After all Toshiro liked it when Matsumoto had called Momo his. He looked out of the window towards the hospital he knew Hinamori was lying in. Hopefully soon she really would be his.
A/N: So first chapter done, I hope you guys liked it. Of course I'm not going to put Hinamori and Hitsugaya together straight away so you'll have to wait till next chapter to see if the Hinamori shares Hitsugaya's feelings :D please, please review and let me know what you guys think of this story. Criticism is welcome, so I can do my best to improve :3 hope you enjoyed this chapter
See ya soon – Tilda.