This chapter is Fabian's! The one you were waiting for. Be aware though, the keyboard ended up wet after I wrote this.

Disclaimer: I do not own HoA. Phooey

Fabian POV

NINA! The voice inside my head screams. She's gone and it's my fault. It's my entire fault. I love her. There, I said it.

Nina, your smile could light up my world. Your laugh made me feel warm inside. Your personality shone like the stars. You were beautiful. You are beautiful no matter what.

I stare at my guitar and play towards the heavens for you.

It must've been in a place so dark you couldn't feel the light
Reachin' for you through that stormy cloud
Now here we are gathered in our little hometown
This can't be the way you meant to draw a crowd

I could tell you were lost and sad sometimes. When Mara screamed, I knew something was wrong. I ignored it and hid my feelings for you. You attracted the whole house and teachers and school un-intentially.

Oh, why? That's what I keep askin'
Was there anything I could have said or done?
Oh, I had no clue you were masking
A troubled soul, God only knows what went wrong
And why you'd leave the stage in the middle of a song

When I sang the love song to you, you thought it was for Joy. Heck, I thought it was for Joy. But, you ran off in the middle of the song. You were insecure this semester, I know I could've said something, but I was a jerk.

Now in my mind I keep you frozen as a sixteen year old
Roundin' third to score the winning run
You always played with passion no matter what the game
When you took the stage, you shined just like the sun

You were only sixteen and you had your whole life ahead of you. And I remember that karaoke. Your voice was an angel's. You could play the guitar exquisitely. Your pure wonder exploded with light.

Oh, why? That's what I keep askin'
And was there anything I could have said or done?
Oh, I had no clue you were masking
A troubled soul, oh, God only knows what went wrong
And why you'd leave the stage in the middle of a song

I was an idiot to let you go. I didn't know you were troubled; I could've done something. But, I had to act all cool and idiotic.

Now the oak trees are swayin' in the early autumn breeze
The golden sun is shining on my face
The tangled thoughts I hear a mockingbird sing
This old world really ain't that bad a place

As they buried you in the ground, I swear nature was singing a song for you and dancing too. I guess being the chosen one had its sun shown on me and you only, true love you could say. The world isn't always so cruel.

Oh, why? There's no comprehending
And who am I to try to judge or explain?
Oh, but I do have one burning question
Who told you life wasn't worth the fight?
They were wrong, they lied, and now you're gone, and we cried

I was a jerk to call you a crybaby when I saw you cry that night. Did I tell you through my actions that life wasn't worth living? Now you're gone and sobs can be heard all around campus. They said you'd be alright. They were wrong.

'Cause it's not like you to walk away in the middle of a song
Your beautiful song, your absolutely beautiful song

You walked away in the middle of my song. The song would be my life and yours. You left it. You are beautiful. Your life was beautiful. One day, I'll feel true love again. When I'm with you.

So, that's the end of the chapter and my story! Did you cry? Just so you know, I changed seventeen to sixteen. Be sure to read my other story which is in the works! It's called The Disappearance of Nina Martin. And thank you for the reviews! Especially to:

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