A quick little Bade songfic. I got inspired when I was listening to Breakeven by The Script.

Enjoy!

Beck

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing

Just praying to a God that I don't believe in

'Cause I got time while she got freedom

'Cause when a heart breaks no it don't break even

I didn't mean to hurt her. Really. I didn't. I don't know why I didn't open the door. I don't know why I let her get to ten. But all I know now is that I lost her. She's not mine anymore. She's someone else's. That hurts.

It was a stupid fight. One of our stupid meaningless fights that should have lasted for a day tops. I know I over-reacted. I get that it was a stupid game show. I know that I shouldn't care what others think of our relationship. But for some reason, I did. I guess I was just tired of fighting, but that didn't mean that I wanted to break up, no way. That was the last thing I wanted to do.

It's too late now.

Her best days will be some of my worst

She finally met a man that's gonna put her first

While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping

'Cause when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven... even... no.

She met someone new. She met him at a party and apparently they hit it off. She says he makes her happy. Or at least Cat says that. Cat is Jade's best friend, practically her sister. She wouldn't lie. Would she?

I see them together at school. They walk around the halls with their hands laced together. She looks happy. Happier than when we were together. My heart clenches when I see her eyes sparkle as she laughs at something he says. And my heart breaks as I see them kissing at lunch. God, I miss her so much.

I can't sleep at night. I'm not used to sleeping without her beside me. She always slept over. I miss waking up to find her sleeping beside me. My pillow still smells like her. Half of her clothes are still in my wardrobe. I can't bring myself to give them back to her. They're the last piece of her that I have left.

What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you,

And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok

I'm falling to pieces, yeah,

I'm falling to pieces

I can't even talk to her anymore. She wanted to stay friends, but I just couldn't. I can't just see her as a friend after everything she meant to me before. Who am I kidding? She still means everything to me. I love her. I'll never stop loving her.

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing

Just prayed to a God that I don't believe in

'Cause I got time while she got freedom

'Cause when a heart breaks no it don't break

No it don't break

No it don't break even no

I know I'll get over her someday. I'll have to. She's obviously over me if she's dating someone new already. Maybe I didn't mean that much to her. My heart breaks just thinking about that.

I don't want to get over her.

I miss her.

I love her.

Jade

I'm not over him.

I miss him.

I still love him.