Summary:

What if Bella died while giving birth? What would Renesmee's life be like? In this story, Renesmee is forced to grow up not only without a mother but also without a father. Edward leaves his family and own daughter because he can't deal to be with the one thing that killed his beloved Bella. What happens though when father and daughter finally meet after 5 years?

I do not own anything Twilight; all the characters were created by Stephanie Meyer.

Introduction:

Renesmee's POV

One picture. That's the closest thing I have to seeing my father. My dad left me after my mother died giving birth to me. I killed her. My Aunt Rosalie tells me that's not true, but what else am I supposed to believe? Why else would my dad leave me? I know there are kids out there who don't have a mom or dad too, but do they have to live with the fact that their father hates their own child and never wants to see them? I've never said one word to my dad. The only memory I have of him is my birth and the moment he left me. I can clearly remember the look in his eyes as he was walking out the door. Pure hatred and sadness.

That's not the only thing messed up about my life. I'm really 5 years old but physically I am 15. I'm a half human- half vampire hybrid. My mom, Bella was human when she conceived and gave birth to me and my father, Edward was a vampire just like the rest of my family. Being a hybrid means that I grow faster, have a heartbeat, blood pumping through my veins and I will live forever. Also I can sleep and eat regular food. I'm expected to stop physically growing when I appear 16 or 17.

I was raised by my dad's family. Luckily they didn't decide to just forget about me and just leave. My dad's adoptive parents Esme and Carlisle, and their adopted kids (my father's siblings) Rosalie, Alice, Jasper and Emmett. They actually love and care about me. They're the only family I have. My mother's father, Charlie Swan died about a year ago. I never met him but I attended the funeral. I knew it was something my mother would have wanted me to do. I cried to see my biological grandfather. It killed me to know that I could have actually had a relationship with him if my mom didn't pass away. From what I have been told, they were close.

I had three mother figures in my life, my Aunts Alice and Rosalie and my Grandma Esme. They make sure I am always satisfied and feel comfortable. They always put me as a top priority and I am more than grateful for that. I don't deserve the life I have; it's too much considering what I did.

There isn't a day that goes by where I don't think about how my life could have been if my mom was here with me. My dad would have obviously stayed and we could have been a happy family. As for my life now, my family and I lived in Forks, Washington though we are moving somewhere else to start fresh in a week. I knew it would be hard to leave the place where my mom was born and where I grew up. I knew I had no choice though and had to get over it. My grandparents said we could keep the house in Forks still and visit every now and then, I was glad about that. I loved this house, so many memories happened here and it's the only place I will feel comfortable and at home.

AN: Hi everyone! This is my first FanFic ever so I hope its not TOO bad and hopefully I can get some steady readers. I've always read Twilight fanfics but I've never really seen one that had this type of story line. Please, please, please tell me if I have any errors or anything! it will be much appreciated! ALSO if anyone has ANY ideas at all, please direct message me! i will be very greatful! I will update as much as possible because I know how annoying it is when you're really into a story and then the writer doesn't update for months!

That's all for now! Bye :)