Cacophony
Prologue

Kanda…

Kanda…

"Walker…"

Silver eyes glinted in the dark holding cell, the occasional tear spilling down his flushed cheeks. He didn't even notice the physical pain anymore. All he could focus on was the giant hole in his heart. Without wanting to, he'd begun to despise so much. He despised the Order that caused Kanda's downfall. He despised the Order that had been the reason why Kanda's previous life's lover was turned into an Akuma. He despised the Noah that forced all those memories to resurface and turn Kanda and Alma on each other.

Those two had been reborn together. They had been each other's only friends. And they…they were manipulated and forced to nearly fight to the death, when all they wanted…

All they wanted was to be free from the Black Order.

It gave him a horrible taste in his mouth. It was the real reason why he wouldn't eat anything; because he knew he'd never keep it down as long as he could remember the deep, lost, rage filled eyes that stared him down. All he wanted to do was cleanse Kanda of those eyes forever. Seeing him so out of control that he couldn't even think made Allen's heart tighten until he thought he couldn't breathe again.

Those eyes held the strongest undertone of death that he'd ever seen.

Kanda wanted to stop thinking.

He wanted to stop existing in the reality given to him by the corrupted Black Order. He turned his blade on Allen, despite the resonating feelings that were pouring off him. Allen knew that he held those feelings in him for Allen, but he was just too far gone to recognize it for what it was. It took the sharp end of Mugen piercing into his body for Kanda to come back to him.

And he was okay with that, if that was what it took to get those empty eyes to go away and give him back the clear, cognizant ones he loved so much. He didn't care that he had committed treason to send Kanda and the remaining bit of Alma back to the location of their very first mission together. Kanda was worth all the treason in the world. If sending them off was the way to bring closure to the one person he loved more than anything, then he was more than happy to do so.

But still, he felt his heart tearing down until numbness spread over him. Kanda had become his hope. Even if that man was a giant bitch most of the time and hard to work with…he was his lighthouse. He could trust his life in that man's hands. Even when he was facing off with him, nearly fighting a death match with him; he knew that Kanda would never willingly harm him.

Blinking slowly, he set his brain to recall every detail he could: Kanda's smug grin, flashing teeth; the way his eyes narrowed when he was annoyed; the way he tapped his finger against his arm when he was thinking….the way he only had a certain look for Allen.

Allen really was trying very hard not to break.

But it was becoming harder and harder.

Kanda blamed the Noah inside him when they fought and Allen was beginning to as well. He hated the 14th. He hated him with every bit of his heart, because without the 14th…they would never have targeted Kanda. They knew…the Noah knew that Kanda was the only one with the power to put Allen in that position. Allen and Kanda were the two most dangerous beings within the order. It only made sense for them to be pitted against each other…

"Walker…"

"You knew, didn't you?" He finally acknowledged Howard Link again. If he had to guess the expression, he would assume Link was surprised by the forwardness of the question, but there was no way he didn't know exactly what he was referring to. "You had to know."

"You two fought like cats and dogs, over everything."

"That doesn't really say much."

"It was enough to make inferences. Especially from two people normally not like that," Link let out a breath and sat next to Allen. He wasn't capable of comforting the boy, but he could attempt to talk it out with him.

"You said nothing, why?"

"Because it wasn't my place. When I saw people I cared about used as experiments for the gain of the Order, I realized they don't care about you kids for anything more than weapons. If that was what you had keeping you going, I could turn a blind eye."

A moment of silence passed before Allen could bring himself to whisper, "thank you."

"There's a possibility that he's not dead."

"…But for how long…Like this…I'll never make it to Mater in time to find out. If only I could find a way out…" The pain in his chest welled up again, "I don't know…If I could even…bring myself to see him…dead… I wish none of this happened."

"I know…"

It feels like all of me is crying. Even… him.

Damn it…

Kanda…

If you're dead, I will never forgive you.

Please don't…

Leave me.

I need you more than anything.

To Be Continued…

A/N: Welcome to the next stage of "DewDropLotus toys cruelly with your emotions." Take a seat and enjoy.

THIS IS A SEQUEL to Brain Damage. And yes, the rating has changed. It's necessary for the level of violence and borderline Kanda molestation that will probably happen.

Now, why didn't I tell you until just now? Because new readers might be thrown off to see it at the beginning and this is ambiguous enough to give them a taste of what Brain Damage had to offer. If you have not read Brain Damage, please do so now, or risk not knowing any of what the fuck is going on.

Thank you to everyone following me from Brain Damage, this one will be chalk full of more heart break than you have the heart for, so prepare yourselves. My goal is to see how many minds I can shatter and collect enough tears for my Olympic sized swimming pool.!

ALL MY LOVE~!