She is completly numb. Her world is crumbling arould her, she can barely breath. She's on her knees, deperately trying to stop the gushing blood flow from his chest. His eyes had already fluttered shut, and somrthing told her they would never open again. Reality crashed down on her hard, she stumbled back untill her back hit a tree. The tears poured down her face, he was gone.

It was all his fault! He was the one who shot him! She was going to kill him! As soon as the thought apperared it evaporated, leaving a hollow pit of despair where her heart used to be. how did he even know? The note. Her hand slipped down into her jacket pocket, it wasn't there. How could she be so stupid?

She closed her eyes, and began to remember what had happened before this... this... nightmare.

She had been brushing her now-long purpleish hair when she heard the door click open. "Gaz..." She didn't realize what was about to happen. She didn't realize she had dropped the note on her way inside the house. She didn't realize how much Dib hated Zim. She didn't realize that he had picked up their fathers gun. Maybe if she had, this all would have been avoided. "yeah?" she replied absentmindedly. When he spoke he didn't sound like Dib, he sounded cold, "I don't like Zim. That defect won't have my sister" The door slammed and he locked it. She swung herself around, shocked beyond belief and tried to open the door, she was trapped.

After much struggling with the door she just decided to climb out the window. Quickly she tied bed sheets together and lept out. She realized to late that the make shift rope wouldn't be long enough and had to drop down several feet. Miraculously she wasn't hurt. Finally she turned and ran, strait into the forest. Strait to her nightmare.

She was jolted out of her memorys by a soft sound. She glanced up and was shocked by what she saw. Birds. Birds everywhere. Two beautiful bluejays landed on the ground next to Zim's corpse. When there suspicions were confirmed, they both let out a long, grief striken call. Quickly all the other birds picked up the call and added their own. Gaz's mind went back to the messy scrawl of the note.

Gaz! You have no idea of the awsomeness I will soon show you! I can't wait! Meet me at our normal spot in the forest and i'll show you something amazing! -Zim

This is what Zim was planning on showing her? All of these... 'pet' birds? She knew Zim had a talent with birds but this...?

She shook her head before slowly crawling over to Zim. She stared at his closed eyes and realized she would never see his ruby eyes again. Silently, she made him a promise: I'll take care of GIR and minimoose, i'll make sure Dib doesn't trash your base, and most importantly, I WILL NOT forget you Zim. Never.

She leaned down and kissed his forehead, the last time she would ever kiss her love, before slowly standing and leaving. The forest that had previously been filled with the wild calls of birds was oddly silent.

Zim's death had pushed her to the brink of her sanity, and she was slowly falling off the edge.

okay, i decided to rewrite this. i do not own invader zim! review which one is better, please?