Glory

Sam's Pov

I couldn't believe I had been out for weeks already I was still tired form the meds but over all I was doing well , school was still the same hell but I was stronger I had Carly by me and when we walked in holding hands it felt powerful.

Not that it made a bit of difference when they saw us walk in kids immediately split pushing themselves against lockers coughing out slurs like Homo's and dykes... we were still shoved spit at and had our lockers sprayed with nasty names and insults...yet it didn't make me want to die in fact it made me angry and it made me want to live even more...

Every day after school we went to laugh...we met with Steph for group ..we talked we came up with ideas to help the youth...

Carly and Freddie had a great plan...at some point Freddie had come across this kid named Jamey who was a iCarly fan who was bullied relentlessly so they had responded to him by making a web-cast. He had seen it and responded for weeks him and Carly and Freddie had been emailing and I'ming. I thought it was brilliant so I went through my messages and started answering other fans like this kid who blogged about me all the times...Jamie HuBright...

Still I wanted more when I was talking to Steph and Brittany they suggested using iCarly ...after weeks of brain storming we had the idea..while Carly was in debate club after school and Freddie in Av club..I went to Laugh to do some research...

Carly's Pov

After school was strange now no Sam any more she was staying out of trouble as she worked on improving her grades. Freddie and I we were barely talking. Today was even stranger school had to be let out early when the fire alarm was set off...so we had decided to grab smoothies ...he was still being a gentleman holding my books wrapping his arm around my waist but I knew I had hurt him bad..

Freddie I really am sorry I should have been honest with you I mean you deserved it

Yea I did Carly and it hurts to know that you used me just like Sam did ..but I get it to you were scared it's not easy to come out...and it's not my place to tell you how to do it or yell at you. I wish you had told me before you announced it to the whole flipping school it sucks to find out my girlfriend is gay through a splash-face video...but again I get it ..I'm not mad Carly..hurt ..yes..but I love you and that won't change and I want you to be happy...if Sam makes you happy then at least I know you'll be safe..I'm sorry for my reaction Carly I was just so blinded and I was a jerk..

I looked at him was he for real? He had come over to tell me about Jamey and after we did the web-cast I had gone down to get drinks when someone sent him a video text and he saw the video on Splash-face of me coming out , god the look in his eyes as he watched and looked at me the light had gone out and he had gone pale and shaky his voice had been filled with such hate and anger ..We had fought ..

Why Carly? Why couldn't you of been honest?

I get you were scared I'm not mad that your gay but why did you use me?

Your no better then Sam ...I can't believe you would lie your such a hypocrite You make me sick

Do I have a sign on me Saying sucker? What is with you Lesbians!

Freddie please I'm sorry I was so confused I ..

Save it Carly I'm so done!

Freddie let me..

The cold feel of his palm still stung against my check but it was the pain and tears that were clogging his throat that killed me.Gibby had stepped in between us..

You need to chill man for real

Stay out of it Gibby this is between me and ...This...Liar

I screamed as Freddie tried to grab me and Gibby rushed forward shoving him down wrestling him out of the room.

Don't come back till you can act civil

Leave Carly alone you have no idea what she's going through..

What are you her protector?

Someone has to be since Sam can't and her own Boyfriend is a brain dead moron who's only thinking with his lower member...

You can have her I'm done with this...

I shuddered remembering as I looked at him now was he tricking me or something? I looked into his eyes. I didn't see venom or hate or even disgust I just saw a 17 year old kid who was scared and lonely and wanted to be loved.

I swear I never loved someone as much as I did Freddie at that moment I was beyond grateful to have him as a friend ..without thinking I quickly kissed his check making him blush as he shoved me inside.

The next few hours we laughed and talked just like we had every other day we didn't cry or feel any

Fear we just were normal teens..

I'm grabbing a smoothie for Sam Carly want another?

Sure I have to pee get me whatever..

Kay

Where was Sam? Why hadn't she called? I was worried she always called me when she got to laugh and when she left she knew I worried about her and quite frankly I didn't trust her fully yet.

After I peed I checked my messages nothing new sighing frustrated I went to find Freddie who told me to chill she was probably eating her way through Seattle.

His tone changed when we walked in my apartment to see Sam sitting stone faced white sitting on my couch crying into Spencer's lap...he looked lost and speechless as we went over full of questions ..She just held up some print outs..

Freddie took them and a gasp left his lips..

Freddie's POV

I'm a Roasted Chicken on a stick

I'm a hamper!

And this is iCarly!

Random Dancing!

Out came Gibby dressed as a hamster he was kind of cute ...They started dancing funky ..

Okay cyber geeks freaks and all you other creatures today on iCarly we have a point which I know is ..

Sam pressed a button that sent gasps ringing out Carly giggled god she was so beautiful...

In all seriousness tonight's show is dedicated to two very special iCarly fans..

We want to tell you all a bit about them...

Carly stepped forward clearing her throat..

Jamey Meyers is a 14 year old who loved Lady Gaga, iCarly, hamsters, cats any animal really he liked to write and he liked to have fun and make people laugh...Jamey also liked Boys..Yes Jamey was a openly gay teenager who was bullied and tormented everyday for standing up for who he was..Jamey and I had been talking for awhile ...he was troubled and scared over his daily harassment and I was trying to give him hope ..I wanted him to know he was special and loved and he was needed..I came out because of kids like Jamey...But some people felt Jamey wasn't special and they made sure he knew it he posted in his blog three days ago this message...

I always say how bullied I am, but no one listens. What do I have to do so people will listen to me?'

'No one in my school cares about preventing suicide, while you're the ones calling me Fag and Queer and tearing me down.'

He put up a separate post that day letting everyone know it was National Suicide Prevention Week.

But still no one listened.

Last Saturday night he posted a lyric from Lady Gaga's song The Queen on his Facebook page which said: 'Don't forget me when I come crying to heaven's door.'

On 1.30am on Sunday morning, he left two final messages on one of his blogs saying he was looking forward to seeing his great grandmother, who recently died, and another thanking Lady Gaga.

These were Jamey's Final words..

ladygaga Bye mother monster, thank you for all you have done, paws up forever,'

Jamey killed himself this weekend and his death was preventable Jamey didn't have to die if people only took the time to love one another and listen and accept kids like Jamey wouldn't feel alone isolated and suicidal...

Sam stepped forward and hugged Carly as she took a deep breath...

I'm loud I'm rude..I heard them all but what I am not is stupid ..even I know a change needs to be made...people say I don't care but I do more then they know...

You fans are my main reason to fight as hard as I do and I am heart sickened cause this week we lost two little monsters..

Jamie Eric HuBright 15 years old with the brightest red hair you could ever see you could see him coming a mile a way but what shone even brighter? Easy his personality Jamie was a lover a fighter for his rights he was a activist..he was funny and sweet Jamie loved to preform and he was damn good he was a little fire cracker on stage he could do any voice match any dance move he was lighting and he knew it..he had big dreams he had plans for his life ..he studied hard and had many friends...Jamie..loved who he was he was proud to be gay and to stand up for who he was no matter how many people tried to tear him down...

He often blogged about the bullying like this Splash-face post

"It's so hard,""I'm sorry, I can't take it anymore."

Jamie described having a problem with cutting that left his arms scarred, and he praised his parents in his final note but said he couldn't wait the three years before he'd graduate from high school.

"People said 'it gets better,'" likely having seen the video campaign meant to encourage kids to outlast bullying. "It's f...g bullshit."

Jamie told me he was seeing a psychologist, was on medication, but his problems didn't disappear. He talked more frequently about feeling ostracized and alone than being bullied.

"I hate being the only open gay guy in my school," he had written "It f...g sucks, I really want to end it. Like all of it."

But he was certainly bullied.

"Being open does not help at all," he wrote before the school year started. "Yeah, someone will call me a fag. But one after the other, after the other … I can tell on them … Yeah. But they don't give a shit. They'll come back after their suspension (fun day at home, free day at school) and continue calling me a fagot. I'm not ready."

"I wish I could be happy, I try, I try, I try ... I just want to feel special to someone," he wrote. I understand Jamie's pain more then any one should ever have to I spent many days alone and scared ..it's only recently that I have come to see how beautiful I am how beautiful life is...

He was, of course, special to many people but, tragically, the Grade 10 student took his own life on Saturday.

The scary fact is this Suicide is the second-leading cause of death for Canadians between the ages of 10 and 24 and disproportionately affects gay, lesbian, bisexual and transgender youth.

Teen suicide is a major cause of death among teens, though many do not recognize suicide as a serious threat to a teenager's well being.

In the USA Suicide is the third leading cause of death among adolescents and teenagers. According to the National Institute for Mental Health (NIMH), about 8 out of every 100,000 teenagers committed suicide in 2000. For every teen suicide death, experts estimate there are 10 other teen suicide attempts.

In a survey of high school students, the National Youth Violence Prevention Resource Center found that almost 1 in 5 teens had thought about suicide, about 1 in 6 teens had made plans for suicide, and more than 1 in 12 teens had attempted suicide in the last year. As many as 8 out of 10 teens who commit suicide try to ask for help in some way before committing suicide, such as by seeing a doctor shortly before the suicide attempt.

Don't think it can't happen to you or someone you know cause it sure can I know it happened to me..don't think that because someone seems happy that they are...most kids and teens will try to cover up their sadness so they don't worry their friends or family...Jamie's friend Steph said to ET From the outside, he looked like the happiest kid. He was always smiling and giving everybody hugs in the halls," Steph was a close friend who had known Jamie since the pair were in figure skating together as children a decade ago.

But Steph, 16, knew the sensitive boy was struggling with being out in high school and often felt the sting of verbal bullying. She said all that Jamie wanted was what every teenager wants — somebody to love.

"I just remember him wanting a boyfriend so bad, he'd always ask me to find a boy for him. I think he wanted someone to love him for who he was," she said.

The blog postings are interspersed with angst-filled quotes and startling images of self-harm — gathered from all over the web, as well as other pictures of celebrities, clothing and men kissing passionately.

There's a stark disconnect between the heaviness of the words and emotions expressed and the relative lightness of the pictures and what they suggest about a young man figuring out, accepting and perhaps celebrating his own sexuality.

On Friday, Jamie made a final, heartbreaking post.

He ended with another reference, this one to Glee and a subplot this season about Kurt Hummel, a character who is also openly gay and highly talented.

"Remember me as a Unicorn," he wrote.

On the show, the unicorn refers to someone who is different, but special inside. Jamie was special and he will be remembered both Jamey's, Jamie's will be remembered by us and we hope by you our iCarly fans..

Wendy her friends , Mystic, Toronto , L'G Bray, Cassie, Janelle, Brittany , Steph, Keala, Lady GaGa all came out. I set it on Auto and stepped out along with Brad and a dancing hamster.

Were setting up a special website to end teen suicide inspired by It Gets Better were calling it COCUP it stands for Coming Out Coming Up Proud ..were asking everyone to share their stories through blogs video's anyway you can were also having weekly meetings for anyone in the Seattle Area to come and gather we need to take action we need young people to know It Gets Better...you don't have to die to be accepted...

3..2..1...were clear...

Sam and Carly collapsed on the bean bags as Gibby was dancing still in his hamster suit...Brad and Wendy high fived...

I looked around at everyone and smiled after all we had been through we were alright after all..

Momma's hungry go get her food nub..

Get it yourself Puckett..

Ah no pillow fight! My hair!

Carly screamed ducking as Sam and I started beating each other with pillows Carly crawled out of the way as Brad and Wendy laughed picking up pillows...

Get her!

Dedicated to Two Bright young Men who never saw the rainbow beyond their darkest hours Jamey Rodemeyer (March 21, 1997 – September 18, 2011)

And Jamie Hubley November 23rd 1995-October 15th 2011.

You are missed You Are Remembered we are inspired by you Shine Bright beyond heaven's gates while We fight for your rights you never got to see come to life...