Hello all you lovely people. I am so sorry it has taken me so long to update, I really hadn't realised how much time had passed. I promise that even if I leave it this long I will always continue with this story. This one has special meaning to me and I am so glad that so many of you seem to like it as well.

Thank you to everyone who has taken the time to review, I read all of them with a massive smile on my face. And without any further ado - the next chapter

'I can't believe how quickly time is passing, like Rebecca is getting married tomorrow!' I say to Amanda, I really can't believe it. Time used to have no meaning to me, but now that I have a life, a good life, filled with friends and college, time just goes by so quickly.

'I know, we are no longer the young, free single girls of yesteryear' she says her voice subdued.

'Hey, Dumbass, she was already with Matt when you met her' I slap the side of her head.

'Well yea, but there was always hope, that's gone now. She'll be knocked up and chained to a kitchen sink before we know it.'

I just shake my head, a slight laugh leaving my lips. 'You're not exactly single anymore' I tell her.

'Shut up.' She smiles. 'You'll be happy to know that I have had a word with Matt, asked him the questions, gave him the warning.'

I understand the warning part but .. 'Questions, what questions?'

'I asked him whether he was cheating on her' she tells me exasperatedly.

'Manda'

'What, it was a valid question and you know it'

'I know' I smile tenderly, thinking back to when she first told me about her experience, how hurt she still was, still is. 'But I honestly think he is one of the good guys, or you know, the good guy'

'Me too, but I had to check.'

I nod, then deciding to change the subject. 'Okay, so how much do you think she will be freaking out by the time we get there?'

'Are you kidding me she has spent the past three days with her mother and his, this wine will be well and truly needed!' Amanda holds up the shopping bag she is carrying which contains the two bottles of wine we have just purchased. 'I still think we should have bought more.'

'The wedding is tomorrow, we cannot have hangovers'

Ten minutes later we arrive and Rebecca's. she opens the door and greets us with a 'finally'

After an hour we are sat round her kitchen table and she's finally having a sip of the wine I had poured out for her when I first arrived.

'Bliss'

'Time to calm down Bex' Amanda tells her.

'I know, I know but I keep just thinking of random little things like whether the flowers are supposed to arrive at 10 or 11, because 11 would be better but I think I stupidly said 10.'

'Honey, it don't matter, they are arriving tomorrow so that is all that counts, now stop, drink your wine and enjoy your last night as an unmarried with your amazing single bff's'

I voice my agreement with what Amanda has just said, 'Though your not exactly single, Mands.'

'Shut up.'

We all laugh.

'Is this, I mean do you think, this will be the last time we hang out like this?'

'Bex, what are you on about?' I ask

'Well once I am married, everything will change. We won't be able to go out anymore, you know as three singletons' she tells us, looking subdued.

I roll my eyes. 'How is it that you both seem to have forgotten that Matt was already well and truly on the scene when we started hanging?' I ask them.

'Oh yeah,' Becca says.

'Look yes you are getting married tomorrow, and your life will change, of course it will. For one you won't have to spend day after day with the in laws' I smile

'Amen sister' Amanda seconds, and Becca laughs

'But we are still going to be great friends, we will still hang, and I can absolutely guarantee that there will be lots and lots of alcohol. I mean you do remember Amanda don't you?'

'Hey'

'What?'

'Mmm, nowt, you have a point!'

We all laugh and carry on drinking.

The morning came and went in such a blur and inexplicably we are now stood at the alter, listening to Rebecca and Matt exchange their vows.

I never once considered marriage.

How strange.

I thought about becoming a vampire, spending eternity with Edward. It was a course I had very much been decided on, before everything that happened, happened. But marriage, never even a errant thought in the back of my mind. For a moment I imagine that it is me stood at the alter, telling the man I love that I will be his for ever more. I see Edward, the designer suit, the smile, the way he looks into my eyes and makes me feel like I am it, the it, the one and only. I imagine my dad saying that he is the one who gives me away, I imagine the whoop whoops off my friends and Emmett as Edward kisses me to seal the deal.

And then I snap out of it.

I see one of my best friends, one of my bestest best friends declare their love for the man who can't stop staring at her. Who has always looked at her like she was the only girl in the…., in any room. And looking at that, that pure, unadulterated love, I realise something. It doesn't make me feel like I am going to be sick, it doesn't remind me of what I lost, all I think, all I feel is that I am so happy for Rebecca. This is her moment.

Amanda turns to me and smiles, and I rest my head on her shoulder, while we watch our bff become a Mrs.

The wedding reception goes by without a hitch. There was talk of me and Amanda giving a speech, but we managed to veto that really early on, I mean I am not good in those situations, dry throat and such, and can you imagine any speech Amanda would give. Ha-ha.

There is food and alcohol, laughter and smiles. Bex and Matt have the first dance, Bex, Mands and I have the second dance. Becca said it was to show the world that we only come second to Matt. Amanda said it was to remind Becca that even though she was married now, we were always going to be the people she would have to drop everything for if required. At this point I was just keeping an eye on Amanda, she was rather drunk!

'He never looked at me like that you know?' It's about an hour after the second dance and me and Amanda are sat down watching Becca and Matt. I know she is not talking about Matt.

'He didn't deserve you.'

She takes another sip of wine.

'Did he?'

'What?' I ask her.

'Did Edward ever look at you like that?'

I look back at the happy couple. 'Yes' I reply, not even having to think about it.

'Why did he leave you?'

'I told you, he thought I would be better off without him'

'Why did he think that?'

I think carefully before answering, I have to be careful not to give anything away.

'We were in school. I think he considered himself the bad guy' not a lie.

'He was an idiot'

'You don't know him, he may have been the bad guy' I smile.

'It doesn't matter, he left you.'

'I'm not exactly special.'

'Yes you are, you are the best bff I've ever had!'

'What about Bex?'

'I only met her through you.'

'Does that make her any less of your friend?'

'Nope but you are missing the point'

'What's that?'

'You're the glue'

'You're drunk'

'Yea' she says as if it's obvious and has no bearing on the conversation. 'What I am trying to say is that before I met you I really had lost all faith in having girlfriends'

'Yea well I didn't have anyone'

'I don't get that.'

'You and Bex, if it weren't for you two I think I would still be the same girl, you pulled me out of me shell, so please stop talking like I am the important one.'

'You're right, I think we are all the important ones.' There are tears in her eyes and I feel myself welling up.

'We are going to be bff's forever aren't we' she asks with a smile

'That's what I keep telling you' I smile.

'So back to the conversation at hand. Edward.'

'Amanda!'

'What, you said he looks at you like that.' she indicates the happy couple.

'You said he didn't deserve me.' I remind her.

'Well he doesn't, but come on you haven't even been on a date, you have got to be seriously in need by now' she winks.

'Hey!'

'Tell me I am wrong'

'Not the point'

'Knew it! Even Carrie had a lot of flings waiting for Mr Big to catch on.'

I roll my eyes.

Rebecca comes and sits by us. 'What are we talking about?'

'Izzy's lack of love life'

'About time'

'Et tu?'

'Yes Iz, you need a lay'

'You guys, I am fine, I don't want anything at the minute.'

'That sentence just screams there is something wrong with you' Amanda tells me.

'I'm not going to win'

'Nope, just tell us what's going through that mind.' Becca asks

I shake my head.

'Bex, when you look at Matt can you imagine being with anyone else?' I ask.

'Nope.'

'I have done so much these past two years, things that I needed to do, I needed to know that I could be happy on my own. But dating, but men, I can't imagine being with someone other then Edward. So I don't even want to try.'

'Aw Iz' Amanda seems to have trouble saying. We both look over and see there are tears rolling down her cheek.

'Mand, what's wrong.?' I ask

'I shouldn't be crying, not at your wedding lovely'

'Hush now, tell us what's wrong' Bex replies.

'It's just, I don't feel that'

'What' I ask

'With Josh, I don't feel like he's it. I feel like there is something else, something more.'

'Are you sure, maybe it is just the wedding stuff bringing up memories?' Becca Says

'No, I don't think so, when I look back I know that the cheating scumbag and I were just never right for each other.'

'When you put it like that' I smile

'But Josh, I like him and I think I could love him, but that feeling that you two were talking about, I don't have that.'

We all hug, and tell her not to do anything rash, but that if she really doesn't feel it, she can't force it.

After our emotional hug, we start with the dancing and the partying again. Amanda being Amanda sucks up whatever she is feeling and we just concentrate having a good time, knowing that we will be able to talk tomorrow.

The party is great and about 2AM I call our designated driver to come and get us. I am really loving having Emmett around!

'You must think I am only using you?' I ask him after we have dropped Amanda off.

'What do you mean?'

'Designated driver Em.'

'I offered'

'I know but still'

'Hey, you don't sound as drunk as I thought you would be.'

'I had a few, but no, not many'

He's quiet, waiting for more.

'I wanted to make sure I was able to look after Amanda, you know, just in case. I told you about her ex didn't I?'

'Yea, you sure you don't want me to go and introduce myself to him?' He sounds like he would love to.

'Nope, Em let her do this her own way.'

'Kay, but the offer will always stand.'

'I love you'

He smiles and chuckles ' Don't tell Rosy'

'I mean as a brother dimwit.'

'Love you to Belly Boo.'

I lean my head against the window and fall asleep with what I can only assume is a massive smile on my face.