Disclaimer: I own none of the characters from 'The Vampire Diaries' You all know who the credit goes.
So this is a new story and I really hope you can enjoy it :) Not so much to say excep that I would really like to know what you think about it.
Thanks to Delena's Differential Equation for correcting this for me
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'My love for Linton is like the foliage in the woods: time will change it, I'm well aware, as winter changes the trees.
My love for Heathcliff resembles the eternal rocks beneath: a source of little visible delight, but necessary.
I am Heathcliff! He's always, always in my mind: not as a pleasure, any more than I am always a pleasure to myself, but as my own being. '
Wuthering Heights –Emily Bronte-
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"And now I would like to make an announcement" Giuseppe said with a smile on his face. Nothing could have made him happier in that moment, finally his favorite son was getting married, the moment he had waited for his entire life had arrived. Stefan, his younger son, was going to marry a wonderful woman; beautiful, smart and talented but above all things she loved him.
How he wished his other son, Damon, was capable of finding someone like that, but no, his son still was dead set on be the eternal stud; a womanizer. It wasn't like he expected so much from him, the only thing Damon had done his entire life was disappoint him and of course a woman like Elena could never love his elder son.
"As you know my son Stefan has been dating the beautiful Miss Gilbert for two years" The couple just smiled at each other. Stefan looked a little embarrassed because as usual his father thought he could handle everything in his son's life, it was his wedding announcement, and he was the one who should be doing it.
"Well I'm proud to share this moment with you. My son and the beautiful woman next to him are finally getting married"
The young lovers shared a small kiss and the congratulations were heard all over the salon, everyone was so happy that the couple finally decided to unite their lives. Stefan and Elena had been dating for the last year and they looked so happy and in love that the marriage was what everyone was expecting from their relationship.
But not everyone was happy with the news, Damon was watching them from his seat, he didn't even bother in congratulate them, he just order himself another glass of whiskey and sat there, admiring the one thing he could never have.
It had been a long and stressful day, in all honesty the party was a little overwhelming to Elena, everyone there just wanted a piece of her life and she was sure she was never going to get used to the type of life Stefan's family leaded.
An on top of that she felt his stare the entire night, it was one the most powerful things she had ever experienced, so right now she was exhausted, the only thing on her mind was getting a warm and relaxing bath.
But apparently life had other plans, the moment she reached his apartment floor she saw Damon standing in her doorway. His hair messy, his eyes red and his clothes were a completely mess. Thanks god she convinced Stefan that she could get to her house safely, she didn't know how she would have explained to him that his brother was standing on her doorstep.
"Damon what are you doing here?" Elena asked with annoyance in her voice, she didn't feel like dealing with this right now
"Why?" Damon whispered softly with such sadness in his eyes that it made Elena's heart ache
"Why what?"
"Why are you going to marry him?" Elena looked at the floor and then she gestured to him to move so she could insert the key in the lock
"Because I love him" She said still not looking at him while she opened the door "And I don't think it is time for this, so you have to go"
But Damon wasn't planning on leaving, so he walked past her and simply stepped into her apartment
"Damon please, you're drunk, you don't want to do this now." She pleaded with him, her big brown eyes staring at him
"No! I'm not leaving until you tell me why? Why him and not me? What makes him so much better than me?" Tears threatened to fall from his eyes and Elena just couldn't help it, she walked towards him and hugged him tightly, he held to her as if letting her go would mean to face the true death
"Please don't do this now" Her voice muffled against his chest
"Shh please, just let me" Damon took her face between his hands and caressed her cheek lightly; he leaned to her and pressed his lips softly to hers. Elena responded to his kiss eagerly and tangled her hands in his dark raven hair, their bodies pressed together. They stood like that for a few minutes just enjoying their closeness until Damon broke the kiss.
"See? How can you deny what we have? What's been there for so long?" He said with desperation in his voice "How can you give up to this?"
"Because it's wrong! Because it has been wrong all along" She shouted at him, her own eyes glistening with tears
"Why? 10 years ago the thought of marrying my brother hadn't even crossed your mind. And yet you still weren't ready to give in" He answered roughly to her
"Are you seriously accusing me that?" She answered with sarcasm in her voice "You know that the only one guilty of that is you! I gave you everything Damon-" Her voice broke and tiny sobs starting to wrack her body. Damon took her in his arms once again and kissed her forehead softly "I loved you and you didn't care… you just used me…when you were alone… but you never cared about me" She clutched his shirt hardly and sobbed against his chest
"You know that's not true. I love you and I loved you from the first moment I saw you" He said sweetly to her, he smelled like alcohol and leather and she inhaled him deeply, gathering the smell in her memory.
She shook her head softly "I don't believe you and it doesn't matter anymore" She pulled away and gave him a defiant look "I'm with Stefan and he makes me happy"
Elena walked towards the door and opened widely "Can you leave now? I'm tired"
Damon walked towards the door and gave her a hard look "I'm leaving but this isn't over Elena. You would never be his… you belong to me. What we have is love, and that is forever"
With one last look at her he left the apartment and when Elena closed the door she collapsed on the floor.
Damon's visit brought memories she refused to remember, old wounds that still felt fresh on her skin, marks she has never going to be able to erase and it still amazed her the effect the man had on her.
'I loved you with all my soul Damon Salvatore' She said in a soft whisperer while the tears flowed from her eyes '…and with that same strength I hated you'
Next day Elena woke up around nine o'clock. After crying so long she eventually had fallen asleep on the ground next to the door, she heard her phone buzzing and immediately went to the table and answer it.
"Elena! Thanks god you answered. I've been trying to reach you for the last 30 minutes" Her best friend Caroline chatted excitedly over the phone
"I was asleep, Care. What's going on?" She answered with a sleepy voice
"What do you mean what's going on? Did you forget? We were having breakfast together remember?" Caroline said offended at the idea that her friend forgetting their date
"No I didn't forget. I'm just a little late. Let me take a shower and I'll meet you ok?"
"What if I pick you up instead?" Caroline with a small smile on her lips
"Ok, then I better hurry" The brunette said and hung up the phone
Elena took the quickest shower in her whole life and got dressed in record time. She was wearing a pair of tight jeans and a strapless white top. Caroline as always was beyond beautiful; she was wearing a strapless dress in a light lilac color and some huge stilettos, her perfect curls falling graciously over her shoulders
They arrived to the 'Mystic Grill' the place where the usually hung out and even when it killed her Caroline had to be happy for her friend so she showed her excitement at the news.
"Well show me" She said with a bright smile on her face
"Show you what, Caroline?" Elena said smiling back at her, yes, going out with Caroline was exactly what she needed; this girl could always make her forget all of her problems
"The ring, you dork. You're finally going to be Elena Salvatore" Her best friend said with a note of pride on her voice
In that moment Elena looked down and her expression changed completely, she always dreamed about being Elena Salvatore but she always pictured herself married to the other brother. Caroline sensed immediately that something was wrong with her friend.
"Elena what's wrong? The blonde girl said with a note of concern on her voice "You know you can tell me anything…We've been friends since kindergarten" She took Elena's hands trough the table and smiled softly at her
"It's just…Damon came to see me last night Caroline and I don't know if I'm doing the right thing. How can I marry Stefan when all I want is to hold Damon and never let go of him" Her watery eyes looked down and Caroline felt so much empathy for her friend "I can't do this anymore, Stefan is a good man. He doesn't deserve this"
"Elena the truth is I don't know what to say" Caroline's warm eyes looked at her "You know I'm a hopelessly romantic and I always loved the fairytales where the couple breaks apart and then years later they are reunited and the prince steals the girl in the wedding and they live happily ever after" Caroline said with a dreamy expression on her face and Elena couldn't help but smile at her "But this isn't a fairytale and Damon is not a prince either"
"And I'm not a princess" Elena interrupt her while tears fell down her cheeks
"Hush, of course you are a princess" Her friend said smiling at her "And well you never told me the complete story…about what happened with Damon" The blonde girl took a deep breath and continued talking "Now you know I really like Stefan and he's a great guy, but if Damon's the one you want I know he can make you happy…because you love him"
"No, what I had with Damon is over. I could never be happy with him" Elena said with a conflicted expression on her face "You're right…this isn't a fairytale and have to face reality" She gave Caroline a determinate look "My future is with Stefan, he can make me happy and I have to do my best to make him happy. Starting with getting Damon out of my mind"
Caroline only nodded while she listened her best friend. She was tired of seeing Elena always sad and suffering, yes she was happy with Stefan but there had been years since she saw her friend's eyes sparkle.
Caroline wasn't Damon's biggest fan but she knew that even when the evidence proved the contrary he would never hurt Elena, he loved her. And she was scared, that was all. She didn't want Damon to hurt her again. The blonde girl didn't know the whole story but she was going to find out, that way she wasn't to able to help Elena, the fact was she was a hopelessly romantic and she wasn't going to stop until she got the happy ending for this fairytale.
The phone woke her up around 2:00 am, after her breakfast with Caroline they went shopping and she spent the rest of the afternoon at her house, she was on vacation and she needed a rest from all the emotional charge she had at this moment.
"Hello" She answered with a groggy voice and rubbed her eyes with one of her hands
"Ms, Gilbert so sorry to bother you I know that your job doesn't cover these things, but he wants to see you" The soft voice of the woman In the other side of the phone said "Apparently he had a bad dream and he's pretty upset…we told him you couldn't come but he refuses to calm down until you get here"
"Don't worry Beth I'll be there in 20 minutes" Elena said and hung up the phone before going to change.
She loved being a social worker, it was her own personal way to help people and even in these inconvent times she wouldn't' change her profession for anything in the world.
As she promised she was in the orphanage 20 minutes later, after she spoke to Beth Johnson the woman in charge they let her go to one of the bedrooms that housed around ten kids. The minute she walked in, she spotted him sitting on the bed with his knees against his chest,
"Hey" She said in a whisper doing her best to not wake the other kids "What's wrong, buddy?" She took a seat next to him in the bed and removed a blonde hair from his forehead
"I was scared" The little eight-year old said in a croaked voice
"Of what?" She said sweetly to him and he abruptly hugged her and started crying against her shoulder
"I dreamt that you forgot about me…" His voice was muffled against her "…once you're married you're going to stop visiting me" He lifted his head and his blue eyes looked at her brokenly
"Julian that's never going to happen" She stroked his cheek softly wiping the few tears that had gathered there "I'm never going to forget about you" She hugged him tightly once again while stroking his hair softly
She couldn't' understand it but she had a deep connection with the kid, over the last three years since she started working with the children she always got attached to one of them but none of them connected to her the way Julian did.
She wanted to protect him, to take care of him, she couldn't understand how could be so many kids without a home in the world, how a mother could abandon her own blood.
So many times she wanted to speak to Stefan about the idea of adopting Julian once they were married but she was scared of it, she knew he wanted children of his own and wasn't sure how he was going to react at the idea of taking care of a kid that wasn't his.
"Promise?" The child said in a soft voice
"Promise" She gave him a small smile and lay him down on the bed once again, he smiled back at her and let her tuck him into the covers "Now how about I sing a song to you"
"Yes" He said a little too loud with a big smile on his face
"Ok" Elena laughed softly "But let's keep it down, we don't want to wake up the other kids"
Elena smiled softly at him and he closed his eyes, his long eyelashes resting against his cheek
'Hey Jude, don't make it bad
Take a sad song and make it better
Remember to let her into your heart
then you can start to make it better'
'And anytime you feel the pain, hey Jude, refrain
don't carry the world upon your shoulders
for well you know that it's a fool who plays it cool
by making his world a little colder'
Once Julian was asleep she kissed his forehead softly and looked at his sleeping form for a few minutes before she left the room.