Chapter 4: Hard to Explain

Sebastian anxiously glanced over his shoulder at the thirteen year old sitting casually on his couch, taking in the surroundings. No matter how calm he looked, he was panicking on the inside. He had his student -a boy with a crush on him!- in his home to spend the night. If the wrong people saw him leave and they got the wrong idea...

" Sebastian."

Ciel was laid out on his couch, staring at the opposing wall and then him as he wiggled slightly, knowingly exposing his legs to his teacher's unwilling gaze.

What had Sebastian gotten himself into.

" Do you have an extra blanket?" he asked.

The man blinked and asked, " You plan on sleeping there?"

" Well, you said not to try anything and I don't think I'll be able to resist-"

" Sleep in my bed. I'll sleep on the couch," Sebastian said.

Ciel sat up slightly with a "Huh?" escaping him as Sebastian crossed his arms, avoiding the surprised gaze with a huff.

" You heard me. Go to my room," he muttered.

" B-but it's your house Sebastian, and I don't want to intrude much," Ciel said uncomfortably.

He studied his student for a moment before asking, " That isn't like you."

" What?"

" This isn't like you. Normally, you'd be saying things like 'I won't go to your bed if you don't come with me sensei'. What's wrong."

" N-nothing!" Ciel stammered quickly. " I-it's just that...I'm concerned for your job! What if...what if someone sees me! Sees us together and gets the wrong idea! Everyone knows who I am so saying we're related won't work. What will you do?"

Sebastian pondered the question. It certainly was a predicament.

" I'll say I'm your butler," Sebastian concluded.

" My what?"

" Your butler," Sebastian said slightly smirking. " Do you think that would be hard for anyone to believe? My lord."

" I-I'm not a lord! I'm just wealthy!" Ciel protested with a crimson face. " However...m-my lord does have a nice ring to it."

" Indeed it does," Sebastian said. " Now, go to my room and get some sleep. It's the second door on the right."

Ciel stood defiantly and crossed his arms. " If you're my butler, then you must do my bidding. I refuse to go to bed, unless you come along as well."

Sebastian frowned and replied in a stern voice, " Ciel. No. Enough of this butler nonsense. Go to bed, it's late."

" No. Not until you come too. After all it was your idea."

" Phantomhive."

" I beg your pardon? You dare address me as such by my last name?" Ciel in mock disbelief.

Pinching the bridge of his nose in exasperation, he sighed and gave in.

" Good! Now, hurry and bathe, I'll be waiting!" Ciel said in such an innocent way that Sebastian was almost glad the boy was in his apartment.

Almost.

Ciel bounced excitedly on the bed as he heard the bathroom door open from down the hall. But the bedroom door never did.

" Ciel Phantomhive, I'm only coming into that room if you don't look at me."

" Sensei~ I don't mind your nakedness! I'm sure it's beautiful!" Ciel called.

" Phantomhi-"

" Fine, fine Sebastian," Ciel groaned. He turned around to face the headboard, shutting his eyes and giving the okay. He couldn't help a smile that stretched onto his face as he heard the door open and soft footsteps. Slightly, he turned his head and opened his eyes slightly only to feel himself pushed facedown onto the bed with enough force to keep him down, but not to smother him.

" I knew I couldn't trust you," the man sighed.

" Oh come on! I just wanted to have a little peek at your manhood!" he said in a muffled voice

" You don't need to even worry about it!" Sebastian snapped.

" But what about when we have sex and I'm disa-"

" WE ARE NEVER HAVING SEX!"

Ciel was silent for a moment as Sebastian slowly began to lift his hand off his student's head. Ciel then looked at him and said, " Sensei, when will you tell the truth?"

" What?"

Ciel sat up, eyes roaming over the man's sculpted chest before saying, " I know you like me."

" I do like you Ciel, as a student," Sebastian sighed. " Please, just drop the subject."

" No. Not until you admit it!" he snapped fiercely. " No one has to know! I promise! Not even-"

" NO!" Sebastian yelled. " No Ciel...just...no. I don't want another word."

" Then kiss me," Ciel said balancing on his knees.

" Ciel, no. Don't you da-" Silence finished Sebastian sentence as Ciel forcefully pressed his lips against Sebastian's, wrapping his thin arms around his neck and trapping the man against his body.

" C-Ciel.." Sebastian muttered against the kiss. " S-stop..."

Ciel shook his head and parted his lips, slipping his tongue through Sebastian's own pair and entangling the two in a warm dance that left both of them needing more than one believed they needed.

And yet Sebastian couldn't stop.

Hesitantly, he moved his hands to the younger male's waist, massaging the skin underneath the long shirt before pressing forward onto the bed, climbing above the boy and trying not to take notice of the problem growing underneath his towel.

Letting his hands roam along the clothed chest of his student -and considering removing some of the irritating restraints- he took in the high pitched moan of the boy as he pressed his knee in between his legs as a begging to continue and began to bite on his neck, Ciel's gasping becoming louder with each bite.

Sebastian froze as an electric jolt went up his spine and back to his core, making him tremble in pleasure as he became aware of the hand gripping his manhood underneath the towel. Clenching his hands into fists, he bit his lip to control his voice as Ciel began to squeeze his length in his small hands.

" Please say my name sensei..." Ciel said in a small, yet horribly erotic voice.

Matching his eyes with Ciel's blue ones, he mustered up all his strength and grabbed the pleasurable hand touching him, saying in a husky voice, " If you weren't my student...had it not been for what little sense I had then...I would've taken you by now."

Ciel pouted and muttered, " Damn. Student title gets in the way again."

To Sebastian's relief, Ciel let go -with great reluctance might I add- and allowed him to stand up.

" How do you suppose I take care of this now Phantomhive?" Sebastian said quickly clearing his throat.

Ciel looked up at the ceiling for a moment before a devilish look crossed his face. Sebastian felt a chill run down his spine as he realized what the boy figured he could do to help.

" No."

" But I'm sure you tast-"

" NO."

" Sensei~"

" No!"

" But I want to taste you!"

" No! That's the last word on the subject!" Sebastian sighed and headed towards the door. " I might as well take a cold shower. I'm not going to risk you hearing me jerk off in the bathroom and trying to take advantage of the opportunity."

With an irritated groan Ciel fell onto his back, bouncing on the bed before deciding to rummage through his teachers drawers.

Ciel shifted uncomfortably for the umpteenth time that night. He hadn't exactly imagined this scenario like this. In his head, Sebastian came into the room with sexy silk black boxers with his beautiful eyes gleaming mischievously as he himself tried sitting calmly. And then his teacher would play around with him a bit, teasing him constantly, but never giving him the satisfaction he really wanted, and would kiss his cheek good night as the smaller of the two curled up into his chest to listen to the beautiful steady heartbeat that belonged to the one he adored so much.

Unfortunately, he was facing Sebastian's back as the man tried to go to sleep at four something in the morning.

" Sebastian..." Ciel whispered. " Sebastian!"

The teacher desperately tried ignoring his student, afraid that he would bug him to no end and he wouldn't be able to get at least a minute of sleep.

Ciel had only allowed him thirty seconds so far after all.

" Sensei~ sensei~!" Came more whispers.

He shifted and screwed his eyes shut as Ciel continued to pester him, his voice almost seemingly growing louder. With a groan, Sebastian moved the pillow over his head. All he wanted was sleep! Was that so much to ask! Ciel pouted at this action and shifted closer, drawing a finger up Sebastian's back.

" Sensei~ I need help with a math equation!" he whispered.

" I didn't assign homework."

" It's to better my education though!"

" Fine! If I answer will you let me sleep?!" Sebastian snapped sitting up.

" Yes!"

" Alright, hurry up," Sebastian groaned running his hand over his face.

" Okay...if i have a bottle of lube, plus your-"

" CIEL!"

Thank God it was Saturday, Sebastian hadn't gotten more than an hours worth of sleep that night. Groaning miserably, he wiped a hand agonizingly down his face and moved to sit up. He frowned slightly at the feeling of something warm draped across his waist and brushed his hand across it, leaping up in alarm at the soft sigh that came from the bed intruder.

" Oh hello, Sebastian," Ciel said grinning. Sebastian could only stare wide-eyed in confusion as his student rubbed his eyes drowsily. " What is it? You look like you've seen a ghost."

" Oh God. Please God tell me we didn't..." Sebastian whispered.

" Sensei? What are you talking about?"

" Oh my God, is someone sees you leave.." Sebastian sank to his knees in despair, gripping fistfuls of his hair and willing the teenager in his bed away as if he were an illusion.

Ciel stared at the mental breakdown his teacher was having and sighed, " Sensei, it's okay, please calm down."

" No, Ciel, don't you get it?!" he snapped. " Last night I went for a drink, I must've seen you out last night and invited you back, and...and..."

Ciel raised an eyebrow in disbelief at his teacher's panicked state. Sure, he could smell the alcohol on Sebastian, but the man had seemed barely intoxicated. Could he really have been so drunk that he didn't remember last night?

" Sebastian," he said slowly. " Does your head hurt?"

As if on cue, Sebastian took notice of the throbbing sensation in his head and groaned slightly. Ciel grinned; this was almost perfect! If Sebastian thought they'd already had sex, he couldn't possibly reject Ciel now! Being the type of man he was, Sebastian would definitely take responsibility. A small voice in the back of his head was screaming that it was wrong to take advantage of Sebastian in such a vulnerable state, but...

Ah fuck it, Ciel thought.

He stepped off the bed and knelt next to Sebastian, rubbing his back in as soothing a motion as he could muster.

" It's okay sensei, lovers do this all the time!"

" We are not lovers Ciel!"

" But we're on a first name basis and that says lovers enough!"

Sebastian lifted his head stared directly into his students eyes, the intensity of his gaze sending shivers up and down Ciel's spine.

" Ciel, I could lose my job for this."

A pang of guilt hit the teen in his chest at the desperation in Sebastian's voice. Tell him the truth now while you still can you dumbass.

...

Nah.

" Sebastian, you know how rich I am," Ciel said light-heartedly. " I could support you!"

" Ciel-"

" Not another word darling!" Ciel swung his leg over Sebastian, straddling his waist and running his hands over the grown man's chest in adoration.

" ...Ciel. I've just realized you're dressed."

" Mmhmm, and?"

" Well if we did..such activities, I'm nearly positive you'd be naked."

Ciel was silent for a moment before meeting his teacher's eyes and saying in the calmest voice he could manage, " I got dressed after sensei."

Sebastian raised an eyebrow in suspicion, but before he could manage another word, Ciel covered his teachers mouth with his. Ciel prayed in desperation that his teacher's mind would be in too much pain to even think further on the subject. Pressing further, he gently bit his teacher's lip, moving his hips against Sebastian's and causing the older man to shudder deeply.

To Ciel's surprise, he felt Sebastian's hand press against the small of his back and cup his neck, in a small effort to pull his closer. Ciel's released the soft moan that had been building up in his throat and ground his hips harder against Sebastian.

Sebastian's hips instinctively lifted slightly, his muscles flexing in an attempt to restrain himself. Even if he and Ciel had done...unmentionable things last night, that didn't mean it was okay to do them again!

And yet...

Reluctantly, Sebastian broke off the kiss, his eyes trained on his student's fervently pink lips before slowly gliding up to meet his eyes. Ciel's cheeks were slightly flushed, his eyes widened as if he were shocked at what had just happened, even though he'd instigated it all. Sebastian watched his student look down between, keenly aware that Ciel was studying the bulge he was resting on. His dear student glanced up at him, his cheeks even redder as he silently asked with his eyes, mischief glowing in them as well as an innocent desire to try it.

" Absolutely not."

Ciel's expression fell like a ton of bricks, his eyes going from lustful to disappointed to shocked and slightly irritated in one swoop.

" What do you mean no! Sensei, we might as well-"

" Ciel, just because we did it once, doesn't mean it's right for us to do it again," Sebastian said. He gently lifted Ciel out of his lap, only slightly surprised at how light he actually was for a fourteen year old. " We've already dug ourselves a hole, let's not throw ourselves in it."

Carefully standing, Sebastian ran ahand through his hair and began to head for his bathroom.

" But Sebastian! No one has to kn-"

" Ciel," Sebastian said, irriation lacing his voice. " That's enough. As far as anyone is concerned, last night did not happen understand? That was accident."

Ciel couldn't help the pang in his heart, even though he knew nothing had actually transpired between him and his teacher last night. but still, the fact that Sebastian was so adamant to the situation hurt all the same.

Sebastian mentally slapped himself for his harshness, but it had to be done. After all, had he even given Ciel the slightest bit more of an impression that it was okay to formulate some type of relationship, all hell would've broken loose.

And by hell, he meant anyone out to get him to lose his job.

As much as he wanted to go over and console the child, he couldn't. It would only appear to Ciel as if he were apologizing and taking back what he said. And then Ciel would begin once again with his advances. He'd have to endure Ciel's silence for now and explain to him the situation when he took him home. Hopefully, Ciel would understand.

Yet deep down inside, he knew Ciel wouldn't. Not really.

Alois couldn't help but punch himself in the head for doing something so stupid.

" God damn it, why did I have to force myself on him like that," he muttered irritably. He kicked a can lying on the pavement, watching it skip a few paces forward as he searched for the words he'd say to Ciel.

Hey..I'm sorry I tried to fuck you last night.

No, too blunt.

Ciel, I know we're friends-

No, that wouldn't come out right.

Ciel, I'm sorry for my behavior, I-

" God damn it I don't KNOW!" Alois cried.

He ran a hand through his hair, irritation simmering in him. Jeez, how was he going to even explain his situation? It was probably obvious -no, a full blown fact- that he liked Ciel now. It was impossible to deny. And yet..

Alois stopped and leaned against the fence, racking his brain for the words he'd say when he went to Ciel's house. Nothing came to mind except images of the previous night, images that now brought a heated blush to his face at how impulsive and lewd he'd been.

" Ahh, idiot, idiot, IDIOT!"

" Alois?"

He blinked and came out of his reverie, meeting the eyes of none other than Lizzy. She grinned broadly, obviously happy to see him, for some odd reason.

" Oh, I'm glad I ran into you! Are you going to my darling Ciel's house too?"

Your darling Ciel? Pfft this bitch-

" yep, I sure am," Alois said quickly. He eyed the bag in her hands before adding, " Would you like me to take you there?"

Her eyes lit up brilliantly as she nodded, take his arm and beginning to chatter about the contents of the bag. Alois blocked most of it out the rest of the way; because really, who'd want to listen to a girl talk about some gift she bought for a guy. Especially if it wasn't Valentine's Day

" Ah, look! CIELL!"

Alois's head snapped up from the ground he'd been studying for the past ten minutes and felt his heart shrivel up and die at the sight of Ciel.

And Sebastian.

Lizzy let go of him and sprinted to Ciel, motoring about the gift she'd bought him and how she hoped she liked it. Although Ciel was taking in everything she said and being polite, Alois could tell that his attention was still ninety percent elsewhere.

" Well, it seems you can get home on your own Phantomhive," Sebastian said with his signature smile. " Have a good day you three."

The man turned around and went back the way they'd came, Alois and Lizzy calling goodbye but Ciel staring at the man's retreating back. Alois could tell he had something on his mind, the complex look on his face obvious. Ciel turned back around and met his eyes, his expression coming to life as if he'd just noticed him there.

" AH Lizzy.." he said slowly. " Can we talk later? I've some things to say to Alois."

The blonde's heart skipped a beat as Lizzy pouted and said goodbye. His best friend motioned for him to follow. Oh shit, oh fucking shit, he thought. He's pissed. He's freaked out. He hates me. He-

" Alois, " Ciel said, waiting for his friend to catch up next to him. " I want you to know that I'm not mad."

God it's like he read my mind. " You aren't mad...?" Alois asked carefully.

" Just a little shocked," Ciel blushed slightly and offered a small grin. " Not every day your best friend comes onto you like that you know?"

Alois felt his heart calm a little, and smiled back. " Y-yeah..sorry about that..I was-"

" Ah, let's just forget about it hm?" Ciel said quickly. " I mean..we can't forget about it..but let's just not mention it."

Alois sighed and nodded, stoppingg mid-stride to take his friend's outstretched hand.

" Friends?" Ciel said.

"...Yeah," Alois said slowly. " Friends."

Author's Note: Hah, that took longer than expected. Sorry for the ridiculous wait you guys. I guess you could say this was a type of hiatus. Sorry! It was unexpected and I've had lots going on, school was only a part of it. Hopefully I still have lots of people wanting to read this story! It was only intended to be a one-shot after all, I'm just going with the flow until our lovely couple ends up into each others arms. :3 I honestly have no legit plot in mind except the obvious predicament of a teacher/student relationship.

So if you have ideas or somethng you'd like to see (nothing too crazy guys lol), then just put it in a review!

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