Hey everyone! This is my first fanfic so please be kind. After reading thousands of these over the last couple of years I figured it was time to start my own. I started this back in June and I have 12 chapters already pre-typed and I hope to finish this over the holidays. I'm getting these chapters up quick cause exams and Christmas shopping are going to kick my ass.

Alright so I would love some reviews, please let me know if this sucks and I don't own any of this, SM does although I wouldn't mind the cast of males for a night, or day oh Hell let's say a year.

I have gotten lots of inspiration from other writers so I'm hoping this doesn't sound too much like what they have wrote so if you think it does tell me and I'll remove it. I don't think it does but when you read as much as fanfic as I do well things stick.

One more note this story contains lemons as terrible as they may be, not sex just my writing them. Here goes.

Sunshine and Memories

I awoke to the sun filtering in through my window, such a rarity for Forks that I flew out of bed and surprised myself by not tripping up in the bed sheets, which was usually my standard. I was famished and my bladder was screaming at me. "Time for a human moment" I said out loud. No sooner had the words left my lips did I feel the pain. Every time I thought of him or any of them really, my chest would ache. Ok more like rip in half. I should be dead from it really, the pain was that severe. I still remember with complete clarity our time together. Especially the days leading up to that Goddamn birthday party. Our meeting for the first time, Port Angeles, James and Phoenix, prom, our meadow. "Oh God!" my chest was ripping wide open. I should have stopped thinking of him but I couldn't. I can still feel his arms around me, the taste of his kiss on my lips, his smell, and his touch. He was always so completely terrified to touch me; we were able to work on that. I still remember him saying he loved me and how he looked hovering over me as we made love. It had happened four days before my birthday. We both had skipped school and went to our meadow. He so insistent on buying me a present, I told him I didn't want anything, that I already had him and that was enough. He told me not to argue and to say what I wanted. I told him I wanted him to change me. He huffed in annoyance and as usual he said no. I got upset, this argument was nothing new I just was so fed up with it; it made me feel as if he didn't want me forever. Was I that much of a burden to him, just like I was to Renee. I knew she never really felt that way but having to stay home with me while Phil went away to games made me feel as if I was, and now he was making it seem like he felt so too. I tried to keep the tears at bay. Of course Edward saw my expression and he was very good at distracting me. He started to kiss me, they were usually very chaste, but he shocked me when he started to deepen it. I heard him groan loudly and I moaned. The heat building between us, intensifying, ready to boil over. I moaned into his mouth which seemed to spur him on and I was elated as his hands began to wander. I was writhing under his touch, my breath coming in pants as my hips started to buck against his. Edward's hands were under my shirt rubbing my stomach and hip bones. In a breathy voice, one I never thought I would make or one I didn't think I even possessed, I looked at Edward and moaned out "Oh Edward! Mm mm! Make love to me". He stopped and completely froze and all I could think was "Shit! Shit! Shit!" Me and my big mouth, but he surprised me. He looked up at me, his eyes pitch black with desire and that crooked grin, and he kissed me with a new urgency. My heart was racing as his kisses moved to my neck. His hand drifted to the bottom of my shirt and I helped him to take it off. Was this really happening, were we actually going to make love. "Bella, I want nothing more than to show you how much I love you, but you have to tell me if I hurt you" he pleaded and I promised that I would although it would take a lot for me stop him once we started. We fumbled as we removed our clothes from each other. I gasped at the sight of him; the sun choosing that moment to come out. I looked him up and down; he was so beautiful and huge! I observed as my eyes drifted down. When I got to his face his mouth was agape and I couldn't help but blush in embarrassment and worried that he didn't like what he saw. I started to cover myself with my hands, but Edward with his vampire speed, stopped me and had me on my back while he was nestled between my legs. I gasped at the feeling, needing him so bad. "Oh Bella, I love you so much" he had claimed. "Show me!" I demanded, a bit surprised at my boldness. He gave me that damn crooked smile and I could feel the yearning in my core. Edward hands wandered all over me, caressing me, worshipping me, his hand and mouth on my breasts were amazing, on my clit was nirvana, but the moment he slipped inside me was pure ecstasy. I never knew pleasure like this before. He was slow, calculating, but loving. It hurt like hell as he broke through my barrier. My eyes started to tear up as he pressed further, taking my virginity with it. It was a gift that most women took for granted; I cherished mine and was more than happy to give to the man above me, my lover, my life, he was the only one I would ever want, the only one I would ever love. The tears started to fall from my eyes but he kissed them away and Edward gave me a moment to adjust. When I felt ok we started to rock together. Slow at first, we were just getting use to each other trying to find a rhythm. Edward was so slow; I knew he was afraid that he was going to hurt me with his strength. Personally I didn't think he had in him to hurt me, even if he was losing control he wouldn't be able to. We found our rhythm and I begged him to go faster, harder. He kept telling me how much he loved me as he started to thrust faster and slightly harder. Something was building within me, it was a slow at first, like a rubber band ready to coil and snap. I felt like I was soaring with the feelings he was creating in me. Edward had his eyes closed and his panting I'm sure was matching mine. He started to growl low against my throat and then he slipped his hand down to where we were joined and pinched my clit. I was writhing in pleasure; he opened his eyes and said in a husky voice "Come for me Bella, let me and the whole forest hear you. Hear what I only can do to you" .It wasn't long before he had me screaming his name in ecstasy. Not too long after my release did Edward roar my name in his own. He clung to me while we both rode out our highs together. "Wow!" I said as I looked up to him afterwards. He let out a contented sound almost like he was purring and then he nuzzled his face in my neck and whispered "I love you my Bella".

We lay amongst the wildflowers for a long time after. I was spread on top of him, with his jacket and mine wrapped around me so I wouldn't get cold. He had flowers in my hair and he would lean up and kiss me. For the first while it was just my forehead or nose. I got greedy and puckered up, silently begging him to kiss my lips. He didn't disappoint me. I meant for the kiss to be chaste, just simple, sweet and quick, but it turned heated quickly as he pulled me completely on top of him; shifting us so I was straddling him. I started to rock back and forth seeking some friction. I needed him again desperately, my body aching for him. Edward was fondling my breasts, growling lightly which only seemed to turn me on even more. I shifted down just a little and felt his tip at my entrance. Edward gave me that sexy ass smirk of his and called me a vixen swearing that I'd be the death of him. He held my hips and slammed into me filling me to the hilt. I screamed and threw my head back in pleasure. I started to move, using his hands as leverage to push myself up and down his manhood. He felt so good inside me and I told him so. He looked at me with so much love and passion telling me that he loved me. We started to move together, he would trust up as I came down, his head twisting back and forth as our movements started to get frantic both of us seeking the release we needed, anything less was unacceptable. His growls were getting louder as I rode him harder. I was sweating and panting trying to get there. I was so close; it was building to an almost painful point until Edward slammed me down on top of him as his hips trusted into me hitting my sweet spot. I saw stars and I heard him roar, both of us falling off the cliff together. I collapsed on top of him completely spent and fell asleep right there. I didn't know anything till I awoke in my bed the next morning. I looked around but Edward wasn't here. Did I dream the whole thing? I must have or at least that was what I thought till I noticed that I was completely naked. I gasped, it wasn't a dream, and I was giddy with glee. Edward and I had finally made love. He would always be here now. What we shared, there was no possible way he would think about leaving now was it? It was still early so I rolled over to go back to sleep when I saw note written in his beautiful script. "My lovely Bella, as much as I would have loved to have been there when you woke up, I'm afraid the sun won't allow it and if I can be honest; lying awake next to your beautiful, naked body all night while trying not wake you up to ravish you and then keep you in bed all day was just too much of a temptation. Forgive me my love and enjoy your day at school". I picked up my new cell phone and called him. There was no answer so I figured he must have been hunting so I texted him to say I wouldn't have minded in the least if he wanted to keep me in bed all day and have his way with me. I went and got ready for school feeling completely different. I looked in the mirror it wasn't like I was expecting there to be any physical changes, not like a sign that screamed "I just had sex" but there were subtle changes. I had a glow to my skin, it seemed brighter somehow. My eyes which were usually dull I thought, seemed to smile, like they knew a big secret. I laughed at my internal musings and couldn't help but blush at the thoughts of what we did. I relived it in my mind and I sighed happily. I finished getting dressed and went downstairs to get some breakfast. I finished up and left to go to school which I knew without Edward there would be absolute torture. As I was pulling into the school parking lot my cell beeped indicating I had a text message. I looked at the screen and smiled as I noticed it was from Edward.

E: Mm mmm! I'm sure you wouldn't have.

B: Definitely not. I could be your prisoner. Do you think I would need a punishment if I was a bad girl?

Whoa! Where the hell did that come from? I was shocked at my boldness, apparently losing my virginity turned me into some sort of vixen.

E: OMG!

B: I'm sorry I didn't, I don't know

E: Stop love I…I...I liked it

B: Huh!

E: I thought it was kinda sexy to think of you that way

B: Really!

E: Yes

B: Well I'll just have to remember that and if I was a bad girl would you be the one to punish me?

I was blushing madly.

E: Bella stop it's hard enough being away from you all day, you can't say things like that to me love.

E: Don't tempt me love

B: Mm mmm! Please

E: I'll be there when you get out of school

I couldn't help but be disappointed and I pouted.

E: Stop pouting and go to class ;)

B: How did you know?

E: I know you love…intimately. Love you and I'll see you later.

B: Yes you do and I love you too. Miss you!

E: Miss you too.

"Chews nails". Okay so how was it? Did it suck, I'm paranoid so let me know. Like I said I would love reviews good, ugly or otherwise so hit the button.

Melissa