Thing's I'll Never Say
AN: Chapter 7! Welcome and Enjoy!
!WARNING! This Chapter is 23 pages long! Its super long and I apologize, but I couldn't have done it in fewer words and having it sound good! If you like to read chapters all at once, don't start until you're sure you can read through it all! There are page breaks, but not that many. I hope you Enjoy it!
Story:
Something about sitting in my living room with Axel was unsettling, I knew I should have told him where I put my parents, but it just didn't seem like a good idea, and it's not like I could leave them where they were without anyone even close to them.
"Roxas… what's going on in that brilliant brain of yours? I know you're thinking something up that's going to be extremely fun." I looked up, being roused from my temporary stupor.
"I'm going to attack Xigbar and make him pay. I don't know if I'm going to try and kill him, or just attack him and bring him back for my grandfathers. I just know that I don't want to wake them completely until he's gone."
"But Roxas… don't you think that they could help you? He did this to them on his own. Two purebloods. What makes you think that he wont just hurt you again, maybe kill you like he did them? Or did you ever think he could do it permanently?" I shook my head, knowing I wasn't going to be that easy to take down.
"Axel, it happened because of me. They didn't want to have to compel me anymore to forget, but it happened anyways. Xigbar did so much that night that they don't even know about, and they didn't want to break my illusion of being human. He was after them, and he had me for three weeks and did nothing. I'm sure that I can talk to him and find out whatever the fuck is going on. But I don't want to bring them back until he's safely dead or held by both Ansem and Xemnas."
"Roxas. If you kill him, everyone will just think of it as blind revenge or a blind search for power. Purebloods aren't easy to push around, not even you can be pushed around. And he's older then you, age means-"
"Strength I know. Just promise me Axel… that you wont try and stop me. Because I will compel you to stay. You being here is so much more important then following me ."
"And why is that Roxie? Shouldn't I know why staying here is more important then me following you to keep you safe. I am your protector after all." I looked at his eyes and could feel the emotion as if it was my own; he was scared, and nervous.
"C'mon, I'll show you." I got up off his lap and held my hand out for him, watching with a smile as he grabbed my hand and stood up to follow me.
"You know, we still need to figure out what University you want to go to Roxie." I just scoffed, knowing that Axel just wanted to start a lighter discussion topic.
"Actually, I was thinking about going to Radiant Garden University of Art." Axel nodded his head and followed me, floating across the floor with how smooth his footsteps were.
"Roxas! Sara and I are going out to the mall for an hour or two! We need to get some more clothes, is there anything we can get you and Axel?" Xion hopped out of the hallway that lead into the downstairs guest rooms and bathroom.
"No I'm good. But don't be too long alright?" she nodded her head before skipping past us, stopping suddenly and looking back with a smile.
"One minute, Sara and I are going to be out until five… so the two of you feel free to do ANYTHING while we're gone. I could get you something to bring back if you need it for that ANYTHING." I just rolled my eyes and shook my head, pulling Axel to follow me.
"No Xion, we're good." I just heard her giggle before the sound of her flitting to the front door hit my ears.
"You know… we could do something fun Roxie, we could go up to your-"
"No Axel we cant. And I'm about to show you why not." he just raised an eyebrow at me and I went back to pulling him towards the basement, listening as Balto and Todd started another play fight.
I'd spent four straight days cleaning the house until it was spotless and as soon as that was done I'd had Xion go out and buy a bigger bed for my bedroom, she had it delivered and we'd spent half an hour getting it assembled and made before we'd put Axel back on the bed so his legs weren't hanging off the end of the bed anymore.
"Alright, you cant tell anyone about this, alright Axel?" I grabbed the basement door handle and opened the door, pulling Axel gently down the stairs and into the basement that I'd feared as a child. I would go into any other room of the house, but I'd never go down in the basement for long periods of time- something that was hard when my parents asked me to go down to the pantry.
I felt my own hand tighten slightly on Axel's, and knew right away that I wasn't going to be able to ever come down here again once they were awake. "The day I leave I'm planning on giving them the last bit that'll bring them back completely, just to make sure that I'm not going to be leaving them to regenerate themselves more."
"Roxie don't tell me you-" Axel just stopped himself as we got down to the bottom of the stairs and he set eyes on my parents, laying in the middle of my basement on a large bed that Xion and I had set up once I got them back to the house.
Axel looked at them for a moment, laying there as if they were dead. I felt so many emotions as I looked at them laying there. "Roxas… you are an idiot. Why the hell would you bring them here? Are you trying to get them killed?" I shook my head as I walked into the basement and over to the bed, making sure that the light blankets I'd gotten there were pulled up to their shoulders, arms both down by their sides and faces calm and relaxed.
"No one's taken care of them for eight years… they were covered in dust Axe, I couldn't just leave them down there. My dad asked me to help and it's easier to not go back there every day to do it."
"Roxas… what do you mean 'every day'? Don't tell me you've been giving both them and me blood."
"Yes, but its fine because I cut back on giving you my blood and gave you more human blood."
"Roxas. Being a pureblood vampire is not a game! You cant just go around giving out all of your blood like it's a freaking joke! Do you have any idea how easy it is for vampires to find a pureblood when they bleed? Every time their blood is exposed in more crowded places it's a feeding frenzy! The goal of a vampire is to drink until they die. And drinking pureblood blood is the best. Xemnas and Ansem created more purebloods with their blood just like you did with me, they're just all either dead from being consumed or their being held captive- now, as we speak. Eyes ripped out of their skulls so they cant compel and being drained over and over again to give their captors their precious blood.
"So many 'Purebloods' are being made this way, and your grandfathers made these purebloods- much like they made Namine and Larxine -and for every 'pureblood' that each one of these missing ones make they are the last before the ones they make are considered simple lords.
"Do you want to have your parents be like them? To never wake up? Could you imagine what would happen if a vampire got in here and found them? The dead Martin and Paole children of night? Your parents would be sold on the vampire market for Billions of dollars, and they'd be used to make more purebloods. Is that what you want to have happen to you Roxas? To be tied to a chair in some horrid basement, your eyes ripped out and-"
I couldn't take it anymore, hearing all those horrible things was not something that I wanted to know. I just wanted to protect my parents myself, I wanted to get rid of Xigbar so I wouldn't have to worry about them. I knew Axel was only telling me all of this because he was scared it'd happen. I wrapped my arms around his waist and buried my face in his shoulder to make him stop. "I'd spend so long looking for you." his voice hitched as he wrapped his arms around me in return.
"I didn't know something like that was happening, I didn't mean to scare you Axel… but I'm still going." he tightened his arms around me and I shivered feeling a coldness work its way from the top of my spine down.
"Axel, something's wrong. I just felt- well, I don't know what I felt. But it didn't feel good, we should close up and head back upstairs. I have to call Ansem and talk to him about maybe him telling me a secret way into the castle that me and Xion can take."
"And why not me? I still don't think you should-"
"I'll be bringing Xion with me. I need you here to watch my parents, you're a pureblood now. You might be low ranking, but your at least the same rank as Larxine, and that's good enough for me." I turned towards the stairs, I walked up to the first floor and stopped when his hand caught my arm, making me stop my movements.
"Your not going without me Roxas. I wake up before you and I go to bed after you. I'm not going to let you leave." I felt my jaw clench and nodded my head in agreement, having no real intention of allowing him to come with me.
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"Roxas, your kidding me right? Why the hell would I allow you to know secret entrances into the castle? What would I gain from that? Besides we'd know exactly where to find you to stop you from this foolishness." I couldn't help but smirk as I walked around my bedroom, Axel having gone out to grab some dinner and Xion still being out with Sara.
"Face it Ansem, there is no way I'm not going into the castle unless you and Xemnas come to stop me yourselves. I'd just compel whomever you send to follow me. And since the two of you would be there you both might as well help out anyways, don't you agree Ansem?" there was a scoff from the other line before I heard him let out a sigh.
"You know what Roxas… you are a devious little fuck, and I'm so proud that you got it from my side of the family." I couldn't help but smile at the obvious pride in his voice, something I'd never really care for either of my grandfathers were their smiles, sadistic and haughty where the only descriptions that came to mind right away.
"I'd like to think I came up with it one my own. But, I guess I'll see you both there tomorrow. Don't be late, or else I might just go in without you." I didn't bother waiting for him to say anything before hanging up, deciding to go downstairs and give my parents each more blood.
The basement was still cold, but I didn't want to turn the heat up just incase it got too hot for them, since both their bodies were as cold as the stone around them I figured it'd be fine- having found them that way too.
"Alright… here we go." I set the two half cups of human blood down on the nightstand I'd put at the far end of the basement, knowing I was going to top up the cups with my own. "I should really put some music down here for you two."
I pulled the pocket knife out of my back pocket and flipped it open, spending a moment and just looking at the edge of the blade, my eyes focusing on just how sharp it was- something I could never do fully as a human.
Shaking my head to force myself to concentrate I placed the blade over my right wrist and slowly dragged the blade up, making a deep gash and barring my fangs at the pain. I set my hand over one of the glasses and watched as my blood slowly mixed with the blood already in the cup.
I hated how I finally had my parents back and was still cutting, I'd done it before and allowed my blood to drop into water to watch it twist and curl. Most of the time it had been a crystal glass, but when I was thirteen and fourteen I cut every night and just watched the blood drip down the sink, or down the drain in the shower. Most people called me emo, others who found out had me sent away and called me a masochist, but it never got me off… it was just a way to take away the emotional pain; with physical pain.
Once both cups were filled I took one and walked over to my mother, gently cupping the back of her head and tilting her slightly as I poured the blood into her mouth, not seeing a single change as it slid down her throat smoothly, unlike Axel where I had to force him to swallow. I knew that minimizing the amount of my blood that they both got would delay their waking, but that's what I wanted. I was going to give them each three full cups on the day I left and that'd be the amount that'd wake them.
Feeding my father was easier, I did the same, but it was always easier to not spill at all with him, it was probably because he was larger and his mouth was already slightly open, as if for breathing. I cleaned them both off to make sure no blood was left on their faces before turning to the side and getting everything put away again.
I pursed my lips and started whistling lightly to myself, wondering if I'd want to do anything… intimate, with Axel before I left. My mind had kept going back to that since I'd made up my mind to go to Wonderland, and every time I thought about it I realized that the possibility of me dying was very high. Xigbar was a killer, I knew that. And he had the home field advantage, he could ambush me, he could pretty much set an army on me if he had one- which I didn't know for certain.
My head was spinning with the option I had; sleep with Axel, or not sleep with Axel. I thought it'd be an easy question to answer but it wasn't, the question would never be easy and I had two nights to answer it before I might never get the chance to even ask the question again. I knew that my mind wanted to, I wanted to allow myself that pleasure before the possibility of death, but I knew that it wasn't right to do it just because I thought I might die; it wouldn't be right to use Axel that way.
Something made a sound upstairs and I was there in a moment, pressing the person up against the door that they'd just closed before I realized it was just Xion. "Roxas! Its me."
I let her go and took a step back. "When did you become so silent? And what are you doing back now?" I finished using the rag to clean my hands as she just giggled.
"Sorry… I didn't mean to scare you. Sara and I were just coming back and decided to try our hardest to be quiet, we didn't know if you were getting busy with Axel or not."
"No, he went out to get super. And for your information Axel and I aren't intimate yet so stop dropping all the fucking hints."
"Oh… do you have a problem with bottom? You do seem much more like an uke though."
"Xion. Knock it off. I'm not even going to talk anymore about this. Its not happening and if you bring it up again I'll get rid of Sara." her eyes went wide for a moment in fear a pout covering her face next.
"But Roxas… you wouldn't really would you? She's such great company! And she knows so much about everything! Its amazing for a human really. Her IQ is much higher then I ever thought, and she's a great kisser." my cheeks flared red as I shook my head and flit back to the basement to grab the cups before going back upstairs and setting them in the sink to be washed.
"Awe… your so innocent Roxas. Its so cute, how lucky am I that my pureblood lord is a cute blushing uke?"
"Stop calling me cute Xion. Or I really will get rid of Sara for you." Xion just sighed as she hopped up onto the counter, not using her hands at all and making it look like she was gliding.
"You need to stop being so mundane Roxas… live a little. Mark a few more vampires and make them your immortal slaves. Try skulking in the shadows and drinking from your hunted victims instead of just your mate. Try being a Bram Stoker worthy vampire Roxas! Hide in the shadows and embellish yourself in fine clothing! Do it all!"
"Yes, and I will. I'll have an eternity to do it Xion, but to tell you the truth, I've never been infatuated with vampires like the rest of the world. Its just something I am, and I cant change that."
"You can at least stop hiding yourself away in this old house! It'll do nothing to you Roxas."
"Your going to be coming with me in three days Xion. I'm going to get my uncle and having you there should make things easier."
"What am I going to do against a pureblood? Are you going to use me as a distraction?"
I shook my head as I began washing the glasses out. "No. Axel's cousin: Sora, is marked by Xigbar- most likely along with others. And I don't want him to get hurt, so your going to take care of him while I'm going to deal with Xigbar. Sounds good, right?"
"No plan ever works out that smoothly. I thought you were supposed to be good at Chess Roxas."
"I am, but that doesn't mean life is a chess game. You can go do whatever you were going to now Xion."
"You really need to let yourself out Roxas, are you just going to keep yourself cooped up here until we leave for your Uncle?" I looked up at her bright blue eyes and shrugged, knowing I didn't want to stay in my house like a child contained for a grounding.
"Go out Xion, have fun, go to the mall with Sara if you want. But I'm going to stay here and wait for Axel." Xion smiled and shrugged before turning back towards the door, grabbing a still compelled Sara by the hand and tugging her out the door.
I let out a heavy sigh as I walked over to my laptop and turned it on, waiting as it connected to the strong Wifi signal coming from my neighbors house so I could look for what movies were being played in the theaters.
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Axel walked through the door and I couldn't help but smile as I hopped up from my computer and gave him a hug. "Hey Roxie. I hope you don't mind, but I gave my dad a call while I was out- just to kinda see what was going on over at the house." I only nodded with the same smile as I gave him a kiss before trying to tug him further into the house and towards the computer.
"Not talking right now?" I nodded again as I sat down and he went into the kitchen with the Chinese take out. "Alright then, wanna eat now or after you show me whatever you wanna show me?" I casually shrugged and started typing away, glad that I found the action movie that was playing in Radiant Garden.
"Alright, later. So what's up?" he walked over and sat down beside me before I hopped on his lap with the laptop on my own legs overly giddy about this movie. Axel wrapped his arms around my waist and set his chin on my shoulder, I could just tell he was smirking.
"I wanna go watch this. Can we please? We haven't gone out on a date yet and I've wanted to see this for almost a month now… pretty, pretty please Axel. It'd be so great if we could go watch this, it's the movies last day in theaters." Axel's arms tightened around my waist and I felt a kiss being pressed to the side of my neck, Axel's current indication that I could have anything.
"How about we get some dinner first, alright? I'm starved and drinking blood in a public place isn't the best for anyone." I nodded and closed the laptop down before hopping up and bouncing into the kitchen, wondering what kind of Chinese he got.
"Its nothing much Roxie, just Beef Shop Suey, Deep friend Prawns, Almond Chicken, Stir-fried Rice, noodles and a bit of Wonton soup. I didn't know what you like for Chinese, so I just grabbed what I like." he wrapped his arms around my body and looked down at me as I looked up at him. "I hope you don't mind."
"I don't mind. Its basically all my favorites. I just don't like the Wonton and Sir-fry." I closed my eyes and felt a kiss pressed to my forehead.
"Well I'm going to get eating then. Want me to grab the plates?" I nodded and Axel walked over to the cupboard and pulled out two plates and two of the glasses as I started opening the containers holding the food.
"Roxas… what's this?" I looked up and noticed right away that Axel was motioning towards a glass that had tinted itself pink from the blood I was feeding my parents.
"I don't know why that happened. I was feeding my parents normally and it just turned the glass pink, and no I didn't use my blood." at that moment I realized that if the scar on my wrist wasn't healed I was in for major shit. "… a lot of it anyhow."
"Roxas I thought I told you-"
"I want them awake Axel. You don't know what its like feeling the way I've felt about it. And I didn't give them much." Axel walked over to me and set the glasses down with a sigh, reaching for my left hand and looking at my wrist. "I used the other one." my voice weak as I spoke.
I downcast my eyes as he gently grabbed my right hand, pulling it up and turning it over, horrid looking scabs covered the forming scar. "You cut too deep Roxas, this'll even scar you." he let out a sigh and used his other hand to tilt my head up. "Promise you wont cut deeply again, please Roxie?" I nodded my head as I looked up at him, seeing the multitude of worry in his face. I knew he didn't want me to do it but at the same time he at least wanted me to have a family again. "Say it please Roxas, just for my ears."
"I wont cut too deeply again. I promise." he smiled brightly before leaning forward and kissing the tip of my nose.
"Alright. I can die a happy man now, as soon as I get me some Chinese in my stomach." we both started digging into the Chinese, getting our plates loaded with enough food to feed a small army
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The movie was awesome! Axel and I sat in the theater, our hands entwined and my head on his shoulder as the movie played in front of us on the big screen. We hung back in the theater after it was over, talking about our favorite parts and laughing about how we could see members of my family not being able to figure out the mystery behind the movie.
"Axel? Roxas? Wow! I haven't seen the two of you since Axel's graduation Ceremony! Why the heck didn't you two come to prom?" Axel and I turned to the right and looked at Demyx as the tall blonde teen walked down the isle and sat beside me, ruffling my hair in the process.
"Hey there Roxas, how have you been doing little buddy?"
"Fine, how about you?" I decided to answer and see what he'd say about it, even though his expression didn't change much.
"Better now that I actually see you and Axel out on a date- I'm imposing of course -but its good to see the two of you out and about. Do you guys know where you're going to college?"
"Roxas and I were thinking about Radiant Garden University, what about you?"
"The same thing! There's no better place for me to practice my Sitar 24/7!" I nodded, knowing that the school offered most types or art courses. "Anyhow, I'm going to let the two of you get back to your date. And its good to see you talking Roxas, your voice suits you." he ruffled my hair again before getting up and leaving with a bright smile on his face.
"Wow… I figured he'd freak. Guess he's more mature then I thought." Axel just scoffed before pressing a kiss to my cheek.
"He's more mature then everyone knows. Kind of odd really, he's like you in a way, but on a much smaller scale."
I looked up at Axel and tilted my head, not understanding what he meant. "Let me elaborate for you Roxie: when we're together and hanging out, your very cheerful and bright, but when your upset or in a funk, you are much more docile. And when you want to be- mainly when your being a true pureblood -your much stricter and… virile." I raised my eyebrow at the last word and he just let out a bit of a sigh as he placed his chin in his hand and elbow on his knee. "Basically a different word for manly." I nodded my head at that and thought back to how I'd been acting in different situations.
Thinking back I suppose that I as changing my attitude greatly when I was around Axel, but that's because I was happy around Axel. It wasn't too odd to have that bit of attitude change… was it?
"Man, makes me wonder what it was like when I was dead."
"Oh, nothing big happened. I pushed my grandfathers back into a wall with a snarl, I ran away with you and Xion, went to Halloween Town and stole my parents from their tomb. The usual really." Axel just smiled and rolled his eyes.
"Well I don't know about you, but I want ice-cream, then sleep." I nodded with another bright smile on my face, determined that tonight I'd at least ask Axel about my mental conundrum… in my own way.
Axel and I climbed into my car, me in the passengers seat and Axel driving since he actually had his license. We walked into the ice-cream shop hand in hand as we walked to our table, seeing a bored looking silver haired boy, he looked absolutely livid in the bright pink apron and hat holding his slightly long hair back.
"Hello, my name is Riku, welcome to ice-cream palace, where sweets meet fun. What can I get for the two of you?" he walked up to us with a small note pad and looked at the both of us.
"Hello, I'd like a…" I trailed off wondering what the hell I wanted to eat in the cute ice-cream shop that I hadn't been inside in years.
"We'll take a Twisted Chocolate Supreme please." Alex plucked my menu out of my hands and handed them both to Riku with a smile as the silver haired boy nodded and vanished into the back before coming out with another tables order and going back in.
"Why did you order that Axel? I didn't even see that option on the menu. What's it look like?" he just smiled at me with his bright green eyes shimmering as he casually played with a crossword.
"It's a good dessert. Promise, I've never even had one before, but its supposed to be a really good date ice-cream." I nodded my head and just turned to look at the falling drops of light from the sky.
"This really is a beautiful city… I don't know if I like the falling light from here, or the sunset from Twilight Town more." Axel just smiled slightly wider as his eyes followed mine to the drops of light.
"I agree… a place like this compliments everything. But I think my heart will always lie in Twilight Town." I nodded my agreement, getting lost in looking at the old castle that was still under repair from a battle before I was born.
"Here you go, your Twisted Chocolate Supreme. Enjoy and let me know if you'd like anything else, I'd love to be of service." Riku set a large dish down between Axel and I, vanilla ice-cream covered in whipped cream, brownies, cookies, and hot fudge.
"Wow! Thank you Riku." he just shrugged before walking off to another table to ask for their order. "Axel, what do you think we should do tonight? Grab a movie from the movie store and just sit at home?"
Axel shrugged as he grabbed one of the two spoons and took a small amount of the vanilla ice-cream. He held it up to my mouth and I took the spoon before returning the favor, wondering if he was going to answer me or dodge with ice-cream.
"We can do anything I guess. What do you want to do?"
"I'm asking you. So answer; what do you want to do tonight." Axel just shrugged his shoulders with a smile as he took a scoop for himself.
"Uh, let me think about it?" I nodded and we continued to eat our ice-cream, talking about the movie a little more, and comparing out favorite movies and what made them our favorites.
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I was getting more confused and worried as every hour passed and I didn't ask Axel what I'd been trying to ask him. I thought about just killing and letting things go from there, but I honestly couldn't bring myself to just let something like that happen spontaneously- even if I was planning on planning it.
We spent our night sitting around the living room or down in the basement checking on my parents. Axel helped me put away extra blood for the day I was planning on leaving. I was still determined to not bring Axel with me, and Xion knew about my plan to give him a few sleeping drops that'd keep him asleep long enough to allow me to sneak out and get to Wonderland with Xion before he even woke up. And if he appreciated my ideas he would stay with my parents when they woke up.
My last night with Axel was a harsh one for me. He was going over plan idea's and what he remembered from stories of the castle, he had great ideas for figuring it all out and getting Xigbar to come out and just come with us and not having to kill him… but I knew that already. All I had to do was get through the night without Axel catching on to the plan to leave him there without me.
"Roxas…" I looked up from my computer with a smile as I looked at him, his eyes downcast and the two marks under his eyes looking more then ever like tear drops. His mouth was curved down and he looked like a sad angel at that moment, even his hair seemed droopy. "…Your not taking me with you, aren't you?" I froze for a moment, paralyzed before I realized how he figured it out: I kept saying I loved him like I'd never do it again.
"Yeah, I'm not taking you with Xion and I." I closed my computer and looked over at him, watching as he slowly raised his eyes so he was looking at me, so much hurt was there that for a moment I really thought he was going to cry.
"Why are you doing this to me? Did I do something wrong Roxas, isn't there anything that I can-"
"Axel. I want you with me so badly. But I want someone here that I trust to be here when my parents wake up, I know this might sound stupid and selfish, but I really need you to be here for them Axel… they need someone."
"But Roxas. You've wanted to see them for so long, why not just wake them and bring them with you."
"I read over some of Xemnas and Ansem's notes. After waking pureblood vampires are no stronger then humans for half a year until their own abilities regenerate themselves. I cant do it, I cant bring them back knowing that they'll have to spend a year running away from him. I can do it myself Axel, I know I can… something has made him what he is, and I think I can-"
"He raped you Roxas. How the hell could you want to go back there for him to do it again!" I froze for a moment, I'd wanted so deeply to not remember that part of my night before going back.
"If I can bring Xemnas and Ansem with me, and get them there before anything bad happens. Everything will stop Axel. I have to do this, its just something that's been bugging me. So I cant take you with me."
"Your using yourself as bait so your grandfathers will show up! And what if they don't! What the hell will happen then Roxas! Do you really think you could stop him from doing that to you again? You think you can do whatever you want, and I'm sick of it! Got it memorized! I'm fucking sick of it!"
I looked away from him, unable to take the rage in his eyes and knowing it was aimed at me hurt even more. I flinched as a vase shattered on the fireplace mantel. Axel let out a growl as he stood up and hovered over me, his hands on the back of the couch behind my head and his face hanging close to mine.
"What the hell could possibly be going through your head right now. To want to go there in hopes that you'll be bait enough for your grandparents. Do you want him to hurt you again Roxas? Is that what this is, your final ditch effort at self-harm before your parents wake up?"
"Axel, back off and cool down. Now." I turned my eyes up at him, not daring to move the rest of my head. I knew I was bordering on compulsion but he was pissing me off more then ever. "I don't know who the hell you think you are by talking to me like this Axel, but I am not about to use myself as bait for him. I will kill him or kill myself before ever giving him the opportunity to touch me again."
I slowly stood up making Axel move back with every inch I moved forward. His feet stumbled as his eyes turned wide and he pushed his back against the wall across from me. "Don't ever think that I'm self-destructive. I'm sorry that you don't like how I'm doing this Axel, but I need to know why he chose my family. His own sister and nephew. I deserve to know why he ripped us apart and I'll use whatever means necessary."
Axel looked shocked, appalled, and scared if I was to use my own words. His eyes wide as he stared at me, no more anger in his features as I turned away from him and walked into the kitchen to grab something to drink.
"Fine. Do whatever the fuck you want." Axel turned to the door and grabbed his long black coat as he shoved his feet into his boots and stormed out of the house, ten minutes to midnight and not looking like he was about to come back anytime soon.
With a growl I through my glass at the floor and watched as it shattered into millions of pieces. I wanted so dearly to clean out the kitchen of all the glass, so I could just shatter everything and be done with it. But I couldn't, I remembered how much my mom liked the china.
"Roxas? What was that sound?" I looked up and noticed Xion and Sara standing there, the small brunette looking scared as Xion walked closer to me. "Roxas, why are you crying? What happened, there's so much broken glass." Xion grabbed my shoulders so I'd look at her and I just shook my head before pulling her forward for a hug.
"He hates me. I know he does. He broke the vase on the mantel and I broke the glass. He figured out that we're going and not bringing him, you should have seen his face Xion, he was so pissed… I cant believe I did this to him." Xion hugged me back and let out a sigh as her hand started to stroke my head, "He's so mad Xion… I don't know what to do right now. I've never seen him that angry."
"Well yeah. He's a pureblood now too. He's just as protective of you as you were of him. And you went against the two originals, he wont want to stay here and if you compel him to, then that's his instincts telling him that you don't love him because your putting yourself in danger and not allowing him to help you. Even worse is that your using your rank to make sure he doesn't help you. How would you feel if he walked in front of a plow and he'd tied you up first so you could do nothing but watch him."
"I'd feel horrible. But doesn't he know that I'm just trying to protect him? I don't want to put him in danger for my own selfish needs of getting what I want." Xion let out a sigh and smacked the back of my head none too gently.
"Well then; how do you think he feels about this? We'd both follow you to the ends of the earth Roxas, but where if you die for some reason, he'll fight to keep you alive, but if you turn to dust, he'll kill himself too. That's what it means to have a true mate: to have an emotional connection so strong that if they die you cant live without them. You feel that way about Axel too, don't you?"
I nodded my head on her shoulder and she let out a sigh. "Then stop being a baby and go find him. He shouldn't have gone that far, and he'll be walking so-" I cut her off as I stood up straight and gave her cheek a kiss.
"Thanks Xion, but I think I can find him just fine." I hopped passed Sara and grabbed my own coat while I stuffed my feet into my boots and got them laced up. "I'll clean up the mess when I get back! You two have some fun, watch a movie or something. I'll be back in a bit!"
I pulled my hood over my head and rushed out the door so I was going down the street, my eyes scanning for Axel and not seeing anything in the immediate vicinity.
"Axel!" I rushed down the street, not knowing why I was running at normal human speed through the rain, but knowing that flitting just didn't seem right. "Axel!" I turned right headed into town, knowing that he wouldn't head anywhere further then the Tower, and that was a train ride away.
My feet powered me as I ran off of Sunset Hill, through the Terrace and to the Station, waiting in the torrential downpour of rain. The harsh sound of rain pouring down was ringing in my ears as I shuffled from one foot to the other before just hopping on the track and running, despite the sound of the ticket person yelling at me to get me off the track.
I came off the track in Central Station and ran out of the building into the Plaza. "Axel!" there was no reply and I turned around a few times before looking up, seeing absolutely nothing on the top of the clock tower through the rain that was stinging my eyes. With a bit of a growl I turned towards Station Heights and started running again, assuring myself that I was going to find him or die trying.
I hadn't thought he'd have made it as far as he must have, all I knew was that he wasn't near Sunset hill or the Station Plaza. I checked the Tram Common, Sandlot and Back Alley, all looking for the stupid red head. I'd called out his name so many times I'm positive that the entire town had heard me, I even went through part of the woods leading back to the Terk's mansion before chickening out and not getting that close.
With a sigh I stuffed my hands back into my pocket and let out a sigh, deciding to try the last place I figured he'd never go: the Abandoned Tower that used to belong to an old Wizard who died, supposedly leaving the place haunted by his magic. Axel said he hated the place and would never go there- even when I dared him -but it was the only place left and I was determined to find him as soon as possible, I'd search all the cities and towns around the world if I had to.
"Axel! Hey Axel! Are you out here?" I cupped my hands around my mouth as I hollered into the rain covered darkness of Station Heights. I noticed that three teens were running towards the Back Alley and reached out. "Hey! Excuse me!"
The three wet teens stopped and turned to me, a tall blonde boy with his hair dropping down in front of his face as the girl and boy brunettes smiled. "Hey, what's up man? We wanna get outta this rain."
"Have you seen Axel? I cant find him." the three looked at each other before the girl stepped forward and just smiled kindly.
"I'm sorry but we haven't seen him Roxas. You should get inside before you get sick, this weather would make the dead sick, alright?" I nodded and she smiled again before running after the two boys again.
"I would, but I cant… Axel hates the rain." I knew that the red head didn't like rain and he'd rarely be caught out in it if he could help it, but I was scared to death of thunder and lightning myself, and from the escalation of the storm I could tell it was coming.
I looked back up to the clock tower, seeing the highest point in the city through the wet and almost shiny buildings. I could feel rain hitting my eyes, making them sting for a moment before it just stopped hurting and I started running towards the Clock Tower, wanting deeply to see if Axel was hiding there.
I flit to the top of Central Station, looking around on the wet stone to find the flaming red head. "Axel? Are you here?" my voice dropping as no sign of the red head caught my attention. "Fine. To the Tower I go." I walked to the edge of the ledge I'd sat at so many times before just stepping off the edge, plummeting down to the steps below.
My feet made contact and I smirked as my joints absorbed the shock and force that the fall took. "Wow Roxas. That's impressive. I've never seen a first year fall from that height like a pro before. Even Axel broke his ankle… but I guess he's not a pureblood." I froze and jerked my head up to see Demyx standing there with a smile on his face, his own long trench coat pulled up around his neck to keep the wind out.
I stood up and looked around for a moment before getting ready for a fight incase he attacked. "Hey, relax Roxas. I don't give a damn what you are, I've known Axel is a vampire for a long time now. I'm in the wizard house of the town."
"Oh… have-have you seen him?"
"Yeah, he hopped trains a little over an hour ago. It looked like he was heading to the older part of town with that big Tower… might want to check there, but; why are you looking for him?"
"I said something stupid. Thanks Demyx! I owe you big time for this!" he just shrugged and waved as I rushed into Central Station. Hearing him chuckle behind me just before the doors closed.
"Love-struck fools, how I wish I had that." his voice fading as the doors closed and I ran forward to the purple train with all the silver stars painted on.
The train ride was long and tedious, I felt like I was going to pass out waiting for the large contraption to stop so I could get out and find Axel. There were a few people on the train, including a small group of three who were huddled around each other, whispering about something and looking over at me every now and then. I wished that I'd grabbed a weapon of some kind before I left but there was no running home for one now.
"Excuse me… would you happen to know a Mr. Martin?" I looked up and noticed that the three were standing around me.
Deciding quickly I tightened my throat and looked away again so I was looking out and seeing the rain falling into the water that surrounded the train tracks. "Sorry… but I cant help you. Just passing through."
"Oh, well, welcome to town then. Sorry to trouble you." the man looked like a mouse in all honestly, he had a slightly pointed nose and very large ears.
"Yeah, thanks… this is my stop though." I walked passed him to the doors as the train rolled to a gentle stop and I walked off with a grimace briskly walking right up to the Tower- a stop no one ever got off on.
I walked up to the front of the tower and gently pushed the large door open and slunk into the Entryway. A spiral staircase heading up to the top of the tower the only thing in the room.
I was so tired by the time I got through the Star and Moon Chambers. Having just one last set of stairs to run up. I shouldered the door twice before the gold door opened and I stumbled inside.
"Axel!" my eyes scanned the room, nothing but an old dusty chair and desk, a few books covered in cobwebs on the shelves and a chest at the far end, looking like it would hold nothing but clothes. But there was nothing indicating anyone had been there before me in a long time. I'd realized that prankster kids never went passed the Star Chamber thanks to the spell that was there to make the door leaving the Chamber hard as Hades to open.
I let out a sigh and fell back against the door, sliding down to the floor and pushing my hood back away from my face as I felt tears welling in my eyes. I reached into my pocket and pulled my phone out, checking to see if he'd called me.
Seeing no missed calls, I scrolled to his number and hit talk, praying that he'd forgiven me enough to pick up.
"Hey there, you've reached Axel Terk. I'm currently spending a shit-load of time with my hot-as-fuck boyfriend, so leave a message after the beep and I'll get back to you when I feel like it. Got it Memorized?"
I let out a sigh and hung my head lower as the beep sounded. "Axel… I'm sorry, I said some really shitty things. But I've been running for the last two hours looking for you, and I've found nothing. I'm sorry, I cant say how sorry I am. It took Xion whipping my ass to get me to realize what I was putting you through. I love you, I'll talk to you soon, because I'm not going to stop searching for you until I find you." I pulled the phone away from my ear and hung up, trying to clear my head some and stop the flow of tears streaming down my face.
With a huff I got back up to my feet, my clothes drenched making my skin cold and wet as I shuffled towards the only other door in the room. I pushed the doors open and walked in, looking down at the intricate carpeting as I walked into the unknown room to me.
"You know, despite all the rain clouds, you can see the stars perfectly from this Tower." I looked up in shock at hearing the voice before my eyes almost popped out of my head.
"Axel! I'm so sorry!" I rushed forward and wrapped my arms around his waist as he turned towards me. "I shouldn't have said no, I didn't think about what you'd be feeling, I just wanted to keep you safe after what I read about purebloods and waking up after dying. Please, please, please forgive me Axel." I pushed my face into his chest to dry my tears, feeling secured as he wrapped his arms around me in a tight hug.
"Roxas… I'll never be too mad at you… I just needed to think, about everything. And it really wasn't fare that you are willing to use your status to keep me from doing my job of protecting you. The feeling of being hopeless is not something I like to feel, not when it comes to protecting you from someone who's already hurt you."
"I wont do it, I promise Axel. I wont compel you to stay at my house. You can come with me. I'm sorry, I just wanted your safety."
"Roxas, stop acting like I was going somewhere. If there is one thing I will promise you for always, is that I'll always come back. It might take a while, but I'll just come right back like a boomerang. Don't worry about ever loosing me, alright?" I nodded my head and looked up at Axel, planning whole heartedly on not letting him go for a while until I felt my head spinning.
"Ow… I'm an idiot." I let one of my arms go from around his chest and held my own head. "I've given too much blood to do this much work, damn… I should get back to Xion." Axel nodded his head and I felt him scoop me up bridal style.
I turned my eyes to Axel and glared as hard as I could as he hopped onto the window ledge. "If I didn't have a splitting headache, I'd threaten to rip off your balls." he only smirked as he inched forward on the ledge, allowing the rain to start hitting me again.
"Well now Roxie. I don't think I'd mind that… it'd involve having to get naked in front of you after all." I opened my mouth to retort but it was cut off as he stepped fully and I let out a squeak of surprise instead.
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Axel and I had spent that night just laying around in my bed, talking about our future if we made it through the next day, not really doing much but talking and making sure that everything in the house was alright for our four O'clock departure, knowing neither of us would be able to sleep.
"I grabbed something from my house last night when I left, your grandparents have been leaving my house alone since your not there, so I grabbed a few weapons for our little escapade." Axel had gotten up off the bed at three and went for a shower, coming back when he was done with two large boxes, one square shaped and the other rectangular.
"This one is for you. And this is for me." he set the rectangular box down in front of me and sat down himself. I watched as he opened his box and pulled out two red Chakrams. "These, were specially made for my eighteenth birthday. What do you think? Sexy, aren't they?" he got up with a smirk and spun them around a few times before looking at me and winking once before he thrust both his hands out and I watched in shock and awe as the Chakrams spun around and caught on fire.
"Holly shit!"
"I told you their sexy; Eternal Flames. It's a special ability I've had as a vampire for a while. I can conjure fire like I'm a wizard."
I looked back down at the box beside me and grabbed the thick silver ribbon and tugged it free so I could get the lid of the box off.
I pulled the white lid off the black base and froze in shock. "Your father had those made years ago for your eighteenth. I know its kind of a spoiler, but you could certainly use them in the morning." I nodded my head and pulled the two intricate looking swords out of the box as I stood up.
"He called them Keyblades. The Oathkeeper and Oblivion apparently, I think they look epic personally. And if you really want to know something: you've got something you can use too. And I'm going to spend the rest of tonight… teaching you how to use it." I looked up at Axel and saw the smirk right away, his eyes shimmering with joy and mischief. "You my dear Roxas… can use Light as a weapon, and trust me… it packs a wallop." I just nodded and kicked my slippers off, ready to learn as much as he was willing to teach me.
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I let out a sigh as Axel and I pulled my car up to the edge of the road just outside of Wonderland, I didn't want to bring my car into the city. Axel and I had gone down into the basement and I'd given my parents the equivalent amount of three cups of my blood each from the day's I'd taken it and stored it. I'd also taken a fair helping from Xion before our departure, leaving her to wait for my parents to wake with her wrist shown so they wouldn't try and kill her as quickly.
"Roxas… are you sure about this? I'll be dealing with Sora and I wont be able to do anything until Xemnas and Ansem get-"
"Axel. I trust you, and I'm not asking you to watch my back if you cant. I just want you to be here with me, so neither of us are worrying." he nodded as we walked hand in hand, Axel carrying both Chakrams in one hand and me carrying both Keyblades in one of mine.
I could feel my heart beat pounding louder as we got closer and closer to the large castle, surrounded by a large maze that Axel and I just hopped over, not bothering to worry about the shrubbery as we made a beeline for the castle.
"Do you remember where this hole you made was Roxas? I don't see anything really." I shook my head and let Axel's hand go, being too close to the castle for comfort.
"No I don't. We'll just have to make our own way in… either that or we could try knocking, I'm sure that'll get his attention."
"If we're thinking creative now Roxas a wrecking ball would make a nice sized entrance." I chuckled as we stopped, one hedge away from being directly in front of the high alabaster walls. "I say we take the north tower and work our way from there. We'll have to split up of course but-"
"Or we can try something a little more unique… and I'm sorry for what I'm about to say Axel." I gave him a smile and took a deep breath of air, forcing my chest and abdomen to swell as much as it could before letting it all out in a huge shout that I was positive they'd hear on the inside.
"Hey Sora! I've changed my mind! I love you too!" my face went red with the effort and I looked over at Axel with a bit of a shrug and apologetic look as he just started at me wide eyes and shocked.
"Really Roxas? Couldn't have thought of anything a little-"
"Roxas! I'm so happy you came back!" I was suddenly tackled by the brunette that looked just like me in so many ways, his head tucked on my shoulder and his shoulder under my armpit, making my arm stick up slightly with the Keyblades.
Axel's face went red with what I knew was anger and I suddenly felt way worse for making an entrance to the castle known that way. "Alright Sora… I need you to get off now, I have to talk with your master. Where is Xigbar?"
Sora moved back and looked up at me, his fists clenched in the front of my jacket as he stared at me with eyes that looked so much like mine and Xion's. "He's down in the northern basement. In the grand hall. I cant let you go in there Roxas. I love you too much. We have to stay together." he hugged me again and this time I turned to Axel to get him off.
"Alright Sora, knock it off. You know Roxas and I are dating." Sora just shook his head and I heard Axel growl before actually tossing his Chakrams down and prying the crying teen off of me. "I said knock it off! What the hell does that mean to you Sora! My mate, not yours."
"But you heard him! He loves me too! We have to be together." I let out a sigh and shook my head as I took a few steps away and looked back at him.
Axel was holding him around the waist with one arm and let out a sigh as he struggled to keep the brunette away from me and out of the way in general. "I'm sorry Sora. But I don't love you, at all really. I'm sorry that I tricked you, but I had to. Axel will take care of you now." Sora started screaming at me not to go away, and all I could think of was a child calling after their parent.
I walked through the small door Sora had opened when he came rushing out and I looked left and right, seeing a staircase leading up and one leading down. "Alright… down we go."
Taking a deep breath I turned towards the downwards steps and flit down a few levels, stopping myself for a second before flitting again and stopping at the base of two large double doors that were in the middle of the stairs. "Well there's still a down option. So I'm taking down."
I flit down another few hundred steps, then another hundred, then a final set before smacking straight into a large stone door. I bounced off the door and hit my back against the stairs I'd gone down. My head hurt for a split second where it'd smacked into the stone steps before the pain seemed to vanish and I raised my body, balancing my body on my hands and one leg I kicked out and smashed the doors in.
Once the dust and debris settled I walked through the doo,r into the large ballroom and noticed Xigbar seated on a large throne at the end of the hallway.
"It truly is a shame that the police showed up when they did all those years ago, of course because it was your house they were called to, so they were all vampires posing as police. I never got to finish what I started back then… I had such great plans for you Roxas, and for my dear sister and brother in law.
"You, were going to be so loved. Much more loved then you have been, I care so deeply for you Roxas. Its why I showed you my feelings that night. I was going to use their powers and I was going to rule the vampire world with you by my side. I was going to groom you into the perfect vampire, taking away your memories and building you anew.
"I'm sorry that it didn't work out that way. But alas, here we are, you and me in this great hall built for kings, and my father is on his way with his eternal companion… ready to kill me for knowing that vampires can be so much more then their letting us. Don't you want to be one of the most powerful vampires in the world?" I clenched my fists tightly when he mentioned my parents and shivered when he mentioned that night.
"I hate you Xigbar. And I will never, ever even consider being around you in a million years- if you live that long. And you will never, touch my parents again. I'll kill you before-"
"As if. I know you've moved them, it doesn't take a genius to hear what Xemnas screams through the phone at you, if ones listening. Their probably close to where you've been for the last month, so that'd make it back at your old house… how quaint. You took them out of the safest place in the world for them to be in, and you give them four concrete walls and a bed most likely. Am I right Roxas?" I just stood there, both Kayblades in my hands as he stood up and took a step towards me.
I challenged his step with one of my own, making sure that he couldn't feel the fear I'd buried deep down, covering it with rage for the tall lanky man in front of me.
"Aren't you the cutest little pureblood ever? How are your cousins doing? Are they coming along as swimmingly as you are? Do they look and act at all like the filthy purebloods they were turned into?" I clenched my jaw tighter and started walking forward, readying myself to attack him if he moved towards me. "Your so cute when your angry… has Axel ever told you that I wonder. That makes me wonder so much, how much the two of you care about each other, obviously not enough for him to come here with you. He's upstairs holding a crying Sora like the good little lord vampire he is. I'd hate for his meager status to mean something to you but-"
"Shut the fuck up. You know nothing. And you talk too much. Leave my mate out of this, and fight me like the good little killer you are." I watched as his lips pulled up into a smirk and I started walking forwards again, a quicker pace then before.
"Fine… but I must warm you Roxas… I am the fastest vampire of them all… and my weapons are less then cordial." he turned back to his 'throne' and took two large guns off of the seat, they looked like wings, and like they shot some kind of crystal instead of bullets.
I kept my glare in place as he took a step forward before it felt like everything went into slow motion again. I watched with wide eyes as he rushed forward in a large arch, coming up behind me and raising his gun for a point blank shot.
Instinctually I flipped the Oblivion over in my hand and jabbed up, forcing his first gun to aim upwards and my second arm came around in an attack that he used his second weapon to block.
Time felt like it went into normal speed again and I watched in clear horror, seeing as the gun pointed upwards shot and the crystal bullet pierced the high ceiling, purple crystal growing around the entry point in a large pointed crystal.
"Don't worry… it doesn't kill purebloods… just kind of, freezes you." Xigbar gave me a smirk and I kicked out at him before slashing with both blades in my hands, forcing him back and away from me.
He yelled out with a joyous sound and I just grit my teeth together and rushed forward, deciding to attack if I wanted it done so badly.
"Common Roxas… did me talking about your precious lord vampire really make you want to fight that badly? If it's the fact that the two of you are mated I can easily change that! It'll just take a bullet and he'll be dead if you want."
"It doesn't kill purebloods… but I will!" I rushed forwards again, feeling time slow down as I struck at him again and again, his two guns locking themselves together like a shield.
"It wont work Roxas! Your doing the same thing over and over again expecting a different outcome! This is the definition of insanity!" I gave a smirk as I purposefully missed a swing and spun with the momentum to kick at his side. Hitting a rib I heard a harsh crack as it broke before spinning for a second time and smashing my Keyblade into the side of his arm, hearing something tear- most likely his jacket.
I felt the edge of my jacket caught and cursed myself for not taking it off before the fight. "I don't think you need this big heavy coat on. I wanna see that figure Roxas." before I really knew what happened he'd spun me around and ripped the jacket off, leaving me in my white button up t-shirt and black under shirt.
"Awe, more clothes… how upsetting." Xigbar rushed forward again and I blocked his first gun, kicking up with my left leg to block the second before jabbing at his torso with my Oblivion twice, noticing as his jacket started seeping blood.
I watched through the holes in his jacket as his skin healed itself almost instantly.
"Too bad Roxas… your stabs were too shallow… tentative, aren't you?"
"You talk too much." I flipped myself around, grabbing the back of his head with the back of my knee and tugging him down over the Oblivion, forcing it halfway through his body.
"Not my heart Roxas." I froze for a moment as I noticed where his gun was pointed: directly at my temple. "Goodnight."
I released him and moved to the far side of the room just before the shot sounded and I noticed a large Crystal standing six feet high where I had been previously.
With a slight growl I flit forward again and hooked one of his ankles, dodging several of his crystals. He snatched the back of my shirt and I felt and heard the fabric rip as I kept moving, leaving me in just my black tank top.
"We're getting there… but I assume I have another, three articles of clothing… that's three close range attacks for you Roxas. I mean, sure, I'll give you credit for being just as fast as me but…" he shot with his guns and I blocked the crystals from hitting me with the Oathkeeper and Oblivion.
I refused to listen to him talk, I gripped the thin chain on the handle of the Oathkeeper and started spinning it around by that, smirking when he stopped talking for a moment to gage my actions. "… You're never going to be as strong as-"
Amber eyes widened greatly as I flung the Oathkeeper forward, rushing behind him before it even hit home in his chest and I jabbed the Oblivion into his back, unable to help my smirk as the tips connected through the center of his heart, a thin veil of light covering both Keyblades.
"Outrun this you bastard!" I let him go and watched as he fell down, falling onto his back and pushing the Oblivion all the way through his Chest, allowing the Oathkeeper to fall free from his chest and clatter to the ground loudly.
I picked up the silver and white blade, glad that I'd used enough Light to fuse the tips together until he'd fallen back. I took my weapon and started walking back across the large throne room, grabbing my shirt and coat on the way, allowing the shirt to hang open without the buttons and just having the coat over my shoulders while I sat down, Oathkeeper in hand and glare on my face, watching Xigbar laying there on the ground, the intricate black, purple and blue key-shaped sword coming out of his chest, his back slightly arched off the ground because of the hilt.
It felt horrid sitting there in that chair, but a few of his Crystals had scraped passed my arms and legs, one getting the tip of my right ear, instantly crystallizing the areas so they felt cold as ice and stung horribly.
I was so tired as I heard footsteps coming down the several thousand steps that I didn't even notice that there were more sets of feet then I thought. I was expecting Axel, Xemnas, Ansem, Diz and Saïx, that's four- maybe five if Sora came down too.
My eyes widened as Axel came rushing down into the throne room, his eyes going to Xigbar right away before he looked over at me and flit over. It felt odd having him lean over me in the chair and press his lips to mine as more people piled into the throne room, but I returned the kiss just as feverishly. I felt his hand come up and brush against my left cheek and ear, feeling the pain and having to pull away with a wince.
"Roxas? What-oh, sorry. You alright?" I nodded as I reached up to touch my ear myself, feeling the crystal on my fingertips and pain in my ear.
"Roxas… you did it. How-"
"Dare you! What kind of dumb-ass kid did I raise? I mean: sure, I wasn't there for everything… but I'm sure I mentioned that whole 'fight or flight' thing hundreds of times! I think you owe us an apology." my eyes went wide hearing the voice. Axel's jacket being the only thing I could see.
My eyes moved up to Axel's for a moment and the smile on his face was so genuine that it could have broken my heart I was so happy, seeing that smile and hearing that voice within the same minute.
"Now dear… don't go getting mad at him, he did seriously injure a family member. I think some kind of punishment should be-"
I couldn't hold my limbs back anymore. I got up and flit around Axel in a moment. Pausing what must have been only a millisecond before rushing forward and wrapping my arms around my parents.
I'm positive that I was crying, there was no way that I couldn't be crying. The feeling of the arms wrapped around my shoulders was one I'd wanted for so long. I could almost feel my heart breaking as I buried my face in my moms neck, the small sounding chatter nothing but a buzzing in the back of my head as I thought all about everything that had happened over the last few months since I had become a vampire.
"You, are a wonderful, wonderful boy Roxas. Thank you so much." my mom's voice was so light and heavy at the same time in my ear that I felt like it was all a dream, like it was all a horribly wonderful dream.
"He's an idiotic knucklehead is what he is! Though, I suppose we wouldn't be awake if he wasn't. You really were stupid giving all that blood before you came here… what would have happened if we hadn't arrived when we did with your grandparents? Do you know what could have-"
"I know, but I wouldn't have let that happen again." I let my mom go and turned to my dad, seeing eyes even more blue then my own and a smile on his face.
"If you ever. Scare me like that again… you'll be grounded for the next thousand years. Do you understand Roxas?" his voice said serious but the smirk on his face said 'I'm just joking now give me a hug too, you small-fry'- a nickname I'd gotten used to when everyone started calling me his carbon-copy.
I wrapped my arms around his neck and held on for a moment before letting him go with a smile, looking around the room and seeing Saïx and Diz trying to tug the Oblivion from Xigbar's chest.
I walked over and grabbed the hilt from Saïx, tugging it free in one go and turning to Ansem. "If he ever, comes near me again, in MY lifetime. I will finish the job and kill him. So I'd hide him better then the two of you hid my parents if I were you."
"Roxas. Stop threatening my father, I understand that-"
"You both don't actually. My life has been close to a living hell, because you didn't want to have to erase my memory again. Well you know what? I think I would have done better with remembering that night, if it meant loosing the truly bad memories of what happened. I'll see you both at home." I was so thrilled that they were alive and back, but I'd still spent so much time hating the fact that they died, I just wasn't sure if I could give up the fact that they chose not to save me that night.
"Are you coming Axel?" I turned to the red head and he nodded before flitting over to me, looking at me for a moment before turning to my parents and bowing gently.
"A pleasure to see the both of you again." I didn't bother to wait for him to give them anymore pleasantries before just flitting up the stairs and out of the building.
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I let out a sigh, curled up in Axel's lap on the chair in the living room, a cup of hot chocolate in my hands and Axel's warm touch massaging my head in slow relaxing circles, making me more tired then ever.
"I'm sorry getting all those crystals off was so painful Roxie… but you got a new piercing out of it." I couldn't hold in the laugh as he purposefully ran his tongue over the spot before kissing it gently.
"Yeah, too bad I didn't want piercing's on my arms and legs though. Your blood healed them, but they still hurt like hell." he just pouted as he rubbed my upper left arm where I'd been grazed by the crystal.
"I'm sorry… I should have gotten down there sooner then I did. Are you going to be-"
"I'll be fine Axel. You've asked me that every ten minutes for the past hour. I'm fine, its just like a bruise… do you know where Xion went? She was here when we got home."
"Yeah, went out with Sara. She didn't want to be here when your parents got back. And to be completely honest, if we weren't mates I'd be outta here too. You kinda dropped a bit of a bombshell on them."
I let out a sigh and put my head back down on his shoulder, feeling worse then ever for saying that and running away. Even if running away was the one thing I knew I always did.
The front door opened and I took a deep breath to calm myself as my parents, grandparents and extended family all filed into the living room, Reno and Tifa as well. Axel shifted so I could move into a 'more dignified' position on his lap or on the chair itself, but it had been my house for a month and I was going to be damn well comfortable in it.
"Roxas… we know this is hard for you to understand, but you see, when you were eight, there was only so much we could have done. We're only allowed to make you forget something and rearrange your thoughts once a year- it was usually after our family camping trip with the Terks. We didn't have enough power to wipe and create your thoughts. I'd take the memories away and your mother would put in the new ones.
"If there was anyway to have not put you through that we would have. But there is no way we could have wiped and rearranged your mind, and if we'd waited the year you would have only had a month of memories and a lame story as to why you couldn't remember a year." I looked at my parents before my eyes scanned the room.
"I don't want to talk anymore… I just want to forget everything. Why is it, I only forget what should never have been forgot?"
"We would have if we could have. But it was all my fault Roxas, don't be like this because-"
"But you didn't do anything! He basically killed me too! The two of you got to sleep it off for eight years, but I was stuck with the horrible agony of it all! Dreams I couldn't run from. I was so scared that I didn't sleep for almost half a year! Every time I put my head down I was scared that I was going to be pulled from my bed again and raped! Do you have any idea what that was like? Having to watch them bury what I thought were you, mourning over an empty grave and not talking for eight years! What were you going to do? Wake up in two years from now and just show up like you owned the place! I've been, so alone… and its because you didn't want to let me know that you were vampires."
The room was silent as I glared at my parents, no longer sitting comfortably in Axels lap as I glared at my parents, their matching blue eyes downcast.
There was a sharp pain on my ear that I'd decided to pierce and I spun around to Axel, a deep scowl that could have killed a puppy on his face. "Your parents are apologizing for all that you ass-hole. Stop being an emo will you? Its not like your life hasn't gotten better. You have loved ones in your life, right? Stop mentally abusing them because they made a mistake. It happens to everyone. Can we both at least agree that their not the ones responsible for doing it?" I nodded my head and Axel smiled.
"Alright… I don't mean to step on any toes but I'm going to it anyways. Everyone who isn't Cloud Arieth or Roxas: get out!" Axel lifted me up and stood up, giving me a smile before kissing my forehead and turning to the room filled with angry looking vampires.
Axel stood up and crossed his arms over his chest, glaring at the room. "Now, I'm not a full pureblood, so I really don't want to step on any toes, but…" he raised a hand up by his head and snapped his fingers making a small flame that was slowly growing to appear on the tip of his finger "…Get, out. Yes even you Xemnas and Ansem." the house slowly cleared, Axel being the last to leave through the front door.
I sat back down and curled myself into a small ball, looking at both my parents. "I'm sorry… its just, taking all this in, and accepting it all is really hard for me. So many years, and days passed. I really just hoped it'd be a hell I had to live with for eternity, but when Luxord said you were still alive, or capable of coming back, it hurt so much knowing that you'd been so close for all those years."
"Roxas… I'm sorry that we've missed so much, and that you've in turn missed out on a lot too. But… we really couldn't do anything."
I nodded my head before wiping my nose on my sleeve before looking up at them, four bright blue eyes looking directly at me with that parental love I hadn't felt in a while. "Just, promise it wont happen again."
They nodded and I couldn't help but smile, knowing that Axel was going to be on the Clock Tower waiting for me. "I hope you guys don't mind… but I've kind of already got a mate in Axel. Its kinda-"
"Xion explained everything to us in one breath when we woke up… also mentioned you with Xigbar at his castle. She's got a set of lungs on her for sure." I smiled and pulled my phone out before looking up at them quickly. "Would you guys mind if I call up Reno and Tifa, so we can all go out to dinner? There is a really nice place in The Land of Dragons, it has great ramen and sushi." my parents nodded with a smile and I hit Axel's name, raising the phone up to my ear.
The start of an eternity, the start of a love, the start of my family once again, I had my parents back, I had Axel, I had Reno and Tifa, and I had Balto it took eight years eleven months, and eighteen days, but my life had finally turned itself around enough to make me feel like I could do something good with my life.
AN:
Axel: its done… and you made me leave the house? Why not have a wonderful Fluff ending with me and Roxie after a beautiful night of-
Roxas: where the fuck in the script does it say anything like that Axel? Your such a fucking perv.
Axel: and you still love me.
Cloud: thanks for bringing me and Arieth into it Elizabeth… but why didn't you put me with Tifa?
Roxas: She needed her to be Axel's mom. She doesn't play Final Fantasy so she wouldn't know. And she said there were cracking pairings at the beginning. She apologized in advance for that.
Tifa: I don't mind really… its just a script, kinda why its called acting.
Axel: can we get back to me? I didn't get my Chakrams until the last chapter! What the hell is up with that! Are you nuts Elizabeth Anne?
Roxas: ooooooohhhhh, her full name, she's scared now Axel… like you could hurt her.
Axel: I'll-
Sora: at least you we're a clingy cousin who was in love with Roxas… what's up with that part of the story anyhow Elizabeth? Do you hate me that much?
Shikamaru (from Naruto): its all her strategy. She needed someone to be madly in love with him for some of the parts, besides Axel of course.
Sora: but I'm not a whining brat! I'm better then that! I want a script change!
Axel: I need my Chakrams sooner! Elizabeth, give them to me sooner!
Roxas: holly shit Axel, you're a freaking dork. We're supposed to be thanking people and your thinking only about yourself!
Axel: fine! All together then… just read the lines on the script with no more adlib.
All: Thank you all very much for sticking with us for 7 chapters. We apologies for some of the unedited stuff and some of the errors missed in editing. Elizabeth greatly appreciates all the reviews and more would always be great! And if you could let Elizabeth know if her chapters are too long in general, that'd be great, her average Page Count is: 13.26pg./Chapter
Axel: hey, speaking of Elizabeth, where is she? isn't she usually in these things? She's usually stopping all the bickering.
Gaara: I'm taking her out for Ice-cream for finishing before her bedtime, this way we can have a sugar high when its time to sleep.
Axel: we wanna come! You cant leave us here alone! Take us with- *Door slams closed in Axel's face*
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Shikamaru: of course it is.
Both: please review or we might kidnap Elizabeth too.
Me: uh… do I get a say in this?
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