Hey Guys, I finally got to put this chapter up. I spent all of yesterday getting back into the groove and popping this one out. I probably lost a lot of reader, but I guess I deserve that but I saw that gained a few as well. Im sorry for not posting sooner, but i'm pretty free now and the creative juices have begun to flow so here we go again =D Alos don't forget to check out my other new story!

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"I." I didn't know what to say. This was the first time in months that we were being civil, facing each other and honestly, being adults. I found it scary that the only thing I wanted to do at the moment was run. But I couldn't run forever. "I don't think now is a good time."

He sighed and once again began to pinch his nose. "Bella, when is a good time. Cause at the rate we are going, there will never be a time."

"Wait wait wait," I said holding my bandaged hand up. "Now you want to talk. What about when things were actually getting bad, when it could have been reversed. When we were supposed to talk. What about then Edward, I clearly remember you slamming the door shut." I knew this would ensue in another fight but he was being hypocritical right now. He didn't have the balls to be a man and talk to me about what was happening before and now, months later he finally decides to give me the time of day? I was fuming.

"Bella," he said trying to calm himself. I could see him balling his fists at his side. Yet another thing he did when something was upsetting him. I hated that I knew exactly what he was feeling, it made it worse to remember how much of him I have memorized.

"Don't Bella me. God I don't even know what to say," I said frustratedly. I got up from the desk and starting pacing around. I had gone over everything I wanted to say to him in my mind over and over about a gazillion times and here, at the moment, those words were lost.

"I'm sorry," he said.

I stopped, he was Sorry? I laughed, "Its a little late to be sorry," I said.

"What else do you want me to say? Sorry that I stopped spending time with you, sorry that I forgot our anniversary, sorry that I spent to much time working? Or is it just everything with Tanya?"

"NO," I said alarming him. That was louder then expected. "Thats not what I want to hear," I said softly trying to blink the tears that were threatening to spill. "I just want to know why. Why did you stop acting like you loved me. What went wrong?" I wasn't looking at him. Tanya was something that agitated me to no end. I remembered running into him and Tanya locked in an embrace. They were drunk, very drunk and somehow she had landed on top of him and they shared a kiss. He told me that she pushed her off him and fired her the very next day. I hadn't known since I rain out of there so fast. I knew and he knew that she had feelings for him. I mentioned my worry to him on numerous occasions.

He took a step toward me, and I found myself taking one back. It hurt so much, to be near him. I had spent all these months trying to forget about him, forget his face, his laugh, his eyes, his love, because it was all disappearing anyway. "When did you stop loving me?" I said softly. I looked up to see his face, it looked pained. His eyes bored into mine, he did say anything. He opened his mouth, and I waited to hear his answer.

"Wyatt don't go in there," I heard Emmett say and then saw the office door open, followed by Wyatt's small figure running in and stopping right behind Edward. He stopped and stared at us looking at Edward and I back and forth.

"Sorry guys," Emmett said looking a little guilty. Had he been listening in on us? Had other people? They probably knew we both were in here. He picked up Wyatt and threw him over his shoulder, Wyatt squealing as he did. He gave us both a final look before he left the room. The silence that followed was dreadful. Neither one of us seemed to know where to pick up, however I was still waiting for my answer.

I sighed, guess I wasn't going to get it, another blow to my heart. I walked to towards the door and before I could turn the knob he spoke. "I really am sorry Bella."

I shut my eyes, the only way the tears wouldn't spill over. Once again we hadn't come to any kind of closure. Once again, he couldn't tell me what was on his mind, couldn't give me some kind of truth. Thats all I really wanted at this point, and he couldn't give it to me. But what he did give me was an answer to something I wished would never happen to me.

"I want a divorce," was the last thing I said before walking out the door. I didn't wait for an answer, because I knew he wouldn't have anything to say. I knew this was what would be best for the both of us. To just start over, we were still young. I just wanted to get out of here, away from everyone and just wallow in self pity. I quickly walked through the kitchen into the living room where Jasper and Emmett seemed to be playing rock-band. Their backs were to me so I quickly walked and slipped my shoes on opening the front door.

"Bella, leaving so soon?" I cringed when I heard Rosalie's voice. I knew if she saw my face, she would know everything that happened, not that I doubted she knew already. I bet everyone could hear us.

"Yeah I have to, do something for Charlie," I said not turning around.

"Oh Bella," she said and I felt her hand against my shoulder.

"I'll see you later, tell Alice i'll call her," I said and walked out the door. I got in my car and fought tears all the way home.

EPOV

"I want a divorce." I froze, I knew we were in a bad place but I didn't think she was actually thinking about that. I knew Bella, and I knew the last thing she wanted would be a divorce. I knew it pained her when her parents got a divorce when she was 10. I knew she hated the word divorce, so her wanting one, with me. Were we that bad? Was I that bad?

I never knew this would happen. When I first met Bella, I knew there was something special and different about her. Then after spending time with her, I knew that she was exactly the kind of person I wanted to spend my life with. So what happened? I knew it was mostly my fault. I started to neglect her. I was so frustrated with school, and it just seemed to be getting harder with our house, we were so young, so naïve.

I just started blaming her for things. We just seemed to want different things. It was like she wanted to travel, go out on romantic dates like we had before our marriage. There were so many things she wanted to do that I didn't. All I wanted was to go back to school and get a medical degree like I always wanted. As much as I liked being a music teacher, it wasn't completely satisfying and people do always say, if you job doesn't make you happy then you sure as hell shouldn't be doing it.

I knew Bella wanted me to follow my dream, but at the time all I wanted was to be with her. I was a teenager madly in love with an amazing women, who deserved much more than me, especially now. Then the whole Tanya situation occurred and that was just the cherry on the cake. I never meant to hurt her, I never meant for any of this to happen. Maybe a divorce was what we needed.

She could find someone better, someone who would show her the world. Someone who could give her the world.

Flashback

"Lets go somewhere," Bella whispered into my ear while wrapping her hands around my neck. I was currently in the process of writing new music sitting on the piano bench. "Look at your hair Edward, it looks like you walked through a tornado," she said trying to smooth it out. I had ran my fingers through it for I don't know how many times in the past hour. It usually wasn't so hard to come up with a song but I just couldn't find the right notes.

"I just can't get these notes," I sighed.

"Hmm maybe you need a break. I was thinking we go somewhere exotic. Like Isle Esme, remember that?"

I did remember that, it was where we had our honeymoon, where we loved each other almost every night. There were a lot of good memories there, but now was not the time. I had a show to get ready for and I had to get this piece done.

"Maybe next month," I said while unwrapping her hands from my shoulders.

"You said that last month," she said.

I sighed, "Now is not a good time."

"Your just making up excuses, fine then how about a weekend in the lovely Forks," she said with a smile. "We haven't seen your parents in a while, or Charlie. Maybe we can even visit Rose and Emmett, I hear their popping out their second kid soon."

"Bella I have to get this done," I said getting a little frustrated. She was always coming and asking to do this and that, there was just, I was just so tired. My music career wasn't going like I had originally planned. I liked it better when I wrote music for my own benefit, when I likes to relax and play everything away, but now I played because I had to, and it was definitely not relaxing. She was frowning, I didn't like that.

My face softened and I took her hands in mine. "How about we go to dinner tomorrow night. At your favorite Italian restaurant."

"Ok," she said with a small smile. This is what we started getting accustomed with. Arguing and then trying to fix something that was breaking over and over again. Of course none of us knew it at the time.

"Can I come in?" I heard someone knock on the door and Rosalie came in.

I took a deep breathe. Rosalie and I never had the strongest relationship. When Emmett and her were dating, we practically hated each others guts. I put up with her cause Emmett liked her. Over the years we got better, especially when Bella and I were together. Then she wasn't so bad. Then Em and her got married and our bond grew stronger, then once she popped out Wyatt it was even stronger. When Bella and I started to fight, we once again lost our relationship. I hadn't really talked to her in a while, but I knew she probably went back to hating me after hearing what happened between Bella and I, but I couldn't really blame her.

I nodded and she came in. She closed the door behind her and hesitated before speaking. "I know i'm probably the last person you really want to talk to right now," she said. I scoffed, well at the moment, Bella was beating her. "But I think maybe you need someone to tell you some things you need to hear."

I raised my eyebrow at her. "And what exactly do I need to hear?"

"Edward stop being an ass, its only going to make me hate you more right now." Yup, she hated me.

"You know I'm not the only one at fault here," I said.

"I know, i'm sure Bella has her fare share of faults in this quarrel you guys have going on right now but Im sure you and I both know whose more at fault here."

"Fare enough, however this is more then some quarrel," I said frowning.

"You guys love each other, just to stubborn to really admit it and try and get this thing settled."

"Well it seems like she really hates me right now."

"She doesn't hate you Edward. She's just confused, and you aren't giving her anything to work with."

"I don't think I can. I don't think I have any chance to either. Its over Rosalie, we've been running from the truth. Its time to just set things straight and come out and do what everyone is trying to stop us from doing." I knew our family didn't want us to be apart. I knew they wanted us to try and work this out. But this wasn't high school, and this wasn't just some fight that we could kiss and make over with.

"Of course you can."

"No, we can't." I sighed. "She wants a divorce." I didn't want to tell anyone, especially Rosalie. Alice would have been better to talk to. But she had her wedding to plan. Wedding's, they were going to make me cringe every time someone were to say it.

Rose gasped. "Yeah didn't see that one coming did you," I said.

"Do you love her Edward?"

What was that? I didn't hate Bella. I could never hate Bella, but these past few months, we feel apart and I tried to forget her. She had become something my mind was so used to blocking. But did I fall out of love with her? It was never something I thought about.

"I doesn't matter," I said.

"I think you do and thats enough to keep going. I knew deep down that you really don't want to spilt. Both of you, I wish you guys would just find a way to find a resolution."

"Maybe a divorce is a resolution. You never liked me for her anyway. Now she has a chance to be with someone who really does deserve her." I tried to block out the pain I felt from actually saying that.

"Your right, she is way to good for you." Gee thanks Rose. "But on the contrary, I thought you guys were actually perfect for each other. Still are. I just hope you realize that before its too late."

Wasn't it already too late? I didn't know how long I stood there, Rose had left a while ago, giving me another thing to thing about. As if my mind wasn't already flooding with thoughts that were making me crazy. I finally got up and walked into the living room and up to my room, collapsing on my bed and ran my fingers through my hair.

These were going to be tiresome few weeks.

BPOV

I spent the last few days completely avoiding thinking about anything that revolved around a bronze headed dickface. Alice and Rose had come over yesterday to comfort me after I told them about wanting a divorce. I didn't want to bring it out during this time for Alice but I knew there would actually be a good time to bring it out.

We sat up watching non romance movies, eating ice cream, and me crying over everything. I had gotten every emotional pain feeling and I felt good when I had woken up in the morning. Alice said she was coming over soon to talk about plans for this weekend. As long as a certain someone wasn't involved then I was ok with living my life. I had to stop moping around. Charlie was understanding about it when I told him but I knew he hated seeing me all grumpy.

I was currently chopping up some vegetables for Charlie's dinner, singing along to Adele's rolling in the deep, on the radio. The women sure knew how to make an amazing song. I heard the doorbell ring and I stopped cutting some onions to open the door. Alice was her usually bouncing self. She frowned when she saw me.

"Oh Bella its ok", she said giving me a hug. "My brother's an asshole, he doesn't deserve your tears," she said patting my back.

I was confused, "Oh Alice, i'm not crying over that Ass jerk. I was just cutting some onions, those things are tear making machines," I said with a laugh.

She giggled, "Oh, well then. I came over to tell you that I have made some plans for tonight. I am tired of wedding planning and I need a night out. We are all going to seattle for a clubbing night."

"Clubbing?," I said uneasily.

"Yes Bella, we need to let loose, especially you and just have some fun. Who knows maybe dance with a hot guy or something."

"You are forgetting I can't exactly dance with another guy, right?"

"Oh your getting a divorce anyway right." I was stunned, Alice actually agreeing with this divorce. She of all people would be the one trying to put us back together. She was the one who said that Edward and I would end up together. I thought she would have come up with an conniving plan to fix us.

"What, no plan to try and fix us?" I asked raising my eyebrow.

She sighed and sat down at my kitchen table. "No," she said with a frown. "I don't think there is anything I can do. I didn't see this coming, and you know I hate when I have these blind spots," she said. Alice was fixed with the idea that she was "psychic." There were occasions when she was spot on about things but we all thought she just had got intuition. "Besides, anything I do will probably not work."

"Well thats a first," I said and went back to my cutting.

"So your in?"

"Yeah," I said. Maybe I did need to let loose, Alice was right, I was getting a divorce and it was time to start fishing in the sea of men again.

"We're going clubbing!," Alice announced once we were all at the Cullen's. Edward wasn't there to my relief and I wondered whether he was coming or even knew about it.

"Hell yeah! I'm in, its been a while since I got drunk," Emmett said high-fiving little Alice, which earned him a smack upside the head by Rosalie.

"Emmett you idiot, we have kids, we can't go clubbing."

Emmett frowned, "Oh yeah, I forgot," he said. Sometimes I really did wonder how of all people, Emmett was the first one to have kids. He was a big kid himself.

"I'm sure Esme and Carlisle will be able to take care of the kids. It wouldn't even be a bother," Alice said. "You guys need a break from parenting anyway."

"Well I guess," said Rose.

"There is a new club open in Seattle called Eclipse and I hear its really great. We're leaving at 7, so everyone be ready. Come on Bella, Rose and I need to get you ready." I groaned but followed her up the stairs. There were dresses already laid out on her bed all of them something I would never pick up myself.

"Here put this on," Alice said handing me a small back dress that seemed to have criss crosses on the back and cuts near my waist.

"I think there a few rips in it Alice," I said with a chuckle.

She rolled her eyes, "Just put it on." I slipped it on and went to sit in the chair that was waiting for me. The chair had a lot of memories, painful for me at least. Alice and Rose set to work on my hair, pinning it up on a ponytail and making my eyes smoky. It was pretty simple, for which I was grateful and for once, Alice threw a pair of flats my way.

"Maybe you should plan more weddings," I said. "Its making you soft on me."

"Oh just you wait till I get your brides maid outfit together." Alice had on a purple mini dress with lines going across the dress while rose had on a white halter dress. I took in my appearance in the mirror and saw that the dress accentuated what cleavage I had, I looked pretty sexy.

"Yup, i'd jump you," Rose said with a wink, I laughed.

"So are we all going," I said knowing she knew exactly what I meant.

"Im sure the boys have spoken amongst each other." That was all she said. Well that meant that he at least knew about it. Once we were all ready we went down the stairs and out the door.

"The guys said they would meet us there, they wanted to have some quality time together or something like that, " Alice said and unlocked the car door to her porche.

In this car, she passenger seat had to be pulled up front to get into the back. "You know this is going to be extremely difficult for people who get drunk to get into," I said trying to get in without flashing Rose.

"Are you saying that you are going to get drunk Mrs. Swan?," Rose smirked.

"I need to get drunk," I said. "And honey, soon its going to be Miss Swan," I said finally getting situated in the seat. I was only 25, Miss Swan still had some game. I would not let my husband ruin my fun for tonight. As much as the conversation from yesterday still haunted me I would suck it up and enjoy the next few weeks as much as I could before life would have to be dealt with again.

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