Nightmares

By Robin Gurl

Chapter 5

Cye's POV

I just laid on the bed for the next hour telling myself that nothing I heard was true. That I was loved and I was wanted no matter what my mind thought. My fingers stayed knotted in the sheets as if it were my last grip on reality.

I heard a light knock on my door and sat up wiping my eyes. I needed to act normally in front of Rowen if I was going to get him back as my friend. "C...Come in.." I murmured weakly.

The door swung open and Rowen was standing there still in his pajamas, his hair standing up straight. I had to stiffle a giggle. "Cye, buddy, are you ok?"

His words caught me off guard. I could only stare at him blankly. What answer did he want? He walked in further and surprised me again by kneeling front me. "R..Rowen?"

"What hurts, lil' fishy? What has happened to you that hurt you so badly you're afraid of not being loved?" He took my hands in his and I started to shake. "You can cry, it's alright."

I knew I could but I didn't want to. If I did then I was admitting that my life was screwed up. That I was pathetic enough to think I wasn't loved. I shook my head and hung my head low telling myself to stop crying. "I'..I'm sorry."

"For what?"

"For ruining everything." I don't know why I said that but it came out and Rowen's eyes narrowed. Great, was he angry?

"You haven't ruined a thing, Cye." He stood up and stepped two strides to my right. I knew what he was doing and wanted to move away before he could- it was to late. His arms were around me and I found myself nestling my face in his collar bone.

What was I doing? This wasn't what I had planned at all. My body seemed to give up hope of resisting and I closed my eyes sobbing in his shoulder.

End Chapter 5