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Chapter 8

I have had dreams and I have had nightmares,

but I have conquered my nightmares because of my dreams.

- Jonas Salk

(Hikaru POV)

I lay by his bed in the hospital. My head was pressed into my palms, but I hadn't cried. It hurt in my chest, but I would not cry in public. That was against my principles.

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That noise was the constant sound of the machine that held my brother alive. Or… kept him as a vegetable at least. He was just lying there, and if the machine hadn't made his chest move up and down, I would have thought he was dead.

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I didn't know how long I had stared at him. How many nights I had refused to leave his side, and the nurses had eventually given up and just brought me a bed next to my brother.

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One day a doctor came into the room. Folding his arms in his lap in a chair across from where I held my brothers hand tightly. I should have known by the look in his eyes, but his words took me by surprise regardless.

He was middle-aged, with a few gray hairs starting to show in his black haircut. He was thin and looked like someone who knew his business.

"You know that machine is the only thing keeping your brother alive, right?" the doctor said and smiled at me with great pity, and that was with good reason; I probably looked like a mess. I hadn't showered in days, I hadn't gone outside, and I had barely eaten anything or slept.

"I know," I responded shortly, squeezing my brother's hand.

"Your brother have a serious damage to the left side of his brain," the doctor continued, talking slowly so I would understand fully. "It is theoretically impossible for him to live a normal life from this point forward. Even if he will wake up, which is very unlikely, he will never be able to make a rational decision again. He probably won't even have the ability to move around or see."

"What are you trying to say," I mumbled, looking horrified. I didn't want the next words to come, I didn't want them.

"Hikaru, it's time to let your brother go," the man explained, and my lips pressed into a thin line. I shook my head furiously.

"No! I can't, I promised-"

"We have done the research and you are the only relative Kaoru have left," the doctor told me, taking me by surprise.

"I-I am? But, I thought…"

"Therefore we can't make this decision without your consent," the doctor told me and leaned forward in his chair, eying me. "You have to give us permission, Hikaru. You have to let us pull the pluck."

I felt my eyes heat and I ran both hands across my face. "I can't…" I whispered. How could they ask me to make this decision? He was still alive. I COULD SEE HIM MOVE! How could they ask me to let him go like this? I wouldn't.

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"I will give you time to think about it," he said and stood up. I held my breath until he had closed the door and then I sprinted toward it and locked it. I grabbed a chair and scraped it across the floor, barricading the door.

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Then I pulled another chair by the door and then a bed. And then everything I could find in the room, until Kaoru's bed and the machine was the only thing left.

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Then I let out a scream in pain and bolted toward my brother. I cried my eyes out for hours by his side, not even noticing the slams from behind my barricade. This was too much, I couldn't handle it. I looked down at his pale cheeks and stroke a hair from his face, before sobbing pathetically.

"I wished… I wished this had never happened?" I told him weakly. "I wished it had never turned out like this. That you had never tried to find me. You could have lived if it wasn't for me."

I looked at the drop leading into his arm by a needle. Then I smiled down at him.

"But don't worry…" I whispered and pulled the needle from his arm. "I will join you very soon."

And then I pressed the edge of the needle down my wrist and pressed the entire drop into my arm.

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(Kaoru POV)

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I clenched my eyes tighter when I felt the strong light shine through my eyelids as bright dots.

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I knew that sound. It was the sound of one of those machines at the hospital. But why was I hearing this? Wasn't I dead? Hadn't I died at the bus stop?

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I forced my eyelids open, but closed them again when the light streamed into my sensitive orbs. I groaned and just as the sound escaped my mouth a hand grabbed mine.

"Kaoru?" a drowsy voice whispered and I forced my eyes open. A messy haired boy, with tired eyes and deep dark circles under his auburn orbs looked up at me. When his mind seemed to clear he jumped from his chair next to my bed.

"Kaoru!" he said again, now fully awake. "Thank god you're okay, little brother." He jumped up and hugged me tightly into his body. When he pulled away a wide smile was spread across his face.

He somehow seemed... different.

I tilted my head on the pillow and smiled weakly, shaking away the thought. "What happened?" my voice was raspy and dry, and I had to cough a little to clear my throat.

"You fainted," Hikaru told me and put a hand on my cheek. "I was so worried, you have been out for about three days. The whole club has been so worried."

"I'm much bet- wait what did you say?" I asked, widening my eyes. "What club?"

"The host club of course," Hikaru laughed merrily and patted me on the head. "Haruhi, Tamaki, Kyouya, Honey and Mori. And all the girls are awaiting our act too."

"What are you…" I began, but suddenly I remembered.

That's right. I was Kaoru Hitachiin, the little devil in the host club, along with my brother Hikaru Hitachiin. We were actors and "lovers" at Ouran High School.

"Well, the doctors says that it's nothing serious," Hikaru smiled and patted my head. "Which means that you will be alright by the time we're going to the commoners zoo. Aren't you excited? Tamaki haven't talked about anything else for the whole days you have been out."

I rubbed my eyes, my head was spinning strangely. "I had the strangest dream." I uttered drowsily.

"That's funny, me too," Hikaru laughed awkwardly and grinned. "It was so realistic. While I saw sleeping by your side, it was like I was pulled into another universe. I didn't have you, and was in love with Haruhi."

"And you lived with Tamaki…"

"… and you showed up as my long lost twin…"

"… and I had a disease…"

"… and Tamaki cheated on me with Haruhi, or… was it the other way around?"

"… and you ran away, but I chased after you…"

"… and you got sick…"

"…and I died…"

"… and then I made suicide by your side…"

"Freaky!"

"Definitely!"

"Let's get some ice cream."

THE END!

I bet none of you saw that ending coming. :D Thank you for all your reviweing and support thoughout this story. This have probably been the story that I have had most relation to in real life, and you have all been there for me. So thank you - again - this is getting emotional, I'm sorry, I'll end on a happy note. :D

I promised my friend to end it like this. It was planned since Kaoru chased after Hikaru on the bus. LOL! Hope you aren't too mad at me. AND OMFG! I never added a lemon! And I call it a "m" story *sighs disappointedly*, well, I'll just have to make a much better one in the next story. ;b

- ValeurStories. (hearts and love to you all)