Day 1-A letter to your best friend

Dear Kyle,
The therapist told me about this "30 day letter writing challenge" and they told me it could help. I have nothing better to do, so maybe it really can. Today's topic is to write to my best friend. I chose you.
Do you remember me? It's been almost a year since I've been locked away in this hospital. I've had numerous x-rays and different medications to help me with the drug loss to my body. I miss the outside world though. I miss when the four of us would hang around; just take away all the fucking heroin and it'd be perfect.
How's Kenny? Is he okay? I miss him oh so very much...I-I still...love him. All the doctors tell me I need to let go, but I can't. I don't care how badly he hurt me - forgive and forget. Is he doing okay after Eric's accident? It's been over a year since it. I hope Kenny was able to move on. he deserves the best the world can offer.
They educate me here, did you know? I've learned more vocabulary, and I'm attempting to write a book. I think I've reached page 39 or something. Just a start, and I'm taking a break for this letter thing. It's about a swimmer who drowns and the entire story is set underwater in a new world. Like a Heaven, since the person does in fact die. (sorry for the spoiler!) It's meant to be like a "coming to life" kind of theme. I like it so far. It's fun to write. I even included a fish-like zebrinny.
This letter so far is cool too. It's like I'm talking to you, even though you never visit. You can, you know that, right? You and Kenny should come by, to see my progression. I don't feel like I've gotten very far, but they always encourage my family and stuff to come by to see me, for my quick progress.
The main point of this letter challenge, they tell me, is to be able to say whatever I want to you without you seeing. Well, I guess I'll say that I hope you're well (even thought I want you to know). I hope you got into that pretty university you've dreamed up since we were 11. If you did, I bet you'd be top student.
If I could tell you one thing about myself? I'm still not okay.
But they tell me I'm getting better.

~Stanley

P.S. I thought of something to say that I don't want you to know. I know you liked me. But I still love Ken. I'm sorry...but when we were little, I did like you. I did...

A/N: Hello ^_^ I'm stuck on JAR so I decided to give this a try. All that chapters will be this short, fair warning. Also, happy thanksgiving to those who celebrate :) I'd like reviews, if you don't mind :3