Ok so I'd like to thank, Rhett9, sylarbadass, darkblue91, Xbigtimerusherx, xCarganxKoganx, and Alkelie for all of your lovely reviews anyways here is the next chapter and I hope you like it. This is written in Logan's POV.
Ok I said in the last chapter this would be the last and then said on twitter that it would be cut in two, but it's not. It's one jam packed chapter and there will be a sequel. Also just to let you know I may go offline soon and I may not be able to update for sometime.
Chapter 26: A New Beginning
I came to and I was being pulled along by someone. I had no idea what was going on. I looked up and saw Kendall(who was pulling me), Dak, and James in front of me. We were running again. I noticed Carlos was no where to be seen.
"What happened?" I asked looking around. We were running through the woods once more.
"What do you mean what happened?" Kendall asked looking back at me.
"I blacked out," I said, "Where's Carlos?" I asked looking around for the Latino. He was no where in sight. We all stopped running and Dak looked around worriedly. There was just no sight of Carlos anywhere. Dak was starting to get frantic.
"Where is he? He was with us a second ago?" Dak said. "We have to go back," he said looking to me. I knew he didn't want Carlos to get hurt. He wanted to try and save him if there was a chance. I would do the same if it were Kendall.
"Dak it's too dangerous," James said.
"I can't just leave Carlos," Dak said turning on James.
"We can't go back there we'll get killed," James said.
"Carlos might still be alive and I am not leaving him," Dak said.
"He can take care of himself," James said.
"I can't just walk away what if he's not and he needs our help," Dak said looking at James shocked. I knew James wanted to stay alive for Lizzie, but we had to go back and help Carlos.
"Dak," James said.
"If it were Katie and you had a chance of saving her would you go back?" Dak asked, "besides Carlos is you're best friend how can you just leave him?" he asked.
"You're right," James said pinching the bridge of his nose.
"I agree," I said, "we can't just leave him," I said looking at Kendall for support. I felt a sharp pain in my head. I ignored it. If there was a chance to save Carlos we were going back.
"Let's go then," Kendall said, "we have to be careful though," he said.
"Aren't we always?" James asked. We started back in the direction we had come. We reached the cliff where there was fighting. I didn't see Carlos anywhere though. Hawk and his men seemed to have the upper hand against Dustin, Hailey, David, Kevin, and Camille. Camille had a cut across her face, bit seemed to be doing fine. Dustin and Hailey barely had any scratches on them, and the same could be said about Kevin and David.
"Guys," I heard Carlos call out. I turned and saw him staggering towards us. He looked hurt. His shoulder was injured and bleeding badly. I didn't know what to make of that. He seemed to be in really bad shape though.
"Carlos," Dak said. He ran over to Carlos as Carlos fell to the ground. "Carlos what happened?" he asked worriedly.
"I got tackled by a wolf under Hawks control," Carlos said, "I managed to kill him, but he got me with this," Carlos said holding out a silver shard. Dak gasped and looked at Carlos.
"No," Dak said, "you can't leave me here," he said looking down at Carlos scared. I knew what that meant. Silver was dangerous to wolves.
"I love you Dak, just know that," Carlos said.
"No, no, no, you can't do this to me," Dak said. He was in tears by this point. I couldn't blame him though. He was losing Carlos. He loved Carlos even though they haven't been together that long, what they had was real.
"I'll be waiting," Carlos said softly.
"What does that mean?" James asked, "Katie said the same thing to me," he said. Carlos placed his arm around Dak and pressed one last kiss to his cheek. Dak broke down and cried into Carlos.
"Dak we have to go," I said.
"I can't leave him here," Dak said looking up at me.
"I never said that," I said. I was surprised we hadn't been noticed by Hawk or his goons, but we had to get out of there if we wanted to keep that from happening. Dak nodded his head and picked up Carlos' body. We started back through the woods once more. I felt another sharp pain in the back of my head. My vision went fuzzy and I fell into Kendall.
"Logan," Kendall said worried. He turned around and James and Dak stopped to look at us.
"I'm dizzy," I said.
"Logan we have to keep moving," Kendall said.
"I don't think I can," I said. My body started to feel heavy. I fell to the ground holding my head. I had never felt like this. I blinked a few times and everything started to fade in and out. I blinked a few times before things went black again. He heard shouts, but I couldn't reply to them.
"Logan!" Kendall was yelling. I wanted to tell him I was ok, but I couldn't. I didn't know if I was ok or not. I also couldn't talk no matter how hard I tried. I heard James shout out and everyone grew frantic and then I heard nothing.
"Logan!"
I sat up and looked around wildly. I had no idea where I was. I relaxed when I took in the familiar setting of my bedroom. I saw Kendall, James, and Carlos all standing by my bed. They were all looking at me weird. I thought back to what had just happened. Had that all just been a dream. It had all seemed so real to me. I could not believe that it had all just been a dream. I shook my head and sat there thinking it over. I looked over at my alarm clock. It was just after six.
"Logan, it's time to get ready for school," Kendall said looking at me.
"Ok," I said, "how did you guys get in here?" I asked looking at them.
"Your mom let us in," Kendall said. My heart was still racing. "come on if you don't hurry we'll be late," he said.
"Dude are you ok?" James asked looking at me worriedly.
"Yeah you were kind of thrashing around a bit," Carlos said.
"I'm fine," I said, "get out so I can change," I said. The three nodded and left my room. I sat there for a moment thinking over what had just happened. It had all seemed so real. I had no idea what to think. I just knew one thing I needed to tell the guys what had happened. There was no way that had been a dream. It had to be real. If it was real though, then what happened and why was I here. I shook my head and quickly got dressed for school. I grabbed my things and left my room. The guys were waiting for me outside my room. I walked down stairs and stopped outside of the kitchen when I heard my parents talking. I stopped the guys.
"David we have to tell him sooner or later," my mother said quietly.
"We can't tell him now," my dad said. I looked over my shoulder at the guys. They looked just as confused as I was. I had no idea what they were talking about.
"Why not?"
"You know why Joanna," my dad said sternly.
"He'll find out eventually," my mother said. I sat there thinking. Who were they talking about. They couldn't be talking about me. They never kept secrets from me. We were a honest family and told each other everything.
"Joanna we made a promise not to tell," my dad said. I didn't want to hear anymore of this. I crept back up the stairs and made more nose coming down. I didn't want to let them know I had heard them talking just incase they were talking about me. I walked into the kitchen and my parents were sitting quietly at the table. The guys were behind me as well. They didn't way a word.
"Morning," I said smiling at them.
"Morning son," my dad said smiling at me.
"So I am off to school," I said as I made myself some toast. The guys were standing by the counter with me.
"We're going over to Kendall's today so I won't be home until after five," I said. My parents nodded and my toast popped up. I grabbed it and left with the guys. We walked to school together. We did it every morning.
"No Katie?" I asked Kendall. Katie was his younger sister. She was a year younger than us and usually walked with us to school.
It was after school and I was standing in front of a bus with Kendall and Carlos on one side and James on the other side. I hadn't told them about my dream like I had planned. I didn't want them making fun of me and calling me crazy. We were looking at the sprinkler system where the janitor had left the T-bar in. I knew what was going threw Kendall's and Carlos' minds. James was oblivious to this all. He was off in la, la land day dreaming again. James was always day dreaming about being famous. I knew he wanted to be famous. He was often talking about it, so it was a safe bet to assume that he was daydreaming about it.
"Opportunities like this come once in a life time," Kendall said bringing me from my thoughts, "and when they do you gotta grab it and turn that thing big time," Kendall said pointing to the T-bar. I knew that was what he wanted to do. Him and Carlos were on the same page. I knew they were scheming this as soon as they saw the T-bar. I had been afraid of that.
"Turn it and I predict a ninety percent chance of pain," I said pointing at the bar as well. "And I am talking about us not them," I added pointing to the field where the girls field hockey team was practicing. Carlos threw his bag down and looked at me shaking his head.
"Wimp," Carlos said as he put his hockey helmet on. He tapped it twice and moved forward to try and turn the bar on his own. "It's stuck," Carlos said as I moved to stand beside Kendall. I had had a crush on Kendall for sometime now, but I would never act on it. I knew he was straight and only saw me as a friend.
"I had my pop star dream again last night. This time I was wearing my lucky white v-neck and I sang a Smokey Robinson song," James said as he continued to comb his hair. He sang the song but stopped when he noticed Carlos hunched over the T-bar. "What are we doing?" he asked confused.
"Uh, the janitor left the T-bar in the sprinkler valve and do you wanna help us soak the girls field hockey team," Kendall said.
"Yeah," James said enthusiastically. They both moved forward after quickly dropping their bag to help Carlos. They all looked back at me and I shook my head.
"I gotta get new friends," I said. I tossed my bag aside and moved to help them. We turned the bar and the sprinkled started. Carlos and James started laughing and the girls screamed. Then they started running at us.
"And now we run," Kendall said as I hit his shoulder trying to get his attention. We all took off running not wanting to get hurt.
"This is what it's gonna be like when I'm famous," James yelled as we ran. "only the girls won't be trying to kill me," he added.
An hour later we found ourselves sitting in Kendall's living room. We were all in pain form the beating we had taken in the alley. The girls had cornered us and beat us pretty bad. We weren't bruised or anything serious, but we were in a lot of pain. We were watching TV and watching the music video for the Pussycat Dolls song When I Grow Up.
"Pussycat Dolls make the pain go away," Kendall said getting my attention. That was how I knew he would never like someone like me. He was straight as an arrow. I knew Kendall wouldn't like someone as nerdy as me anyways. He would go for someone like James who was beautiful.
"I'm gonna marry her someday," James said pointing to Nicole on the screen.
"You're gonna marry Nicole Scherzinger?" I said, "How?" I asked. Kendall and Carlos protested but it was too late. James jumped up onto the coffee table in front of us and described his little fantasy.
"I am gonna be famous and sing to sold out areas and have like five houses," James said holding up his hand, "Make the girls go crazy," he sang as he spun around.
"And then I will ride James' coattails and meet Dak Zevon and we will fall in love," Carlos said. It was no secret that Carlos was bisexual and in love with Dak Zevon like every girl our age. None of my friends knew I was bi. I didn't want them to know. I knew we all accepted Carlos, but they would expect me to tell them which guy I liked. I didn't want any of them knowing.
"Dak's straight," I reminded Carlos.
"Only until he meets me," Carlos said confidently. I love how proud Carlos was of who he was. He was just so out going and not like me at all. I was scared to admit my feelings to the guy I have liked since forever.
"And then I will marry Nicole," James said matter-of-factly getting our attention again.
"Are you done?" I asked, "please be done," I pleaded.
"No cause here's the part where I shake my booty," James said jumping on to the couch next to me again. He started to shake his butt in my face. "I'm gonna be famous, gonna marry Nicole" he sang. I hit him trying to get him out of my face. I looked away as he continued.
"Carlos," Kendall said looking over at Carlos.
"Got it," Carlos said jumping up. He put his helmet on and tapped it twice and pushed James over the back of the couch and jumped on him. They started fighting.
"Do you wanna be a pop star?" the man on TV asked.
"Yes," James jumped up Carlos had his arm around James' neck in a loose choke hold. They both looked at the TV with Kendall and I.
"Well today's you're chance if you're in Minnesota," the man said, "are you ready?" he asked.
"I'm in Minnesota," James said quietly. There was a girl on the screen screaming about being the next Gwen Stefani.
"That's Jenny Tinkler from homeroom," Kendall said. He was right that was Jenny. I remembered her better. The guy went on to explain what was happening. I stopped listening when I saw the producer on the screen. He had been in my dream. I had almost forgotten about my dream until now. I had never seen him before, and he had been in my dream with the same name. His assistant been in my dream as well.
I hadn't told the guys about my dream yet, I didn't want them to think I was crazy. The dream had seemed so real and now here I was sitting in Kendall's living room watching TV. The guy that had been in my dream was on TV. I had never seen him before in my life. I had no idea who he was until now. I heard bit and pieces of what the man said. His name was Gustavo Rocque and he was a music producer. That had to be where I knew him from, James might know him. James was always talking about producers and music and singing. That had to be where I knew him from and how he had made it into my dream.
"I sing better than a dog," James said bringing me back to reality The guy told when and were the signups were. We looked at the clock and saw it was four thirty.
"Call all moms now," Kendall said. We all pulled out cell phones out and called our mothers.
I was sitting in my room with Kendall. He had talked James and Carlos into going with him to record demos. They both wanted to be famous or meet famous people. I had a dream of becoming a doctor though. Kendall had talked my parents into letting me go, but he had yet to convince me. It's not that I didn't want to go. I did but there were certain things stopping me from doing this. For starters Gustavo was a jerk and pure evil. The second reason was I would be living with Kendall and that would not help my crush on him at all. It would probably only fuel it.
"Come on Logan," Kendall pleaded with me for the thousandth time. He really wanted me to go for some reason.
"Kendall," I said slowly.
"It will be fun," Kendall said, "I really want you to come," he said.
"Kendall I can't just up and leave me life here," I said in a feebly attempt to not give into him.
"It's just for three months to record some demos," Kendall said.
"What if the company like the demos," I asked.
"Then we make an album," Kendall said.
"Kendall," I said looking at him. He was trying so heard to get me to go. I don't know why he wanted me to go so bad. I understood that we were friends and he didn't want to be apart, but this was going a little to far. "Why do you want me to go so bad?" I asked.
"You're me best friend," Kendall said, "I just really want you to go," he said.
"James and Carlos are going shouldn't that be enough," I asked.
"Logan please," Kendall said pouting. This wasn't helping my crush on him at all. It was making me fall for him even more. I didn't want that to happen though.
"Why are you trying so hard to get me to go?" I asked.
"You want the truth?" Kendall asked.
"That would be nice," I said nodding my head. Kendall sighed and took a deep breath. I had no idea why he was making such a big deal about this. There had to be a reason for it. I couldn't think anything reasonable as to why he wanted me to go.
"The truth is I like you Logan," Kendall said looking down at his hands in his lap. "I like you a lot and I want you to come to L.A. with me. I could care less if James and Carlos hadn't agreed," he said.
"You like me?" I asked slowly.
"Yes," Kendall said blushing. I started laughing. This whole time I had thought he didn't like me and here he was now admitting to liking me. "What is so fanny?" he asked me.
"I like you too, a lot," I said smiling at him.
"Is this the part where we kiss?" Kendall asked smiling at me. I nodded my head. Kendall scooted closer to me. He leaned in and closed the gap between us. I felt his lips on mine and sparks shot through my body. I placed my hand on his cheek and held him in place as we moved our lips together. We parted a little too soon for my liking.
"So what does that make us?" I asked.
"I would like to be boyfriends," Kendall said.
"Ok then," I said smiling. "Can we not tell my parents about this? They won't let me go if we're dating," I said quickly. I knew they would be accepting of me. They had been there for Carlos when Carlos came out at bi. His parents had kicked him out and he stayed with us while his parents came to terms with it. They came to terms with it and took Carlos home after a month. My parents had been so supportive of him during that time. I knew they would support me, but they wouldn't let me live with my boyfriend.
"Ok," Kendall said smiling, "as long as we get to kiss again," he said.
"Definitely," I said grinning. Kendall smiled as well and we leaned in and kissed again.
A month and a half passed and we were in Hollywood living it up and having fun being Big Time Rush. We were having fun making demos with Gustavo and Kelly. We were still four hockey heads from Minnesota. That would never change. We would always be the same four guys we were back then. I still hadn't forgotten about my dream. Everything in my dream had seemed so real and I just couldn't forget about it. I don't know why I couldn't forget it either. No matter how hard I tried it always managed to worm it's way back into my mind. At the Palm Woods I saw more people that had been in my dreams. Buddha Bob, Camille, Jo, and others. I even remembered Dak Zevon being in my dream. We had yet to meet him, and Carlos was begging Kelly to get us to meet him some how. I never told anyone about my dream either. I never told the guys cause I knew they would think I was crazy. It was just a dream and it didn't mean anything.
"Logie," Kendall said as he walked into our room. He had made sure we shared a room when we got to L.A. and I was ok with that. It allowed us to continue to date in secret. We were still together and no one knew. It wasn't that we didn't want to tell anyone, every time we tried something happened or it was the right time. We had tried to tell them, but we always got interrupted. It was just easier to keep it a secret.
"Kendall," I said looking up at him.
"So, what are you doing?" Kendall asked as he walked over to my bed and laid down next to me.
"Just thinking," I said scooting over a bit to give him some room.
"About what?" Kendall asked curiously.
"Stuff," I said.
"What kind of stuff?" Kendall asked snuggling up to me. I laughed and pushed him away playfully.
"The kind of stuff that matters to me and no one else," I said, "now what do you want?" I asked.
"To hang out with my boyfriend," Kendall said smiling at me. I smiled at that. Kendall was the prefect boyfriend. He treated me like I was a god and never wanted to hurt me. I will admit we weren't perfect and we fought over some stupid things, but we always made up eventually.
"So what do you want?" I asked again. Kendall placed his arm around me in a one armed hug.
"Let's just chill," Kendall said. I smiled and nodded my head at that. It was nice just to spend some time with Kendall. We sat there for a moment before I turned to look at Kendall. He was looking at me as well. I leaned in and pressed my lips to his in a kiss. Kendall moved us so I was laying under him. We had never really gone further than kissing, and I was ok with that. I don't know what Kendall thought. He told me he didn't care, but I wasn't sure.
"Stop thinking," Kendall said against my lips.
"Sorry," I said. Kendall sat back and looked at me. "How did you know I was thinking?" I asked looking at him confused.
"You're lips stop moving when you think and you freeze up," Kendall said, "Are you ok?" he asked.
"Yeah," I said nodding my head. I didn't want to share my fears with him right now. "Let's just cherish the time we have alone right now before the others get back," I said pulling him to me. Kendall grinned against my lips and kissed me. I knew it would be best just to forget that dream. It meant nothing. I would forget it eventually and move on with my life.