Chapter 5

He was looking down at the massive city before him, lost in his thoughts. Being the CEO, his offices almost occupied half of the floor. Thanks to the ceiling-to-floor window, he can see the bustling city every day.

His paperwork's done so a little rest in his office is very much welcome. The orange horizon reminded him that it was time to go home but to him, his office was his home. He backed away from the window and surveyed the room.

His office was not that extravagant. It was more on the minimalistic side. Actually, it was Haruhi's idea. Paintings and several souvenirs from different countries adorned the office. These were the things that reflect his personality. Picture frames were scattered across his desk. There were pictures of his mother, the host club and of course, her.

Suoh Tamaki's face was graced with a sad smile.

Pictures of him and her reminded him of the best years of his life. In fact, his very office held so many memories of her. Maybe that's why he prefers staying there.

He returned to his chair and began his walk to memory lane.

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Flashback

"Tamaki?" His head turned to the door as he recognized the voice. "Haruhi! What are you doing here?" Surprised, he quickly stood up and went towards her as she entered his office. She doesn't visit him during work often.

"I called but you didn't pick up," Haruhi said while Tamaki kissed her cheek and gave her a hug. "the food supply ran out so I'm going to the grocery. You want to come?" She smiled when she saw his predictable reaction

"Of course! Just give me ten minutes. I'll finish this real quick. I'll have Minori-san make you tea." As quick as lightning, he flopped back to his chair, instructed his secretary to make tea and continued to read the reports.

"Take your time. It's still early anyway." She said after situating herself on the chair in front of him.

He looked up and flashed her a blinding smile. "Did you miss me?"

"Idiot. Why would I? I just saw you this morning." She scoffed. Tamaki smiled. He'd never get tired of seeing her reactions.

"How can you not miss me?" He pouted. "We haven't seen each other for more than eight hours already. I already missed you the moment you stepped out of the car."

"Shut up already and finish your work" She sighed. He knows that Haruhi is not a very verbal person and she is still embarrassed by the things he says even after so many years of being together.

Tamaki let out a deep laugh. "How was your day?" He said as he looked at her lovingly.

"Same old, same old. There was a new interesting case though. How about your deal this morning?" She asked before sipping the tea given by Minori-san.

"We got it, of course. Who could possibly resist me?" He let out a chuckle when he saw the look she was giving him. "It was a very good deal for them. It will help them gain new patrons while it will help the company expand."

"So all in all, you had a good day. That's nice at least you won't sulk at home tonight." She sighed then gave him a small smile.

"A good day indeed! It's not every day that my lovely fiancé misses me so much that she even visited me," And he flashed that smile again "Right?"

"Right." She said while placing her tea back on the table and gathered her thing. "Seeing that you'll just talk and talk, I might as well buy now. See you at home-"

"I was joking!" He got up and went to her as quick as possible and wrapped his arms around her.

"…"

"You seem very moody lately. Are you pregnant?" The temperature dropped. 'Uh-oh'

And instantly, Tamaki regretted his words.

"IDIOT! Why would I be pregnant? Are you trying to say that I'm getting bigger?!" Her face was already literally red.

"Huh? No! I didn't mean that! I'm sorry."

"Baka! Come on. It's getting late." She was trying to get out of his arms but he held her tighter.

"You know, I wouldn't mind. I actually want a child already." His voice dropped and octave and it sent shivers down her spine. Then he laughed and the spell was broken.

"But we can talk about that after the wedding! It's only eight months away. Can you believe that? Aren't you excited?" He said in his usual cheery voice.

He felt her stiffen for a moment then she relaxed again.

"Yes, yes. But it's too early for that." She sighed as she faced him with her business smile. "What we to do now is to go to the market and buy food, okay?"

Instead of replying, he captured her lips then mumbling an okay.

"I love you, Haruhi." He said as he slowly pulled away and traced her cheeks with his hand.

"I love you too. But we really need to go. Now." She patted his cheek and started to walk out.

"Get your things. I'll just ask Minori-san something. See you outside."

End of flashback

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'That was the freshest happening. It happened a month ago before we broke up.' Tamaki sighed. He terribly missed her. 'By this time we're supposed to be getting ready for the wedding already… If only…"

He raked his hair before placing his head on the table top.

When she left, it was like she took his whole being with her. He chuckled at the thought. He never thought it would be this hard. A month without her by his side is slowly killing him.

Maybe if he was a different person, these things wouldn't have happened.

If he had not been born to this family, he won't be suffering like this. But if he was not a Suoh, he would've not met her.

All he wanted was a peaceful life, is that too much?

'It was probably too much' he thought

His reverie was broken when his phone vibrated in his pocket. He fished for it and flipped it open.

"Suoh Tamaki speaking."

"Tamaki, what time will come home?" said a sultry voice.

"Good afternoon, Éclair. I might be late tonight. Papers are still stacked on my desk, I need to finish them." He lied.

"Oh. Is that so? I was hoping we can go out and have dinner together." She replied.

"I'm afraid I can't come with you Éclair. I'm sorry. Maybe next time."

"My dear fiancée, don't you want to spend time with me?" She asked. Hurt evident in her voice.

"Éclair, we had this talk before. I'm really busy especially with the new project coming up. I hope you can understand that." He sighed. He's getting tired of this.

"You're drowning yourself with work to forget her right? Why can't you just rely on me to help you forget? Do you not want me Tamaki?"

"Please stop tying all my actions to her. Ha—"

"What do you see in that girl? She's plain and un—"

"Have a fun evening, Éclair. Goodbye". He cut her and flipped his phone close.

Tamaki slumped on his swivel chair and sighed. Again. He pulled the chair to his desk and held his face in his hands, his elbow on the desk. Éclair was being annoying again. And she even had to bring her up.

It's been a month since Haruhi went away. He tried looking for her day and night until he realized that maybe she doesn't want to be found by him. Maybe he'll give her space for a bit. It has also been a month since he got engaged to Éclair Tonnerre.

Arranged marriages. How he hated them. He had to marry a rich woman for the sake of reputation. It was like he's a puppet. His grandmother as the puppeteer. Ah, the consequence of being a rich bastard.

His thoughts flew to the brunette who changed his life.

Haruhi Fujioka had the sweetest smile. Her determination and passion for her work can't be topped. He loves everything about her. Inside and out.

He missed her.

A day did not pass without him looking at her engagement ring which he made into a pendant. He missed every single thing.

A month without her seemed like forever to him. The thought brought a sad smile on his face.

'What will happen to me after a year? Go crazy?'

He straightened his back and turned his chair to face the view of the city again. The sky was already getting darker.

He decided that he'll wait for her to come back on her own. If they were destined for each other, they would surely meet again.

And with that thought in mind, he gathered his things, made his way to the basement parking and drove straight home.

"Good evening and welcome home, Tamaki-sama." The old butler bowed low.

"Same to you to, Mori-san" said Tamaki as he gave him a small nod.

"Miss Éclair is waiting for you in the receiving room, sir."

Tamaki sighed as he raked his golden locks with his free hand. He was planning to go straight to his office and ignore her all night but it seemed that fate is not on his side tonight.

He walked towards the room with grace and poise that would put all men to shame. As he neared the receiving room, he took a deep breath and entered.

"You're early today, Tamaki. Have you eaten already?" said Éclair as she walked towards him and attempted to kiss him on the lips but he turned his head so it landed on his cheek instead.

"Yes, I did. The board invited me to dine with them." Lie.

"So wi-"

"I took the paperwork home. You needn't to wait for me tonight, I might end up late." Lie again.

"But you look like you need a lot of rest. Can't you do that tomorrow instead?" She lifted her arms and loosened his tie.

"They need it tomorrow morning. I can't afford to make them wait, can I?" Tamaki flashed her a smile while he caught her hand and moved it away.

"I miss you, Tamaki." Éclair circled her arms around his torso and pressed her cheek against his chest.

"I haven't gone anywhere. We see each other every day" Tamaki said as he gave her an uncommitted one-arm hug.

"You miss her, right? Your beloved Haruhi?" Éclair backed away and looked at him.

"Éclair, le—"

"Haven't you thought that maybe she doesn't want you anymore? What do you see in her anyway? She's just a piece o—"

"Stop bringing her up every single time! I still have a lot of work to do and you are wasting my ti—"

"I'm sorry." She chuckled. "It's just that enjoy seeing your reaction every time." She touched his arm as she chuckled louder.

"Good night, Tamaki" And after she pecked his cheeks, she went away leaving him rooted in the middle of the room.

The dark study room was illuminated by the moon outside. Tamaki , with his jacket and tie discarded, lay on the couch. The light from the moon made his face look ethereal. His dress shirt was unbuttoned until the third. And with his tousled blond locks in the picture, he looked like a model from a magazine.

This room was one of his favourites. It held many memories of them together. This was where they did their respective school works and other things back in high school until recently. Just thinking about that made something clench Tamaki's chest painfully.

They were together for seven years.

Those were the best years of his life. It was where he felt free from the responsibility from his family. When he felt like a human being.

It was all thanks to her.

Sure, he had the Host Club...but there was something different about her.

She's the one who knocks sense to him when he does crazy things. And she knows how to make it all better. Maybe she's not even aware of what she does to him.

He thought they'll be together until the end. He wanted to have a family with her. In fact, he has already imagined it too many times.

They'll live in a comfortable house away from the city. He will handle the company while she will practice law. Maybe even a child or two. He'd always imagined that they will be very happy, even with occasional arguments. That they will make it through together.

But he was dead wrong. Those dreams are nothing now. And it was his entire fault. If he had done what he'd promised her. She would still be here, lying beside him… in the couch…just like the old days.

Just a little more time…

He will make those dreams into reality.

He will stop all this madness.

He will get her back for sure.

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tbc

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And there you have it! Chapter 5. Not the best chapter but I need to get it out of my system. Sorry for the lack of updates, I've been really busy. College sucks and won't cooperate with me.

As of now, the pairing is still Tamaki and Haruhi. I can't really imagine Kyouya and Haruhi /3

I kind of started this story when I was in third year, and now, I'm in college... maybe that'll explain the inconsistency of the story (and I update really slow ahem...yearly..ahem)

During our sembreak, I'll work on this story. I plan to finish it...no matter what it takes! Thank you for your support aka reviews, they mean a lot! Teehee.

And for those who asked, I'm taking up Medical Technology :)